diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 7hno need to be sorry! I appreciate the solidarity. a lot of ocd coping does kinda just feel like forcing yourself out of your own thought train, kinda like achieving lucidity during a nightmare. it doesn’t make always wake you up, but at least you’re aware that it’s just in your head 020
diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 8hit’s something that tends to linger in my mind throughout the day but it’s definitely worse at night. it’s a difficult thing when you only really have your own pov but you have the mental illness that notoriously skews it. it’s scary out here, medicated or not 120
diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 10hsometimes you just need to sit, make a polymer max reebo, and contemplate your own feelings 040
diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 17hive been inconsolable since my friend introduced me to biddy blas I look like I’m holding back sobs in public spaces. they can’t keep getting away with making characters like this 140
Reposted by diabolical yucadiabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 09/03/2026damn bro. the yearn and ache 1131
diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 10/10/2026ive been biking, jogging, and lifting so much heavy shit from volunteering, college, and work. physically i feel both great and also OUGHHHHHHHHGHHHHHHHHHH 080
diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 09/10/2026started watching venture bros w milk and I didn’t realize it was peak off the bat 030
Reposted by diabolical yuca🌐✨ @impternetexplorer.bsky.social · 09/10/2026ben will pause for a couple minutes and return with a dog molded to my image. and i always smile 0111
diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 08/10/2026still coming to terms with ppl actually liking how i look and act, but im starting to see it more in myself too. also got a friend who dogsits and walks lady while im at college/work, so shes been loving that. i cherish the network i got these days, both online and irl. life feels richer 030
diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 08/10/2026// personal aside from still dealing with some level of ptsd, anxiety, and ocd, ive been learning a lot about my personality through hanging out with different friend groups irl. tbh i actually like the person ive been becoming. its reassuring learning that ppl think im funny and nice 130
diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 08/10/2026friend took a photo of a drawing i slid across the bar last night 091
diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 08/10/2026i did not account for my shoes smelling like weed fuuuuuuck 000
diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 08/10/2026mantras to tell yourself the day after partying with friends: -you smell clean -you don’t smell like weed -no one at your college campus or job can tell you drank and smoked weed and cigarettes yesterday 100
diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 08/10/2026getting a lot more comfortable talking irl but anxiety will still stun lock me like a mf. the fear #thefear 010
diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 08/10/2026(moral ocd sufferer) how do you even be flirty or complimentary without feeling like a massive creep?? 231
diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 07/10/2026like it would be more of an inconvenience in so many ways to have something, but at literally any inconvenience, my body just gets like "you know what would really help the situation? cuz i do." I have no balls and i must cream or whatever the fuck they say 050
diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 07/10/2026// personal transmasc bottom dysphoria is such a strange feeling. its easier to explain not wanting something attached to you cuz its something you can actively feel, like wanting top surgery or a hysto. with this, my brain keeps going "bro where my thing ):" or "she nothing on my nothing ):" 180
diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 07/10/2026studying for an anatomy exam by spinning around a 3d model of a skeleton. i wonder if anyone sitting behind me in lecture is noticing this or what they think im doing 040
diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 07/10/2026this is such a cute design!! i could see him being animated in a similar style to Super Paper Mario characters so clearly 010
diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 07/10/2026realizing majority of the people i know irl are going to the same rocky horror late night showing peace and love on queer pervert world ❤️ 030
diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 07/10/2026I hate how expensive trans stuff is. why is anything worth its salt in the triple digits at minimum?? being economical by doubling a strap-on as a packer. whatever. 080
diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 06/10/2026this one seems just as manageable as my first job. a lot of friendly slavic dudes who mostly keep to themselves so i fw the environment two jobs, full time college work, and volunteer hours. regular charlie hustle over here (huge timer in bg counting to caffeine overdose) 050
diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 06/10/2026just finished orientation for my second job and i was the only one who wasn’t a tall, broad cisman. good lerd help me 190
diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 06/10/2026it’s nice and keeps my brain occupied but also I miss having more time for art ): been napping on the bus between tasks 010
diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 06/10/2026hoooough packed schedule… Im juggling what tasks and events to prioritize all the way up to Halloween 140
diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 06/10/2026still a bit bruised from the conga line of people who individually contacted me within the span of a year, all basically wanting consolation for feeling guilty about distressing the fuck out of me. that shit was comically fucked up 050
diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 06/10/2026// vent ptsd is fun cuz you can have a solid new job, kind friends, and a really good support system, but then your brain goes “hey you passed by a smell that has vague association with a person. I’m gonna replay every horrible thing they did to you” and snorts a line of cortisol 160
diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 06/10/2026first day through and this genuinely is a nice set up. It’s gonna be a really pleasant side job 020
diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 05/10/2026i figured meds killed my hyperfixating, turns out it just drew out spamtenna and tron from what is typically 3-4 months to over a fucking year. can anyone hear me??? 010
diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 05/10/2026i just saw a dude with shades, a pompadour, and pink letterman walk into the coffee shop im at my jaw dropped 080
diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 04/10/2026YEAH!!! I’ve been a huuuge IDKHOW fan for ages 110
diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 04/10/2026I’m a bit basic when it comes to full albums instead of individual song picks hehehe 370
diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 04/10/2026I’m very proud of how much foundation I’ve been able to lay for myself the last year. even with hardships, it’s probably the happiest and most myself I’ve ever felt. I literally just needed to be on meds lmao 150
diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 04/10/2026I’m so chuffed about the whole arrangement of my new job. pays well, low hours, very convenient location + schedule, and it’ll meet the requirements to apply for food stamps down the line. im going to smile 1101
diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 04/10/2026entering a new era lately called “instead of directly catcalling me, men will ogle my outfits, then get really upset when they realize I’m a guy.” guess I’m passing more lol. couple of times women have called me slutty when passing by but their tone is a lot more positive. shrugs 010
diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 04/10/2026attempt at seeming vaguely masculine when talking to a guy failed because a puppy ran up to me lmaoooo 111
diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 04/10/2026it’s good for actually working through emotional constipation but also hoooooooooughhhhhhhhhhh 020
diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 04/10/2026I love listening to music that makes me feel like shit!!! holding back tears at the tjmaxx, acting like I don’t know why 120
Reposted by diabolical yucask-Chloe-ton SCARES through it @monktvofficial.bsky.social · 03/10/2026they should make a cigarette for your penis i think 052
Reposted by diabolical yucadiabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 05/09/2026rereading limited time offer just to feel something 1115
diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 03/10/2026// personal both happening but I’m only pursuing one lol. it’s at least fun to get to experience that not long-distance for once, even if I don’t want to do anything about it 010
diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 03/10/2026romantic feelings is a lot like a job where when I don’t have one, I feel like I should, but when I realize I’m getting one, I just- 121
diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 02/10/2026i would keep it veryyyy simple, but could maybe be something for spare cash inbetween college and 2 pt jobs. dunno! examples of designs: 062
diabolical yuca @cassavasprout.bsky.social · 02/10/2026maybe i should say fuck it and offer small tattoo comms on the side...idk...the kind I do doesn't take much effort and I really miss drawing. its scary how many ppl have drawings ive made tattood on them already lol 010