iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

I don’t really have anywhere I’m going with this and I’m not sure why you’re reading this still, just that I needed to put this out there and maybe try and hold myself accountable. Streams will continue and I don’t plan on going anywhere because this is all I have Thank you for reading

I don’t really know what I wanted to accomplish by posting all this because I know people will message me after expressing concern and my first thought will instantly be Would you have messaged me if I didn’t post this But that’s something I need to work on and get through

So I put on a mask and pretend everything is ok because when I am anything but happy people leave, who wants to watch someone depressed right? But I’m not ok and haven’t been for a while

To go back and reexamine everything I do wrong every day, to try and find some reason that people don’t like me. This focus and spiral of negativity is a loop I’m stuck in and even identifying it I can’t stop myself from continuing to think and feel that way.

I’ve put more pressure on myself to stream better, to make the number higher, because if my stream has higher viewership people will like me and I can make friends. And all this has done is make me anxious at any small hitch in my streams, to place unrealistic expectations on myself,

Im choosing to post this here instead of talking to someone because I have this belief no one wants to hear it from me and I’ve long since convinced myself of this. All these thought have bled into my streaming activities and have been degrading the quality of streams

I’m aware that you are thinking this is in my head and it’s not true and I want to believe that but my brain can’t stop thinking and over examining everything I do wrong when I talk to people. From the smallest change in their tone, the differences in responses, to a single word they chose to use.

I used to be fine with this and it never particularly bothered me but over the last year it just feels like I can’t keep that up anymore but I’ve long since ruined most chances to connect with people I know and now it feels like I don’t even know how to interact with others genuinely anymore

I don’t want to say something like I’m fine and better now, because that’s not how these things work. I can say I’ll be seeking professional help again I’ve been struggling with loneliness and the thought that people just don’t like me.

TW I’ve wanted to make this post for a bit but never knew how to do it without getting flooded by DMs of people being concerned so please don’t do that. My mental health has been really bad lately, and Wednesday was the worst since December 2016

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Drythe 🗡️📜 @drythe.com · 01/06/2025

RDR2 might be a good game but any time I touch something made by rockstar I want to fucking jump off my balcony. Holy shit this game runs like ass

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Arc System Works America @arcsystemworks.com · 27/05/2025

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Drythe 🗡️📜 @drythe.com · 26/05/2025

Everyday I wake up and hope Elon does a Lowtax

Drythe 🗡️📜 @drythe.com · 21/05/2025

If only we bought more mangosteen

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Drythe 🗡️📜 @drythe.com · 21/05/2025

You’ll never need another house again

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Drythe 🗡️📜 @drythe.com · 21/05/2025

Holy shit for only one million dollars I can own a part of history of a dead internet forum A steal truly

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Drythe 🗡️📜 @drythe.com · 14/05/2025

I've found the AOA Limiter in Project Wingman This game fucks

Drythe 🗡️📜 @drythe.com · 09/05/2025

Why is Evo Japan when I’m asleep?? They should have the matches running when it’s daytime!!!

Drythe 🗡️📜 @drythe.com · 08/05/2025

“Nintendo is bad” I try and mumble before succumbing to my desire to suckle on Mario’s teet “It’s a-ok, a new Mario Kart is-a coming!” He says comforting me

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Drythe 🗡️📜 @drythe.com · 08/05/2025

What’s cool about the Palworld lawsuit is all the fake outrage at Nintendo right before everyone goes and buys a new switch 2 and $80 games like good little pay piggies

Drythe 🗡️📜 @drythe.com · 04/05/2025

Expedition 33 is such a god damn good game. The story is fantastic, and its the first time I've streamed a single game for 12 hours and not even noticed

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Drythe 🗡️📜 @drythe.com · 27/04/2025

E33 reminds me so much of Lost Odyssey and I'm very happy we got another game similar to it

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Drythe 🗡️📜 @drythe.com · 27/04/2025

Expedition 33 is a fantastic game. It's a game that feels made by a team who understands JRPGS It does an amazing job of taking elements from older JRPGs and building upon them, utilizing the knowledge and making an even better product. As the expedition says "Learn from ones who came before"

Drythe 🗡️📜 @drythe.com · 27/04/2025

This has had one of the strongest starts I've experienced in an rpg Highly recommend this game

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Drythe 🗡️📜 @drythe.com · 26/04/2025

We're gonna be playing Expedition 33 today because it sounds extremely like what I've wanted for a while.

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Drythe 🗡️📜 @drythe.com · 26/04/2025

Anyways we're gonna play a new game this weekend :)

Drythe 🗡️📜 @drythe.com · 25/04/2025

Expedition 33 looks really damn cool

Drythe 🗡️📜 @drythe.com · 24/04/2025

Stop having good taste in games!!

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Drythe 🗡️📜 @drythe.com · 24/04/2025

Watching people discover Oblivion, a game I played in high school, is making me feel real old rn

Drythe 🗡️📜 @drythe.com · 22/04/2025

Holy shit horse armor is back

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Drythe 🗡️📜 @drythe.com · 10/04/2025

Which is my motivator behind trying to make one myself but I’ve also failed at that and I dunno what to do next

Drythe 🗡️📜 @drythe.com · 10/04/2025

Been struggling with feeling like I don’t belong to any community and it’s really wearing me down

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Drythe 🗡️📜 @drythe.com · 07/04/2025

This patch just ain't it right now

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Drythe 🗡️📜 @drythe.com · 04/04/2025

I'm something of a hero myself

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Drythe 🗡️📜 @drythe.com · 04/04/2025

But of course they finally made the game not run like garbage, small indie company after all. I’m sure they will finish their game in the next year

Drythe 🗡️📜 @drythe.com · 04/04/2025

Oh cool the zoh Shia weapons are just worse than what we already had, cool, at least I can layer them right? Oh right, feature not finished. Silly me thinking the $70 game would release feature complete One day we are going to get a monster hunter that doesn’t release incomplete right????