Sign in

nana semi ia

@filamentfeverish.bsky.social
261 followers 250 following 9.4K posts

24 | he/they | artist | the world's sillayest billayest

PostsRepliesMedia
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 05/08/2026
I do think I worded some things poorly in the moment and want to talk more about it now that I think I'm calmer and not reacting out of fear. However I don't know where to start as I'm not going to purposefully engage with accounts that have already blocked me as I don't want to make matters worse.
040
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
I'm open to dms if needed.
000
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
If you don't even want to talk to me about things that's fine. Make your own choices but I just want to exist and be left alone. I don't need to publicly display every trauma and abuse I've been through to justify my spot in life. I just hate this shit.
020
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
I truly believe if every victim had to recover in a puritanical way then there'd be more problems in the world. Nobody fits in one box. It's tiring I've been scared to even talk about me and my experiences for a reason. It's dehumanizing for me.
030
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
Labels regarding shipping and fiction are whatever I don't belong to any of them. That's how I identify I'm not lying. I just want to be safe to recover so if you can't trust me anymore then so be it.
010
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
Feel how you want about me. I'm done trying to pretend I'm a person outside of dealing with multiple issues in ways that I've had to learn the hard way are helping me even process. Glorifying and supporting are different than how an abuse victim recovers. I'm trying to end my suffering.
110
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
I'm just going to say it I've been r*ped ive been csa'd multiple times. I've been physically abused. I am a victim too. In therapy in recovery. I'm not a danger to anyone. I'm my own person. I don't know what else to do. I've always been me. I can't change how people see it.
120
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
I think honestly I'm so sick of everything because i shouldn't have to disclose my own abuse and suffering to be the way I am i don't know it's also like I know my truth I know several things about me my partner our abuse and my experiences don't have to be the same. I just am tired of being me
150
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
Idk what I even feel anymore man
000
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
Uh hm
010
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
my icon cropped so badly whatever Barry ig
071
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
Whatever go my vision
010
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
This is also echoable
110
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
The fact in 2026 i still have to think "Kagehira we have arrived at Walmart " when I gotta go anywhere. Near a Walmart
140
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
I think also I have low self esteem today bc I had to put the poster up at work I hate my face sm
010
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
anxiety abt my timesheet vs sleeby
000
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
Two hours 🫶
000
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
I think abt this gif a lot
static.klipy.com
Uma Musume Uma Musume Meme
ALT: Uma Musume Uma Musume Meme
000
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
Today I'm so exhausted for NO REASON I have a whole open house to do
010
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
I don't want to go back to work
000
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
I can see that I apologize It's just how I felt it came across.
010
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
I can agree to that. But to me that's how I saw it. Let's agree to disagree I can do more analysis for my thoughts behind this when I'm off work if you want
000
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
Yes several stories. Horror Halloween, Requiem. I can try to sort through more later. But those left me feeling that way. I'm open to agreeing to disagree.
110
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
I will always encourage people to disagree with me. I like having differing opinions and it's healthy. I just don't want ppl to assume I'm arguing or defensive in general
030
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
To me that's my opinion as someone who has been treated similarly. Maybe abusive is strong though but I don't think its healthy. On either part.
110
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
He's been very emotionally abusive to Izumi since ! Era and has isolated him. Its his fatal flaw hence why Izumi leaving was such a big step to either make or break their dynamic. But that's MY opinion. I love Leo and Izumi a lot for their dynamic being complex.
110
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
I think every enstars character to an extent though has their flaws overlooked by fans
060
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
Leo Tsukinaga: im just like you fr Kanade Yoisaki: we are not the same
030
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
His abusive behavior too 😭 nuanced king
220
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
Izuleo opinions are how u get to know someone on a deeper level
030
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
I love leo a lot but I hate talking abt leo bc leo is one of the most butchered fandom interps I've seen ever
260
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
I wish I could yap abt enstars more but I always feel like mega annoying i just have thoughts whatever go my transfem tsukasa suou
040
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
Im the enstars version of an encyclopedia i think
020
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
I may be annoying but at least I'm annoying and sexy
010
Reposted by nana semi ia
nana @nanahoii.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
strangers showtime ♡ / ↺ appreciated #あんスタ #art #enstars #myart #ensemblestars #mashukuon #fanart
22310
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
Im so mad but whatever I gotta do what I gotta do
000
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
Im just gonna submit the timesheet lately
010
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
My boss wont answer me either
000
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
Open House and Work Found out we take 2 hours off at some point either midday or before work. But problem is I am agency and nobody is telling me how to do my timesheet
000
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
Sometimes I think abt my autism abt fandom culture but I feel like bringing it up esp in anime spaces now is so hard bc we lost the plot on stuff like with oshis and yume community too I think people forget its ok to join those but they gotta follow the rules and not mix it up with western ideas
030
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
I wish I could have posted both versions but alas I hate the censor filters here so Tumblr exclusive
000
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
Still happy that mashu art
000
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
Thinking one of my only fond memories of my dad was nights I was so sick i couldnt sleep hed put on mlp or spongebob to help me sleep or at least rest
000
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
Might get to go out to dinner after my long shift tomorrow :3
010
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
Tired so im.gonna feed myself and eep
000
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
everyone lock in on my mashu art
000
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
mvp
020
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
I miss my oomfs i miss drawing
000
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
Imagine hating on me
100
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
I HAVE TO WORK OPEN HOUSE THIS SUCKS I DONT GET PAID
000