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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 1h

the girls reboot news has made me feel like a better tomorrow is possible again

Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 16h

being nb is a compromise bc I feel like a clocky brick or maybe it contains some essence of what I WANT that exists outside of what this world wants, or maybe it is true. Idk I hate thinking too much about this stuff. At a certain point you have to just live and do and ask but not explain. Idk…

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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 16h

I dont know. Call it the 16-year transition. Part 3 coming soon? Part of me still wishes to transcend the concept of gender bc I felt like I was born into this gender prison I hated and wanted to burn down, and I feel complicated about the whole construct of it all. But I also… am a woman. And maybe

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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 16h

I think I’m still figuring this out tho. I’ve gotten some gender affirming care, I dress like a woman, I feel like one, my femininity is everything to me, but I still say I’m nonbinary, I haven’t changed my name, to my job & the state I am “M”. Why?

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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 16h

didn’t have to do anything but exist as I was and wait for people to see me. But the “why” in the second phase of my transition I think is answered not by “I needed to” but because I CHOSE TO. Why? Because I fucking said so! I demanded it, I got in god’s face and said USE MY DAMN PRONOUNS

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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 16h

However the nonbinary label did eventually begin to frustrate me because people would interpret me in this 1/2 man 1/2 woman androgynous way which I didnt want — I wanted to be one of the girls, I didn’t want a speck of masculinity on me. But I also felt so attached to this idea of a world where I

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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 16h

more understood than ever and yet still so far from it and confused. In college this was temporarily resolved by coming out as nonbinary. I just kinda came out fully, started dressing even more as a woman, and realizing transition was about intentionality, label, declaration.

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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 16h

Also despite being included by some women,,, there were limits. I’d be excluded from certain things and feel such internal anguish over it,, wasn’t I one of the girls? And being split up by gender in gym class was like my personal D Day. I was in this weird inbetween zone where I felt simultaneously

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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 16h

And this gets back to the “why”. Bc it wasn’t enough for me to just change and not ask, not label myself! This faggotgender gray area I was in was untenable! I would date closeted gay guys but be frustrated they didnt treat me as their girlfriend (lmao), but also I wanted them to come out? (Lol)

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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 16h

with, it felt like, the world, about my sexuality and I felt reluctant to change my pronouns or formally say “I’m a woman” because my god I felt like I was dealing with enough. I also wondered if maybe I wasn’t exclusively attracted to masculinity, but that made me feel dysphoric to interrogate.

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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 16h

was out in public with my girls AND the more I did all this, the more I felt like I was coming into alignment with myself and like people were perceiving me as I perceived myself. I think this is where I started transing my gender, but not fully, because I was already fighting this horrible battle

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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 16h

and I didn’t really want to be in any male-only spaces. I felt like I could only relate to women, and I felt accepted by my female friends as “one of the girls”, and I was wearing women’s clothing and makeup and growing my hair out and dying it & straightening it, and I’d get called “ladies” when I

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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 16h

I guess it felt like I needed to in order to live. I was a fairly effeminate kid and did not identify with men or masculinity in real life or in media, despite being told I was one. Men often confused me and I thought they were mostly stupid. By highschool most of my friends were women,

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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 12/10/2026

you live your life for exudation - if there’s an open wound you’ll fill your name in - there’s little left, but you have to have it - serpent’s bite and the death of magick

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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 12/10/2026

im so tired of these political fundraising texts omg like #1 i never give you people money so why do you think i’d start now, #2 i don’t even have money to buy weed rn what the hell makes you think i’m donating to your doomed south carolina senatorial campaign or whatever ugh

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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

one thing i do hate about making electronic music is that sometimes you sit down excited and inspired to do it, and then randomly you gotta spend the next 3 hours troubleshooting some convoluted computer problems out of nowhere and the spark is gone. maybe music isn’t made to be shared or recorded 😭

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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

how is it that this app still doesn’t have an edit feature in the year of our lord 2026 omgg

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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 09/10/2026

I’m sort of like if a woman were nonbinary. But she had been uh, born “a man”? Sorry “they”. I think. Uh. Okay what about this — imagine there is a bus, and the bus is nonbinary, but there is a woman driving it. Does that help? I am kind of built like a bus. Ok Maybe this isn’t the best analogy….

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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 08/10/2026

revolutionary communist Ken Paxton said “pray we are delivered from socialism AND capitalism” because he knows socialism is not enough — and you DSA libs are still voting for TalaFREAKo?? Hmm

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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

this is because I am a prey animal — Isidore will come home and walk up the stairs and say “hello” in the nicest most politest isidore way and I will scream — I am a woodland herbivore in a constant state of fear, startled by noise, caught in the headlights, whose only instinct is panic

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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

they call it a power bottom because electricity is generated — big oil doesn’t want anybody to know this because we could fully eliminate all reliance on fossil fuels if even half the population switched to power bottoming

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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

When you die in Hell, you die for real! (And then you go to Super Hell…)

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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

He’s correct that if I want to get fucked in the ass it IS technically betweem me and whoever’s dick it is but that’s no fun, I’ve never been good at that part

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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

isidore concurred with me that i need to be more of a bitch — that is a notarization of my bitch certificate ok — I got government approval to upgrade my permit — the world has been warned 😈

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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

I don’t really get vapes that don’t have weed in them… I was a cigarette smoker for a few years and I still think nicotine high is fake, its just an addiction cycle and placebo effect — the only time I believe in a nicotine high is when I smoke too much hookah and feel nauseous

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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

I think evil is best understood as an internal phenomenon — something that moves from the inner to the outer. The desire to only see it in the outer, as something foreign to oneself, is often the very condition that allows it to flow

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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

i missed the jane remover show last week because i was “too tired” (insane excuse like wdym), and now my social media feed everywhere is deliberately sending me signs of punishment from god (memtions of jane remover, new single, etc) — ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT U ARE NEVER TOO TIRED & CAN SLEEP WHEN DEAD

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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

i love to read the comments on a horsegiirL interview because people literally think she is like horsetrans or whatever the fuck hdjdjd, they could not conceive of an artist playing a character they think that she literally believes she is a horse from the farm dkskskkskskzk how are u people alive

screenshot of an instagram comment section wherein people are bemoaning “the world we are living in” bc of an electronic pop artist who dresses as a horse

screenshot of an instagram comment section wherein people are upset bc of an electronic pop artist who dresses as a horse

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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

like yes I know this is a Wendys but this election IS really about to be so crazy… yes i would like just the sandwhich not the meal…

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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

i should really go back to trying to read capital 😭😭

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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

i become so bourgoise lib electoralist when there’s an election. talking about polling averages to anyone who will listen. tuning into aaron rupar’s feed for my littlr harry enten clips. saying “did u see those cross tabs w non college voters!!! wow” completely unprompted.

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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

so sorry for your loss Steph! She was so sweet and friendly every time I saw her and i could tell she was very loved. ❤️ may she rest in peace

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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

skskkskzkzkzkzmxncj the least we can do now is dishesssss 😭😂😭

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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

I’ll go even further — the inability to see Sock as an exquisite gem, one of the earth’s beautiful creatures — you lack a connection to divine love. whatever that means to you. It is not normal to be SO PRESSED over a scruffy woodland creature like this

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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

im so tired of pick me trans ppl who just want to complain about Sock all day. frankly, Sock is a perfect litmus test for me. If you can’t find love in your heart for Sock, if you feel only scorn for Sock, you cannot hang and I do not trust you

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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

if I was afraid of sex, I would simply imagine myself being stabbed to death at an old sleepaway camp by an undead they/them that lives at the bottom of a lake! duhhh

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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 07/09/2026

You have to wonder if we are heading into a world where things like that can’t happen anymore, or at least not to the same degree. Reality becomes AI slop and AI slop becomes reality...

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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 07/09/2026

We lived in a short, unique window of time where people could more easily record and share video of what was happening to them. Think Eric Garner, George Floyd, Palestine. Supporters of Israel and people who didn't know anything about it were forced to confront the videos Palestinians were taking

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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 07/09/2026

my fear of this ai age is less AI impersonating reality, which is where the focus is rn, and more about reality increasingly being passed off as AI. I keep thinking of Trump saying photo evidence of the minab school strikes were AI generated. To me this is the more terrifying omen of what is to come

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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

if there had been a major 3rd party nonbinary candidate in 2024 they could’ve said: Trump Is For Kamala, They/Them Is For You

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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

it’s the only thing that keeps me going some days! you gotta follow those whims. even when they don’t make sense. i feel like they contain something of the essence of life in them

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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 30/08/2026

the way i would have instinctively started playing bad romance on those keys

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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 30/08/2026

i have to push back on dirty sodas. i should not have to encounter mormonism this far east of the rocky mountains let alone the appalachians. i am begging hyrum and kyson and daxton to find a real vice besides backflips and more sugar in soda. just hit the penjamim for brigham young or w/e chill out

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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 27/08/2026

i think if stephanie meyer had really wanted to go all out she would have made bella take both jacob and edward to wife — progressive mormonism: women get harems too. it’s only fair…

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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 23/08/2026

i was just at the straight pride parade — they said they knew you there??

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Gamourtian, Babylon The Great @gamourtian.bsky.social · 23/08/2026

ever since i was a little girl i have dreamed of singing the national anthem at the ribbon cutting ceremony for the Charlie Kirk Memorial Data Center

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