hassan @dazedbwoy.bsky.social · 16/09/2026my alarm goes off but i do not stir. i stay in bed and close my eyes again. it is not a deliberate act but an absence of action. the things i quietly choose not to do. 100
hassan @dazedbwoy.bsky.social · 18/08/2026if i could see you without passion or leave you without hurting i wouldn't need to explain why i keep coming back to say this: i love you more than my own health, more than any happiness i could ever have. 100
hassan @dazedbwoy.bsky.social · 13/08/2026breathe, hassan. inhale the smell of blood. whatever it is preying on your soul is hidden in the smell filling your lungs or perhaps in the fear itself. 100
hassan @dazedbwoy.bsky.social · 12/08/2026i have a hundred things to write to you, great and small. if only i could make my hand obey me. but even my writing grows fainter and more indistinct as though my own body were warning me of something i am too afraid to name. 100
hassan @dazedbwoy.bsky.social · 08/08/2026women are much mistaken if by their doubts with regard to the sincerity and constancy of men. they mean to declare their indifference or avoidance of the pleasures of loving. when they express their fears lest the happiness itself may fall short of expectation. 100
hassan @dazedbwoy.bsky.social · 30/07/2026she's in my mind like a tongue between the lips. always there, slipping into my mouth even when i never meant for it to. 000
hassan @dazedbwoy.bsky.social · 06/06/2026condemned to cycles of destruction, repetition and transformation, searching for a space where memory can briefly become tangible before dissolving once again. 000
hassan @dazedbwoy.bsky.social · 25/05/2026i once loved someone so deeply that i built the entire future around the sound of her name. after a while she was gone. i moved on by leaving the country. i thought she might be waiting for me there but i could not find her. i cannot stop wondering whether she loved me or not but i never found out. 000
hassan @dazedbwoy.bsky.social · 28/04/2026ever since her something in me just shifted. i am not the same anymore. there is this quiet heaviness that stays with me like i am always half okay and half missing something at the same time. 100
hassan @dazedbwoy.bsky.social · 22/02/2026i have been thinking of her all night and yet i slept but i woke at least twenty times and each time suffered cruelly with the vision of my fondest, my only love before my eyes. 100
hassan @dazedbwoy.bsky.social · 09/02/2026few people will ever stop to listen and even fewer will truly understand. he falls and his tears land in silence like a sound meant for someone who never came. 100
hassan @dazedbwoy.bsky.social · 03/02/2026he catches her wrist. she turns instinctively. a small laugh in the motion. he let her go then takes her other hand. she spins back toward him. closer now. once more he reaches for her arm. she turns again until this time he stops her gently, her back settling against his chest. 100
hassan @dazedbwoy.bsky.social · 14/01/2026i found a sure remedy to cure foul moods and relieve distress over bad luck to rise before dawn, leave the room and leaning against something firm, concentrate on the thought that the root of my life is growing. 100
hassan @dazedbwoy.bsky.social · 28/12/2025i close my eyes. insert head smack here i think. how could i be so stupid? these days i barely write about you at all. when i do, it is nothing but dull, lifeless lines. i breathe in and out. fighting the urge to grab my notebook and confess. it doesn’t mean anything. 100
hassan @dazedbwoy.bsky.social · 20/12/2025i thought i could email her without wasting time being polite or explaining anything. i would just write "we were together. do you remember?" 000
hassan @dazedbwoy.bsky.social · 17/12/2025i am hurting myself on purpose not because i want pain but because i was born to suffer. i am trying to see and feel things beyond normal life. you might not understand this and i can’t explain it well. 100
hassan @dazedbwoy.bsky.social · 14/12/2025are there not gentle souls who wish me well? a pillow presses over my mouth. they cannot hear me. they are ghosts. besides, no one ever thinks of anyone else. let no one come near. i am certain that i smell scorched. 000
hassan @dazedbwoy.bsky.social · 08/12/2025he admits that he is indeed afraid of her and how easily she can reappear in his life and his heart. he can't control the thoughts about being with her and loving her, despite all of their past conflicts. 100
hassan @dazedbwoy.bsky.social · 30/11/2025sometimes you gotta take a loss and have people rub it in your face. 000
hassan @dazedbwoy.bsky.social · 06/11/2025i feel like you somehow sensed the loneliness i never told anyone about. you saw it without me saying a word. maybe that’s why you got so close because you knew i was the kind of man who would carry love quietly never telling anyone. 000
hassan @dazedbwoy.bsky.social · 30/10/2025i think maybe i don’t even belong among people anymore. that thought makes it impossible for me to defend myself or explain anything. whenever someone criticizes me i am certain they are right that i have been living my whole life completely wrong. 110
hassan @dazedbwoy.bsky.social · 29/10/2025you know the curve and thickness of your abdomen is dangerous. it tempts me, it burns me and i would follow its intoxication anywhere. 000
hassan @dazedbwoy.bsky.social · 27/10/2025wherever your skin carries a mole i long to place my lips there. 000
hassan @dazedbwoy.bsky.social · 23/10/2025we die together because of our love. a death that can feel open like dissolving into the air or closed like being buried together in the same grave. this feeling of being completely absorbed by love is like being hypnotized. 100
hassan @dazedbwoy.bsky.social · 21/10/2025she lowered her eyes, listening not to his words but to the plea beneath them as if begging him to make her believe he was still pure. “it was only a moment of temptation” he said. 100
hassan @dazedbwoy.bsky.social · 17/10/2025everything begins from this idea: that the lover should not be seen as a mere symptom of desire or emotion but as someone whose voice carries something unreal. something untamed and impossible to define. 100
hassan @dazedbwoy.bsky.social · 12/10/2025it took about 3 minutes and a few seconds not exactly sure, to take my eyes off you and look down at the words. 000
hassan @dazedbwoy.bsky.social · 12/10/2025aur kya tumhare haath hamesha thanday reh'te hain aur sirf tab garam hote hain jab koi unhe choo lay ya phir wou naturally garam rehte hain? 100
hassan @dazedbwoy.bsky.social · 08/10/2025as if i care when they forget me. the solacing conceit of immortality has long ago left me. the last time i felt it was in my twenty first year. i had it very strongly then. i knew i would never die. the others would die but i would somehow escape. 100
hassan @dazedbwoy.bsky.social · 02/10/2025scenes that tear through the eyes. without a doubt my favorite time of the entire day. 010
hassan @dazedbwoy.bsky.social · 27/09/2025i have read so many books and writings by others about the absence of the beloved. but in our story it is different. she doesn’t leave. it is “i” who go. absence after all. only exists when the other departs and you are left. 100
hassan @dazedbwoy.bsky.social · 25/09/2025flightless bird. flightless bird. flightless bird. flightless bird. flightless bird. flightless bird. flightless bird. flightless bird. flightless bird. flightless bird. flightless bird. flightless bird. flightless bird. flightless bird. flightless bird. with wings. ironic. 000
hassan @dazedbwoy.bsky.social · 25/09/2025i keep wondering if i will always feel ashamed of the things i should have done for you. i do not even really know what those things were. maybe you were just unhappy. 100
hassan @dazedbwoy.bsky.social · 20/09/2025she cut her hair in the bathroom sink and i watched the pieces fall like everything she used to be. i thought maybe this is how people disappear. one strand at a time. 100
hassan @dazedbwoy.bsky.social · 09/09/2025everything follows from this: i cannot reduce myself to a simple wound or symptom when it comes to you. what i feel for you resists being explained, dissected or translated into some neat psychology. 100
hassan @dazedbwoy.bsky.social · 05/09/2025all my sin was my love for you and that’s it. i put my head on the ground and i am leaving. i have nothing to do with the first nor with the last. 000
hassan @dazedbwoy.bsky.social · 02/09/2025it is september and i am rotting. beautifully, not beautifully, just rotting. peeling myself apart finger by finger. rib by rib like an offering no one would dare or maybe they would or maybe they already have. 100
hassan @dazedbwoy.bsky.social · 31/08/2025i do not write letters anymore. i write seizures. i write collapse. i write blood. blood is the only ink that does not betray me. i have gone past tenderness. i want your soul gutted and screaming in my hands like an animal still alive. 100
hassan @dazedbwoy.bsky.social · 30/08/2025my terror, my darling. is not that i will lose you. it is that i will devour you and still be empty. my fear is that my love will rot you that i will bury you in my obsession and then sit beside your grave whispering apologies that sound like prayers. 100
hassan @dazedbwoy.bsky.social · 27/08/2025heartbeat. panic. stabbing thoughts. obsession. the mind collapsing under its own weight. love doesn’t feed me it rots inside me. desire as disease. inversion. desperation. acts like ritual chanting. feel like an incantation. 100
hassan @dazedbwoy.bsky.social · 27/08/2025i have always wanted to be wanted. wanted so much that when someone finally wants me i feel like i am fading like a corpse stealing itself. a thief. a thief. a thief. a thief. 100
