iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

Brandon @gamerbears.bsky.social · 22/10/2025

Shit I haven’t wrote in this account in a long time. I guess today was Mental Health day at work. It’s been kind of a shitty time for me when it comes to me dealing with self conscious things. It’s like trauma from what happened to me in the gay community has left me feeling like I’m ugly.

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Brandon @gamerbears.bsky.social · 09/08/2025

I switch over to the alt and it’s really lonely here since I haven’t followed a whole lot of people. Still don’t know what I should do with this account. Haven’t been in the mood for social media lately. I still lurk but it’s rare for me to post.

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Brandon @gamerbears.bsky.social · 18/06/2025

I guess I can use this account for just posting videos of me babbling on and on.

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Brandon @gamerbears.bsky.social · 03/06/2025

Cause I saw someone else mentioning about going to DLR. It was 2018 when the last time we went, as much as I went to it when I was living in CA, it feels like a lot of magic has been lost. That’s not to say if you’re a first timer you shouldn’t go. It’s just that you’re gonna pay a lot of money.

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Brandon @gamerbears.bsky.social · 28/03/2025

2011, still had painful memories. After that bracelet snapped it was a sign I needed to kind of distance myself from the bear community. It helped a lot with my mental health but friends would invite me to parties and that trauma came rushing back to me.

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Brandon @gamerbears.bsky.social · 07/03/2025

Hello, *crickets chirping* ok. Here I am.

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Brandon @gamerbears.bsky.social · 29/01/2025

Wrote in the journal, had a few times where I cried. Fucking sucks.

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Brandon @gamerbears.bsky.social · 11/11/2024

I suppose I will just upload gaming videos to this account and a mental health blog on the side!

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Brandon @gamerbears.bsky.social · 15/09/2024

Sorry! Had to do so many takes of this cause I didn’t have my shirt on! It’s getting cold anyways! Sad that a comic strip can bring back so many painful memories when you were a teenager growing up into your 20s. You gotta toughen up and be a man they say. You can’t help but cry and relive it again.

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Brandon @gamerbears.bsky.social · 14/09/2024

Another day. I didn’t think it would bother me but anxiety, depression, long COVID? It’s coming back hitting me hard this week.

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Brandon @gamerbears.bsky.social · 13/09/2024

Hello video mental blog! It’s Brandon, I over did it on the alt so I am here to release my thoughts.

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Brandon @gamerbears.bsky.social · 31/08/2024

Oh damn! I haven’t written on here in a long time. My mental health has been good so far. It seems like I’m letting myself go in the looks department. I’ve let the gray hairs grow out, I stopped using the beard shampoo that is suppose to help cover the gray hairs. I need a haircut bad!!

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Brandon @gamerbears.bsky.social · 27/03/2024

Drinking water and staying hydrated has helped with the anxiety at night when going to bed.

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Brandon @gamerbears.bsky.social · 23/03/2024

I’m not sure if I have numbed my emotions or I’m use to death in the family.

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Brandon @gamerbears.bsky.social · 14/02/2024

I hate VD, 19 years ago I was in a dark place. Starting out College, I really didn’t enjoy having to deal with depression and sitting by myself on campus with those kinds of emotions.

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Brandon @gamerbears.bsky.social · 28/12/2023

It’s already Thursday and I feel I didn’t accomplish much. Mom got sick and now I feel like I’m going back home without not doing much.

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Brandon @gamerbears.bsky.social · 26/12/2023

I haven’t been sleeping right for a while. I literally haven’t slept a night all the way through cause I wake up to a night terror, anxiety or worrying about something. These past three years have been super rough on me that I struggle to get through by myself. I hate burdening people.

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Brandon @gamerbears.bsky.social · 11/12/2023

When you’re hurting all you can do is put on a fake smile and try to go on with your day not showing that you’re in pain, emotionally.

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Brandon @gamerbears.bsky.social · 09/12/2023

If December wasn’t enough of a depressing month as is, my brother passing away has made this the month I dread the most.

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Brandon @gamerbears.bsky.social · 05/12/2023

This month and January are hard for me, I lost my good friend in December and my Dad in January. It’s easy to numb the feelings throughout the rest of the year but when it comes around to the end of the year it’s just like a huge hurdle that I can’t seem to jump over.

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Brandon @gamerbears.bsky.social · 30/11/2023

Can December be over tomorrow? I am not up to it.

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Brandon @gamerbears.bsky.social · 30/11/2023

Think I will use this blog as a mental health blog. When I need it. Words that hit me hard but I continue to care even if they don’t care back.

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Brandon @gamerbears.bsky.social · 15/10/2023

Fuck I need to get back to this level of photography. I miss taking pictures, ever since my Dad passed away it’s been hard to pull out the camera. Now everyone has their new iPhone 15s that blow this photography out the water.

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Brandon @gamerbears.bsky.social · 13/10/2023

Well I used one of my own invites to make an adult account! Hate me!

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