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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

I've gotta do Persona 5 Royal again. So that's next on the list. From there i'll either likely play P3FES or Finally try Persona 1 and Persona 2. Although I'm unsure about those yet. But, gosh I love this series.

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

I finally managed to finish my NG+ Playthrough of Persona 3 Reload. I've gotta say... Still my favourite Persona game and definitely one of my favourite games ever. I think I sobbed for like two hours.

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 09/09/2026

I'm definitely gonna try and play Revival. P4 was such a good experience and I definitely wanna experience Revival because Revival looks to fix most of my issues with P4Golden. But, time to Replay P3R, P5R & P5S again. However i'll probably play them slower.

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 09/09/2026

I finished Persona 4 Golden w/ True Ending (And Golden ending by mistake) and honestly, I should have played Persona 4 much sooner. It's really good. Definitely not my favourite Persona game (That's Persona 3) but still a good game and i'd say I liked it more than Persona 5 Royal & Strikers.

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 04/09/2026

I was level 32 before fighting the dungeon boss, purely from fighting these golden hands. I have normal exp gain on btw. I've just encountered like 30 golden hands.

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 04/09/2026

Already at where I initially stopped with Persona 4 Golden when I first tried playing P4Golden. Definitely a better experience this time than the first time. Although I am absolutely concerned about the number of Golden Hands I encountered in dungeon #2.

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 31/08/2026

I'll definitely play Revival at some point as well. However If I beat Golden I may wait for it to go to Switch 2 instead of getting an Xbox Series S for it specifically.

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 31/08/2026

So far, I've already beaten Persona 3 once, and Persona 5 a few times with Strikers once. Persona 4 is the only one I haven't finished yet. I did try Golden once, However I was still very... Clueless of Persona tbh. So hopefully with more experience Golden becomes more enjoyable.

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 31/08/2026

I decided to buy Persona 3 Reload & Persona 4 Golden on the Switch. I already had Persona 5 Royal and Strikers. I might do a large Persona Marathon over the next few months. Also, the new song Prime Time Golden Hour Show is such a banger song. I think this is a Top 5 Persona song for me already.

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 25/08/2026

I remember Cakey/Ayra getting upset mid game at your dread wringer and the reefsliders you used lmao. Your dread is insane though (and definitely evil xD)

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 24/08/2026

Yess it was such a good fight, y'all really gave us a run for our money as we were genuinely struggling hard against y'all's weapons. Definitely a match to remember for a long while!

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 24/08/2026

As someone on the other team (ggs btw y'all did well even with the dc) I also saw that and felt so bad as well 😭 Hopefully child can get their redemption, they deserve it

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 25/06/2026

YOU ACTUALLY CAPTIONED IT THAT LMAO

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 28/05/2026

In the end, This whole situation is scary, frustrating, and depressing. I wanted to vent myself about how I felt. But didn't know when to. Sorry to if this thread is messy or extremely selfish. But it's how I feel. I needed to say these things. Thanks for reading.

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 28/05/2026

My switch 1 is literally dying and the battery is unsafe. I had to retire my switch 1 and will be removing the battery and I don't have a replacement nor can afford a replacement. So, Yeah no more switch for me basically (I have a backup but it's not mine so I generally don't use it)

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 28/05/2026

They care more to me than anything else right now and the guilt I have for not being able to help them more is just... It sucks. I can only give them about $300USD for their funding to move to a different state. Which is all the money I saved for a switch 2. A thing I actually sorta needed.

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 28/05/2026

I'm sorry to my friends who even had to read this but I genuinely couldn't let myself hold these feelings in. I'm already depressed as is right now and going through so much. So this situation doesn't help but I wanna help my best friend of all time and possible future partner, get in a safe place.

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 28/05/2026

I'm sorry if this thread is confusing and messy. I know a lot of this is super selfish but I also genuinely care for Aura and I'm going to support them the best I can. But this whole situation is also hitting me hard because I lose out on so much what made me have hope and see a future.

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 28/05/2026

Literally all my life my one dream I truly ever wanted was to live and be around a person who I truly care for and could live with. Didn't matter a best friend or a partner. Didn't matter. But now Idk if i'll ever get that. I have no other best friends who are interested in that.

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 28/05/2026

But I genuinely fear so many things like never seeing Aura ever. But then also when Aura gets out of their situation into their new situation... They'd be living the life I want. The life i've craved for. So I can't help but be jealous of that.

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 28/05/2026

It's so frustrating and depressing, I've been crying for hours today, and have been dealing with mood swings all week. I can't catch a break. No one can. My mental health is about to reach rock bottom again, and All I care at this point is Aura is safe and from there idc what happens to me.

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 28/05/2026

Something that HRT actually made me wanna fucking do. But oop, No the universe decides it's time to fuck up me and my friends for no particular reason at all. Ya know, the time where we actually have something that'll make us happy. But oops, No happiness for us.

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 28/05/2026

Unsure what to do with my life now that the one thing that gave me hope is gone. Sure, It can always be done later in life, and I hope it does. But holy fucking shit i'm now going to be near damn rock bottom again where I neglect my health and stop taking care of myself.

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 28/05/2026

Now, Aura can't come to Canada to see me anymore and I don't have anything to look forward to anymore. But i'm so concerned for their safety and well-being i'm sacrificing so much of my life and things just for them to be safe. Now, I have an empty void in myself, depressed as fuck.

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 28/05/2026

Then today... It all gets taken from me. Aura (the one who I made my last post about) is now unable to see me. They're the friend who truly gave me so much and gave me reasons to Wanna keep living. I was so excited for the summer just to have the situation appear that they're going through today.

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 28/05/2026

From January till about March I felt so shit about everything and that's when I started planning to end myself after the trip ended. But then April & May have given me hope for a future, Given me reasons to live. Given me things to enjoy. Give me happiness I have been missing for so long...

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 28/05/2026

But one person in particular (same one I like crush-wise) has made me feel so good about myself and gave me things to look forward to in my life. We planned to meet in the summer and do so many things together. That whole meetup, was the SOLE thing preventing me from killing myself since January.

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 28/05/2026

So now I have online friends only and I love my online friends. In fact I even would say I love one of them romantically. In fact i'm so close with these people that, They're one of the main reasons i'm still alive. My parents too.

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 28/05/2026

I have severe social anxiety and could never make friends in High School due to being a weird person with weird passions and being an overall weird person. No one liked me and I never was able to experience having long term friends out of school. My one friend I met was my irl bestie... Moved.

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 28/05/2026

Another thing is, I have no irl friends. I have no irl support groups. I only have my parents and they're not exactly the most helpful in my situation. I love my parents yes but they suggest things to me that don't help me in the ways I need help. I only have parents, and online friends.

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 28/05/2026

Before even coming out as Trans. I started a method that would have killed me overtime. I knew I wanted to die, but I knew I didn't fulfill a life purpose I had. Which is why I wanted to take things slowly with death. That purpose was to make others live as happy as they could be.

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 28/05/2026

I've always felt lost, I've always felt no hope that i'd live a full life. No matter what I tried, Nothing worked. I can't do therapy, I don't trust talking to my family about mental health. Nothing I do works. I've always hated myself, hated my body, my deadname, identity. Everything.

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 21/05/2026

It appears some money may be awaiting you 👀

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 21/05/2026

oh wow. I mean I could probably send you that money if you really want lol. It really won't hurt me too much. I'll gladly support a girl and her dress

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 21/05/2026

How much specifically are you off? I could... Maybe fund the rest of it :)

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 16/05/2026

As an addict of this game who needs more Miis on her island, do you happen to have a mii you would be willing to send for me to add to my island?

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 13/05/2026

But, at the end of the day. All we can do is move on and reflect on what we did wrong and ensure that this can't happen again. As well as, we can hope Mystic gets help and support as a human. We're glad she's not in our space, but she should still improve herself the best she can.

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 13/05/2026

The sexual comments however are... Disgusting for sure. It took about a week extra for this to be made because I didn't wanna see the messages again. I knew i'd have to push through but, it was hard. Especially when things have changed a slight bit since the messages took place. ⬇️

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 13/05/2026

I mean, I also had really bad anger issues growing up as well. I certainly understand. But, being mad at a game while being an ass to people she played with just isn't ok. It's understandable to be upset at a game, but don't take it too far. ⬇️

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 13/05/2026

Which, I can understand. We never really felt comfortable confronting Mystic because she was always raging in our VCs. So by that, I think most would assume because they aren't told to chill or change their behaviour around people. They generally won't. ⬇️

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 13/05/2026

While Mystic has said she will leave the Splatoon community to try and reflect and get the help she needs. Actions speak louder than words, and I can only hope she is serious about it. Mystic also said in her doc she has a hard time with telling if she is crossing a line or not. ⬇️

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 12/05/2026

This document was made in collaboration between me and my friend group Friendship Saboteurs. We wanted to put this document out to share our experience with her during the few months she was in our group. If you have any questions, please reach out to me on bsky, or discord (nsmbwii) Thank you.

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 12/05/2026

TW: Sexual Comments During the past few months, me and my friend group Friendship Saboteurs, had some experiences with Mystic/Dragaliaislost, and we'd like to share some of the sexual comments she made towards us docs.google.com/document/d/1...

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Our Experience With Mystic/DragaliaisLost

We want to preface that if you read this document, or anyone else’s document, that harassing Mystic/Dragalia is NOT acceptable. If you take the information that you learn here and try to harass ANYONE...

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 22/04/2026

Should have 30 starred grass instead, would have been more impressive /j (congrats friend)

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 03/04/2026

Like yes it does continue on from the first, Although you could watch Galaxy with almost no knowledge of the first and you'd still understand 99% of the movie.

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 03/04/2026

As someone who has seen it. It's still an amazing watch regardless. I don't think seeing it as just a Sequel is a good thing, more so think of it as "Super Mario 3D World Movie" as a collective of all universes 3D Mario has. That is a better way to look at it.

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 02/04/2026

It really did, I also saw it in 3d (apparently i booked 3d tickets lol) and i genuinely loved how good it was in 3d to the point i feel like seeing it not in 3d would be wrong

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VioletNATP @dreadmodders.bsky.social · 30/03/2026

Yeah i couldn't do that life i'm already bad with sleep as is ;-;

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