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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026

@dexi.rocks
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18+ only please; occasional, sometimes deeply personal, vents as well he/they | 26 | 🇲🇾 | ENG/中文 ✅, BM (CEFR A1) A: @renkindle.gay | B: @sony-shock.bsky.social dexi.rocks

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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 02/10/2026
…sooo after waiting for 13 days (and on a Friday nonetheless) I’m very likely the first Steam Frame owner in my country Gonna be testing stuff on it soon, if anyone has any specific requests to test feel free to reply under this post and I’ll try to get back ASAP; no full-body/face tracking for now
A picture of the Steam Frame, with its packaging opened sideways to avoid the reflections on the headset’s front, along with the unboxed ergonomic accessories kit at the background.
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 29/09/2026
I AM GONNA SCREAM
A screenshot of a parcel tracker saying my parcel is going through customs inspection
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 24/09/2026
This is genuinely fucked up
A screenshot of a Channel News Asia article about Najib bin Razak’s donation drive organised by his party, UMNO, to get his fifty million ringgit fine funded after being jailed for embezzlement from the 1MDB scandal, which says:

“Some Najib supporters took to social media to share the huge amounts they donated.

Quote, this is the highest point in my life, to be able to repay Datuk Seri Najib’s efforts. Worth all the effort of me working overtime, sand a Threads user, who also included an attachment of her four thousand ringgit donations.”

For reference, RM4000 is far above the median salary nationwide and just survivable in Kuala Lumpur.
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 18/09/2026
I still have no idea what the hell Clearsky is but this is probably a very funny coincidental description of it judging from how you guys reacted
A screenshot of the what I assume is the top comment of a reddit post from r/Stalker the video game series asking "Is Clear Sky really that bad?" from Brave Search, which says:

"I think a lot of people's issue is that it's a lot of rehashed areas and a focus on mechanics that was extremely janky and didn't work very well. Warfare mode was aggravating at worse and a fun distraction for easy money at best.

Artifact hunting turned into a chore, but that would be refined in Call of Pripyat, and the ending is about the worse the series would get in terms of being an absolute boring bullet hell."
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 31/08/2026
Can you tell how bored I am The parade isn't even starting until like 25 minutes later
A screenshot of four split browser tabs on Vivaldi containing:
- RTM News livestream on YouTube (top-left)
- Bernama TV livestream on YouTube (top-right)
- Astro Awani livestream on Youtube (bottom-left)
- Malaysian TV1 on RTM Klik (bottom-right)
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 24/08/2026
Starting to wonder why am I doing this to myself
A screenshot of my Obsidian vault with a list of articles, and the current active article being out of view on the right side. The list of articles are titled:

- Before Arriving
- Eat
- Get In
- Getting Around
- Homepage
- Internet
- Pay
- Stay
- Stay Safe
- Transport
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 21/08/2026
Very much WIP but 👀
A screenshot of a web browser showing a website I've been working on, with the website split into light and dark themes filled with filler text to show off the style, as well as two incomplete title font and paragraph font buttons meant to give users options to change the included fonts as they wish.

The "light" and "dark" colours are slightly tinted with yellow to evoke the same feeling from slightly old papers.
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 16/08/2026
Throwing in all of the clothing refs too lensdump.com/a/uD9lb Have fun :3
Cropped reference sheet of my sona Kichi, a light-yellow lop-eared anthro rabbit with unusually long ears with an off-white underbelly and lime-green irises.
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 14/08/2026
So I just did the quiz everyone else has been doing
A result of Undertale soul quiz made by Jaden the Jaded, showing Kindness as my top soul at 75% with a quote saying “no matter how many times I got hurt, I never let that make me cruel.”

This is followed with:
- Justice at 68%
- Determination at 67%
- Bravery at 57%
- Perseverance at 55%
- Integrity at 46%
- Patience at 18%
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 14/08/2026
I've PEAKED once again
A screenshot of the ending screen of PEAK the game, showing that I have successfully completed the game solo in 1 hour, 20 minutes and 24 seconds, as well as an achievement of me crossing the new biome released a few days ago. My in-game name is notably censored.
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 13/08/2026
Anyways, this local cendol place (literally next to a federal route-turned-highway section mind you) somehow has Route 66 decoration, and I know Mario Kart World took inspirations from the latter …so I did the funniest thing possible
A picture of Switch 2 showing Work Outfit Koopa Troopa tricking in front of Mario Bros. Circuit inside Mario Kart World, with a bowl of cendol to its right, with the camera focusing on the background inside a cendol place and more specifically its US Route 66 decoration hung on an astroturf wall among others like two fake license plates showing Volkswagen and Eiffel Tower of all things.

The background also consists of a banner listing a menu of different cendol variants, and a no-smoking sign in Malay.Same picture as earlier except the camera focus is on the foreground towards the Switch 2 and bowl of cendol instead.
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 12/08/2026
Been having fun on Mario Kart World freeroam lately I think I NEED those pastries
Work Outfit Koopa Troopa tries to stuff a humongous plate of spicy kare rice while the pink Yoshi at the food counter cheers on themWork Outfit Koopa Troopa looking back, with a basket of mini Koopa Troopa bread right behind themA basket of miscellaneous Mario enemies pastries, including green shells pastries, various faces of Boos buns, Thwomp Japanese milk bread, Goomba muffin, an ordinary croissant, and a Signal Bug-shaped basket handle (took me way too long to find the latter’s name)
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 01/08/2026
Actually super happy that I agak-agak’d my way to the same canned spicy oil tuna fried rice a cousin of mine made me almost 16 years ago
A bowl of fried rice made of canned spicy oil tuna, frozen mixed veggies, eggs and crushed cherry tomatoes with the skin pre-peeled

At the top of the image is the edge of the table cloth
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 30/07/2026
:3
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 27/07/2026
Chat I think I cooked something up with the last message (see alt text for context)
Some context is required going in for non-Malaysians:
- “penyu” is Malay for “sea turtle”, used as a nickname for a former prime minister Ismail Sabri Yaakob
- “madey” is just a shortform for Mahathir Mohamad
- “najib” is Najib Razak of 1MDB scandal fame
- “proton” is essentially a Malaysian car brand and the brainchild of Mahathir
- “pak lah” was another former prime minister Abdullah Ahmad Badawi, whose tenure was generally perceived to be lackluster or otherwise non-consequential 
- “look east” refers to the Look Easy policy enacted during Mahathir’s first premiership towards specifically Japan

Mahathir is *the* neoliberal prime minister that led to massive car dependency in Malaysia to this day despite culturally aligning the country towards Japan to the point where Japanese people could genuinely experience like they’re back home in Kuala Lumpur. This is in part why Japanese car brand like Toyota and Honda are some of the most popular car brands in Malaysia.

Mahathir is also known for his personal vendetta against rail transport in specific and closed down several regional branch lines as well as splitting up the national rail company into operations and asset-owning companies which still negatively affects the former’s operations to this day.

What follows is an adjusted transcript of a screenshot in a Discord server I’m in.

Me: “Nah, Mahathir has the longest lasting damage (towards Malaysia”

Person 1 replying to me: “Sabri stole some money but (it) isn’t as consequential as Mahathir’s car-fucking tendencies”

Person 2 replying to me: “True, Abdullah (is) the best lol”

Me replying to person 1 with strikethrough: “I like how we’re skipping Najib’s most publicised money stealing, but yes I totally believe Mahathir fucks cars in private”

Also me: “Proton should have died, WHERE (IS) MY FUCKING TRAIN??? Look east, look east, look so east we looked past Shinkansen into Toyota”
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 15/07/2026
I don't follow UK politics but but this is way too funny of a camera shot to not share (source in reply) Credits to @owenarandz.bsky.social who first posted about it on Twitter: x.com/OwenArandz/s...
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 14/07/2026
me, too tired to get out from bed for dinner earlier
A screenshot of YouTube showing J. Draper’s video titled “is wearing armoir as hard as it looks? The London History Show”, where the thumbnail shows a person wearing full medieval armour lying on the ground face-down, with their legs pointing upwards, next to a caption saying “I can’t get up”.
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 05/07/2026
Posting this cause I’m trying to relearn Japanese again I should play Rhythm Heaven
A picture of one part of kana tables showing p-consonant-based kana, going “pa”, “pi”, “pu”, “pe”, “po”.
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 11/06/2026
It’s crazy how much of an masc-enby goal this is to me, why does this look so good???
A screenshot of Apple Music showing the album art of Dawen Wang’s Fashion, with him wearing a black vest over a white long sleeve tangzhuang with a solver necklace. He is head turned towards his left and slightly upwards, with some stealth eye makeups.
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 31/05/2026
Henlo Baby Globe Yes I drove all the way to KLCC Park in the middle of the night just to take this pic
A picture of Baby Globe plushie held up by me late at night, out of focus, with the background consisting of Petronas Twin Towers among other skyscrapers that is in focus. The picture was taken within KLCC Park right next to the park entrance of the convention centre.
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 29/05/2026
My Baby Globe plushie is on its way and Wikipedia decided to post this I feel very called out
A YouTube post from Wikipedia showing a drawing of a cat held between two hands, captioned the following:

“Cute aggression is the urge to squeeze or bite things perceived as being cute without the desire to cause any harm.”

The post itself says “you may experience cute aggression when spotting Baby Globe 🥰”
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 05/05/2026
So I was creating an embed pic for my newly completed blogsite’s outline, and I was suddenly reminded of this pic It took me half an hour of searching to find out it’s actually a fan edit with the author completely unknown :(
A screenshot of a Discord message of me sharing a picture of Hikaru Utada sitting on and in front of a canvas, where the non-binary flag was edited in after they came out as one at 2021

The accompanying message from me says: “chat, I am actually sad that this picture of Hikaru Utada had the flag edited in because it would have gone so fucking hard
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 02/05/2026
I feel called out and I couldn’t resist getting it
Taken at LivingBread’s stall at MyFur’s Got Talent dealer’s den, the picture shows a sticker of an orange cap surrounded by different coloured text bubbles filled with text, with the bottom caption, also in text bubble style, saying “PROFESSIONAL YAPPER” (probably by @SharkTuna’s since their business card is below it?)
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 25/04/2026
Extremely proud of this footer design tho
A screenshot of my work-in-progress blog site's footer, where it's explicitly designed as a non-binary flag, each horizontal stripe acting as a divider for each separate section
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 21/04/2026
Got a comm from @lollitree.bsky.social a week ago and it's SO GOOD I JUST HAD TO SHARE IT You guys really should comm them
A bust art of my sona Kichi, a yellow bunny with long floppy ears, in their main outfit, consisting of a black crop-top (with one side having long sleeve and the other being sleeveless and a slightly raised turtleneck collar), worn on top of a black tank top, with chest fur poking out on the chest window formed between the two garment, as well as a lime green wristband matching their eye colours

They're looking towards the viewer smiling with their mouth wide open, with the head slightly tilted to their right, with their right hand raised up and keeping their palm open, in front of an abstract blue to green gradient background
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 16/04/2026
This is probably the funniest bit of the article
A screenshot of an article from The Guardian regarding the popularity of an Australian-founded chocolate malt drink brand outside Australia, showing a photograph of one Australian dollar commemorating Milo.

The coin in question has a big M letter at the background, the nostalgic Milo tin container used to hold the powder, and a glass cup in the front filled with presumably milk and Milo powder whose content is being aggressively stirred with a spoon, with some of the liquid spilled over the side of the cup and on the ground.
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 06/04/2026
Have these other three too
FamilyMart’s promotion during the Ramadan and Eid periods featuring catsFamilyMart’s poster & sticker set of Eid featuring a bunch of cats in a FamilyMart settingChagee’s green packets featuring a bunch of cats in a traditional Malay house along with a bunch of Raya-related activities
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 06/04/2026
@fizzbuzzmeow.bsky.social Not joking about this btw, literally every single Eid festival ads that’s animal themed all feature cats This one at my new workplace has a background music of a classic Malay Eid song…played using meows
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 19/03/2026
I was SCREAMING hours ago about why Wikipedia isn’t releasing Baby Globe plushie, then YouTube decided it’s time to recc me the official plush I couldn’t resist; this is the first ever plushie I bought for myself (I never even bought Blahaj)
A screenshot of an order on Makeship selling the plushie of Wikipedia’s 25th anniversary mascot, Baby Globe, for 29.99 US dollars with 8.99 shipping for a total of 38.98 dollars
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 12/03/2026
Did it again for second and third time on both my main PC with a TV and on my Macbook, the latter gave me much better results but it actually forced me to be more patient and to look at different angles
Second try on a TV which my main PC is connected to with a score of 0.0068Third try on a very recent Macbook’s screen that forced me to slow down and look at the screen from different angles, with a score of 0.0030
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 12/03/2026
Got this first try (nice) Worth noting that this is done on an iPhone screen looked at very close up for some of it, you’d realistically need something standardized for actual experiments
Score of 0.0069 on a Just Noticeable Difference colour test
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 11/03/2026
Insane that the MoH uses pictures of *flans* to illustrate their current stockpile by blood type just because a major food influencer turned making flan into a trend
A screenshot of a tweet by evvok which reads:

"I realised earlier this week [that] I can't donate blood sebab puasa (see note 1) and all, saja (see note 2) browse website [of] PDN (see note 3) this morning. Now, why the hell do they illustrate it like this?", followed by a crying emote

The included picture shows an infographic by the Ministry of Health, which is essentially a call for more blood donations throughout Ramadan, of the current stockpile of blood available by its type as of Febuary 26, 2026.

Each blood type is depicted with a plate of flan with the following legend:
- An uncut flan means there are sufficiently enough stockpiles
- A flan with a wedge cut out means the stockpile is starting to become low
- A single wedge of flan means the stockpile is dangerously low

With that in context, it is shown that type A and type O stockpiles aren't looking good (not dangerously so), while type B and AB stockpiles are doing perfectly fine.

note 1: "sebab puasa" is Malay for "because [I'm] fasting", this is in context of the Ramadan fasting practised by Muslims

note 2: "saja" is short for "sahaja" in Malay for "only", in this context it implies that the author just did something

note 3: PDN is the abbreviation for Malaysia's National Blood Centre in its Malay name
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 06/03/2026
Nothing against babyfurs or ABDL to be very clear Having seen those myself in person in the mainland Chinese import stores here (& apparently now mainstream supermarkets according to a friend), it's funny to me how mainland China managed to make drinking from water bottle as an adult *fashionable*
A screenshot from Twitter of a post by shellsist, dated October 17, 2025, quote:

"I'm not a babyfur but there's this Chinese yoghurt drink that I really like with the caveat that it comes in a baby suck bottle, so I just buy it and lie in bed sucking on it while scrolling Instagram reels"

Attached to the post is a photo of them holding up the aforementioned baby bottle drink in a supermarket, where the Chinese label quite literally says "I am still a baby".
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 06/03/2026
YouTube recommending me a St. Cavish (very good stuff, go watch) video about northeastern Chinese barbecue right next to Fabulous Beasts animation who literally just introduced a new character *canonically from that area* doing that style of barbecue two episodes ago feels very intentional
A screenshot of YouTube showing Fabulous Beasts episode 51 right next to Saint Cavish's video on northeastern Chinese barbecue
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 02/03/2026
A sneak peek for what I’m doing for the past few days
A board of something that shows a small part of Kichi’s current ref sheet over a white background with inner blue and outer black borders, with a blue tint all over the picture itself
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 20/02/2026
Since season 5 of Fabulous Beasts/有兽焉 just came out on bilibili a few hours ago, have this god tier frame I accidentally paused onto in episode 51 (S5E3) teaser (don’t mind the oversaturation, blame Windows HDR)
A screenshot of Fabulous Beasts/You Shou Yan season 5 episode 3, featuring Tianlu (Pipi) biting onto a blue mushroom right after lunging towards it, with Tuye (Rabbit God), dog walking Tianlu, looking back towards him away from his phone
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 17/02/2026
This is genuinely the worst way to lose a hardcore campaign ngl Y'all should have heard the screams I did at the end
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 10/02/2026
Speaking of which, I have another humongous horse sculpture at a nearby mall from where I am
A huge brown horse adorned with a collar made of ancient Chinese coins and red-and-yellow saddle at Pavilion Bukit Jalil
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 06/01/2026
Late to the party buuut: @\bukoya.com @\psydoktor.bsky.social @\kaiera.furria.net @\woblyear.bsky.social Kichi has like 20+ unique ones so far I LOVE giving my sona new outfits to experiment with (often involving the artists w/ the designs) and I really, *really* wanna make & wear them IRL
Kichi's main outfit, drawn by and co-designed with Bukoya, with:
- a black sleeveless shirt
- a black long sleeve on their right arm that extends all the way back to his torso, allowing the chest fur to peek out
- a black fingerless glove
- a lime green bracelet, cargo shorts and socks, paired with all-black sneakersKichi in punk outfit, co-designed with Shadoo and Psydoktor (art drawn by latter), with:
- a black sleeveless crop top
- a long-sleeve fishnet shirt
- spiked choker (not shown) and bracelets
- finger chain rings
- black mascara
- black long pants
- black boots with two belts eachKichi in an outfit entirely designed and drawn by Kaiera, with:
- a latex sleeveless crop top with turtleneck collar
- two latex long sleeve covers
- a sleeveless white puff jacket, where just one side extends below the waistline
- a pink long cargo pants with white stripes on the sides and in-seams
- black leg coversKichi in an outfit entirely designed and drawn by Woblyear, with:
- an really light brown graphics undershirt of a plant growing out of pebbles
- a dark green collar short-sleeve shirt with the sleeves rolled up
- a dark green beanie with a non-binary flag circular pin
- a light brown sling bag worn crossbody
- a dark brown shorts with two patches (one carrot, one star) paired with a dark-grey belt
- a pair of dark-grey open toe boots
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 03/01/2026
Listening to my main playlist with all kinds of genres while having my pedestrian-only city on Cities Skylines 2 put me into such a trance that it weirdly feels really nice
A picture of my monitor with Apple Music on the foreground playing my main playlist, with my pedestrian-only city on Cities Skylines 2 at the background showing the flow of the central train station
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 01/01/2026
I like how this is the first thing I saw after closing the game
A screenshot of the Nintendo Switch Online section on my Switch 2 where I could redeem a DK Bananza icon, the first one is a sad DK
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 31/12/2025
Why is this making me unusually happy
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 31/12/2025
Played Rainbow Cup for the last time this year, and this time I’m letting the credits play out in full Time to hop onto ACNH for its new year event
The ending screen of Mario Kart World credits, with a photo of the ensemble of characters you could play in game
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 28/12/2025
Out of context this line is actually hella based tbh
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 20/12/2025
Just found out that Sibuxiang is canonically naked without his cape and I am not sure how to feel about that mangadex.org/chapter/470e...
A screenshot from You Shou Yan (Fabulous Beasts) webcomics episode 1127 containing two panels:

The first panel has Sibuxiang, without wearing his cape, closing the window from his bedroom, wondering “there hasn’t been any major incidents lately”, but Meteor appeared out of nowhere trying to climb into said window with a “liu”.

The second panel features Sibuxiang pointing at Meteor in shock and screaming, where the narrator says “for Sibuxiang, not a single day goes by peacefully.”A screenshot from You Shou Yan (Fabulous Beasts) webcomics episode 1128 featuring the very first panel, where Sibuxiang, recovering from shock, asked Meteor: 

“What are you doing out there this hour? At least knock before you come in. Let me throw something on.”

To which Meteor replied: “Sorry, I forgot you wear clothes.”
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 13/12/2025
CW: Potentially loud music Coming back from FURUM Dance Night where the last DJ of the day (Recca) was doing house music only to discover that PEAK collabed with a rap & house artist to do in-game concert *this very weekend* is somehow the funniest *and* best thing to happen tonight
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 09/12/2025
Gonna just post this excerpt from my own long-disused journal CW for venting and anxiety related stuff I guess
Imagine that you're being and living as me for a moment.

There are people who you KNOW truly care about you as a person. You also lived through almost two decades worth of trauma revolving around all kinds of relationships (used generically here) and your own family. You also know that because of these there are plenty of people who you care about (and no longer in contact with) that *(feel like they) hate* you, and you *know* they are not in the wrong because of what you did to them.

Your trust on a lot of people, people in general and even *your own self* has, ironically and more importantly *hypocritically*, also been fundamentally *destroyed* because of all that, usually when said people aren’t in fault.

So what you end up doing is that you maintain an emotional distance from everyone, and I do mean *everyone*, but for some reasons you still make yourself vulnerable to them one way or another.Yet, whenever you see or get reminded of something or someone that ends up triggering and upsetting you, it makes you feel terrible, because you know it's not anyone's faults that you feel upset like a goddamn schoolchild. But you can't do anything about how you feel, let alone stop it.

What you ended up doing is that you start pushing people away instead. Even those who you *feel* closest to, and it is *very hard* for you to feel that after everything you went through, and those who have nothing to do with the triggers in the first place anyways.

Which makes you feel even worse for pushing away those you know cares about you, because what this all means, you realise, is that you fundamentally do NOT trust that they can handle your worst moments. All despite, ironically, them willing to trust you on that the other way around and you willing to accept that.So what you do is to ignore the pain you've accumulated all these years and it works...until it becomes too much for you to handle, then you shut yourself out. And yet you still do the bare minimum of replying back to those very people still care about you; you *don't want* them to become worried or feeling awful through no fault of their own **because of you**.

This kind of emotional cycle happens far too frequently and too rapidly to the point that, at least for certain triggers, I've become unhealthily numb. And it's *never* a guarantee that I won't face the full force of the emotions again next time the trigger appears even if I fully expect it to happen.

I'll be honest, this happens *even with some people I hate their fucking guts of for one reasons or another*. At this point it feels like I keep pushing on with life out of pure utter spite and grief as much as, if not more than, my own hopes and dreams (I *am* being genuine here).I have never not felt that I'm all around just a bad person all the time (let alone forgiving myself), partly because of letting people face the full brunt of my emotions in the past whenever it gets too much, partly because of knowing that there are people out there who hate my guts because of that and what I did related to that, partly because I know I am a very spiteful person after all this, among a lot of quite frankly complicated reasons I couldn't even quite remember or describe.

I don't know how to end this whole venting here because what else can I even add? That I hope people can read and at least understand why I am so closed off and even hostile? No, I don't believe anymore that people would even give a shit about this whole essay, and they *shouldn't*. But at least I have something to shout at the public void for.
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 03/12/2025
Context: my aunt (uncensored name) is not fluent in English Something about this just fucking sent me, I couldn’t even view it as endearing (it should be) cause it’s from my own family
Aunt mentions me and my brother on family groupchat.

My brother sent a question mark in reply before my aunt asks plainly to “eat pig satay (skewers)”, to which my brother responds with “no”.

My aunt then sent a pic of the pork skewers and added “so yummy”.
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 02/12/2025
Being advertised Labubu on an article explaining how researches are showing that climate change is more expensive than preventing it is so fucking cursed that I have no words to describe it
A Guardian article about researchers looking into the economical costs of achieving net-zero versus not doing it (spoilers: it’s significantly cheaper to achieve net-zero internationally), with an advertising space showing Labubu plushies of all things in the middle of the article
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Kichi 🔜FURUM’2026 @dexi.rocks · 01/12/2025
Shinkansen yaoi (headcanon) in Animal Crossing is NOT on my bingo cards
A screenshot of Animal Crossing: New Horizons in Wendy’s house, where they say: “I dreamt the idea when I fell asleep watching Maglevs in Love. It’s about trains in love! One of them-“ before abruptly cutting themselves off
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