iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

hey everypony 💕🦌 just wanted to provide a long-deserved public update regarding my absence and silence. 😭 i've been really, really sick both physically and mentally. i've had a lot of dangerous shit resurface at once, and it has been brutally, relentlessly trying to kill me. (cont.)

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but.. my darling beloved @mustangrevolver.bsky.social, support system, community, and my wonderful lizard companions have seriously kept me above water. i wouldn't still be here right now if not for y'all. thank you everyone for your continued support, patience, and love. please be well. 🥰

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because i've been so ill, i haven't been able to finish moving, and it's hugely significant for me and is meant to be a huge step towards my healing and evolution.. so it has been really hard not only to make substantial efforts in tht direction but also properly recharge my body and mind. (cont.)

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it's also ALL fucking happening while i'm in the middle of a stupid elongated blip in my medicaid coverage, so i am unable to get the crucial medical attention i need right now. it's been really scary watching my body visibly deteriorate. (cont.)

🔞💕DITM💕🔞 @deerinthemoon.bsky.social · 28/06/2026

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if i can fucking figure out how to draw again i'll just make some curvy ragatha art my damn self ‼️‼️‼️😤

🔞💕DITM💕🔞 @deerinthemoon.bsky.social · 28/06/2026

thank you so much 😭😭😭💕💕💕

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🔞💕DITM💕🔞 @deerinthemoon.bsky.social · 28/06/2026

idc how she looks in canon, seeing fanart of ragatha with a flat tummy and tiny waist makes me very sad. are u afraid to give her some more polyfill in those curves ??? maybe some polyester filler beads to make her heavier ??? 🥲 thats my baby

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i'm trying really fucking hard. i promise. thank you all for your support. 💕

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anyway thank you to everyone for bearing with me and being so patient and wonderful. i deeply apologize for how stagnant i've been with art. i've just been so ill for so fucking long and i'm getting so so worn down. i used to be a MACHINE and now i can barely pick up my stylus. i'm losing myself.

whatever dude. lmao we ball ... at least i get to see my beautiful wife for our anniversary soon so i can rejuvenate and get a major steroid shot of dopamine lol. she's so fucking amazing and i'm so excited to see her. this trip is what's keeping me going rn.. light at the end of the tunnel ufm..

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i'm STILL sick and have now fallen into a rly deep depressive episode. have been completely incapable of drawing. it's hard rn. thanks cyclothymia, thanks fibromyalgia, thanks unidentified GI issue, and an extra special thank you to the american healthcare system for failing me at every turn lmfao!

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STUNNING ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

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🔞💕DITM💕🔞 @deerinthemoon.bsky.social · 10/06/2026

OH NOOOO PLS TAKE CARE OF URSELF 😭😭😭💕💕💕

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so now i have to follow a new lead tht my shit health reveals to me, alongside multiple other unexplained, recurring ailments that plague my shrinking body! lmao!! thank yall soo much for bearing with me. i feel like i'm losing my mind 🥲

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🔞💕DITM💕🔞 @deerinthemoon.bsky.social · 10/06/2026

yurp.. ended up in the ER for abdominal pain and all kinds of scary symptoms-- they did a ct scan and found "nothing" but apparently i have a cyst on my kidney they didn't bother to mention. LMAO! they discharged me so fast after that like ok youre shrugging it off? i am still in constant pain lolll

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🔞💕DITM💕🔞 @deerinthemoon.bsky.social · 09/06/2026

awww... ilusm ): here for you however you might need, please take good care of yourself during these times, friend 💕💕💕;;

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🔞💕DITM💕🔞 @deerinthemoon.bsky.social · 03/06/2026

bruh lol my dad has been spending multiple nights in the ER and now i'm starting to get to the point where i may need to go, myself. we are a very broken people 😅 thank you guys for your patience. i'm so tired of being sick dude!!!!!!

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🔞💕DITM💕🔞 @deerinthemoon.bsky.social · 03/06/2026

i'm always seeing other white ppl get sooo defensive when called aside abt racism but not nearly be as quick to recognize their own inherent place in that system or recognize their Very Real responsibility to protect their Black friends-- they're more concerned abt their own image :/ loser behavior.

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🔞💕DITM💕🔞 @deerinthemoon.bsky.social · 03/06/2026

fr ‼️ like.. it's /not enough/ to just *not* be a racist, it's imperative tht nonblk ppl be Actively, Vehemently *anti-racist* and protecting Black people. nonblk ppl need to be continuously actively working on deconstructing + unlearning deeply engrained systemic racist beliefs & be re-educating!!

🔞💕DITM💕🔞 @deerinthemoon.bsky.social · 01/06/2026

💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋 i love you sooooo much every month forever but im gonna be extra obnoxious abt it for pride 🥰