iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

Nathan’s body of work, imo, has been an evolving analysis of media’s attempts and his own genuine attempts to capture the essence of true reality on TV, or prove that it’s impossible, with jokes. Closest thing I’ve seen to this outside of Nathan is Jury Duty btw.

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Just like the actual subject of a lot of Nathan’s work. It’s an ever evolving part of culture. We don’t interface with reality TV the same way we did 20 years ago. And we won’t interface the same 20 years from now

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I don’t know exactly what Nathan is trying to say. I don’t think even he knows it quite yet. Hes got a really good idea, perspective. He’s thinking about this idea and exploring it with art, trying to figure it out. I don’t think he would say “yeah, that’s it, you get it”. It’s a work in progress

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Anyway, it convinces a lot of people. It seems super real. You fight for these people. You defend them. You hate them. You believe in them. Just like Remy believed in Nathan’s character.

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Nat Geo is like, the most real reality TV possible, because the subjects are unaware they are on TV. Even Truman show is like, pretty close, but not quite, cause everyone else is acting. And with real TV we’ve decided it’s actually not ok to put someone on TV without consent.

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We want it to be real so bad. The TV does everything it can to convince us this is real. And sometimes the show genuinely is trying to capture reality, like Nathan often does. But the very nature of producing a show affects how real it can actually be.

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Hear an idea. Remy, the kid who conflates acting with real life and wants Nathan to be his real dad in the finale, is a representation of how we all interact with reality TV.

Jay Fitz @cowsarein.me · 05/10/2026

Eagle eyes viewers will notice my previous recorded solve was 24 seconds lol

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Jay Fitz @cowsarein.me · 05/10/2026

It’s tough trying to record a cube solve to post because yeah my record is 11 seconds, I can rip a 15 second avg. on camera though? Lucky to catch a single sub 20.

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Okay hold up. MGS4 is fucking awesome. I think 3 lost me because there wasn’t enough gameplay space for the game to breathe. In 4 they just drop you in a warzone and it’s awesome! Still sneaking but sneaking around a battlefield, so far it’s my favorite.

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I’m so glad to have this on switch. I can just turn it off and resume anytime I want. I would not have the patience to sit through this 8 hour movie on my PC

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Please have the cigarettes reduce stress levels lol

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I like that they officially call him Old Snake in MGS4. I also like that instead of stamina it’s stress levels lol

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Final boss of Metal gear solid 3 was awesome. HOWEVER I still liked 2 better ngl

Alright so this was absolutely a movie about depression but I was depressed during covid so I think about it as my covid movie. But if you watch this in 50 years youd have to really already know about covid for the context that I personally have. Still holds up, 9/10

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Turning 30 rips though

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Ok I’m not going to lie Problematic is maybe not like super relatable or feels very in touch. I dunno, maybe it just got the wrong vibe. I guess I just don’t relate, I was not problematic, I didn’t post dumb offensive shit to the Internet. But I also didn’t watch Family Guy so we’re different lol

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Plus he blurred the lines so well. It felt real in a way like nothing else on Netflix really can ever feel. Felt like an old youtube video. Such a meticulously crafted thing trying to look like it wasn’t meticulously crafted. I love a polish where the final result is supposed to look unpolished.

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Inside is a good movie about how Covid felt. I feel like it’s also a lot about the other stuff Bo was going through but we all kinda got there in our own away about all our own shit with all the alone time. Pressure to do something but literally nothing to do.

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I’m still going to watch the new ones but lemme tell you seeing that military general guy back on the cast for Avatar 2 does not bode well.

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I thought having almost 15 years between me and Avatar would help me appreciate it more for what it is on the second viewing. Nope, now the CGI just looks like video game cutscenes half the time, it arguably has not aged well at all lol

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I’m absolutely leaning deeply into the themes and vlogbrothers philosophy that I love so much, this was written for me specifically hah. My rating and review to like an outsider is 4/5, it’s a joy to read and hits on super interesting and relevant themes, even though Juniper is not the best narrator

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Another thing I cannot shake is the idea that trauma is never over. You keep just surviving, and surviving. You don’t get through it. It never gets better, easier. That’s a hard thing to talk about. But John approached it in a beautiful way that genuinely made me cry. Thank you John for being honest

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And that’s why I’m a big fan. I love anything that leaves me thinking, they’ve expressed a thought I myself cannot express and cannot even regurgitate accurately. The book explains a very complicated a nuanced perspective on art and its relationship to artists and fame and its relationship to people

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Anyway, that’s where the “what you want might not always align with what you want to want” I think means. I had to read that sentence like 5 times to actually understand it. The book def says something I cannot summarize in a single tweet, the book is required reading to fully grasp the idea

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The idea is, I’ve been as public as I have intended to be about it, and this question is taking advantage of that to pry further. Which will cause people to speculate. You give parts of yourself away to “the public” or “fans” or whoever is interested and they take it and they never give it back.

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John has earnestly said the phrase “You’ve been very public about this” is just an excuse to ask a very intrusive question about someone’s life. This book is about that. How being public facing and “famous” opens up the doors for people to pry into and speculate on your actual life.

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I also think a lot about John. I watch his videos, I’ve heard probably hundreds of hours of him talking to his audience. I know he doesn’t like putting himself out there, but can’t help doing it as a writer. People want to associate things in the book with his life, ask him in appropriate questions

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This book is kind of about how to operate that suit all the while not letting yourself become obsessed with being a mech pilot, with the size, the power, the fame. Hold onto yourself, don’t become the mech, like everyone else perceives you. Want the things you want, not what you’re supposed to want

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Just going to continue processing Hollywood Ending here, this is my book report. I’ve never stopped thinking about Hanks “giant mech suit” metaphor for fame. You have to give up yourself to the public, you aren’t you to them, you are the mech.

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I also keep thinking about that concept of, what do you want? And what do you want to want? Do you want the things you want because you’re supposed to want them

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I honestly wasn’t sure how I’d feel about it after the first chunk, I didn’t like the first Juniper bit, not super likable or relatable. But this was intentional, she has a lot of character development to do haha

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“You survive, and you survive, until one day, you survived.”

Jay Fitz @cowsarein.me · 30/09/2026

Ahh man this Hollywood Ending quote RIPS “He’s just convinced himself, as we all do in the end, that his interests align with the worlds interests”

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Kerensa and I are thinking about being Elizabeth Holmes and Nathan Fielder for Halloween. I do think I am going to end up being Elizabeth Holmes simply because we don’t want to wear wigs with opposite hair colors lol

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Jay Fitz @cowsarein.me · 30/09/2026

John Greens first adult fiction book actually features 22 year olds and remains pretty in line with his style and this guy is not complaining! But if you didn’t like his YA style this ain’t gunna be your thing either.

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Jay Fitz @cowsarein.me · 29/09/2026

The thing I appreciate the most is that MGSV gameplay is the accumulation of 30 years of refining of a genre he basically invented himself. Constantly battling hardware limits And it really explains why it feels so damn good to play.

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Jay Fitz @cowsarein.me · 28/09/2026

Tough to judge the metal gear games going through them for the first time. They all have elements I really like, but 3 is the first one where I’m finally not fighting the game itself as much, besides the insane controls, but I’m getting used to those