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✕ 𝗗𝗔𝗪𝗚𝗜𝗘 ✕ @weirdodoggoboi.bsky.social · 09/10/2026

cw // puke i can hardly register when my hits are too big for me before itz too late,, >~<;;;

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Mitch @eggyyyyyyyyy.bsky.social · 1h

It's no singular persons entire fault

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Mitch @eggyyyyyyyyy.bsky.social · 1h

It's not her fault sadly

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Mitch @eggyyyyyyyyy.bsky.social · 1h

Too many people need something from me and I feel ready to die

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Mitch @eggyyyyyyyyy.bsky.social · 2h

I need to fucking make art

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Mitch @eggyyyyyyyyy.bsky.social · 2h

I wanna get along with someone's friends, I wanna meet new cool people who are different and trustworthy, I wanna be able to ask for small amounts of support from many different people who have generally cool intentions

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Mitch @eggyyyyyyyyy.bsky.social · 2h

Silence is powerful and interesting

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Mitch @eggyyyyyyyyy.bsky.social · 2h

I need to find the meanest girl in the world and have her be nice

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Mitch @eggyyyyyyyyy.bsky.social · 2h

It's really hard to like my body again

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Mitch @eggyyyyyyyyy.bsky.social · 2h

Bargaining is a shitty stage to be in

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Mitch @eggyyyyyyyyy.bsky.social · 2h

I wish I could calm tf down without regressing and hopelessness

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Mitch @eggyyyyyyyyy.bsky.social · 2h

I don't even really believe I can talk to other people without all of my rights and safety restricted someday

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Mitch @eggyyyyyyyyy.bsky.social · 2h

I wish it felt 100% safe to post here but I don't trust the separation of internet and digital with corporation and restriction of rights

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Mitch @eggyyyyyyyyy.bsky.social · 2h

And I want someone to see parts of that and be nice and patient

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Mitch @eggyyyyyyyyy.bsky.social · 2h

I wanna be a vampire wolf lizard robot god friend monster princess

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Mitch @eggyyyyyyyyy.bsky.social · 2h

I wanna be girly and scary and free

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Mitch @eggyyyyyyyyy.bsky.social · 2h

I need to be cringe and free and powerful

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Mitch @eggyyyyyyyyy.bsky.social · 2h

The internet keeps telling Elsy to go insane and crash out and spend money constantly fucking goddamit

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Mitch @eggyyyyyyyyy.bsky.social · 2h

Every time I make an effort I'm terrified it's for someone to hurt me

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Mitch @eggyyyyyyyyy.bsky.social · 2h

Gonna try to gender Eggy properly

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Mitch @eggyyyyyyyyy.bsky.social · 2h

I like fuck this stress by Otha

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Mitch @eggyyyyyyyyy.bsky.social · 2h

If I make someone else I think the lines might blur a lot again, I need to be careful especially if another forms because one of us is being stupid somehow

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Mitch @eggyyyyyyyyy.bsky.social · 2h

The girl I trusted (saying her name too much makes me feel like her and it sucks) had a really good system that I miss but I can't stand how dependent Elsy was and still would be on her.

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Mitch @eggyyyyyyyyy.bsky.social · 2h

If you try to talk to other people besides me I think I'd puke, I think I need a way to communicate but at the same time I don't want everyone to know

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Mitch @eggyyyyyyyyy.bsky.social · 2h

I wanna look scary and lovable, I don't know how to balance that

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Mitch @eggyyyyyyyyy.bsky.social · 2h

I hate dressing fem but I think it would be good for Elsy

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Mitch @eggyyyyyyyyy.bsky.social · 2h

If you wanna bring me out ever for sure use my name, I think that's how it works...

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Mitch @eggyyyyyyyyy.bsky.social · 2h

She actually can't stop finding ways to get on YouTube it's pathetic

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Mitch @eggyyyyyyyyy.bsky.social · 2h

And I think she'll like it soon

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Mitch @eggyyyyyyyyy.bsky.social · 2h

I can protect Elsy if it's just me and her

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Mitch @eggyyyyyyyyy.bsky.social · 2h

Idk if it's a good idea to post so many thoughts here but nothing else feels safe or real

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Mitch @eggyyyyyyyyy.bsky.social · 2h

But I can't think of anything else that works anymore, I just wanna scare everyone away somehow

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Mitch @eggyyyyyyyyy.bsky.social · 2h

I have a real shit way of trying to make boundaries

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Mitch @eggyyyyyyyyy.bsky.social · 2h

If I'm being honest I wanna die and become nothing but I can't for Elsy's sake

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Mitch @eggyyyyyyyyy.bsky.social · 3h

If I force Elsy she's gonna hate herself more but I don't know how much longer I can handle this alone and Eggy thinks it's fine to do nothing forever now but I'm fucking alone I can't be alone, even with them, I wanna make someone else who can work with me but I'm scared what that would do

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Mitch @eggyyyyyyyyy.bsky.social · 3h

I want to hate everything in my life but I just can't, I want things to be evil and awful so it makes sense, I want Elsy to have an easy narrative to get back up and live again but she doesn't. I think it's going to take her awhile to feel alive again and I wish I could help more.

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Mitch @eggyyyyyyyyy.bsky.social · 3h

I want Elsy and I to have a healthy relationship again but she is dying and I'm worried she wants to, I'm worried she wants to be alone forever

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Mitch @eggyyyyyyyyy.bsky.social · 3h

I don't want to set too many boundaries for her because she is her own person but I'm scared for her I wish she would just help herself without me getting mad at her

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Mitch @eggyyyyyyyyy.bsky.social · 3h

I feel weird because Elsy likes YouTube but I think it's really bad for her it keeps showing her everything that makes her cry, I want her to have things she loves and feels safe with but if she stares on there I think she might hate herself soon.

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Mitch @eggyyyyyyyyy.bsky.social · 3h

Thee internet knows my names, why

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