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🐾Gravely Rotten🐾 (recovering) @bwunnicvtz.bsky.social · 19/07/2026

⚠️⚠️BANDAGES, SH I ended up relapsing yesterday, i was almost 6 months clean, but now i have to try again.

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🐾Gravely Rotten🐾 (recovering) @bwunnicvtz.bsky.social · 03/05/2026

Looking at my old pictures it’s actually horrifying how bad off i was Like holy shit

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🐾Gravely Rotten🐾 (recovering) @bwunnicvtz.bsky.social · 03/05/2026

‼️CW// SCARS I lost a lot of weight again, and now my scars look so bulging/weird. You can tell how often id cut its insane :,) But its okay im 3 months clean!

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🐾Gravely Rotten🐾 (recovering) @bwunnicvtz.bsky.social · 29/04/2026

I am lying to myself for attention and exaggerating the reality of the situation

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🐾Gravely Rotten🐾 (recovering) @bwunnicvtz.bsky.social · 29/04/2026

Everyone else seems to be fine except for me so its clear i am the only one forcing myself to feel this way and i should dismiss the feelings i am exaggerating for attention

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🐾Gravely Rotten🐾 (recovering) @bwunnicvtz.bsky.social · 29/04/2026

I am making up how i feel and it is not the truth and it is heavily exaggerated from the truth

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🐾Gravely Rotten🐾 (recovering) @bwunnicvtz.bsky.social · 29/04/2026

How i feel isnt what’s actually happening and i am exaggerating everything, im fine and im being paranoid and causing issues for myself

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🐾Gravely Rotten🐾 (recovering) @bwunnicvtz.bsky.social · 29/04/2026

Everything i feel is a fib ans everything i think is going on is heavily scewed to purposely make me feel worse and destroy what i have

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🐾Gravely Rotten🐾 (recovering) @bwunnicvtz.bsky.social · 29/04/2026

How i feel about the madeup situation is incorrect because i it is jot happening so i have no reason to be doing what i am doing

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🐾Gravely Rotten🐾 (recovering) @bwunnicvtz.bsky.social · 29/04/2026

Everything i think is happening is a lie and an exaggeration of the actual situation and i am lying to myself and getting myself worked up over nothing

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🐾Gravely Rotten🐾 (recovering) @bwunnicvtz.bsky.social · 29/04/2026

Everything that is happening is not actually how i am viewing it and i am not viewing it truthfully

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🐾Gravely Rotten🐾 (recovering) @bwunnicvtz.bsky.social · 29/04/2026

My feelings are exaggerated and reality is not how i feel and i am making up bigger problems to justify hurting myself

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🐾Gravely Rotten🐾 (recovering) @bwunnicvtz.bsky.social · 29/04/2026

Everything i feel is not true or correct so in retaliation i am destroying everything further proving i didnt work that harm and i shouldnt expect much from myself

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🐾Gravely Rotten🐾 (recovering) @bwunnicvtz.bsky.social · 29/04/2026

How i feel is not real and im exaggerating everything in order to justify the urges to cause myself harm and i am purposely destroying my future

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🐾Gravely Rotten🐾 (recovering) @bwunnicvtz.bsky.social · 15/04/2026

I wont lie, i had to drop weight lifting due to me still struggling to eat enough food. But its okay, i still am making progress by challenging what food i eat. You guys CAN recover. It’ll always seem impossible. You can do it.

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🐾Gravely Rotten🐾 (recovering) @bwunnicvtz.bsky.social · 15/04/2026

Hey guys, its paradise. Ive been working on recovery and honestly im doing a lot better mentally Im still struggling with dysmorphia, but im improving. I hope all of you can one day be mentally stable, in a safe stable environment, and can find peace within themselves towards their bodies.

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🐾Gravely Rotten🐾 (recovering) @bwunnicvtz.bsky.social · 07/03/2026

Reject anorexia embrace working out and gaining muscle November 2025 vs march 2026 Losing weight and dropping to 116 didnt bring me any joy. All it did was make me depressed, emotional, and weaker than ever. Youll never love yourself being unable to function. Reverse the damage b4 its too late.

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🐾Gravely Rotten🐾 (recovering) @bwunnicvtz.bsky.social · 10/02/2026

I had to get a new scale since my old one my dad broke.. Hadnt weighed myself in a week and i went from 125 to 117 again

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🐾Gravely Rotten🐾 (recovering) @bwunnicvtz.bsky.social · 26/01/2026

Its crazy how ppl js get mad at u when u stop socializing or engaging instead of idk assuming smth might b wrong??? Like uve been friends w me for 4 yrs n u cant tell me not sming daily means smths off?? N now ur mad at me????? Bitch stfu

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🐾Gravely Rotten🐾 (recovering) @bwunnicvtz.bsky.social · 13/01/2026

I want to cut so bad but i know my friend would want me to stay strong and not do it Especially after what he just went through

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🐾Gravely Rotten🐾 (recovering) @bwunnicvtz.bsky.social · 13/01/2026

The lady at my favorite chinese restaurant said i looked “very skinny” and should eat more Idk why this genuinely is making me want to relapse Wdym im skinny im not Im not thin enough bro

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🐾Gravely Rotten🐾 (recovering) @bwunnicvtz.bsky.social · 13/01/2026

New temp pinned post 🪦Nickname: paradise / rott 🖤20yo disabled idiot 🔪he/it mal3 ! 🐾ED + SH = MAIN FOCUS 🕯I may post drvg/bpd stuff ‼️I BLOCK FREELY, IDGAF‼️ DNI: ns/fw, b1g/0ts, ant1-qv33r

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🐾Gravely Rotten🐾 (recovering) @bwunnicvtz.bsky.social · 13/01/2026

Btw i turned 20 a few days ago, like maybe 4-6 days ago?

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🐾Gravely Rotten🐾 (recovering) @bwunnicvtz.bsky.social · 13/01/2026

Hey guys long time no see Ive been recovering decently, still around the same weight. I may have gained a bunch recently though because ive been having food related events everyday for 4-5 days now I might relapse soon because of this😭 But yeah hi ok bye

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🐾Gravely Rotten🐾 (recovering) @bwunnicvtz.bsky.social · 13/01/2026

“Trauma doesnt make people do that” Trauma makes people KILL THEMSELVES, jessie… Do you know how DIFFICULT it is to TRUELY decide suicide is your answer? And then GO THROUGH WITH IT??

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🐾Gravely Rotten🐾 (recovering) @bwunnicvtz.bsky.social · 12/12/2025

Guys, hitting your goal weight does nothing. Youll never be fucking happy. Understand that. Youll never be skinny enough. Youll never love yourself. Youll just get worse and worse and you know it too. Make it fucking stop.

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🐾Gravely Rotten🐾 (recovering) @bwunnicvtz.bsky.social · 12/12/2025

Lmao recovery is so fucking hard anytime i feel my stomach when im sleeping i feel like im severely overweight. I need to tell my therapist and doctors im struggling. Im scared theyll just force me on a weight gain diet and not actually focus on the mental aspect of it. Its not that im scared of+

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🐾Gravely Rotten🐾 (recovering) @bwunnicvtz.bsky.social · 09/12/2025

I shouldnt be posting my problems online all it does it make others feel worse

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🐾Gravely Rotten🐾 (recovering) @bwunnicvtz.bsky.social · 09/12/2025

What is wrong with me Whats wrong with the world Iwant to kms I should just do it

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🐾Gravely Rotten🐾 (recovering) @bwunnicvtz.bsky.social · 09/12/2025

I threw up i need to stop having these episodes ugh. I shouldnt be feeling like this.

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🐾Gravely Rotten🐾 (recovering) @bwunnicvtz.bsky.social · 09/12/2025

Dont eat stop eating food doesnt help you just quit shoving that nasty processed regurgitated bullshit down your throat you dont need to eat youbdont need food youll be fine just stop eating this shit

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🐾Gravely Rotten🐾 (recovering) @bwunnicvtz.bsky.social · 09/12/2025

I nee tobthrow up im so fat and disgusting im poisoning my body im unattractive and gross i shouldn’t be eating like a pig it rots my teeth and body my organs arent made to eat thid much im an obese disgusting piece of shit

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🐾Gravely Rotten🐾 (recovering) @bwunnicvtz.bsky.social · 08/12/2025

I keep having daily panic attacks im ttaking ny mac x levekbof ativan and its causing me to be disoriented

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🐾Gravely Rotten🐾 (recovering) @bwunnicvtz.bsky.social · 08/12/2025

I want oatmeal…. But oatmael one tnmake me hapy

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🐾Gravely Rotten🐾 (recovering) @bwunnicvtz.bsky.social · 06/12/2025

Im down to bmi 16.9 Not my intentions to get that low but damn

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🐾Gravely Rotten🐾 (recovering) @bwunnicvtz.bsky.social · 04/12/2025

First picture was a month ago Second one is today I gained a bit but it mainly is muscle.

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🐾Gravely Rotten🐾 (recovering) @bwunnicvtz.bsky.social · 04/12/2025

Why do i laugh when uncomfortable i stop breathing and i cant even say no stop why does this keep happening why do i freeze up ill never be strong enough to defend myself or stand up for myself

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🐾Gravely Rotten🐾 (recovering) @bwunnicvtz.bsky.social · 03/12/2025

//sh I needvto just do it i need to get it over with, one slice wont ruin everything it’ll regulate

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🐾Gravely Rotten🐾 (recovering) @bwunnicvtz.bsky.social · 03/12/2025

Edtwt what is the quickest way to lose all appetite No cigarettes no coffee

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🐾Gravely Rotten🐾 (recovering) @bwunnicvtz.bsky.social · 03/12/2025

I ate so much food wtfffff I keep trying to slowly cut down but fuck i wanna cut down 100% I can’t look at myself in the mirror anymore rn…

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🐾Gravely Rotten🐾 (recovering) @bwunnicvtz.bsky.social · 01/12/2025

I need a drug that makes me not hungry i wish i could smoke nicotine but id get kicked out wtf

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🐾Gravely Rotten🐾 (recovering) @bwunnicvtz.bsky.social · 01/12/2025

I ate too much lmao i actually gained so much wtf Im not eating anymore bro wtf

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🐾Gravely Rotten🐾 (recovering) @bwunnicvtz.bsky.social · 24/11/2025

I SERIOUSLY FUCKING HATE MYSELF HOW COULD I DO THIS. I WAS DOING SO GOOD AND I FUCKED IT ALL UP NOW I WANT MORE I HATE MYSELF I H A T E MYSELF I H A T E MYSELF.

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🐾Gravely Rotten🐾 (recovering) @bwunnicvtz.bsky.social · 24/11/2025

I relapsed on one of my addictions from over 10 years ago what the fuck 😍😍😍 i genuinely should hurt myself!!! I can’t believe i fucking did that!!!! Now i have to recondition myself not to want it!!!!!! I rather be cutting instead!!!! Or starving!!!! I FUCKING HATE MYSELF WHY DID I DO THIS WHYWHYWH

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