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orders make me who i am. so if i happen to die by those orders, i regret nothing.

you killed me. i hate losing. but there are worse ways to die than at the hands of a man like you. i love how cold and focused your eyes are... i look forward to the day when those eyes will be wide with agony.

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 1h

i get apoplexy thinking of my father— i resemble him in far too many ways.

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 1h

there aren't enough of us left to be throwing lives away, but there is too much at stake not to take calculated risks.

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 2h

live with love. embrace the pain, the frailty, and the moments so unbearably shameful.

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 2h

people need other people. someday you’ll need others. when that time comes, you’re surely going to regret things.

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 3h

if it's a curse, then make it hurt, come on and curse me.

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 3h

IT FEELS SO GROSS. IT FEELS SO GROSS. IT FEELS SO GROSS. IT FEELS SO GROSS. IT FEELS SO... IT FEELS SO GOOD? IT FEELS GOOD? IT FEELS GOOD? IT FEELS GOOD? IT FEELS GOOD? IT FEELS GOOD? IT FEELS GOOD?

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 4h

gods are nothing more than risky business.

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 4h

i've thought many times, “is this what peace feels like? and is it good enough?”

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 5h

LOOK AT HIM AND TELL ME THERE'S A GOD!

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 6h

you can always make something good out of a bad situation. those good moments. hold onto them. forever.

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 6h

you can make something move again, speak again, even think again... but without death, it will never live.

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 7h

all i can hope for is for me to get better because all i can take is no more.

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 7h

in the embrace of a dead god, i'll eternally rest among the stars.

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 7h

the earth saw you and wept its admiration, and there were the oceans. it heard you and screamed its awe, and there was thunder. the world gives its whole self to you; and by standing upon its soil, eating its fruit, breathing its air, you give back. life. worships. you.

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 8h

my love, you are holy. and this world we live in understands that.

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 9h

make this end, my dear brother. with your own two hands.

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 9h

the flow of time is always cruel.

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 10h

i am a burning reminder of your misdeeds.

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 10h

i know he will be really hurt if he finds out he caused all these wounds. compared to the pain he'd feel, my pain is nothing.

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 11h

you should be smiling, too. aren't you excited? aren't you happy? you're going to be free.

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 11h

my heartbeat has synced up with the ceaseless ticking... and i hear it in my head, no matter how far away i wander...

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 12h

men would rather shoulder their pain themselves than cause their loved ones to worry.

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 12h

so that i may live on, i wonder if you will not die for me?

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 13h

all it would take was a flick of his knife. vengeance was his and he gave me back my life.

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 13h

i hold your sorrows, hold your fears, hold your anger in my tears. nobody asked me to... but that is what i'm meant to do.

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 14h

see, i myself have been stepped on so many times it started to feel like my place.

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 14h

i hope to see you at my funeral.

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 15h

it's much harder dealing with the living. give me a ghost to talk to any day.

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 15h

that was the first time i felt like i was needed. and i thought it might be all right to stay here. that's what i'd been missing all along. for whatever reason... you became the place where i belong. and for me... that's incredibly... important...

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 16h

how can something so irregular look so perfect to me?

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 16h

he had disappeared without a trace. i want to think he's okay, but i know better.

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 17h

don’t take it personally. he values people by how useful they are to him. take it from me as an… ’expert’ on what happens when you get too close to the king.

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 17h

to love another person is to see the face of god.

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 18h

this heart of mine is a glorified abscess.

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 18h

dying first is cheating. it makes you seem more valuable.

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 19h

you're willing to cast it aside? lower yourself to a simple human? / what do you mean lower myself? that's the only thing i've ever been; just a simple human who couldn't save a little girl.

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 19h

i should have perished by his hand. it was his right. it was my right to die as well. instead, i live... but live in hell.

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 20h

do you regret—? / i'd do it all again. i'd like to believe i'd do it all again.

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 20h

i see myself. my child self. sitting in the corner... he’s in trouble. he’s crying, but he can’t move. and the centipede is climbing up his back.

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 21h

...you really are a fool. / oh, yeah? you know, your feverish passion has always been a step above mine.

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 21h

you can always make something good out of a bad situation. those good moments. hold onto them. forever.

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 22h

and god knows crying ain't gonna change a thing.

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 22h

don't cry, we're bound together. each life runs its course. i'll see you in the next one; next time, i know you'll call.

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 23h

back then, i couldn't help but admire this kid that walked into my life.

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 23h

if i can become a human sacrifice, i am prepared to do so.

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

stop calling me “brother”. you and i shouldn't coexist in the first place.

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

this time, death cannot save you.

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໒꒱ @choleromaniac.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

you've got me stuck to where i'm sitting, looking at your eyes. and i know i'm so pathetic, i wouldn't move to save my life.

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