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and very traumatized but thats besides the point ✌️

she always thought shame could get me to "work harder" and would get mad when it just made me shut down. like yeah girl calling me Gross and Fat and Ugly at 13 isnt gonna make me hit the gym 10 fold its gonna make me sit in my room and fear going outside and meeting people. dipshit.

even if i miss my sisters, even if ive lost 70% of my blood family because they think im selfish and evil... god am i glad im not around her anymore. i loved her up to the day she wished i was dead.

and that my father just let her say that shit. she once called me "fat, hairy and unsightly" and he said i needed to "read between her words and understand shes just trying to help because she was bullied for being fat growing up!"

sometimes my stepmother gets brought back to my forebrain and i sit there and go "was she justified in cutting me off like she did?". and then i remember when i was like 11, autistic and just getting used to my father remarrying to a woman i didnt know she called me "manipulative" for crying

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CAN WE LOOK AT THIS WITH ANYTHING DEEPER THAN "HES CUTE AND STUPID" HES CUTE AND STUPID BECAUSE HE FEARS FOR HIS LIFE !!!

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Yeah he's cute and stupid BECAUSE HES INTENTIONALLY MAKING HIMSELF LOOK LIKE THAT SO HES NOT PUT INTO THOSE SITUATIONS HE LIVED THROUGH ALREADY

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wanted to talk about a character who in my interpretation of them is utilizing looks and aloofness to protect themselves from abuse they've experienced in the past and I just keep getting "they're so cute oohhhh they're so stupid ouughhh" CAN WE LOOK AT THEM JUST A LITTLE MORE THAN A CUTE DESIGN.

there's a special evil that comes with trying to talk to people about characters you have a lot of complex thoughts on and it's very obvious the shit the other person thinks starts and ends with "I love them/I think they're hot/id fuck them". I DO TOO, BUT LETS LOOK DEEPER WHY DONT WE. PLEASE.

alien thang @doxboxrox.bsky.social · 01/02/2026

I can't put this on main or in my discord so I doubt anyone will see this but I can't work on my computer while my housemate is here and due to the ice storm no one is leaving the house 😭 I genuinely feel awful about going this long without anything but I'm trying as hard as I can

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alien thang @doxboxrox.bsky.social · 04/01/2026

cosplay......... cosplay.........

alien thang @doxboxrox.bsky.social · 02/01/2026

I fucking swear everything is out to ensure I don't ever god damn stream. either I feel ill in some form or way, something is going on irl keeping me from doing it, OR SOMETHING BREAKS ON MY FUCKING PC. "oh I'm feeling okay today let's stream-" WRONG, WINDOWS CORRUPTION ERROR

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wren @wrenanigans.bsky.social · 25/12/2025

where i create from

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alien thang @doxboxrox.bsky.social · 26/12/2025

i hate when i start feeling like people dont care because i know its untrue but my brain is . evil.

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alien thang @doxboxrox.bsky.social · 25/12/2025

NO ONE TOLD ME I POSTED A SECOND LINK TO MY STRAWPAGE INSTEAD OF AN ACTUAL LINK TO MY TUMBLR. FUCK www.tumblr.com/alien-shmalien

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The End is Never The End

alien thang @doxboxrox.bsky.social · 25/12/2025

"sorry your package isn't here yet, it got caught up in customs" and other things I got to hear at least 7 times this morning lmfao

alien thang @doxboxrox.bsky.social · 19/12/2025

idk if I'm feeling manic because I'm attempting to not think about what's going on but GRAAHH. AAHHH. EXPLODES. I LOVE CHARACTERS

alien thang @doxboxrox.bsky.social · 11/12/2025

IRON LUNG IN MY LOCAL THEATRE LETS FUCKING GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

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I don't really know why I thought streaming would always go great for me. I'm so insanely socially awkward that I flounder basic small talk and I'm trying to do a very socially intense thing? idk. I can only hope my insane autism is endearing and not. boring.

and now I'm sitting here at 1am having to talk myself down from a metaphorical ledge of wiping all my socials and giving up again. ughh.

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stream was kinda bad today on my brain, I psyched myself out so much like 10 minutes before that simply I was annoying as fuck and "evil" for wanting to mention the stupid roblox stuff and that's not great when you kinda. were planning on centering the stream around roblox art

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alien thang @doxboxrox.bsky.social · 03/12/2025

the late night horrors are starting to get to me again.

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m gonna start posting more art n stupid doodles n shit here i think. reminder that my main is @alien-shmalien.bsky.social. i also have a strawpage alienshmalien.straw.page and a tumblr alienshmalien.straw.page

alien thang @doxboxrox.bsky.social · 03/12/2025

loveshot and artful wip. idk how to explain this au in an understandable way lol

alien thang @doxboxrox.bsky.social · 12/11/2025

whats with roblox devs and seeming to fucking hate players/fans and working on their game

alien thang @doxboxrox.bsky.social · 08/10/2025

I JUST WANT WEED MAN KJHSDFGKJHKJSDFG

alien thang @doxboxrox.bsky.social · 05/10/2025

AO3 author curse but it's commissioned artist curse. shit keeps happening the second I take a commission so it takes far longer to do my work than it should

alien thang @doxboxrox.bsky.social · 01/10/2025

IM GOING TO FFFFUCKING MAUL SOMEONE <- understimulated