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diabolical yuca

@cassavasprout.bsky.social
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personal account for @samosadude.bsky.social messy sketch/wips/yapping dump 🔞 for occasional nsfw art/text (I spam and delete posts often)

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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 7h
no need to be sorry! I appreciate the solidarity. a lot of ocd coping does kinda just feel like forcing yourself out of your own thought train, kinda like achieving lucidity during a nightmare. it doesn’t make always wake you up, but at least you’re aware that it’s just in your head
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 8h
it’s something that tends to linger in my mind throughout the day but it’s definitely worse at night. it’s a difficult thing when you only really have your own pov but you have the mental illness that notoriously skews it. it’s scary out here, medicated or not
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 10h
sometimes you just need to sit, make a polymer max reebo, and contemplate your own feelings
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 12h
I’m gonna be sick. why do I love him
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 17h
ive been inconsolable since my friend introduced me to biddy blas I look like I’m holding back sobs in public spaces. they can’t keep getting away with making characters like this
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 09/03/2026
damn bro. the yearn and ache
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 10/10/2026
ive been biking, jogging, and lifting so much heavy shit from volunteering, college, and work. physically i feel both great and also OUGHHHHHHHHGHHHHHHHHHH
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 09/10/2026
it’s peam #venturebros
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 09/10/2026
started watching venture bros w milk and I didn’t realize it was peak off the bat
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🌐✨ @impternetexplorer.bsky.social · 09/10/2026
ben will pause for a couple minutes and return with a dog molded to my image. and i always smile
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 08/10/2026
still coming to terms with ppl actually liking how i look and act, but im starting to see it more in myself too. also got a friend who dogsits and walks lady while im at college/work, so shes been loving that. i cherish the network i got these days, both online and irl. life feels richer
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 08/10/2026
// personal aside from still dealing with some level of ptsd, anxiety, and ocd, ive been learning a lot about my personality through hanging out with different friend groups irl. tbh i actually like the person ive been becoming. its reassuring learning that ppl think im funny and nice
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 08/10/2026
friend took a photo of a drawing i slid across the bar last night
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 08/10/2026
i did not account for my shoes smelling like weed fuuuuuuck
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 08/10/2026
mantras to tell yourself the day after partying with friends: -you smell clean -you don’t smell like weed -no one at your college campus or job can tell you drank and smoked weed and cigarettes yesterday
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 08/10/2026
getting a lot more comfortable talking irl but anxiety will still stun lock me like a mf. the fear #thefear
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 08/10/2026
(moral ocd sufferer) how do you even be flirty or complimentary without feeling like a massive creep??
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 07/10/2026
like it would be more of an inconvenience in so many ways to have something, but at literally any inconvenience, my body just gets like "you know what would really help the situation? cuz i do." I have no balls and i must cream or whatever the fuck they say
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 07/10/2026
// personal transmasc bottom dysphoria is such a strange feeling. its easier to explain not wanting something attached to you cuz its something you can actively feel, like wanting top surgery or a hysto. with this, my brain keeps going "bro where my thing ):" or "she nothing on my nothing ):"
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 07/10/2026
studying for an anatomy exam by spinning around a 3d model of a skeleton. i wonder if anyone sitting behind me in lecture is noticing this or what they think im doing
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 07/10/2026
this is such a cute design!! i could see him being animated in a similar style to Super Paper Mario characters so clearly
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 07/10/2026
realizing majority of the people i know irl are going to the same rocky horror late night showing peace and love on queer pervert world ❤️
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 07/10/2026
I hate how expensive trans stuff is. why is anything worth its salt in the triple digits at minimum?? being economical by doubling a strap-on as a packer. whatever.
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 06/10/2026
this one seems just as manageable as my first job. a lot of friendly slavic dudes who mostly keep to themselves so i fw the environment two jobs, full time college work, and volunteer hours. regular charlie hustle over here (huge timer in bg counting to caffeine overdose)
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 06/10/2026
just finished orientation for my second job and i was the only one who wasn’t a tall, broad cisman. good lerd help me
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 06/10/2026
it’s nice and keeps my brain occupied but also I miss having more time for art ): been napping on the bus between tasks
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 06/10/2026
hoooough packed schedule… Im juggling what tasks and events to prioritize all the way up to Halloween
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 06/10/2026
still a bit bruised from the conga line of people who individually contacted me within the span of a year, all basically wanting consolation for feeling guilty about distressing the fuck out of me. that shit was comically fucked up
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 06/10/2026
// vent ptsd is fun cuz you can have a solid new job, kind friends, and a really good support system, but then your brain goes “hey you passed by a smell that has vague association with a person. I’m gonna replay every horrible thing they did to you” and snorts a line of cortisol
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 06/10/2026
first day through and this genuinely is a nice set up. It’s gonna be a really pleasant side job
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 05/10/2026
i figured meds killed my hyperfixating, turns out it just drew out spamtenna and tron from what is typically 3-4 months to over a fucking year. can anyone hear me???
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 05/10/2026
i just saw a dude with shades, a pompadour, and pink letterman walk into the coffee shop im at my jaw dropped
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 23/07/2026
I MISS TRON
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 04/10/2026
YEAH!!! I’ve been a huuuge IDKHOW fan for ages
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 04/10/2026
I’m a bit basic when it comes to full albums instead of individual song picks hehehe
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 04/10/2026
I’m very proud of how much foundation I’ve been able to lay for myself the last year. even with hardships, it’s probably the happiest and most myself I’ve ever felt. I literally just needed to be on meds lmao
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 04/10/2026
I’m so chuffed about the whole arrangement of my new job. pays well, low hours, very convenient location + schedule, and it’ll meet the requirements to apply for food stamps down the line. im going to smile
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 04/10/2026
entering a new era lately called “instead of directly catcalling me, men will ogle my outfits, then get really upset when they realize I’m a guy.” guess I’m passing more lol. couple of times women have called me slutty when passing by but their tone is a lot more positive. shrugs
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 04/10/2026
attempt at seeming vaguely masculine when talking to a guy failed because a puppy ran up to me lmaoooo
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 04/10/2026
it’s good for actually working through emotional constipation but also hoooooooooughhhhhhhhhhh
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 04/10/2026
I love listening to music that makes me feel like shit!!! holding back tears at the tjmaxx, acting like I don’t know why
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sk-Chloe-ton SCARES through it @monktvofficial.bsky.social · 03/10/2026
they should make a cigarette for your penis i think
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 03/10/2026
they hate me for my ribbed cigarette
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 05/09/2026
rereading limited time offer just to feel something
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 03/10/2026
lmaooo
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 03/10/2026
// personal both happening but I’m only pursuing one lol. it’s at least fun to get to experience that not long-distance for once, even if I don’t want to do anything about it
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 03/10/2026
romantic feelings is a lot like a job where when I don’t have one, I feel like I should, but when I realize I’m getting one, I just-
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 02/10/2026
half awake warm up
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 02/10/2026
i would keep it veryyyy simple, but could maybe be something for spare cash inbetween college and 2 pt jobs. dunno! examples of designs:
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diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 02/10/2026
maybe i should say fuck it and offer small tattoo comms on the side...idk...the kind I do doesn't take much effort and I really miss drawing. its scary how many ppl have drawings ive made tattood on them already lol
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