iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

Malice XIII @deadeyeddoll.monster · 02/10/2026

Doing 100% cleanup in nioh 3 and thinking about nioh 2's design for Benkei again

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Malice XIII @deadeyeddoll.monster · 25/09/2026

We said we'd take a picture so here's a picture Not taking a picture of our psychology/medical shelf

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Malice XIII @deadeyeddoll.monster · 25/09/2026

ours reaches 50 meters and does 10 million gas damage a tick so we had to dedicate a loadout slot to it and we're just waiting for it to get nerfed (ignore the 0 we just shoved a puzzle piece in her again)

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Malice XIII @deadeyeddoll.monster · 08/09/2026

forgetting what we did to our excalibur prime, poking at Old Peace, and looking like someone dropped their fruit roll up in the sand near the swings at recess

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Malice XIII @deadeyeddoll.monster · 04/09/2026

It comes out a lot if we're pissed or talking about specific things, okay,

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Malice XIII @deadeyeddoll.monster · 29/08/2026

Discovering this and kind of wanting it both because we enjoy gin and also for other obvious reasons

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Malice XIII @deadeyeddoll.monster · 26/08/2026

Mets won so we went to baseball with Val

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Malice XIII @deadeyeddoll.monster · 18/08/2026

Staring at this eye post every time we walk near it

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Malice XIII @deadeyeddoll.monster · 04/08/2026

we haven't shown our flesh face in a while so bsky can have the last photo we liked as a treat

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Malice XIII @deadeyeddoll.monster · 01/07/2026

Looking at how a circular wound turned into a (lopsided) heart shaped scar again while lying in bed... Bsky will totally auto tag this even though it isn't SH 🫠

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Malice XIII @deadeyeddoll.monster · 01/07/2026

right, we did kind of end up doing this, but not for the full moon

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Malice XIII @deadeyeddoll.monster · 22/06/2026

Wandering, trying to hide the crumbling chassis

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Malice XIII @deadeyeddoll.monster · 20/06/2026

before we go to bed we figure we'll mention we recently started poking at warframe here and there as something to get our mind off of things and... despite being around since update 6.0-ish (so 13 years ago) we only just now got here a few days ago, despite owning... everything in the game

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Malice XIII @deadeyeddoll.monster · 19/06/2026

Another Taichi enjoyer... We kind of miss the little moving gear the older models had but still like the new board

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Malice XIII @deadeyeddoll.monster · 15/06/2026

well, yeah that tracks we guess

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Malice XIII @deadeyeddoll.monster · 31/05/2026

how the mets game is going today:

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Malice XIII @deadeyeddoll.monster · 24/03/2026

went looking for one specific deck, found our other one and, well, thanks

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Malice XIII @deadeyeddoll.monster · 22/03/2026

one freak in this disaster dumpsterfire of a mech is the bane of an entire company

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Malice XIII @deadeyeddoll.monster · 12/03/2026

Opens MH Stories 3 demo puts The Precious Child on our desk

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Malice XIII @deadeyeddoll.monster · 12/03/2026

we seared our eyes for a bit to do a funny colour recognition test

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Malice XIII @deadeyeddoll.monster · 08/03/2026

it is 0618 we briefly thought about our 9 game list and realized we left something important off of it (also medarot, and the psp gundam games, and, well, like we said before, too many games for 9 games)

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Malice XIII @deadeyeddoll.monster · 05/03/2026

did the 9 game thing and honestly there's a lot more we could slot into this but:

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Malice XIII @deadeyeddoll.monster · 04/03/2026

can't sleep because we're in our head so now is surely the time to read something someone gifted us soon after having a deep talk with us a while ago right

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Malice XIII @deadeyeddoll.monster · 03/03/2026

Completely forgot about the Emergency Ration Stash until tonight (not pictured: three bottles of t gel)

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Malice XIII @deadeyeddoll.monster · 27/02/2026

can't sleep, sees people talking about pokemon, looks into it, immediately messages kiri with this

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Malice XIII @deadeyeddoll.monster · 26/02/2026

Once again thinking about a message we got from Kiri at the start of this month Like we guess it makes sense but also: does nobody else see what others consider 'scary things' and the immediate reaction is 'but what if it was *my* scary thing' is it just us

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Malice XIII @deadeyeddoll.monster · 18/02/2026

But then we slept on it (since we did this yesterday while talking with our doll) and decided to poke at it again and ended up here (with service top and puppeteer still at 100%)

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Malice XIII @deadeyeddoll.monster · 18/02/2026

Still thinking about how our doll did that dynamic quiz and answered the partner side with, as it described, 'yeah that sounds like malice' answers and it sent us the first picture we did it and got something similar but different (the second and third)

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Malice XIII @deadeyeddoll.monster · 17/02/2026

A somewhat heavy and... vulnerable thing for us to write. Be careful about reading it. Getting this out there now, we've been bouncing back and forth on writing something like this for a few months now given the situation and everything. We would've added alt text but, alt text's character limit.

We've spent a while debating if we were going to write this, but we figure we might as well get it out of the way. If for some reason we don't manage to make it through this year, we have two things we want to stress. One, we've tried our damn hardest, and two, it was things out of our control, at this point. A very select few that follow us on here know about how... trying, the past thirteen years have been. We've been drifting around a lot, constantly struggling to make ends meet, way too many moves to count (almost a dozen of those happening in the span of three years), ontop of being disabled and running away from a shitty family with no money and no plan at the age of twenty, thirteen years ago.

Realistically this comes down to a point of housing, and some might think 'being homeless isn't a death sentence' or something similar, but we've lived it several times at this point. It's not really feasible, with our mental state, our physical state, the shit we've been through. We know that several of you have heard our tangents about American 'support' systems, things like SSI and all that; finally getting SSI after spending more than a decade fighting for it made us realize that it's not even really a foot in the door in terms of getting to stability. American support systems, at least the ones that're accessible to us, and many others like us, are essentially just killing those like us, and potentially us. You're not allowed to save, you're not allowed to have income, you're not allowed to marry, or you forfeit the pittance they decide you've debased yourself enough to deserve. The measly amount of money that can't afford even a studio apartment, that they're more than eager to take away at your 'review' in a few years from your initial award. Sure, you can rent with others, which has been the whole operating plan this past year with our partner, but again, the top of this paragraph means finding the right situation for that is extremely narrow.

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Malice XIII @deadeyeddoll.monster · 16/02/2026

There's several more but there's the best angle we can get without hyper extending or shifting things out of socket The three on the forearm are a blowtorch 🤤

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Malice XIII @deadeyeddoll.monster · 12/02/2026

Thought about keeping this a secret until we did a thing about it but given the state of our life and everything we figured we'd share Our puppy, and now, our wife We really hope things work out so we're around to see the future we've dreamed of with her (And get her a proper fitting ring)

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Malice XIII @deadeyeddoll.monster · 30/01/2026

It's kind of amusing that one of the first weapons we found, that's also been our main weapon the entire game in code vein 2, is two floating swords held by broken porcelain hands

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Malice XIII @deadeyeddoll.monster · 29/01/2026

Posting it again because it's so pretty.....

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Malice XIII @deadeyeddoll.monster · 19/01/2026

Open up wartales for the first time in forever and now we're sitting here thinking about how a band of mercenaries can be completely fine having a giant wolf that eats corpses for a captain

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Malice XIII @deadeyeddoll.monster · 18/01/2026

The noise we made as we marked off nocturnal insomniac since that's been full force lately

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Malice XIII @deadeyeddoll.monster · 16/01/2026

It took a while to figure out what to even put on here and it's all probably way too specific

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