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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

just noticed another one of my previously uncomfortably tight dress is actually quite loose n flowy on me now :3

apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

i fucking knew i was bound to over3at eventually and it happened today 🫠🫠 i stuffed my face with homemade baked goods n my stomach was bloated and hurting for HOURS after made me regret every bite smh hopefully not gonna do that again anytime soon

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

im not responsible for what my skin, hair & mascara are doing today

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

i can't imagine living without any sort of unhealthy crutch to fall back on how do people do this

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

i don't want to let go of my 3d but i also don't want to live like this forever :((

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

tummy hurt so bad i feel faint bruh it's been only 13 hours relax

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

locking in hard this week since my bday is on Sunday and ik my family will want to treat me to a lot of baked goods 😭😭 im very grateful but also worried abt my intake

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

if i don't take out my anger on myself i always end up taking it out on someone else 🫠🫠 idk how to deal with it in a healthy manner ugh i rlly need to start cvtting again also overate these past two days k1ll m3

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

im legit falling asleep while standing up 💀💀

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

do i proteinmaxx today n have more f0od or do i keep my f4st going🤔🤔

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

almost 5 AM here good morning everybody!!! i didn't even squeeze in a nap but I don't feel tired at all, i hope i survive the day 🤞😭

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

i was supposed to try h@rm reduction this week as my therapy assignment but so far all ive done is decrease my 1nt4ke even more 🫠🫠 ive yet to go to bed, my sleep schedule is so fucked & im having chest pains every now n then but i just can't eat more ://

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

mere 7 hours into a f4st and im feeling like death 😒😒 ive had so many carbs today what is my problem

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

had a certified therapy moment yesterday when i mentioned im f4sting daily for 20+ hours & my therapist raised his eyebrows, started questioning me about it with concern in his voice n proceeded to scribble furiously on his notepad lmao i was convinced i told him about it last session 😭😭

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

no matter the piece of clothing i just never feel cute in a crop top :// i look so chunky, im nowhere near sk1nnÿ for them yet

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

it's october soon!!! there's going to be so much work to do im afraid me r3l4ps1ng in every direcy is imminent!!!

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

it's hair&skin gummies day 5: whatever skin condition I had for the past year on my hands is gone now 😃👍

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

my mom's bf brought us some macarons and im freaking out about trying them tomorrow. idk how many c's they have but ill be splitting them with my brother so realistically ill only have two :(( i haven't had actual sweets in a few weeks now, they became a huge ff for me :((

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

i slept in, did jack shit all day but im a bathroom trip away from being üw again >w<

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

only took roughly a week for me to get sick again 😔😔

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

good news: there's nothing psychically wrong with my brain!! bad news: my issues with memory are most likely caused by prolonged stress, years of intense emotions and my 3d :'))

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

my hair is falling out so bad i think it's time to incorporate hair & skin gummies 🫠🫠

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

for the first time in a while im mad my appetite is completely gone bcs i have such a yummy menu for today but im just not hungry at all 😭😭

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

woke up with a scratchy feeling in my throat and a stuffy nose, i think im getting sick again smh

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 22/09/2026

experiencing some of the worst nausea ive had in a while bcs of my meds ☺️☺️ if this keeps up ill be locked in like never before 🤞☺️

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

my body's had enough so im restarting my f4st at 8pm 😒😒 at least it was tasty but idk what got into me i just decided to help myself to some of the soup i made for tomorrow, a few bites of choco oatmeal and a huge apple with far too much pb

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

thinking of making a list comparing why some foods are safe or not or why c4ls just geniuenly do not count at all to me sometimes bcs i felt like a dumbass trying to explain the differences to my therapist 💀💀

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

after a week of stalling i went and picked up my 5th?? 6th?? medication im trying im low-key scared bcs it says it can cause wg but so could my s3tr4line and pr3gab (the latter ive been on for over a year) & I don't think it did shit in that department so maybe im overreacting

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

do i dress myself so painfully plainly because i like it or because i have the personality of a cardboard & am utterly uninteresting 🤔🤔

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

what is it with me and constantly pulling some random muscles/slightly dislocating joints in my hands/knees/hips 💀💀 dad said i should start working out but you'll never catch me doing more than steps fuck that

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

alc0hol ruins all of my progress every damn time i drink but I can't stay away from it :///

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

ok but i need to pavlov myself into associating f00d with something bad bcs today was fucking terrible im drunk and want to cvt myself for the first time in months 😃😃

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

had a small ice cream bar n some chocolate, not only do i feel guilty i also STILL want to devour a whole bar of it 💀💀 i can't fucking eat sweets ever again

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

blaming my thinning hair on my thyroid 👍👍

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

also had a man ask me to go behind a corner to a salon and check if his gf is there because they were in a fight??? bro what the fuck are you on

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

what the fuck is up with public transport today, THREE of the buses/trams i need to get on didn't arrive and now im going to be late to class IF i manage to get there ://

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

didn't budge for any apple fritters and had fruit instead 💪💪 my hip bones are also the most prominent they've ever been i geniuenly felt good looking at myself in the mirror 🤭🤭

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

trying to up my steps game bcs this month has been my worst so far 😭 over 10k done!!

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

why will my body just not let me stick to 0mad/2m4d, i was ok for ONE day and the next i had to eat more immediately bcs my muscles were cramping, my appendiges were turning purple & i couldn't breathe properly 😒😒 all this just to still be f@t smh

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 17/09/2026

maybe i need to up my intake im getting angry over nothing & being mean to everyone around me when they did literally nothing to deserve this treatment from me 💀💀

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

idk how my grandma does it but she found five pairs of jeans in perfect condition for me at the thrift store today & turns out im a US size 00 somehow?????? even at my lw i was still around 4/2 when the fuck did that happen

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

im being so fucking negative today my bad y'all

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

i want to 0m4d a huge bar of chocolate but doing that even after a 24-48hr f4st wouldn't make me feel less guilty :// i can't just have a piece, ill devour the whole thing like the pig i am so cutting out all snacks/sweets is the only option

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

omfg can i please just stop thinking about sweets, i despise myself so much im at work and cannot fucking focus on any other shit bcs my useless fucking brain wants a wiw chocowate 🥹🥹 kÿš im going for a smoke

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

haven't checked my w3ight since early august, bet i haven't lost jack shit since then 🫠🫠

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 14/09/2026

lowkey concerned im forgetting passwords and codes ive been using for years 😃😃

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apothy 🍎 @carvedapotheosis.bsky.social · 14/09/2026

carbmaxxing today idgaf im feeling so sick i want to be home

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