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requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 29/07/2026

i refuse to take advice from a neurotypical cishet but like help

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requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 29/07/2026

google show me relationship self help books for mentally ill queers

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requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 21/07/2026

💚 requiem, 24, ♑♎♋ 🌱1x fiance 1x boyfriend ☘️ they/them genderqueer 🌿 dad to a 2y/o - 🌳 minors & fatphobes get b blocked 🌲mpa + edtwt vet 🌾ednos/ana since 2017 🪴 pro recov/harm reduction aside from my 3ating disorder, I make music (guitar/uke/banjo) and play st4rdew valley thanks for reading 💚

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requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 21/07/2026

kiddos birthday passed it's time to redo my pinned

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requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 21/07/2026

I've been doing pretty good about forgetting to eat til 4pm so that's been good. trying to keep meals small. idk I might start counting again but I might not? might be better just to eat as little as I can

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requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 21/07/2026

manifesting a junkorexic era rn bc we're too broke to buy real restriction food

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requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 20/07/2026

they've been out of a job for nearly 2 months I think

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requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 20/07/2026

if any of yall Manifest or pray or send good vibes or do anything like that I could certainly use some this week!!!! fiance got an interview at a job that would be perfect!!!

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requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 15/07/2026

tried to go to the mental health urgent care for some sort of med help but they wasted 3 hours of my time to not do anything so I guess I'm fucked til I see my psych in 3 weeks

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requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 15/07/2026

it's so weird being down like this again idk I can't keep it all down the way I normally can anymore

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requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 15/07/2026

been in a haze feels like I posted this yesterday? how was this 3 days ago

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requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 15/07/2026

I feel like all I do is bitch about my life on here anymore but yknow. that's the point of the account I guess

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requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 15/07/2026

seriously I do feel like a shit parent I'm always dissociating or irritated :/ even my therapist asked me if I want to be doing this and I'm like. it doesn't matter? what else am I supposed to do

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requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 15/07/2026

doesn't feel like I do a very good job at it, being this depressed, but I have no other option

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requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 15/07/2026

feels like I should be having a life-resetting breakdown right now but instead I'm parenting I guess

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requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 12/07/2026

normally I can't have the Bad Thoughts for more than a couple minutes before I just shut down and force myself to forget about it but like. I literally can't make them stop it's all day

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requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 12/07/2026

I bottle my feelings so bad but it feels like the cork is off. or maybe just leaking idk. I just get these waves of sadness during the day and I feel so empty and Ive been randomly getting that lightning feeling in my hands that I usually reserve for panic attacks

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requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 12/07/2026

couple weeks of very consistent melancholy after being mostly "fine"/dissociating/occasionally being mad or perhaps pleased for like. idk a couple Years?

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requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 12/07/2026

jfc I am DEPRESSED depressed what the hell is this shit

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requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 02/07/2026

cw sa idk. could talk about it n what it felt like and. or I could not

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requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 02/07/2026

cw sa I can still smell him. fresh out of the shower, he smelled like wet dog. I get sick when I smell wet dogs now

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requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 02/07/2026

cw sa having mild flashbacks this fine evening 👍

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requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 28/05/2026

you guys are so great ily??? this one's my favorite so far (keep in mind it's a first take and I'm practicing using the looper pedal lol)

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requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 28/05/2026

does anyone wanna hear the weird lofi I'm making 👉👈

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requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 27/05/2026

idk should maybe wait. but it does seem like things are getting better

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requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 27/05/2026

we're holding off on external romantic/sexual stuff for a while since we're working on things. which is fine I really want to do better for fiance. but like if I'm catching Feelings I feel like she needs to be made aware? and also I'd like to know if I can like. pursue this anytime soon

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requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 27/05/2026

it's really silly how into this guy i am but also getting to the point I srsly need to like talk with fiance cuz I'm like. like getting butterflies man this is a problem ( /silly)

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requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 27/05/2026

been playin uke all day which is fun but I'm out of steam now and I was excited to talk to him :/

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requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 27/05/2026

ive started to really look forward to talking to this guy at the end of the day but like, he had a rough day and I think he's gone to bed early or just doesn't wanna be social tn or smth and that's okay but I am painfully lonely now ugh

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requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 19/05/2026

maaNnn and I'm just sitting here waiting for him to text me back!!!!! what a loser (me)

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requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 19/05/2026

I do not control the crushes the crushes control me

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requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 19/05/2026

im so like 😑 because like objectively he's just a little. scrungly. he's 2 years younger than me, about the same height as I am (not tall) and is kind of a dweeb. but he's so cute

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requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 19/05/2026

he's a PISCES. what's my fucking deal

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requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 19/05/2026

the way I am Yapping in this man's dms

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requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 19/05/2026

had to block a moot.. psa if chatgpt is your 'friend' you are not mine 👍

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requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 17/05/2026

IT'S SO STUPID?????? having a crush when you are 16 is like hehehehehe giggle giggle ✨ having a crush when you're 24 is like 😑

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kelz📍pinned❗️ @kisskgs.bsky.social · 15/05/2026

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requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 17/05/2026

think I'm gonna tell that guy from the music shop that I'm into him ugh

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requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 17/05/2026

apologies for my language but as much as I try to remain in the realm of "chill vegetarian" I have come up with a solid dictionary of ways to get the point across about why I don't eat meat 😂😅

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requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 17/05/2026

this is the thing that PISSES ME OFFFFFFFF!!! bacon bits keep! they are shelf stable, I think? if you're using some sort of fresh organic fuckery keep it in the fridge? it's SO simple and opens up business for SO many people, but they'd rather save TIME by inserting the CORPSE CHUNKS in advance 😑

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melissa capriglione @ HOODIE KICKSTARTER @mcapriglioneart.bsky.social · 16/05/2026

✨fuck AI✨ all my homies hate AI I dreamt up this sticker yesterday so I made it real ✨ get it here: mcapriglione.art #caturday

preview of a sticker featuring 4 cats in differing designs with human-like middle fingers pasted on them. the caption reads "fuck AI" on top and "all my homies hate AI" on the bottom

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requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 16/05/2026

ok girl are you lost? this is eating disorder bluesky

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requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 16/05/2026

you eat all the pig carcass you want keep it out of my POTATO soup

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requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 16/05/2026

im a salty vegetarian today. im not even like team "absolutely everyone should be vegetarian" idgaf what other people eat. I just wish meat eaters wouldn't RUIN everything with BACON for NO REASON

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requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 16/05/2026

what do we think of the ✨vision✨ for the new uke???

a red electric ukulele based on the iconic Gibson SG. it has a full black pickguard with a red cutout cherry sticker on it and a black strap with a cherries print

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requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 16/05/2026

sorry im so chatty today I'm manic and I forgot to take my meds last night

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