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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 09/10/2026

update: i ate the leftovers and i'm fine, so i think maybe i just ate too much pizza last night

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 09/10/2026

why am i still seriously considering eating the leftovers

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 09/10/2026

it's that time in the Pokemon Champions season where i try to use Mega Chandelure, my favourite Pokemon, to get through the low ranks on ladder and god this thing sucks base 175 Special Attack and it's missing KOs left and right because its best move is unboosted Heat Wave

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 08/10/2026

okay i'm like 52% sure it was cross-contaminated and i got glutened for the first time since my celiac diagnosis, so maybe it'll be another five months til my next pizza...

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 08/10/2026

having pizza for the first time in like five months...

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 02/10/2026

this damn challenge has me hooked... about to stream the first Gym Leader battle www.twitch.tv/ellieevenstar

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 01/10/2026

gonna stream some more Pokemon Run and Bun in a minute www.twitch.tv/ellieevenstar

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 01/10/2026

usually i can go a good six months between spider incidents, but not this time i guess...

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 28/09/2026

oh, third key thing actually: (3) fuck Ledyba

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 28/09/2026

i have learned two key things: (1) streaming Pokemon Run and Bun is fun! (2) streaming is fucking exhausting...

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 28/09/2026

(i am admittedly slightly terrified of the idea of having people actually watching, i'm mostly just streaming so that i can hold myself to the challenge)

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 28/09/2026

fuck it, attempting a Hardcore Nuzlocke of Pokemon Run and Bun, stream starts at 4 come watch if you want to give my Pokemon cute nicknames and then watch them die tragic deaths in battle i guess www.twitch.tv/ellieevenstar

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 28/09/2026

help someone talk me into doing this

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 28/09/2026

it's always funny how i can be so eager to do something right up until the time comes for me to actually do it, at which point i become paralysed by fear

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 27/09/2026

admittedly, i don't expect that anyone would actually *watch* it, but like, if i'm streaming it at least there'll be proof that i've really done it at the end :P

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 27/09/2026

never mind i figured it out (amazing what you can achieve with three days of fruitless Googling followed by five minutes of "oh fuck it i'll just try to do it myself") genuinely might start streaming an attempt at Run and Bun in the near future

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 26/09/2026

i feel like the internet used to have a lot more high-quality tutorials and guides for all kinds of things. or maybe search engines are just worse now. either way, every time i try to do something unfamiliar nowadays, i miss how easily i used to find helpful information.

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 25/09/2026

been trying my hand at Pokemon challenge runs again lately and for some reason i kinda want to try streaming a run but oh god i'm too technologically challenged for bullshit like stream overlays

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 23/09/2026

there's a car parked on the street. for the last ten minutes, it's been in an endless cycle where the car alarm gets set off, someone goes out to stop it after thirty seconds, and then it promptly gets set off again within seconds. if it doesn't cease soon i may go insane.

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 22/09/2026

a random cat just came into our front yard, meowed at our bedroom window for a number of minutes, then ran off as soon as we went outside to check if it was okay

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 17/09/2026

once again thinking that pretty much all of the problems in my life could be solved by a half-decent income i should probably figure out how the utter fuck to get one of those

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 16/09/2026

pro tip: never get traumatised by an identical twin. twice as many people whose faces can set off a spiral.

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 15/09/2026

this is definitely the nicest cooking i've done in a long time

A bowl of braised beef on a bed of cauliflower puree

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 08/09/2026

i was over the post-spider incident paranoia from last week and then i just found a disembodied spider leg on the carpet. what the utter fuck.

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 08/09/2026

wait what's this about a fire next to our house?

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 04/09/2026

why am i feeling the urge to pull an all-nighter haven't done that in months, maybe longer

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 01/09/2026

help how do i stop feeling like i could be ambushed by a huge spider anywhere in this house at any moment (i found a dead huntsman in the bedroom this morning and i've been in a state of severe paranoia ever since)

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 01/09/2026

resetting the "days since a spider incident set off my arachnophobia" counter to zero. five minutes later, resetting the "minutes since a spider incident set off my arachnophobia" counter to zero.

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 01/09/2026

should i just... try reconnecting with people? is that a thing i can just do?

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 31/08/2026

missing the person i was at the end of 2023. i was so much less afraid back then, and that opened up the opportunity for some truly wonderful things in my life.

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 27/08/2026

thinking about all the people i've fallen out of contact with in the last few years wondering if connections can be restored, wondering if they're worth restoring...

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 12/08/2026

this was a pretty astounding three hours

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 12/08/2026

how the hell is a girl with no real work history supposed to come up with professional references lol (trying to apply for a uni scholarship that could be really great for me next year)

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 08/08/2026

UberEats is trying to tempt me with food that will poison me. and also hardwood.

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 07/08/2026

the Spinosaurus can do dodge rolls this game fucks

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 07/08/2026

i have learned that there is a Soulslike game that came out like a fortnight ago in which you play as a Spinosaurus wielding a big-ass sword. naturally, i bought that immediately.

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 07/08/2026

every day lately i wake up and immediately remember how much i hate winter the Evenstar is not well suited to the colder months...

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 06/08/2026

Doctor Who episode where the Doctor's looking for someone who calls themself "the Maestro", spends the whole episode terrified that Jinkx Monsoon is gonna jump out of a piano, and is relieved when the cliffhanger at the end is that actually it's just the Master's new silly alias.

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 05/08/2026

i wish i knew how to accept the terrible things that have happened to me and move past them. i'll get there some day, i'm sure of it, but... i can't pretend that i know how.

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 05/08/2026

girl who keeps complaining about being cold but refuses to put pants on

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 03/08/2026

i don't think they've ever made another Pokemon as good as Rowlet is it even possible to improve upon the perfection of the borb?

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 02/08/2026

a watched torrent never downloads...

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 25/07/2026

i've been thinking about finally getting therapy for my long-term mental health issues, so i'm trying to imagine how i'd explain the last several years of Evenstar lore to a psychologist. have a feeling it's gonna take a while lmao.

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 24/07/2026

i am once again thinking that i should probably find better ways of coping with resurfaced trauma than light daydrinking

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 24/07/2026

yeah, fuck it, i'm not getting effective study done. better off just trying to have a nice day, i can always lock in tomorrow.

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 24/07/2026

i really ought to study today, but my motivation is pulling me in other directions...

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 23/07/2026

fuck December 2023. almost everything that happened in that month had disastrous consequences for me that are only now beginning to unravel in my mind.

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 23/07/2026

getting distracted from my study because i'm gay and getting infodumped at...

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 23/07/2026

my housemates bought some cursed food and it happens to be gluten-free so i can't even use the gluten disorder as an excuse to not be forced to try it

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Ellie Evenstar et al @eleanorevenstar.com · 21/07/2026

polycule dynamic that's just this

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