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It's not an official anniversary. I couldn't tell you the date it started. But my parents first started noticing I just wasn't sleeping when I was 2. Some brains don't switch modes so easily. We walled off a bit of our lounge for an extra bedroom so I wouldn't keep my 12 y-o sister up.

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Hey, just saw that cute "can't sleep? have you tried going to bed?" meme again &, sure, for a lot of people that will work. Our brains are all about modes & you can brute-force them. However, don't *ever* use it to respond to someone discussing insomnia. I have been failing at sleeping for 40 years.

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You cannot imagine how Cassandra I felt trying to explain to people how good John Cho is when all they'd seen was his more gross-out comedies. His episode of Charmed is legit one of 90s TV's best short stories.

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The fact that all of Off Centre is on YT makes me feel something is right with the world. That 00s tail-end of the 90s sitcom boom birthed so many underappreciated gems that were only shown over here in the 3-5am slot on itv & ch4, & now anyone can watch them.

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I wish I wasn't awake & alone while my body is doing this. Not that I'd be the most scintillating host. I mostly need someone to make all decisions for me for a few hours while my body rights itself as I writhe & occasionally groan.

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You see because it was in emergency measures to cool me. Sweating doesn't happen cos my body thinks I'm cold. And of course the hotter it makes me, the colder it reads me, so it continues to stoke those fires. This is the first time it's triggered my lungs' emergency thermostat.

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Frac @fraconceagain.bsky.social · 10/01/2025

Oh that's a fun new wrinkle. Those little freakouts my body has if a particular internal thermostat breaks where it reads the air being colder than my skin as me being colder than the air are now tipping it so far I get hot enough my body takes away the capacity to breathe through my nose.

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I made bolognese & ate so much spaghetti. This is still less continental than when I chainsmoke & chaincoffee.

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I'd never make it to being a billionaire cos I'd keep using the money my money would somehow continue to make to try & actually help people. Cos what's the fucking point of any of it otherwise. All the things I actually need/want for myself cost at best a few grand altogether.

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I do not understand how bad rich people are at being rich. If I were a millionaire I'd probably spend my time burying my face in the mane of one of the Aslan puppets from the 80s BBC Narnia & leaving rave reviews for every service/business I interact with that deserves it.

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Trying to convince my brain that despite its insistence it does not in fact want to start a game of Alpha Centauri cos if I do I won't move for the next 30 hours or so.

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*over And at a fresh, active accident scene too. I just couldn't. The going to the bottom of the deep ocean in a glass bathysphere in season 1 was bad enough. It's fair enough that protagonists don't have to be directly likable but they shouldn't be actual irredeemable monsters.

And tbf to Departure "it's not as good once Christopher Plummer leaves" is practically a tautology but that's also not what went wrong with that show. I don't know if they recaptured earlier heights of intrigue cos they lost me at their investigation taking precedence of life-saving efforts.

Tbf to it, I'm not sure the first season got the best shot at me given how close I watched it to Rig 45 which arguably does substantially more with less. Like seeing Departure too close to Vigil.

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Ok so season 2 of The Rig was fine. I don't know if there's been a series with this level of performance & character that has been this let down by the overall structure of its narrative. Everyone is doing such good work but something is just off.

Like what even of value is there to contribute to these two strangers beyond they seem to make each other happy & I hope it works out for them? She's a catch he landed? What's he gonna do? Lay her in ice til he gets back to port? Some idioms really aren't worth keeping.

It remains fascinating to me that when two people decide to get together & to give forever a go, everyone is still using hunting & fishing language to describe it like that's a normal & ok thing. Have you considered just being happy for people?

I kinda wish it were a trick question & the answer was both cos at least then she'd be paying you a wage. [Big hugs!]

This business survived The Depression, a World War & everything that came after but Troy & Alasdair wanted it for their portfolios or some shit & thousands of people lose their livelihoods, not to mention the best Afternoon Tea on most highstreets.

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It makes me sad beyond measure that my dad's business will not pass to his children cos a secondhand bookshop is a beautiful thing, but it's his dream, his life's work, also none of us have any aptitude for it, & he never expected us to be defined by it as adults.

There's just something about walking past a business, now empty & lost to venture capitalists, with Estd. 1926 still visible on the window that feels like it could radicalise Gods.

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Frac @fraconceagain.bsky.social · 07/01/2025

I know I'm into my 40s now cos I just had a long moment of wistful pining for a specific chocolate from a no-longer-extant local chocolatier. [Strawberry, white pepper & white chocolate if you're ever near a Digby's yourself.]

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We need to consider a global body that evaluates all new technology on the basis of one simple question: Does this sound like the start of a Dr Who script? We'd save so many resources & so much heartbreak.

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Frac @fraconceagain.bsky.social · 07/01/2025

Maybe this is a coastal baby thing but how unbalanced that boat would be hurts my hindbrain. If Halsin isn't at oar he should be in the front. The heel this boat would have is unreal.

Fourth Strike @fourth-strike.com · 06/01/2025

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we've been the garages is officially out! this album was such a labour of love - shout out to ras and the whole community for putting together an absolutely rad surprise (in pdf form 👀) for anyone who buys the album on bandcamp! thegarages.bandcamp.com/album/weve-b... Streaming coming soon <3

thegarages.bandcamp.com

we've been the garages, by the garages

29 track album

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Frac @fraconceagain.bsky.social · 05/01/2025

There are still [I think] 4 accounts in the other place that I pop back to check for posting a bluesky handle every now & then. The ad at the top of my feed was some kind of online church of Tate delivering "his final prophecy" & I had a "remember when The Onion was satire?" moment.

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Frac @fraconceagain.bsky.social · 05/01/2025

Sending you the biggest of hugs. Their inability to understand is not our fault, any more than what they did/do to us is. You are wonderful & if she can't get that then it's her loss.

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Just heard the handful of seconds of Would I Lie To You by Charles & Eddie on the Heineken 0.0 ad. Yes. YES. A new generation will know the most successful one hit wonder in British music history. I'm telling you, baby, you will never find another girl in this heart of mine/Look into my eyes can't y

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Google will not help me either but I'm guessing it's dehydrated but crammed with emulsifiers so it still feels moist. Like Rustler's microwave burgers.

The one major upside of the Olympics when they were here was a bunch of places getting access to World Host training. You will still get better service, & from more contented people, in towns/cities that got even a bit of it.

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Aw shit. Up before 10am & capable of getting a few bits started before my second pint of coffee. It's almost as if improvement is iterative or something. Sleeping a full 8 hours after a 5 hour nap is totally normal, of course.

Parents everywhere shouting in loving frustration, "You wanna end up like RFK Jr!?!?"

I was always aware that my gran was an extraordinary person but I'd never really put together how amazing she was til the minister was listing her achievements at her funeral. I ended up crying from pure joy at having got to know her even a bit. That generation was wild.

He reminds me of the rich kids I knew in my 20s, playing at living in squalor for shits & giggles. Cos it's always just a game. Mum/Dad/the money will always be there if anything actually bad threatens to happen, so they never learn the lessons everyone else has to. Actual blank slates.

Such a good day. So much done. So many progress bars inched on. Even remembered to eat & had a [accidentally 5 hour] nap.

Really we elder millennials are primed for early dementia detection. 2/3 of our conversation is callbacks & deepcuts.

Fourth Strike @fourth-strike.com · 03/01/2025

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Join us this Sunday (Jan 5) for the release party of our farewell to blaseball album, "We've Been The Garages" - 10pm GMT / 5pm ET / 2pm PT. Come hang out in the chat with us and say goodbye to this game that we are all love thegarages.bandcamp.com/merch/weve-b...

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we've been the garages - Release Day Listening Party!

Listening Party from the garages.

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Frac @fraconceagain.bsky.social · 03/01/2025

It's a good mix of jobs too. Some to keep up positive patterns I've set, some completing a reset to zero allowing the beginning of a positive pattern, & some of those little jobs that keep having to be deprioritised when I'm too far behind. Properly satisfying.

Frac @fraconceagain.bsky.social · 03/01/2025

Had trouble sleeping the night before last. Finally slept around 10am. Woke up shortly before 11pm so befuddled it took two pints of coffee to get me going but once I was going, damn was it worth it. Got so much done. Still doing! [also resting cos pacing, ugh]