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Mx. Thorne & Co. @covenposting.bsky.social · 18/08/2026

I am afraid that if I go to work I won't have a home to come back to.

Mx. Thorne & Co. @covenposting.bsky.social · 18/08/2026

I will persist because I have no other choice, but who am I persisting for anymore? Was everyone waiting on me to admit I had a problem just so they could be justified in running away from me?

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Mx. Thorne & Co. @covenposting.bsky.social · 18/08/2026

I want to get better. I will get better. But please. I need to hear them say that they promise things will be okay. Why has everything changed so suddenly? Why is it that the moment I admit I need help is the exact moment everyone starts comparing me to him? Why him of all people?

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Mx. Thorne & Co. @covenposting.bsky.social · 18/08/2026

I want to believe that there will be a home for me here when I get better. I want to trust that I haven't lost all of you already. But the way you talk to me, your body language, it is as if admitting I have a problem has lifted a veil that I am a monster.

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Mx. Thorne & Co. @covenposting.bsky.social · 18/08/2026

I have been assured over and over again of patience and a want to weather the storm but as soon as I admit I have a problem, it feels like everyone in my life is cutting ties with me. even my own goddamned mother. I promise I trust your word, but these emotions need somewhere to go.

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Mx. Thorne & Co. @covenposting.bsky.social · 18/08/2026

I am doing everything in my power to take you at your word when you say you will wait for me to get better, but your actions scream that it was too late months ago.

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Mx. Thorne & Co. @covenposting.bsky.social · 18/08/2026

what does one do when the very actions and thought patterns that require a support network to change end up driving away what little support network one has left?

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Mx. Thorne & Co. @covenposting.bsky.social · 18/08/2026

I know it's just circumstances and the unfortunate timing of everything happening at once but I still have emotions that I still need to get out so I'm yelling into the void that is my oft forgotten bsky acct.

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Mx. Thorne & Co. @covenposting.bsky.social · 31/05/2026

who do you turn to when the problem is that you have no one to turn to?

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Mx. Thorne & Co. @covenposting.bsky.social · 31/05/2026

they should invent a pill that kills one headmate specifically (me) 🐍

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Mx. Thorne & Co. @covenposting.bsky.social · 06/05/2026

At the very least, I will be left happy and smiling in your memories.

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Mx. Thorne & Co. @covenposting.bsky.social · 06/05/2026

Let me pass quiet into the night, without fighting. So that you may remember my smile, and not my sobs.

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Mx. Thorne & Co. @covenposting.bsky.social · 05/05/2026

what the fuck is wrong with me. what the fuck is wrong with me. what the fuck is wrong with me. what the fuck is wrong with me. what the fuck is wrong with me. what the fuck is wrong with me. what the fuck is wrong with me. what the fuck is wrong with me. what the fuck is wrong with me. what the fuc

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Mx. Thorne & Co. @covenposting.bsky.social · 05/05/2026

I am an evil, despicable, horrid creature

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Mx. Thorne & Co. @covenposting.bsky.social · 01/05/2026

I just want to be able to come home from work and then *do the things I want to do*. bit I always crash as soon as I get slightly comfortable. I can't keep doing this to her. I love her too much to keep hurting her.

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Mx. Thorne & Co. @covenposting.bsky.social · 01/05/2026

I fucked up. I ruined everything because I can't fucking stay awake. every day I borrow energy I don't have from the future just to stay awake long enough to work, and then I crash and ruin everything because once I crash I can't get up. now my girlfriend thinks I don't care because I'm always tired

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Mx. Thorne & Co. @covenposting.bsky.social · 27/03/2026

I want something outside myself that I can care for, but I'm not equipped to do that for people.

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Mx. Thorne & Co. @covenposting.bsky.social · 18/03/2026

I got to spend like 30 minutes this morning just huffing my gfs pits and honestly I'm now convinced that heaven is real

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Mx. Thorne & Co. @covenposting.bsky.social · 15/02/2026

god fucking damn I need to be collared and chained and bound and told what to do and what to think and how to feel

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Mx. Thorne & Co. @covenposting.bsky.social · 05/02/2026

how do I say it feels like god is stopping me from taking my meds without sounding insane

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Mx. Thorne & Co. @covenposting.bsky.social · 04/02/2026

there is so much life in our house tonight. things are not perfect, but they are better. we can breathe. we can relax. we can be safe.

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Mx. Thorne & Co. @covenposting.bsky.social · 01/02/2026

I'm fucking starving but none of the food looks real to me. too hungry to sleep but the voices in my brain say all the food is poison. I open the fridge and all I see is blobs of color and I don't comprehend any of it.

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Mx. Thorne & Co. @covenposting.bsky.social · 31/01/2026

someday I will know what it is to feel included

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Mx. Thorne & Co. @covenposting.bsky.social · 31/01/2026

sounds of joy and laughter until they realize I'm awake. rough

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Mx. Thorne & Co. @covenposting.bsky.social · 20/01/2026

save me from myself by doing what I never had the strength to. the only way to help me now is to put me down

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Mx. Thorne & Co. @covenposting.bsky.social · 20/01/2026

someone hit me so maybe I can get the hurt *out*

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Mx. Thorne & Co. @covenposting.bsky.social · 20/01/2026

somehow this is our fault. if we disappeared everything would be easier for the rest.

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Mx. Thorne & Co. @covenposting.bsky.social · 20/01/2026

once again hoping we made the right choice. why is everything so much. why does it only ever get harder? why is it only ever more? why can't it ever be easier? why can't it ever be less?

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Mx. Thorne & Co. @covenposting.bsky.social · 20/01/2026

things were supposed to be better

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Friday Night @fridayyakuza.bsky.social · 16/01/2026

Friday at last…

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Mx. Thorne & Co. @covenposting.bsky.social · 08/01/2026

I ruin everything I touch. Everything I get involved with.

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Mx. Thorne & Co. @covenposting.bsky.social · 07/01/2026

Why must everyone else pay for my own sins?

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Mx. Thorne & Co. @covenposting.bsky.social · 07/01/2026

Myself and those around me are drowning in misfortune, in a storm that will not cease. It is hard not to wonder if those old stories have some merit.

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Mx. Thorne & Co. @covenposting.bsky.social · 07/01/2026

In the book of Jonah, God calls on Jonah to serve him. Jonah instead flees as far as he can go, inviting misfortune on himself and those around him. Storms that only calm once he is thrown from the ship. When I was younger, I too was called by God and have since fled as far as I can go.

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Mx. Thorne & Co. @covenposting.bsky.social · 06/01/2026

the worst part is that im not even allowed to be broken. I start to have a breakdown and I can't even let my emotions out because I have to share space with others. I don't have a place I can just be sad

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Mx. Thorne & Co. @covenposting.bsky.social · 06/01/2026

I find myself, once again, without a place. Just borrowing another's.

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Mx. Thorne & Co. @covenposting.bsky.social · 05/01/2026

I haven't sang since I started the pills. I barely listen to music anymore, either.

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Mx. Thorne & Co. @covenposting.bsky.social · 05/01/2026

I feel terrible, and I just. The pills help but they don't do enough I just feel awful always and I don't know why. I try to act like I don't feel awful because I want to laugh and smile and be silly puppy but underneath it all I'm just. Always awful.

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Mx. Thorne & Co. @covenposting.bsky.social · 05/01/2026

I hurt so much, in body and soul. Always hurting, always aching. Always right up to the breaking point, but never past. A constant wear, weathering me down, leaving nothing but a husk. Hulk hurts. All the time hurts. All the time always. Why? Why Hulk have to hurt so much?

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Mx. Thorne & Co. @covenposting.bsky.social · 03/01/2026

I don't know why I even try. I just bungle everything up when I try to join the conversation.

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