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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 09/10/2026

Finally the weekend is here. Time to relax and listen to my body screaming in agony.

Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

Standing in front of people, who stupidly block seats in public transport, until they get it. One of my new hobbies, very enjoyable and you get a free seat (f POTS).

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

too sick for work, but not too much for video games :3

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

In a parallel universe a rich version of me is suffering from theseus ship syndrom after heavily investing in bionics research and replacing too much of their own body :3

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

Sitting down in the bus, then noticing that the seat is wet... I dont even know with what, but its not pleasant.

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

My gender can best be described via the electron slit experiment

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

It's crazy how many people think throwing a group of people under the bus is necessary and in any way shape or form justifiable. Human rights are non negotiable. Oh yeah they only make up less than one percent, lets sacrifice them to the blood god so our harvest will be plentiful.

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

Sorry people but gender is over. It's now called america and no one knows what thats supposed to mean

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

I hate how you can do everything right. Enough food, water and sleep. But still going crashout after work. Can i please have some energy in my freetime?!

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

So the left party got 25% in the Berlin state election. Queue the horseshoe theorists

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

More state elections in germany. And the question of how to handle a certifiably extremist right wing party is still unanswered. They are going to get enough votes to get positions. They may not be part of the government, but a far right city council position can do enough harm already.

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

Sometimes keeping on existing is enough for the day.

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

My fitness app telling me to take a recovery day everyday. Hmmmmmm

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

I love my job. Especially on days where i get to point out all the things that could and should be improved. Weaponized pedantry and i get paid fot it :3

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 15/09/2026

It's so annoying that my voice seems closely connected to my confidence. Because thats just asking for a feedback loop. Day sucks? Well sucking at your own voice will definetly not improve that.

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 15/09/2026

Don't like doctors for many reasons. Now a new problem arises. I transitioned, found a will to live. Now i kinda wanna be able to breath so nose thats been crooked for 20years needs to be looked at. Shoulder pops out on occasion for 18 years. My general practitioner just didn't believe me... cool..

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 14/09/2026

Because of my work i needed to do a medical examination. When the doctor started talking about pregnancy, i flatout told him, that i am trans. He then proceeded to ask me what operations i had and have planned. I asked him if that was relevant. It wasn't. His reason? Medical interest. F right off

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

Having someone to talk to about trauma without assumptions or prejudice is irreplacable.

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 12/09/2026

I love the times when i am in balance with my own needs and have energy to share.

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 12/09/2026

Went to a concert, but the band canceled last minute. Now ive become a lost soul wandering around the city, looking for stimulation. Wish me luck :3

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 12/09/2026

F* voice training. I'm just gonna stick with singing along to voices i like.

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 11/09/2026

If i had the power to snap people out of existence, people who dont look where they are going, wouldn't last long

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 11/09/2026

Do xou know the feeling, when the world seems to slow for xour expected input? Are xou still waiting for an answer in 7 different chats and it feels like nothing is getting resolved? Can xou handle that?

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 10/09/2026

Another guy i met in a bar. He actually was a friend for years but that fizzled out way before me transitioning. Met him again half a year in. He went full on chaser mode. Arm around me bombarding me with all the wrong questions, his girlfriend sitting 5m away. Had to scream to make him stop

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 10/09/2026

Once met a guy in a bar that was going crazy, because he thought i was a "lazy academic, who never worked a day in their life". Thats like the opposite of the truth and also wouldn't be a reason to be an asshole. Like, how are academics the enemy of the working class?

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 10/09/2026

So many thoughts in my head right now driving donuts around whats left of my sanity. And none of them ready to be formulated and released into the void. Hope they don't start crashing into each other again, thats always such a mess

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 07/09/2026

44% in a german state for the far-right party AfD. They are categorised as "right-wing extremist" and "unconstitutional". Can someone in this shit country grow a fucking pair and start the party ban proceedings?! But they are too powerful, yeah because you fing let them.

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 03/09/2026

i can't enjoy some content creators, because they constantly adress their audience with gendered terms. Please don't call everyone "boys" two times a minute. Am i not wanted as an audience or am i expected to not care? Either way, impossible, can't enjoy it, i'm finding something else to watch.

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 03/09/2026

for some reason, when i start a new post, my cellphone gives me the option, to input one of my saved passwords. What a great idea

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 03/09/2026

i will never understand people that think its okay after knowing each other for like 10minutes, to ask about my past and future medical alterations to my body. And the reason is always just curiosity. Great, let me just talk about my deepest feelings with strangers, cause they are curious.

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 27/08/2026

Starting to feel confident enough in my own body to actually try and reach my weight goal. The disphoria buffer fat can finally go. Thanks HRT

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 18/08/2026

Ads are annoying, but i just encountered a new form of annoying. Autoplay, with sound, only on the left channel. I, i can't even....

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 18/08/2026

Still very much unable to handle compliments, but i'm getting them more often now, so i'll have opportunity to learn.

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 22/07/2026

Hate having to open the eyes of people, who are dear and close to me, when their learned toxic behaviour shows. break the cycle

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 22/07/2026

Sleepless night is not a solid foundation for anything

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 10/07/2026

Its weird how im perfectly capable of producing a passable female voice, but somehow my brain keeps me from doing it. Still don't know the exact reason, but there are suspects.

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 10/07/2026

I feared that my medical checkup would show raised liver levels. Now that i know my liver is fine, i fear that this gives me a false impression of my casual alcohol use.

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 10/07/2026

The more i understand myself, the more i understand my mother

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 10/07/2026

Switching your brain from work to freetime isn't easier, if you made your hobby your job

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 03/07/2026

For hEDS the diagnostic is just bodily symptons xou can check yourself. The treatment is excersises, that alleviate the smptons. xou can do these at home. If they help, the diagnosis by a trained professional feels kinda pointless.

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 03/07/2026

Friday. Time to forget about your obligations and put recovery and fun first :3

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 29/06/2026

Established myself at my workplace and earned enough respect to feel comfortable to slowly let some people in on me being trans. Its kinda cute how most of them were thankful for letting them know such a big secret. I'm bricky af what do you mean?! :3 So far everything went better than expected.

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 29/06/2026

Its bearable Temperatures again. Oh how i missed functioning

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 24/06/2026

Do you know, how you instinctively pull your hand back, when something is too hot? I get that feeling when i step out into the sun, somethings trying to jerk me back to the shadows.

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 20/06/2026

Theres a certain type of person you can have long talks with about befriending crows. I do like to befriend those people :3

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 20/06/2026

If i start to stretch next to you and sigh loudly after the pops you have reached the trust level of, my inner cat feeling comfortable having you around while relieving the tension in my joints. Making me uncomfortable by telling me how weird i look doing it, takes you back to:

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Deep Trans Thought @dieterranerin.bsky.social · 20/06/2026

I don't like >30°C(86°F) I can feel my brain fighting to keep functioning, i'm heavily breathing just from existing, everthings sticky...

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