nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 05/08/2026I do think I worded some things poorly in the moment and want to talk more about it now that I think I'm calmer and not reacting out of fear. However I don't know where to start as I'm not going to purposefully engage with accounts that have already blocked me as I don't want to make matters worse. 040
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026If you don't even want to talk to me about things that's fine. Make your own choices but I just want to exist and be left alone. I don't need to publicly display every trauma and abuse I've been through to justify my spot in life. I just hate this shit. 020
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026I truly believe if every victim had to recover in a puritanical way then there'd be more problems in the world. Nobody fits in one box. It's tiring I've been scared to even talk about me and my experiences for a reason. It's dehumanizing for me. 030
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026Labels regarding shipping and fiction are whatever I don't belong to any of them. That's how I identify I'm not lying. I just want to be safe to recover so if you can't trust me anymore then so be it. 010
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026Feel how you want about me. I'm done trying to pretend I'm a person outside of dealing with multiple issues in ways that I've had to learn the hard way are helping me even process. Glorifying and supporting are different than how an abuse victim recovers. I'm trying to end my suffering. 110
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026I'm just going to say it I've been r*ped ive been csa'd multiple times. I've been physically abused. I am a victim too. In therapy in recovery. I'm not a danger to anyone. I'm my own person. I don't know what else to do. I've always been me. I can't change how people see it. 120
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026I think honestly I'm so sick of everything because i shouldn't have to disclose my own abuse and suffering to be the way I am i don't know it's also like I know my truth I know several things about me my partner our abuse and my experiences don't have to be the same. I just am tired of being me 150
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026my icon cropped so badly whatever Barry ig 071
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026The fact in 2026 i still have to think "Kagehira we have arrived at Walmart " when I gotta go anywhere. Near a Walmart 140
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026I think also I have low self esteem today bc I had to put the poster up at work I hate my face sm 010
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026I think abt this gif a lotstatic.klipy.comUma Musume Uma Musume MemeALT: Uma Musume Uma Musume Meme 000
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026Today I'm so exhausted for NO REASON I have a whole open house to do 010
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026I can see that I apologize It's just how I felt it came across. 010
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026I can agree to that. But to me that's how I saw it. Let's agree to disagree I can do more analysis for my thoughts behind this when I'm off work if you want 000
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026Yes several stories. Horror Halloween, Requiem. I can try to sort through more later. But those left me feeling that way. I'm open to agreeing to disagree. 110
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026I will always encourage people to disagree with me. I like having differing opinions and it's healthy. I just don't want ppl to assume I'm arguing or defensive in general 030
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026To me that's my opinion as someone who has been treated similarly. Maybe abusive is strong though but I don't think its healthy. On either part. 110
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026He's been very emotionally abusive to Izumi since ! Era and has isolated him. Its his fatal flaw hence why Izumi leaving was such a big step to either make or break their dynamic. But that's MY opinion. I love Leo and Izumi a lot for their dynamic being complex. 110
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026I think every enstars character to an extent though has their flaws overlooked by fans 060
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026Leo Tsukinaga: im just like you fr Kanade Yoisaki: we are not the same 030
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026Izuleo opinions are how u get to know someone on a deeper level 030
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026I love leo a lot but I hate talking abt leo bc leo is one of the most butchered fandom interps I've seen ever 260
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026I wish I could yap abt enstars more but I always feel like mega annoying i just have thoughts whatever go my transfem tsukasa suou 040
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026Im the enstars version of an encyclopedia i think 020
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026I may be annoying but at least I'm annoying and sexy 010
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nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026Im so mad but whatever I gotta do what I gotta do 000
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026Open House and Work Found out we take 2 hours off at some point either midday or before work. But problem is I am agency and nobody is telling me how to do my timesheet 000
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026Sometimes I think abt my autism abt fandom culture but I feel like bringing it up esp in anime spaces now is so hard bc we lost the plot on stuff like with oshis and yume community too I think people forget its ok to join those but they gotta follow the rules and not mix it up with western ideas 030
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026I wish I could have posted both versions but alas I hate the censor filters here so Tumblr exclusive 000
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026Thinking one of my only fond memories of my dad was nights I was so sick i couldnt sleep hed put on mlp or spongebob to help me sleep or at least rest 000
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026Might get to go out to dinner after my long shift tomorrow :3 010
nana semi ia @filamentfeverish.bsky.social · 04/08/2026I HAVE TO WORK OPEN HOUSE THIS SUCKS I DONT GET PAID 000