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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 11h

I have to make video recorded responses to job interview questions and I'm soooo nervous, somehow it's worse that I get to record them because that means that I have so much opportunity to make the responses absolutely perfect, which just creates so much more pressure!! Really want this job too ;_;

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 08/10/2026

Getting this job would fix me I think (<-- girl who is well aware from past experiences that having a job will fix a lot of things but also make other things a whole lot worse)

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 08/10/2026

Buuut in other news I made it to the first line of interviews for a job! I need to record some videos answering questions for them tomorrow and hope that I can do a good enough job to get to the next phase... I am too downtrodden to be excited at this point but... maybe this time it's the one...

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 08/10/2026

Both my partner and my mom have told me this several times and somehow I'm still gaslighting myself like ahh I'm sure it's just external circumstances........ it's not like it's the exact time of year rn where my seasonal depression usually tries to snipe me or anything 🙄

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 08/10/2026

Looking back at my own late night posting like bitch maybe you should consider getting back on those antidepressants??

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

Thank you, that means so much to hear rn 🫂💕

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

I genuinely love being in this little corner of the fandom and I hate that I still feel like I'm on the outside looking in even after being here for almost a decade. It's a really lonely feeling and I just end up spiralling bc I can't understand what I'm doing wrong... I don't want to feel like that

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

And I know that this is self-inflicted in many ways bc I know my low social battery makes it look like I'm not interested in others. Which is not true. I'm just always socially exhausted and also chronically afraid of being overbearing, which makes it really hard for me to initiate anything.

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

I think it's probably just more quiet in the fandom rn bc ppl have lives and are going through their own shit but idk. I've never been good at making friends with people. So I always just assume that nobody actually genuinely likes me and ppl just like my writing. If even that. The quiet gets to me.

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

I see that it's that time of the year again where I convince myself that nobody actually wants me around and that I'm really annoying actually. This time with the fun side flavor of "why do I even bother to post fic" which is a new one. Have not had that happen before. Feeling unsettled.

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

Like did they even test it?? I tried 5 different games and none of them worked so problem is for sure the console and not the discs. How do you repair smth and then don't even test if it works, wtf?? That's a lot of money down the drain for me rn guys, pls at least tell me if the fix worked!! 😭

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

Old ps2 slim hasn't been reading discs for a while now. So I take it to get repaired bc I want to play my old games. "Oh we can switch the laser for you, nw nw" they say. I get charged 80 euros for this. Am told repairs are done, go pick it up, bring it home... annnd it still isn't reading discs. :(

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

Oh right I forgot that they changed that! I haven't touched Champions yet even though I keep telling myself I will lmao

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

Yeah I figured it probably wouldn't be that great compared to a lot of the big restricted guys that are like crazy op lmao. Maybe I'll just have to build a team for funsies at some point just to get to use my cool new shiny even if it won't be very optimal...

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

I have discovered that this thing has a Quiet nature and a really low speed IV... Idk if Trick Room Dialga is viable at all in VGC but if it ever is I guess I will have to finally get into VGC so I can use this guy on my team haha

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

So stupid excited about this, this is my first time ever finishing a soft reset hunt!! This save still has the Darkrai and Shaymin items (yes that's how long I've been waiting to progress this) so I think I might be making one of them my next target 👀

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

Every Sephiroth is a woman if you really want them to be

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

I have not finished Brilliant Diamond despite owning it for years bc I decided I wanted to shiny hunt Dialga to use for the endgame and today it finally happened!! I'm so excited to be free 😭 Didn't count my soft resets so I have no clue how many it took

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

Yeah I don't think I'd be worried about the sudden drinking by itself (she still also only pees like once a day lmao), it's just that I know that poop that dark is usually a sign of internal bleeding or smth so I am a paranoid mess of a cat mother rn 😅

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

5/9 “No.” Cloud looks upon him in horror. “No, no, no, you’ve got to stop this, you’re not my goddamn puppet, I don’t…” The fear creeps all the way down to his spine, infects his own mind. His master is afraid of him. He- He can’t- archiveofourown.org/works/921164...

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

She's always been really bad at drinking enough so if this new food makes her more eager to drink it's probably a good thing but I'm still worried :') I have to sort out some insurance stuff with the vet anyway so I'll probably call tomorrow and ask about this at the same time...

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

This Mira situation is so exhausting bc now whenever anything is going on I'm just freaking out and thinking smth must still be wrong 😭 Yes her poop being darker than normal and her suddenly drinking a lot more could be bc we switched to urinary health food but what if it ISN'T

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

At least partially I think it stems from that a lot of the time I struggle with being able to tell if something I write is actually hot for... obvious reasons. Like yeah in my brain it might register as something close enough to it, but I am also NOT the right person to judge it lmao

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

I wish I was in the mood to write smut more often bc I have great ideas for smut but a perpetual inability to be in the right mindset to write it!! I have a half written thing that I haven't touched in like a year bc I keep waiting to be in the mood to write it but it just never comes 😭

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

They've decided to do really loud roadwork outside the house in the middle of the night two nights in a row now (last night they were still going at 3am) and it's ruining my ability to sleep and it's also scaring Mira :((( She already has an infection caused by stress can they pls stop doing this 😭

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

Yessss let Cloud Strife be a bit of a freak, cowards!!!

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

I have to decide what to write for Sephiroth Week already hhhhhhhh so many possibilities........ I am thinking AGS maybe? 🤔 Haven't written that in a while and I do have an idea that I think I could make work with the prompts... AGS with time-travelling post-AC Sephiroth. Could be fun.

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

4/9 “There was nothing else that could have been done.” “That’s not true!” Marlene remains undeterred. “The knight’s supposed to save the princess! And then, they’re supposed to fall in love and get married and live happily ever after!” archiveofourown.org/works/921164...

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

It sounds awful, I hope that the meds help! I swear something's wrong with this month, I've also been going through it 😅 Hang in there 💕

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

She is!! She is the gentlest and sweetest girl 🥺

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

Beautiful baby girl who has caused so much stress this week but she is the loveliest so who cares ❤️❤️❤️

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

A diagnosis at all would be a great start, actually! 😂

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

Honestly I feel like people just take it WAY too seriously when I feel like it's smth that should be so easy to just agree to disagree on! It's so easy to curate your own experience by blocking/muting ppl if they post smth that genuinely bothers you that much. Idk I feel too old for this lmao

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

"Better" is debatable when there's mysterious undiagnosed chronic shit going on but I hope there will be SOME progress re: that soon! At least kitty seems to be doing ok now with meds 😅 But yeah I've been unemployed for like a year and I periodically have a meltdown about it so don't mind me lol

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

The part that stresses me out the most is that I can barely cope with day-to-day life while unemployed so how the fuck am I gonna do it when I am employed. If ever get to be employed again. How tf do ppl just manage to function, like it's easy, I am almost 30 and I think I missed the adult manual!!!

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

This has been The week of all time. I wish I could like... pause existence for a few days so I could just get to BREATHE. Partner with health issues has somehow resulted in cat with health issues, I am still in unemployment jail, too tired to function like a normal person, turn everything off pls!!!

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

No but fr!! Like I try not to get snooty about how other ppl characterise even when I don't vibe with it but the NERVE to say that every other interpretation is OOC when THIS is how you view Sephiroth?? 😭

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

Since I'm not on twt anymore I didn't see any of this myself (thank god that the cool ppl who don't care have chosen to gather here instead) so I really just jumped on the bandwagon here bc I saw other ppl talking about it lmao!

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

Fr, so many real problems out there and this is what you're choosing to get heated about 😭 I like that it was the friends too and not even the person themselves bc it's too much to say with your whole chest that it made YOU uncomfortable so you gotta hide behind the friend card

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

Yeah idk it's just so strange to me and I get hung up on like. What if I write them in an asexual romantic relationship? There's no top or bottom then, so what does it count as? What if it's a sfw work with no implications at all about positions bc some ppl act like it should be tagged then too??

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

Lmao jfc all that when you can just. Press the block button if it's that upsetting to you 😅

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

Idk maybe I'm just too autistic to get it or smth but I think the whole thing is super stupid and you really can't force me to give a shit about it 😭 (NOT stupid to have preferences to be clear!! Just stupid to. Idk. Feel the need to act like it's that deep ig? Lol I'm tired idk if this makes sense)

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

I think it especially pisses me off as a dedicated scholar of Sephiroth bc it also crosses over into how ppl think that his whole villain act is the full extent of his character and that his domineering attitude towards Cloud can only be taken at face value but that's a whole other thread by itself

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

Bc while I've written mostly S/C in that specific order, I... actually kinda prefer C/S?? But esp back when I was still on the other blue hellsite it felt like admitting that would get you like. Blacklisted or smth lol. So I've never really written it as much as I've wanted to.

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

This is also why I've never gone out of my way to tag dynamics on any of my fics, because I don't WANT people who think that the mere idea of Sephiroth bottoming for Cloud is character assassination or whatever to read my shit!! (If I ever posted pwp I'd tag it, but I've somehow never done that yet)

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

If I write a fic, I'm not going in thinking about if this is sefikura or kurasefi or whatever, I am literally just. Writing these two characters. I don't characterise differently bc of some arbitrary label based on who penetrates who in that particular fic so this argument has never made sense to me

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

Like sorry but I do not buy for a second that there is anything that inherently determines top/bottom unless we actually see the characters on screen confirming their sexual preference. It doesn't make sense to me to say that this character acts like this so they must be a top/bottom.

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

I get that people have preferences for which blorbo they want to see in which position, this is not weird to me at all, I completely understand this!! But I think it IS extremely weird to act like top/bottom has anything to do with "correct" characterisation, especially in non-canon pairings!

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Imaginative Spirit @ethereal-savior.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

I've seen a lot of conversations about it lately so ofc I have to say my piece. I've been thinking about how WEIRD people are about top/bottom preferences to the point that they legit treat reversed dynamics like a completely different ship and how it just. Does not compute with me like, at all.

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