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And it's been so long that I'm forgetting what it feels like But I'd rather not remind myself and leave it all behind And I've tried so hard to fix it all, but nothing seems to help But I cannot hope to give you what I cannot give myself. youtube.com/watch?v=up0E...

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Sleep Token - DYWTYLM [Lyrics on screen]

YouTube video by Heartbeats

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Luke @deadinside40.bsky.social · 1h

"For so long, I have waited So long that I almost became Just a stoic statue, fit for a nobody" And I was right. youtube.com/watch?v=Itn1...

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Sleep Token - Rain (Lyric Video)

YouTube video by Arcade Edits

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Luke @deadinside40.bsky.social · 2h

I knew from a young age I wouldn't be the most successful person I knew I just didn't think I'd be the most useless and worthless.

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Luke @deadinside40.bsky.social · 4h

Lol CVS emailing me about a lawsuit where I could potentially get a whole $10.

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Luke @deadinside40.bsky.social · 15h

I can't believe they never made a sequel to this game. This is what games should be. To this day it's still in my top 5 favorite games of all time. gamerant.com/bloodborne-o...

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Bloodborne is Finally Making a Comeback in 2027

Over a decade after the game originally launched on PlayStation 4, Bloodborne fans have a new release to look forward to in 2027.

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Luke @deadinside40.bsky.social · 16h

So frustrated with my mom. She's been bitching for years that her blood sugar is never regulated (I begged her to the Libre thingy that monitors it but no she was content to feel like shit and complain). Now her doctor finally gave it to her and she ignores it. I hope insurance takes it away.

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Luke @deadinside40.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

Yay the senate passed the romance scam protection bill. I just use the simple mind trick called thinking... if it seems too good to be true it is. Hasn't failed me yet.

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Luke @deadinside40.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

Pretty sure one of my outdoor cats isn't an outdoor cat... like he'll stick around for weeks and then disappear for about a week and come back all brushed looking lol. I'd let him inside here but my indoor cat isn't a fan of other cats.

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Luke @deadinside40.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

This war won't end until it makes Trump look good... so not until he's gone. Yet another democrats will have to fix if we win in 28. This is the shittiest time line. www.aljazeera.com/news/2026/9/...

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Trump rejects Iran’s seven-day roadmap to end war and reopen Hormuz

Tehran says it is awaiting an official response via mediators and that it will not back down from its conditions.

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Luke @deadinside40.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

I do love how my dad (a republican) bitches about Georgia. You'd think he'd realize we haven't had a democratic governor since I was in high school. Republicans have controlled this state for basically the last 30 years but democrats are the problem.

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Luke @deadinside40.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

Watching college game day. Man I miss Knoxville... not bc of the football.

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Luke @deadinside40.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

It sure would be nice if Tennessee could upset Texas today. Go Vols!

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Luke @deadinside40.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

As if we needed more incentive to cut this asshole off at the knees now you have it. Win back the house and or senate or expect war with China too. www.theguardian.com/us-news/2026...

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At Trump meeting, Xi Jinping lays out terms to avoid US-China military conflict

Chinese president’s proposals for lessening tensions come amid period of intense competition between the two countries over AI and trade

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Luke @deadinside40.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

Well looks like I finally found a game I can't beat. Fuck the final boss of Onimusha.

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Luke @deadinside40.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

I wish I could wake up not in pain just one more time before I die.

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Luke @deadinside40.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

I know Trump kicking the media out because he literally can't handle the truth is bad for democracy but I gotta say it's much better when you can't hear him speak bc there are no microphones from said media he kicked out.

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Luke @deadinside40.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

Don't wanna be an American idiot One nation controlled by the media Information age of hysteria It's calling out to idiot America. Our new national anthem? youtube.com/watch?v=Ee_u...

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Green Day - American Idiot [Official Music Video] [4K Upgrade]

YouTube video by Green Day

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Luke @deadinside40.bsky.social · 22/09/2026

AI killing us all by the end of the decade? Don't tease me with a good time.

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Luke @deadinside40.bsky.social · 22/09/2026

Wouldn't jump on the she's done bandwagon until it actually happens. Maine voters don't really seem to care. Feel free to prove me wrong. 'September surprise' rocks Susan Collins' campaign and sparks frenzy: 'Call your lawyer' www.rawstory.com/susan-collin...

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'September surprise' rocks Susan Collins' campaign and sparks frenzy: 'Call your lawyer'

Shock reverberated online following revelations that a defense contractor's confessed pay-to-play scheme implicating Sen. Susan Collins (R-ME) and potentially other members of Congress that triggered ...

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Luke @deadinside40.bsky.social · 22/09/2026

At least we're consistent.

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Luke @deadinside40.bsky.social · 22/09/2026

Man I really wish my palliative care nurse could come to my house and give be a shot of steroids to cut through the inflammation and a shot of dilaudid for the pain since I can't go to the ER bc I can't leave my mom alone for that long.

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Luke @deadinside40.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

Damn the first episode of South America came out swinging... maybe things will get better in November, that's when GTA 6 comes out lol.

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Luke @deadinside40.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

I know I don't really care for baseball but I'm glad the Braves won the division last night.

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Luke @deadinside40.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

If all you have to offer is attack ads I will assume you have nothing to actually offer... I would have voted for Ossoff anyways bc he's a great senator trying to get things done. Meanwhile Mike Collins is completely fine with burying the Epstein files for Trump bc he knows what Trump did.

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Luke @deadinside40.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

I must say I love how 90% of ads on YouTube are about guys that can't get it up with their woman. Dear YouTube I haven't had sex in over 17 years... I am not your target audience.

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Luke @deadinside40.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

I wish they had cared about concussions when I was a kid playing soccer. I know that's what messed me up so much. I had 2 major concussions and several minor before I was in high school. But of course back in my day they just said rub some dirt on it.

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Luke @deadinside40.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

Lol Lame Kiffin lost. LSU y'all have buyer's remorse yet?

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Luke @deadinside40.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

Guess I'll just stop eating again. Back to a liquid diet yay. Hard to believe my mom could be more annoying than my crohn's but she pulls it off every time.

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Luke @deadinside40.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

My mom drives me insane... if I'm having a flare up or throwing up bc of chemo and lose weight she tells me I'm too skinny and I need to eat but the second I gain any weight she tells me I'm too fat. I can't win with her. Just FML. I really hope I don't wake up tomorrow.

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Luke @deadinside40.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

Well dad's decided to empty out the storage thing I had from all the stuff I had in TN. I told him just to throw it all away since clearly I'm never leaving GA ever again. I'm just done with life. I should have just killed myself a long time ago.

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Luke @deadinside40.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

I honestly feel bad for my parents. I get they want me healthy but they have wasted so much money while not realizing once they die I'm going to die soon after bc I'm not going to keep paying into the scam that is health insurance. I'm just going to end it all.

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Luke @deadinside40.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

I just can't take it anymore. If it was God's plan for me to get crohn's disease nearly die twice from it (so far) then almost die from cancer just to take care of my mother then God is a dick and he/ she can fuck all the way off.

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Luke @deadinside40.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

Tonight may have been the straw that broke the camel's back regarding my mom. Dad was home so I went to my room. Something happened and she blamed me for being upstairs. I offer a solution to my dad and he throws it back in my face. I really hope I die tonight so I can officially check out.

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Luke @deadinside40.bsky.social · 17/09/2026

My oncologist cracks me up. He told me we'd just do another CT scan in November and go from there bc every time they scan me something new shows up lol. I just laughed and told him I do what I can.

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Luke @deadinside40.bsky.social · 17/09/2026

I would like to thank to Nebraska senate candidate for telling the truth by accident. Granted liberals have been saying the same thing about Republicans all my life and it hasn't made a dent yet but still hilarious.

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Luke @deadinside40.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

Can't wait to see my oncologist days tomorrow about whatever is in my lung and how we fix it. I vote surgery over prednisone.

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Luke @deadinside40.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

You already helped build Frankenstein's monster you fucktard... his name is Trump and you will forever be shamed for it you stupid little troll. www.theguardian.com/technology/2...

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‘If you’re building Frankenstein, stop’: JD Vance dismisses calls for AI regulation

US vice-president’s comments come as former Anthropic researcher revisits recent claim AI could destroy humanity

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Luke @deadinside40.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

@namwella1961.bsky.social just wanted to say I'm a blue dot in GA too.

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Luke @deadinside40.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

All this glory you did not earn Every lesson you did not learn You will drown in an endless sea If it's blood that you want from me You can empty my arteries Will you halt this eclipse in me? Will you half this eclipse in me? In me. The cycle never ends. youtube.com/watch?v=noWU...

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Sleep Token - Infinite Baths

YouTube video by SleepTokenVEVO

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Luke @deadinside40.bsky.social · 15/09/2026

One day this particular person is going to realize all the shit she blames me for was shit she was doing. I'll be dead by then but that's ok.

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Luke @deadinside40.bsky.social · 14/09/2026

I love that I'll never have a house or a job I enjoy or friends or any kind of romantic relationship. 40 years old and not one person other than my parents would care if I died. If there was a God he would have let cancer kill me. Instead I just suffer. All day every day.

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Luke @deadinside40.bsky.social · 14/09/2026

Who will i be when the empire falls Wake up alone and I'll be forgotten. Kinda thought this wouldn't happen until I was in my 70s+ but instead it's over at 40. youtube.com/watch?v=ufH7...

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Sleep Token - Damocles (Lyrics)

YouTube video by Vibe Music

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Luke @deadinside40.bsky.social · 14/09/2026

I really hate that my life has been over for years. Really thought I was going to be able to go back to TN but not one person from my last job wants me back. I have zero interest in staying in GA. I guess my best option is try to outlive my parents and then end my own life since no one wants me.

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