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Best Dude Cry @crymorebrand.bsky.social · 19/12/2024

Just another casual self portrait abt me having BPD and never knowing if I am the one abandoning or if I am abandoned, modern day philosophy fr dude #wipart #artwork #darkart #artist #originalart #angels #mentalhealthart #ventart

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Best Dude Cry @crymorebrand.bsky.social · 16/12/2024

Viktor nation please help me get this pin made :( It’s like 9 inches n very cool :( www.crymorebrand.art . #viktor #jayce #arcane #viktornation #viktorarcane #smallbusinesshelp

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Best Dude Cry @crymorebrand.bsky.social · 12/12/2024

Remember that messy ass self portrait sketch? This is him now. #ventart #guroart #cherubs #mentalhealth

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Best Dude Cry @crymorebrand.bsky.social · 11/12/2024

Pathetic rugged men 🥺🥺🥺❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 . #jayce #jaycearcane #arcanefanart #jayvik

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Best Dude Cry @crymorebrand.bsky.social · 08/12/2024

>a faint scream noise coming closer very slowly >Cry appears out of nothingness >shares Viktor’s Print version #wip >disappears in the background #viktor #arcane #gloriousevolution

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Best Dude Cry @crymorebrand.bsky.social · 29/11/2024

Last wip before I start the colors, shading n last details 😩 This have been a wild ride dude I’m happy it’s almost over dhwjdjsk #viktor #arcane

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Best Dude Cry @crymorebrand.bsky.social · 25/11/2024

#viktor #wip This will be the end of me dude I have so many hands to draw damn

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Best Dude Cry @crymorebrand.bsky.social · 24/11/2024

I finished Arcane Season 2 Act III and I’m brain dead. I have to draw Jinx. I have to. I have to draw Jinx like 5 times to be able to release my emotions. I just have to draw Jinx. I have to do it. I am sorry I will not be thinking anything but Jinx in the next couple years. Jinx. My daughter. Jinx.

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Best Dude Cry @crymorebrand.bsky.social · 24/11/2024

Aaaaa it means a lot dude thank u so much 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

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Best Dude Cry @crymorebrand.bsky.social · 24/11/2024

6am #wip from urs truly (me, I’m yours 🥺👉🏻👈🏻) #jinx #art #artist

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Best Dude Cry @crymorebrand.bsky.social · 23/11/2024

A little Flame Chompers art I did like 2 years ago when #arcane 1st season was out, it was initially a collaborative project with an old friend I no longer has contact with, but I am very proud of how I drew these, they’re entirely 2D and I painted them with precision so wanted to show u 🥺 #jinx

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Best Dude Cry @crymorebrand.bsky.social · 22/11/2024

Also, I wasn’t happy with how Jinx were going, so I changed couple things and planned her again,, I’m trying to fix my sleep schedule so I’m sleep deprived and couldn’t do much, but at least now I know where I wanna go dhwjdjsk . . #wip #artwip #jinx #sketch #doodle

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Best Dude Cry @crymorebrand.bsky.social · 22/11/2024

Like Eddie Hall (2017 Strongman Competition Champion) and when I half jokingly (but also kinda not?) said “Yeah dude, me too, I want Eddie’s arms” the trainer basically bursted out in laughter. Let a girl have huge muscles please, I am very sick of everyone thinking all women want one thing. 14/14

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Best Dude Cry @crymorebrand.bsky.social · 22/11/2024

It’s just, everywhere I go, people don’t really respect what I want and assume every fem presenting person wants one thing, being skinny fit. Especially since I’m fat, everyone automatically assumes that could be the only thing I could want. When my partner told the trainer that he wants a body 13/?

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Best Dude Cry @crymorebrand.bsky.social · 22/11/2024

Nonetheless I am now working with my partner’s trainer instead of the girl, (they’re not really private trainers, they’re there to show which machine is used how) and today I felt like the trainer pushed me nice n hard, which was validating. 12/?

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Best Dude Cry @crymorebrand.bsky.social · 22/11/2024

Because you don’t want to go ahead and burn the muscle mass on your body while burning the fat. It’s just a thought. I kinda felt like I wasn’t being taken serious and it kinda stings. Seeing my partner benching is hot tho. 11/?

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Best Dude Cry @crymorebrand.bsky.social · 22/11/2024

Calories in vs calories out, how much protein I need to take daily in order to build muscle and recover quickly, and what a body decomposition is. I know it is possible to burn fat while gaining muscle, a lot of professionals recommend strength training even for fat loss focused goals 10/?

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Best Dude Cry @crymorebrand.bsky.social · 22/11/2024

Even leaving the house to walk to the gym or doing my warm up cardio have been more than enough for me to sweat. Plus, weight is lost in the kitchen not at the gym. Everyone automatically assumes all a “woman” could want would be to get smaller and leaner. I did enough research about 9/?

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Best Dude Cry @crymorebrand.bsky.social · 22/11/2024

My goal is to be stronger, weight means strength. I want to grow my muscles even more, I am walking a lot and taking care of myself a lot anyways, and since I’m an illustrator I had a very monotone life where I sometimes sit and draw for 16 hours straight, 8/?

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Best Dude Cry @crymorebrand.bsky.social · 22/11/2024

I need to lose weight first and build muscle later and that I had too much weight on me. But they didn’t told anything to my partner. I usually explain right before I even join the gym that my goal is NOT high intensity workouts and sweating a bunch and diets and shit ton of cardio, 7/?

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Best Dude Cry @crymorebrand.bsky.social · 22/11/2024

“Wait??? Does she really also want to lift??” And my partner was like “yeah, she’s not here to lose weight, we just really like lifting” also, when we were getting our body measured n such, even though me and my partner are both obese, the woman who were taking the measurements told ‘me’ that 6/?

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Best Dude Cry @crymorebrand.bsky.social · 22/11/2024

Dude? Why aren’t you doing any cardio but I am doing cardio? It doesn’t make sense we were supposed to be on the same program that’s what we wanted especially because we gas each other up,, he went ahead and told his own trainer and the trainer was like 5/?

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Best Dude Cry @crymorebrand.bsky.social · 22/11/2024

Bigger with especially bigger arms and shoulders, and even though they said they understood very well, the first day they tried to put me on cardio meanwhile my partner didn’t have to do cardio, he went straight into lifting. My trainer was a woman and his trainer was a man, I told my partner 4/?

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Best Dude Cry @crymorebrand.bsky.social · 22/11/2024

So when we went to the gym, (I experienced this with every gym I went) they have different “programs” for men and women, understandable since the physiology is different. However no matter how many times I explained I am not here to lose weight, I am here to build muscle mass and eventually get 3/?

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Best Dude Cry @crymorebrand.bsky.social · 22/11/2024

Gender issues of our own, and our goal is the same, gain muscle mass, weight loss is not really something we’re looking for, we are both fat (this is will be important later) we both wanted to just get into lifting as a way of building muscle and being bigger but with more muscle mass 2/?

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Best Dude Cry @crymorebrand.bsky.social · 22/11/2024

Today it was the second day of my new gym, and it got me thinking how media and overall male gaze changes how women think. I am a non binary feminine presenting person with a very masculine personality. My partner is a masculine presenting person with a very masculine personality, we both have 1/?

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Best Dude Cry @crymorebrand.bsky.social · 21/11/2024

Thank you so much dude 🧎🏻‍♂️ a good workout sessh helped a lot today

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Best Dude Cry @crymorebrand.bsky.social · 21/11/2024

My meds are making me way too heavy I can’t stop sleeping I can’t get up I can’t work I can’t function at all. I am completely blank and I know the fear is still there I just can’t see it clearly anymore and I’m even more scared of things I can’t see. Fuck

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Best Dude Cry @crymorebrand.bsky.social · 20/11/2024

A very quick #silco warm up before I start my day, honestly ever since season 1 he was (and still is) my favorite character of all times. Seeing his youth in season 2 was a delight I love him . . #arcane #arcanesilco #zaun #arcanejinx #jinx

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Best Dude Cry @crymorebrand.bsky.social · 20/11/2024

Good morning tomorrow I’m holding very cool pre orders in my shop,, I wanna keep this place more art focused but if you’d like to help get the word around I would really appreciate any shares n likes 🥺 . . #enamelpincollector #pins #enamelpins #animepins #animemerch #aizawa #animememes

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Best Dude Cry @crymorebrand.bsky.social · 19/11/2024

I slept like almost 20 hours combined today but I can’t shake off this tiredness. Im not physically tired but I am very VERY mentally tired. Maybe I should sleep some more

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Best Dude Cry @crymorebrand.bsky.social · 19/11/2024

Commission work!! Angsty Deku I love him 😩 one of the works I’m most proud of 🥺 . . #mha #myheroacademia #deku #midoriya #izukumidoriya #izuku #mhafanart #dekufanart #commission

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Best Dude Cry @crymorebrand.bsky.social · 18/11/2024

Hehehehe eyeball hehehehe This is a self portrait about panic attacks and anxiety 🗿 #wip #selfportrait #art #artist #illustration #goreart

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Best Dude Cry @crymorebrand.bsky.social · 18/11/2024

Thank you so much dude 🥺🥺🥺❤️❤️❤️

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Ria🔸NYCC E08 @riadoodles.bsky.social · 18/11/2024

i gotta remind myself that it’s ok to keep drawing what i like and at the pace i can the things i enjoy won’t disappear just because it’s not as ‘trendy’ anymore :’) ❤️

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Best Dude Cry @crymorebrand.bsky.social · 18/11/2024

From other people. We left the gym, tomorrow I’m going to find a new place. I train heavy and slow, so maybe a gym with more lifters would be a better choice for me. Yea dude, idk, depression house n depression hygiene problems are real, sometimes you be a stinky lil boy and that’s okay I think

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Best Dude Cry @crymorebrand.bsky.social · 18/11/2024

Needless to say they said yeah we were going to tell you after you finished your workout etc etc but actually they didn’t have to because i could easily tell from their behavior. I know it’s also my bad because I knew I was going to a public space, and would be okay with being warned in a corner far

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Best Dude Cry @crymorebrand.bsky.social · 18/11/2024

So I instead of warning me maybe, the young workers at the gym started to hang around me and doing gestures covering their noses giggling n screaming “it smells so bad in here”, my partner had to go and ask kindly if we smell and make people uncomfortable around us?

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Best Dude Cry @crymorebrand.bsky.social · 18/11/2024

Everyone’s about “being understanding” to people with mental illness like depression until that said person starts to show symptoms. Today I hit the gym, I’m fat, I sweat and smell a lot, even if I shower daily, I smell. I have major depression and sometimes I can’t take care of myself,

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