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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

Gotta justify the billions or trillions thrown in the A.I. hole. At this point it needs to become as ubiquitous as the Internet or it's a flop.

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 28/08/2026

There is a small amount of truth in "consumers don't know what they want" we often think we want a thing and then when we get it we didn't like it. And sometimes there are things we didn't know existed that we end up loving. However, we almost always know when we don't want something.

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 18/06/2026

"happy" person. Pretty strictly default to slightly below "Okay." But now, reaching Okay feels aspirational.

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 18/06/2026

so it gets harder every day to not say fuck it. It is my hope that it never comes to that as no problem has even been improved by adding street grade pharmaceuticals to the mix, but unlike checking out early, it is not something my brain simply refuses to consider out of hand. I have never been a

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 18/06/2026

heroin or some other drug off some sketchy dude and probably not feel bad for a little bit. But the cost would be everything that brings me any comfort or joy. Problem being, I have been in a depression spiral so long that knowing what brings me joy is trying to remember an echo at this point and

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 18/06/2026

the storm, if only for awhile. It does not give me any such relief. I am stuck here white knuckling it and hoping it will pass but not having any alternative other than just holding on. The closest thing I have is the knowledge that if I am ok with throwing away everything in my life, I can go buy

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 18/06/2026

escape from the pain I am experiencing. When I tell my doctors this they don't understand that this is not an unalloyed good. As grim as it is to say, the thought of it being an option, an escape, gives a release valve for many. It's not good and it's not healthy, but it is something that can calm

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 18/06/2026

have burnt out and I just seem to sink deeper and deeper into a sharp stillness. I tried to make my doctor understood and I thought she did, but it seems like the urgency left her once I was out of the room as well. I am not suicidal, I do not want to die and I do not think of death as a relief or

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 18/06/2026

thought were simply unreasonable or just a figment of my mental state rather than something real that I both can and should process. I used to use anger to burn away depression when I simply couldn't take it anymore. It didn't solve the problem and created its own toxic byproducts but now the boiler

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 18/06/2026

really stay friends with someone who is literally sad all the time. How long before who they were becomes less important than who they are? The depression isn't lifting and I am losing touch with the "reality" that I previously used to get me through depressions. Knowing that this thought or that

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 18/06/2026

expressing my problems to people in my support system and it eases the burden to the point that it passes. But it's not passing anymore. The weight just keeps piling on and not only am I getting crushed under the weight, it is straining my support systems to the point of snapping. How long can you

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 18/06/2026

I keep writing here because I need to get it out in a way that someone might see it. It feels less real or cathartic when it is just sealed away in a journal, almost masturbatory. It is not out of my head then, it is just infecting another part of my space. Typically, my form of healing involves

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 16/06/2026

health has diminished I see that the weight can not be spread evenly enough and without relief even the most stalwart of companions begin to flag under the constant strain.

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 16/06/2026

healthing, and growth. I am simply no longer able to be the person that was able to fashion these connections and I don't have the time to do so even if I was. My decline has not been sudden but it has not been subtle and gradual either. As I have leaned on my support system more and more as my

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 16/06/2026

my continued capacity that may not be true any longer. While the foundations I have build for myself are firm and steady, even they can fracture and crack. As one does I realize that I do not have the ability to build another near its scope. It was built on maladaptive responses to shared trauma

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 16/06/2026

I made my world to small. I was convinced that a few truly solid places to stand would be enough and that if I ever really needed more I could simply find them as I always have. But as my body and my mind begin to show their failing I am coming to understand that my plans made many assumptions about

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 14/06/2026

moving forward, because I simply don't know what else to do. But the damage seems to be adding up and i appear ill equip to fix the damage.

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 14/06/2026

road because if that happens I don't think I can rebuild in my current state. The help I am getting is insufficient but more critical care would likely ruin my life and I don't seem to have the right words to ask if there is something between the two that might serve me better. I'm going to keep

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 14/06/2026

years have been worse. The last few months escalated further, and finally the last few weeks I have been more or less white knuckling it 24/7. There doesn't seem to be an off ramp or relief. I'm trying to wave down as much assistance as I can without causing my whole life to go careening off the

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 14/06/2026

Actually "solve" my problem so please have no fear that this is some kind of goodbye. I just needed to spew this out in a place that my loved ones wouldn't have to see me suffering yet again. I have never been a particularly happy person and that's ok. I found joy where I could. But the last few

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 14/06/2026

telling them it's just masking just hurts them more. I reach out to professionals for help be it feels so disjointed and inconsistent due to the amount of life that happens that nothing seems to move the needle. This isn't a suicide note, I don't want to die or hurt myself and I don't think that

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 14/06/2026

and I don't know that there was a reason. It just kept happening. I feel my world getting smaller and smaller and less control over my body and mind every day. I am a constant roll of anger, sadness, emptyness, and pain at all hours. When I mask they get to relax because I'm "getting better" and

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 14/06/2026

me. Family that supports me and friends that are ride or die. Yet everyday I feel worse. I don't feel like a burden, I know that they are all getting tired. I'm never okay anymore. The person they love seems to have been hollowed out and there doesn't even seem to be a reason for it to have happened

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 14/06/2026

I don't know when it started happening to be honest I'm falling apart but I don't know for certain what that means because every time I try to pin point the "start" the timeline moves further back. My life is objectively great. I have a good, stable, fulfilling job. I have a beautiful wife who loves

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 29/04/2026

Unrelated, I did NOT realize how much copaganda Dresden Files has. It carries SO much water for the cops, even while explicitly pointing out corruption. Extra unrelated, Do love the Carpenter family nice to see Christians painted as flawed but kind people. Unrealistic, but still nice to see XD

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 05/04/2026

than simply "the plot demands I do it." And it makes when he acts contrary to those beliefs all the more significant and noteworthy.

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 05/04/2026

I am rereading "The Dresden Files" and I have to keep reminding myself that some of the dumb are frustrating things Dresden does are not "mistakes" of "bad writing." It is in fact good writing. He does things non-optimality because he holds consistent and strong beliefs that guide his actions more

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 20/03/2026

It's time to face the reality of if you can't be bothered to make it, I can't be bothered to pay of it. Cry me a river about how everyone is stealing your game while you use piracy software to make them.

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 19/03/2026

Oooooh ok, that makes sense! I am not caught up yet so I wasn't double checking it had the same number of pages. Thank you, sorry about that!

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 19/03/2026

@zal-cryptid.bsky.social I don't know if it is happening to anyone else, but I keep getting emails and notifications about the the plastic beach epilogue. Like probably ten or twelve times by now? I have never had Patreon do that before. Has anyone else had this issue?

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 09/03/2026

If who you voted for is a sensitive topic, you know you voted for the wrong person and don't want to admit it.

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Kendra P @hagofbolding.bsky.social · 08/03/2026

I self-published the first 3 chapters of my webcomic, Fairmeadow, for bringing to conventions. Then I got the flu and couldn’t go to ECCC so they are for sale online for the first time! You can grab a copy on my site for 15% off with the code BOOFLU until March 15 kendrap.com/shop

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 01/03/2026

Jolene could never be this good.

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 26/02/2026

It should fluctuate wildly!

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 21/02/2026

As much as I don't love his movies, I do truly appreciate Bay being actively anti A.I. Kinda love that big explosion man is like "If a person doesn't make the explosion, it just isn't as satisfying, ya know?" I can respect that.

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 14/02/2026

@rossradke.bsky.social THEY ARRIVED! Thank you so much, I love these little guys! T.T

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 11/02/2026

Has the "don't talk to me until I have had my coffee" vibe

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 11/02/2026

the world has enough monsters and it can be nice for the fear to be unwarranted<3

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 11/02/2026

mother because if it was my mother I know that fear was coming from a place of true loving protection not control. Sadly, I know that is not the experience of many and it definitely seems this daughter was not treated in a way to have that sort of trust. Nothing wrong with writing about kind witches

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 11/02/2026

all the time. I am just thankfully blessed with parents who love and accept my choices and happiness as I define it. They might question and point out potential risks to those goals, but they have always been supportive even when they find my choices odd. So my heart still finds empathy for the

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 11/02/2026

Thank you! I am sure I will enjoy them. I was a little worried to reply as I definitely could feel that the story was written more from the perspective of a parent refusing to respect their child's wishes and seeing any form of happiness outside of that as "failure" and heavens knows that happens

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 09/02/2026

@heyiboy.com @sharktears.bsky.social @b4tg1rl.bsky.social Hello, apparently you are my closest Bluesky neighbors. Let's keep the neighborhood cheap and weird. Woo!

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 09/02/2026

to be happy as I define happiness but because I am scared that the person I love could simply be wiped away in the whim of this other person even if the doll changed its mind. Im not even a parent and the idea of it happening to a friend is bone chilling.

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 09/02/2026

I would still hope a mother would at least try to understand why their child loves this witch. It's just scary thinking how I would feel if a loved one willingly put their whole identity and sense of self completely in the hands of someone. Of course I would fear for them. Not because I want them

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 09/02/2026

It's so sad. I can see where the mother is coming from. It would be hard to see your child become basically a toy for another being. Yes, some people treat their toys with love and respect, but if you have no control in the relationship they might someday change and there would be nothing you can do

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 08/02/2026

@totempole.bsky.social I didn't realize you had a Bluesky! Look what just arrived! I love the Hide-behind so much! You are incredible!

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Fintago @fintago.bsky.social · 08/02/2026

@dataisgone.bsky.social just got this book from the Indy gay market. Absolutely haunting image! Great job!

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