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yeah i’m just not gonna say anything tbh. atp i don’t think my already fragile mental state could handle the rejection if the interaction goes anything like it has with past friends…

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SEEU IS COMING BACK???? HELLO WHAT 🤯🤯

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if i just forgive and forget without ever bringing it up again, maybe i can avoid causing more grief for someone already going thru a lot

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besides, making someone feel guilty over me would just make me wanna die even more lol

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Renoveic @renoveic.bsky.social · 08/10/2026

maybe it’s better if i just pretend i was never hurting… i’m good at lying about my feelings, and i don’t wanna ruin the sudden normalcy i’m being gifted. i’ll probably ruin things again if i say anything…

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well at least i see my psych in like an hour lol. hopefully she can help

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istg if this med has given me permanent psychotic symptoms i’m gonna Lose It bitch!!! i got off of it!!!! LET ME GO YOU DICK

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i keep seeing things in my peripheral vision, but they’re always gone when i look… are my eyes fucking up or smth? what the hell

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i need to withdraw, i can’t keep burdening my remaining friends with the shit in my head. i’m just gonna end up hurting them, i need to shrink so i’m not a bother anymore

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sleep, please visit me this time… i need you desperately

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the more i think, the worse it gets. wish i could just leave my brain on a shelf somewhere and only use it when i need the processing power

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my parents are yelling about politics again… sighhh

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i just have to remember that my friends have their own lives and struggles, and i can’t expect them to divert energy away from that just for me. i have to be grateful for what i’m given and not ask for nor expect anything, bc i’m not entitled to anything from anyone unless i pay them

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how long do i have to keep pulling myself by my bootstraps…. how long do i have to keep fighting…. i’m so, so tired

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i try to open up to my dad about how much i’m suffering right now, and he says i need to “stop being so negative” and that i’m “so entitled”….. i just want this to end man

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i need to stop venting on here… if twitter goes down again people will come back and see me losing my damn mind 😓

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am i just bad? is there something about me that makes me deserving of this? have i done something wrong? why does god keep punishing me?

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becoming disabled ruined my life tbh. i’m more miserable now than i was at 16

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maybe russia has autism 🤔🤔🤔

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people reading these tweets in the future will probably think i’m having a mental breakdown dhcjvhjvcjvc

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oh my god i need to stop TALKINGGG i sound insane

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no one checks this site anyway so at least i can vent without causing more problems

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sorry for the ramblings. i’ll shut up now lol

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but fuck dude…. i’m so tired

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i HAVE to be better. do better. or i’m not gonna make it

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if i don’t get my shit together i’ll lose whatever remaining friends i have left. i need to figure this out, or i’m not gonna have a support system to get me through this next year

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is it better to not talk abt myself at all? or would that ward ppl off…? is there some happy medium where i’m revealing enough about my life to not seem distant, without saying enough to steal too much attention…..

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what is the expected ratio of talking about myself/things i like vs the other person’s life and interests……

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am i even capable of conversation rn…… my brain is mush and idk what time is

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mmm…. i wonder if i’ll lose followers by being so annoying

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hopefully i can sleep at least a bit before my appointment tomorrow 🥲

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welp. good thing i have nothing going on today ig

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ну, что есть, то есть

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я не спал……. пиздец

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бляяяяя уже за полночь(((

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