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i want your violence, your silent sedation, your moon eyes, your telescope, morbid fixation

all of my past, i tried to erase it but now i see, would i even change it? might share a face and share a last name but we are not the same

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❔ @delusionalbpd.bsky.social · 2h

i hate feeling so fake always hiding my feelings for someone else's sake

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❔ @delusionalbpd.bsky.social · 3h

please don't ruin this for me please don't make it harder than it already is i'm trying to get over this

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❔ @delusionalbpd.bsky.social · 4h

i may not bite the hand that feeds but i will wrap my lips around it and i will suck off all the meat

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❔ @delusionalbpd.bsky.social · 5h

if i die tonight, i'ma make it look pretty

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❔ @delusionalbpd.bsky.social · 6h

i'm running from my shadow but it's still there chasing me down i'll never win the battle

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❔ @delusionalbpd.bsky.social · 7h

i played my part, you had my heart believed it all would work out without a shred of doubt

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❔ @delusionalbpd.bsky.social · 8h

i hate myself more than anyone. i always think i have to get my act together, but i end up cowering, running away, sniveling. i want to change. i want to be a competent person.

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❔ @delusionalbpd.bsky.social · 9h

you think you're a hero, and they'll tell you, you are

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❔ @delusionalbpd.bsky.social · 10h

stop tryna keep us alive you're pointing at stars in the sky that already died

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❔ @delusionalbpd.bsky.social · 11h

hold me like the night sky holds the moon

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❔ @delusionalbpd.bsky.social · 12h

every time that you leave girl that i swear i lose my mind

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❔ @delusionalbpd.bsky.social · 13h

you're the only friend i need

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❔ @delusionalbpd.bsky.social · 13h

even though it's not about you everything is all about you all about you

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❔ @delusionalbpd.bsky.social · 15h

you're my number one you're the one i want and i've turned down every hand that has beckoned me to come

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❔ @delusionalbpd.bsky.social · 16h

i want your jesus, your suicide mission, your lips on the microphone, soft disposition

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❔ @delusionalbpd.bsky.social · 17h

i wanna be barely hanging on when you make me lose control

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❔ @delusionalbpd.bsky.social · 18h

please don't ask me how i've been don't make me play pretend

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❔ @delusionalbpd.bsky.social · 19h

you aren't the victim

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❔ @delusionalbpd.bsky.social · 20h

you said something dumb again she's mad, at least that's what they say mom and daddy aren't in love that's fine, i'll settle for two birthdays

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❔ @delusionalbpd.bsky.social · 21h

no i'm not happy, though i desperately wish i could be

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❔ @delusionalbpd.bsky.social · 22h

used to hurt at first, maybe i've just been conditioned all the while you win, i pity your position call me crazy but for you i empathize with each and every blow i sigh

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❔ @delusionalbpd.bsky.social · 23h

i wear a tv screen on my head, play the happy channels channel happy thoughts, make the people happy

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❔ @delusionalbpd.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

i've been calling you friend, i might need to give it up

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❔ @delusionalbpd.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

why wasn't i good enough? guess i just don't mean much is it too late to quit this game?

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❔ @delusionalbpd.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

become a supernatural. and be with me forever. you said that, didn't you? that it'd be okay.

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❔ @delusionalbpd.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

if being more polite would keep you satisfied if being less insane would make you stay then i'd be more like my sister

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❔ @delusionalbpd.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

i'd sell my own bones for sapphire stones cause blue's your favorite color

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❔ @delusionalbpd.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

you're right, i should've walked away faster i should've known you'd only break my heart after i was already in love you're right, you aren't good enough

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❔ @delusionalbpd.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

i'm only looking just to live through you vicariously

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❔ @delusionalbpd.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

why is it so wrong to want to survive in this disgusting body of mine?

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❔ @delusionalbpd.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

cause you're still stuck on your past you hate 'em so much but you're just like your dad you smothered every right that i've ever had by holding on too tight

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❔ @delusionalbpd.bsky.social · 07/10/2026