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⭐️ Dew ⭐️ (12.9/55lbs) @dewdroplets2.bsky.social · 12h

i dont wanna get worse but my brain is begging me to just let go and fall

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⭐️ Dew ⭐️ (12.9/55lbs) @dewdroplets2.bsky.social · 17h

writing a song super wip but i like the lyircs at least. might change up the guitar tho

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⭐️ Dew ⭐️ (12.9/55lbs) @dewdroplets2.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

why do i have to exist in this huge body im going to cry

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⭐️ Dew ⭐️ (12.9/55lbs) @dewdroplets2.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

I could feel my brain which i was trying so hard to wire to be at least a little healther rewire its pathways in real fucking time and all the urges have come flooding back whereas i was losing weight steadily and eating what i wanted recently. i wanna cry

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⭐️ Dew ⭐️ (12.9/55lbs) @dewdroplets2.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

i made the mistake of watching an anorexia documentary on youtube. i am insanely triggered now and probably going to act on it and its gonna cause arguments with my boyfriend

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⭐️ Dew ⭐️ (12.9/55lbs) @dewdroplets2.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

143lbs has never looked this good on me before

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⭐️ Dew ⭐️ (12.9/55lbs) @dewdroplets2.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

almost every night i have ana dreams where i wake up ridiculously skinny and everyones concerned for me and i pretend to be concerned too but in reality im so excited and happy

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⭐️ Dew ⭐️ (12.9/55lbs) @dewdroplets2.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

finished my history quiz got 100 on it yayay but i still have two more essays to write todsy unfortunately. im about 1/4 through the first one but its gonna be a long day

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⭐️ Dew ⭐️ (12.9/55lbs) @dewdroplets2.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

i lost weight this morning yay!! i was finally able to update my app cuz i refused to tell it my weight was fluctuating for my own sanity lmfao

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⭐️ Dew ⭐️ (12.9/55lbs) @dewdroplets2.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

got up tried to make eggs there were no eggs sadness got cookie dough to drown my sadness immediately moved to schoolwork and got the section ive been needing to read for the essay done way before i thought i would (i scheduled out two hours i spent 40 min) so yay

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⭐️ Dew ⭐️ (12.9/55lbs) @dewdroplets2.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

lord have mercy i locked the fuck in and finished an entire essay in like 4 hours with citations n shit help

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⭐️ Dew ⭐️ (12.9/55lbs) @dewdroplets2.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

gotta lock the fuck in tmrw i have sm schoolwork

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⭐️ Dew ⭐️ (12.9/55lbs) @dewdroplets2.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

im too anxious to do smth like that lol i would feel horrible

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⭐️ Dew ⭐️ (12.9/55lbs) @dewdroplets2.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

i keep maintaining and i hate it literally what am i doing wrong why wont the scale budge

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⭐️ Dew ⭐️ (12.9/55lbs) @dewdroplets2.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

i wanna be graded on comprehension not whether my opinion matches his ugh

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⭐️ Dew ⭐️ (12.9/55lbs) @dewdroplets2.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

the same thing happened with another assignment i got two points off the only feedback was "society today also does bad stuff" and that i met all the requirements but the assignment just asks my general opinion on the reading

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⭐️ Dew ⭐️ (12.9/55lbs) @dewdroplets2.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

idk if i explained it right but he thinks chinas system was good and clearly worked bc of how long it lasted and i beilive they shouldve thought to change smth

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⭐️ Dew ⭐️ (12.9/55lbs) @dewdroplets2.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

basically he didnt like that i was dissing chinas political system at the time cuz "americas system hasnt lasted as long" which isnt real feedback or something i got wrong its mostly his opinion. even said i met the requirements and still took a point off

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⭐️ Dew ⭐️ (12.9/55lbs) @dewdroplets2.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

its world history my opinion was that china should have tried looking for a different general political system bc the dynastic cycle made it seem like smth wasnt working considering they had to keep changing out ruling families.

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⭐️ Dew ⭐️ (12.9/55lbs) @dewdroplets2.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

bro my professor took points off cuz he didnt like my opinion. actually gonna crash out i wasnt wrong abt anything bro just didnt like my opinion when the assignment was me giving my opinion 😭😭😭😭

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⭐️ Dew ⭐️ (12.9/55lbs) @dewdroplets2.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

ive been maintaining for like 5 days now and its killing meee im not eating THAT much

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⭐️ Dew ⭐️ (12.9/55lbs) @dewdroplets2.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

im like obsessed with low waisted pants and skirts now and im so mad at myself for not liking them as much when i was skinny cuz they dont look as good nowwww

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⭐️ Dew ⭐️ (12.9/55lbs) @dewdroplets2.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

id be so much prettier if i was skinny again

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⭐️ Dew ⭐️ (12.9/55lbs) @dewdroplets2.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

that white skirt i can barely fit into now used to fall off me lord have merthy

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⭐️ Dew ⭐️ (12.9/55lbs) @dewdroplets2.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

maybe even smaller i didnt always have a measuring tape

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⭐️ Dew ⭐️ (12.9/55lbs) @dewdroplets2.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

TW//BC god how i miss you, lw body 🤧🕊️

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⭐️ Dew ⭐️ (12.9/55lbs) @dewdroplets2.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

god its so gross when i think about it now. children really arent safe on the internet. i didnt even realize it was grooming till YEARS later because it was just "normal friendship"

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⭐️ Dew ⭐️ (12.9/55lbs) @dewdroplets2.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

like at 19 almost 20 i could NEVER like never ever ever i only ever want to protect people who are the age i was at the time. i wouldnt be asking them for pics of their thighs in tights or putting on adult movies for them to watch with me. like thats not okay its gross there has to be boundaries

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⭐️ Dew ⭐️ (12.9/55lbs) @dewdroplets2.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

i cut myself off but at 13 i shouldnt have been doing weirdly sexual stuff like sending sexual pics or watching sexual stuff in vc with adults. but i was so used to it i was convinced it was okay

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⭐️ Dew ⭐️ (12.9/55lbs) @dewdroplets2.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

like i have such fond memories of that time but looking back those conversations were NAWT appropriate for someone over the age of 18 to be having with a 13-15 year old. at 13

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⭐️ Dew ⭐️ (12.9/55lbs) @dewdroplets2.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

found old ss from when i had friends and its so bittersweet cuz i had so many people but half of them were adults grooming me at like 14 so like was it rlly worth :(

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⭐️ Dew ⭐️ (12.9/55lbs) @dewdroplets2.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

TW//BC twtechnically morning skinny but im actually huge lmfao

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⭐️ Dew ⭐️ (12.9/55lbs) @dewdroplets2.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

gess whos going to a triples concert 😍😍😍

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⭐️ Dew ⭐️ (12.9/55lbs) @dewdroplets2.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

one of my art doodles got 30 likes out of nowhere gah damn

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⭐️ Dew ⭐️ (12.9/55lbs) @dewdroplets2.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

i was unaware this was 750 CALORIES FOR JUST HALF??? Im freaking out rn highk im gonna gain

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⭐️ Dew ⭐️ (12.9/55lbs) @dewdroplets2.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

tw//bc gen lost sm weight being sick like 5lbs since i got back and my first weigh in was AFTER i went a day without eating much (flight) so its not all water weight

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