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i could use some consultation on what career i should work towards as a second alternative. they told me i had all the time in the world to figure that out as a kid and that lead me to procrastinate.

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but I'll be continuing with art classes in college as of this month. I might have another opportunity to make friends and get some insight on what my future will look like,if there's still a chance that I could get an art related job and if I'm in a better headspace by then.

One main reason I started to post art online was because I didn't have any friends to share my art with. Since graduating, I've only felt comfortable talking to 2-3 friends my age. but unfortunately, i distance myself unintentionally from them as i don't have enough in common with them

there's a low chance I'll ever pursue an art related career because it would require myself to build a large platform and an online persona to qualify for anything. these things of which i may not be mentally stable enough to do.

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uploaded the wrong file noooo!!!! i just finished adding more detail to the face

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my compulsive perfectionism is both a mental illness and a skill :D

Nissdixen @dixen-doster.bsky.social · 07/08/2025

i tried using krita again because of this one specific brush i like.... no airplanes again, sorry ):

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I forgot to post this from last year also, happy 1 in the morning

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Nissdixen @dixen-doster.bsky.social · 26/07/2025

ill be up to it but I'm worried ill just sit around inactive most of the time unless someone initiates conversation with me and this might come as a surprise to some but ,I'm not into fetish content either, and ill get uncomfortable if there's too much uncensored porn around.

Nissdixen @dixen-doster.bsky.social · 21/07/2025

if only i could edit posts.... i don't see why that that shouldn't be allowed on here

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Nissdixen @dixen-doster.bsky.social · 21/07/2025

sorry if i deleted and uploaded this too many times i have this annoying compulsion to fix very little details that i missed after uploading 🙃

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Nissdixen @dixen-doster.bsky.social · 10/07/2025

wasting time on 3d movie maker i finally got it to work

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and here we go again...

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it gets a lot worse when things like fatigue or lack of proper sleep come into effect as well as my adhd symptoms that can persist even while medicated. i experience this alot during the summer for some reason even if im not always outside.

yes, I've been meaning to draw fanart of one of your character for quite a while, actually! but what I'm mostly worried about is struggling to participate in the event because its hard for me to draw quickly especially when fighting compulsive perfectionism.

to my surprise i actually forgot i drew fanart from polle from mouthwashing a few months ago. i guess this would count more as popular media

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i know this photo sucks, sorry. i did not feel like scanning because nothing is 100% finished and even then, id still need to make adjustments to the scanned drawing my brain so fried

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I'm either lethargic or feel like I'm on coke at night and i cant sleep (its going to happen again) i wish i could enjoy falling asleep like before... but at what cost, really?

i have never participated in artfight(and probably never will) because my brain chemistry gets weird during this month specifically :/

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most times i ever make fanart for any media its most likely going to be something really obscure nobody cares about. (,:

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sadly, 3dmm didn't work properly when i tried to play it for the first time. i need to try again if it doesn't take up too much space on my computer. but i still wanted to make fanart of this character because i cant find any online

Nissdixen @dixen-doster.bsky.social · 23/06/2025

McZee from windows 3d movie maker because yeah.

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its confusing because i don't have a character that i can pinpoint as a self insert. as many traits as i can share with a character i will always see myself as an observer rather than a participant in my work.

Nissdixen @dixen-doster.bsky.social · 23/06/2025

both of them are influenced by my personality/appearance myself to some degree but id have to say that i can relate to the monster more than the human

Nissdixen @dixen-doster.bsky.social · 23/06/2025

i think some may know me well enough to know that the character on the left is a woman 🙃

Nissdixen @dixen-doster.bsky.social · 20/06/2025

found another one of them that i could not bring myself to finish coloring. the proportions keep changing every time

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Nissdixen @dixen-doster.bsky.social · 20/06/2025

not doing planes again , sorry guys 😞

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Nissdixen @dixen-doster.bsky.social · 16/06/2025

whenever he feels bored or understimulated, he annoys his human friend to come over to visit for a few days. He agrees to it because he feels bad for him living in isolation despite having moments like this one.

Nissdixen @dixen-doster.bsky.social · 15/06/2025

I dont draw on my phone scince around that time because it gives me motion sickness

Nissdixen @dixen-doster.bsky.social · 15/06/2025

Drew this on my sansung s-note around november

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Nissdixen @dixen-doster.bsky.social · 14/06/2025

I'm starting to get worried that i have gotten worse at color over time newer art looks pretty bland compared to this but i guess it has to do more with my state of mind?

Nissdixen @dixen-doster.bsky.social · 14/06/2025

recently i have been archiving a lot of my old plane art from more than 2 years ago on fur affinity if anyone what's to check that out. i also found this that i never got to post from almost 3 years ago, completely forgot this existed

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Nissdixen @dixen-doster.bsky.social · 11/06/2025

hope i didn't miss a typo 🙏

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Nissdixen @dixen-doster.bsky.social · 11/06/2025

some letters are capitalized when they're not supposed to be. it adds character to the dialogue.

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Nissdixen @dixen-doster.bsky.social · 10/06/2025

i have had assignments at school turned back to me because i got suspected of using chat gpt its so frustrating.

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Nissdixen @dixen-doster.bsky.social · 10/06/2025

nobody in my life has ever commented on this but its so frustrating having this uncomfortably stilted style of writing especially when i cant think clearly. you would know a lot more about me if you heard me talking I'm just really slow at writing. i wish it could be the opposite sometimes.

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Nissdixen @dixen-doster.bsky.social · 10/06/2025

he is too concentrated on not loosing a round of online chess to be bothered by anyone else and well he could be more polite about it but that's just his personality

Nissdixen @dixen-doster.bsky.social · 09/06/2025

-wip I'm working backwards and forwards from this page, sorry if it looks out of context !

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Nissdixen @dixen-doster.bsky.social · 07/06/2025

i get much more traction on fur affinity in comparison to tumblr from what I've seen, tumblr barley has a substantial community for things that i am interested in , sadly. i should have given it a second thought before creating an account as someone who is frequently inactive online.