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• ghost • @fpsman01.bsky.social · 10/05/2025

I must've just disappeared by now at this point

• ghost • @fpsman01.bsky.social · 02/05/2025

I'm sorry I wish I could be better

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• ghost • @fpsman01.bsky.social · 24/04/2025

Thinking of just deleting my venting apps and disappear from stuff. I hate venting into the void completely. I always feel alone often as is. I don't need more.

• ghost • @fpsman01.bsky.social · 18/04/2025

none of my venting spaces are meaning much of anything lately

• ghost • @fpsman01.bsky.social · 07/04/2025

They left again that's sad I already miss them again 😭

• ghost • @fpsman01.bsky.social · 06/04/2025

I swear the servers don't like me 😭 every time I try to grind some comp on overwatch I get lag spikes so bad from time to time, but NEVER get disconnected like whyyyyy

• ghost • @fpsman01.bsky.social · 05/04/2025

Well time to relax from all that tilt over some dps cowboy with a 'c4' in his pocket on a specific game 🫥

• ghost • @fpsman01.bsky.social · 04/04/2025

I wonder if she'll ever message me at any point within another week

• ghost • @fpsman01.bsky.social · 04/04/2025

My mood is ruined and I don't want to do anything anymore

• ghost • @fpsman01.bsky.social · 28/03/2025

Music quick drain out the blandness inside I wanna be able to enjoy some stuff again

• ghost • @fpsman01.bsky.social · 25/03/2025

Why did I think there could be something between us? What a waste of time perhaps...

• ghost • @fpsman01.bsky.social · 25/03/2025

Maybe I should just throw in the towel with her and give up on trying to find something out of it

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• ghost • @fpsman01.bsky.social · 25/03/2025

now I think I got a sore throat from my sibling with a terrible habit of coughing without covering their mouth or anything..

• ghost • @fpsman01.bsky.social · 24/03/2025

For years that mfer thinks he can treat me poorly then when we're adults that I won't lash back similarly after trying multiple times to be kind and lenient with him. The audacity. Welcome to how you shaped my childhood towards my own twin, asshole.

• ghost • @fpsman01.bsky.social · 18/03/2025

I'm collapsing and I honestly think getting a job would only end up making things worse on me

• ghost • @fpsman01.bsky.social · 18/03/2025

I wish my feelings meant something to her so it doesn't feel like multiple people aren't ignoring me or don't have the time for me.. I don't feel important sometimes

• ghost • @fpsman01.bsky.social · 06/03/2025

Yep just slowly being unfollowed. More incentive to just disappear..

• ghost • @fpsman01.bsky.social · 05/03/2025

might just delete this app tbh

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• ghost • @fpsman01.bsky.social · 28/02/2025

I am feeling empty. My life is crumbling and I lack the willpower to power through it.

• ghost • @fpsman01.bsky.social · 24/02/2025

oh yeah that one day is tomorrow... here's to hoping it will be decent and a special handful of people will say something to me about it tomorrow

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• ghost • @fpsman01.bsky.social · 22/02/2025

Watched episode 19 of Daima and I continue to remember why I love Dragon Ball so much 😭

• ghost • @fpsman01.bsky.social · 20/02/2025

It would be nice to not be told how to fix my problems I am getting frustrated by as getting a job. These problems will last for however long, plus an additional 1-2 weeks before my first paycheck. And by that point I would just get a new controller instead most likely. 😒

• ghost • @fpsman01.bsky.social · 19/02/2025

Still waiting for another person to write to each morning or whenever I wake up.

I need someone I can say good morning too despite any potential timezone differences. I currently don't have my usual someone atm.

my "support" from those around me is garbage. all they do is tell me the same things that usually works for most, but have never for me.

all I am is problems - my controller has problems I cannot fix asap to make my gaming experience better - my life has problems that I can't fix in the timeframe I prefer - when will it end? - let me have something or someone meaningful in my life in peace - I am only one guy I deserve better

Might just delete stuff soon and disappear more before I inevitably do anyway

• ghost • @fpsman01.bsky.social · 11/02/2025

I'm so close to removing or blocking people. I just absolutely love feeling like I have been ghosted by now. Even had plans with someone who just completely disappeared on me, but ONLY to me from my limited pov since I don't like to get close to stalking others.

• ghost • @fpsman01.bsky.social · 11/02/2025

I have came to remembered a feeling or thought from quite some time ago. It may be why I end up being so quick to anger over little things. I'm not satisfied with the meaning of what it is, and I don't know if I ever will.

• ghost • @fpsman01.bsky.social · 10/02/2025

So is just so balanced. Can one shot players without a pocket, then give her a DMG boost from a mercy and just like that she's a server admin. Super fun for quickplay.

• ghost • @fpsman01.bsky.social · 08/02/2025

PSN has been down for almost 24 hours!!!! PlayStation what the hell is going on?! What has caused this long maintenance?!

• ghost • @fpsman01.bsky.social · 05/02/2025

Partly wish someone could at least send me a repair kit and some of the necessary parts to fix my damn sticks. Everything else on the damn thing works fine otherwise.

• ghost • @fpsman01.bsky.social · 05/02/2025

I am going to break my controller. I cannot repair it. I cannot get a new one. And I have to fucking fight it to aim when I need it while it randomly jerks upwards on me like it's being pushed up fully. Why can't I just play my quick play games with mnk on my console without my aim assist like...

• ghost • @fpsman01.bsky.social · 05/02/2025

I am not well. I don't think I am going to be well for a long time right now. It's not great living my life constantly worried deep down that my struggles on my emotions will get me fired over and over from jobs. I cannot handle service jobs like McDonald's or something. I cannot handle retail too.

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• ghost • @fpsman01.bsky.social · 01/02/2025

I wish I was more emotionally stable on command

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I think I found an artist off of pinterest that I love. Still not regretting my choice to get outfit ideas I find adorable for my future partner.

So we're getting a competitive 6v6 next season.. in the middle of the season. 💀

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It's crazy how someone isn't snuggling with me until the morning, so like please 🙏

• ghost • @fpsman01.bsky.social · 30/01/2025

I wish I could type more out on here as a venting platform. I rarely do, but I type so much more than 300 characters sometimes. I just have so much passion within me to type out from time to time.

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Am I twisted in the head for having the insanity of trying to play a game like Overwatch or Marvel Rivals with a Backbone controller? Idk why, but like I want to for the hell of it lol

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• ghost • @fpsman01.bsky.social · 29/01/2025

Playing casual matches on Overwatch console and seeing "goon" makes me very uncomfortable. So if you're ever in my matches and talk like that in either vc or text chat, please avoid me. I don't want to be around the horny ones who are like that... Thanks.

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• ghost • @fpsman01.bsky.social · 26/01/2025

I'm so sick of instant ramen and such on repeat each week or so. 💀