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sucklet irl @bulalongmulto.bsky.social · 8h

i think i just dissociated for like a good hour HELP

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sucklet irl @bulalongmulto.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

HELP HELP HELP HELP HELP DID YOU SAY THIS BC OF OUR CONVOS YESTERDYAVDHDJDJABDJSNDBJSNENEJDJAJDJ

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sucklet irl @bulalongmulto.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

one was an acquaintance who was so happy to see me it genuinely floored me 😭 super sweet ... overall i find it very enjoyable ... my org is smaller than most but i enjoy the kind of people it attracts

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sucklet irl @bulalongmulto.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

some people are very polite (i tell them they can regard me equally, then 5 sentences later theyre back to using polite terms), have different senses of humor (i got ribbed for not catching onto a joke abt my name quick enough LOL), or like to go in depth abt their thoughts abt simple questions+

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sucklet irl @bulalongmulto.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

anywho, its fun to see what groups people form, what languages people like to speak, how they choose to socialize, who might have introduced them to the space by seeing which members theyre acquainted with, that kinda stuff

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sucklet irl @bulalongmulto.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

a part of me did freak out bc fuckk are my flareups so bad that theyre seen enough to be pointed out but honestly i think they were just the first to say it out loud . so thank u to them n their very forward personality for giving me a positive bizarre experience this week i think i needed that HAHA

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sucklet irl @bulalongmulto.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

my instinctual reaction to surprise is to laugh so i did and then we started talking about what treatments we take for our eczema 😭😭 genuinely such a new experience for me bc its always been such a Me thing it felt nice to share that w someone. we even experience flare ups in similar places LMAO

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sucklet irl @bulalongmulto.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

while we were talking i noticed they had dried skin on their neck the same way i do, but i decided not to comment on it bc Thats Not My Business. but in the split second lull of our conversation they asked "do you have eczema too?" AND IT SURPRISED ME SO MUCH

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sucklet irl @bulalongmulto.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

i always find applicant orientations for my org fun, bc its a fun exercise in scoping out peoples' vibes. i ended up picking up on this one person being very forward and to-the-point in a way that makes them stand out socially. not that its bad, they just dont have that "new person shyness" most do

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sucklet irl @bulalongmulto.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

(places a hand on the wall) guys i thnk the dissociation might be real. OH GOD

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sucklet irl @bulalongmulto.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

omg i keep saying im the type to love spending for others but never for myself, and i took the panukat ng ugali at pagkatao and got high in both katipiran (thriftiness) and pagkamapagbigay (generosity) AHHAHAHA SO AT LEAST I CAN ATTEST TO THE RESULTS !

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sucklet irl @bulalongmulto.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

you know its bad when i can extract happiness from getting to close my eyes for 13 minutes

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sucklet irl @bulalongmulto.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

guys i dont think im strong enough anymore 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

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sucklet irl @bulalongmulto.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

suicidal ideation tw but today has just been one big this

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sucklet irl @bulalongmulto.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

"i" dont think about anything, i dont feel anything, like im listening to someone monologue and watching their life instead, i feel numb but i feel everything too. i know people expect things from me but i dont know if its "me" who's delivering. i dont know if i care

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sucklet irl @bulalongmulto.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

not in a metaphorical way like i dont . get. anything . i dont get how im typing this, i dont get how im talking to people, i dont get how i sleep or how i go to class and do what i need to do. that feels like another person doing all those things and whoever "i" am is just watching

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sucklet irl @bulalongmulto.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

ok i laugh but it is genuinely a lil bit distressing and ummmmm idk what to do about it 🥰 i feel like the things i do arent my actions, it doesnt feel like its "me" thats seeing or experiencing all these things, i dont get why things look the way they do, i cant make sense of how the world works

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sucklet irl @bulalongmulto.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

idk if this is indicative of anything but for the past while i feel like ive been watching my life thru a screen AHHAAA

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sucklet irl @bulalongmulto.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

i want to but i need to RANT rant bc wtf is going on

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sucklet irl @bulalongmulto.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

how do i even start talking about today bro its been so fucking bizarre

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sucklet irl @bulalongmulto.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

sorry to everyone i have not replied to yet im like . constantly dying

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sucklet irl @bulalongmulto.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

its 9am and i already want to start swinging at someone

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sucklet irl @bulalongmulto.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

i feel like im in highschool again dealing w impossible to predict teachers LMFAO

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sucklet irl @bulalongmulto.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

like straight up . i need to ponder on this

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sucklet irl @bulalongmulto.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

(stares at a wall) eulalie is technically disabled. huh

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sucklet irl @bulalongmulto.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

(pacing) you know sometimes i wonder if im just overreacting. what if i just need to get over myself. lock in real good. (brain immediately melting bc i would never give this advice to anyone but myself)

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sucklet irl @bulalongmulto.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

yk the one thing ill forever i hate abt that situation was how everyone made me feel like i was equally responsible LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLL YOU SHOULDVE PROTECTED MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

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sucklet irl @bulalongmulto.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

when the trauma response is irrational

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sucklet irl @bulalongmulto.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

HAHAHAHAH HIIII OFFERING U MY HANDS... i asked my brother to rank them for me bc i wanted to hear it from someone else . do you want to hear it

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sucklet irl @bulalongmulto.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

pouring one out for heroes journey eri tonight and whatever tf they have going on separately w sk n tia

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sucklet irl @bulalongmulto.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

i love relationships that have romantic undertones that never become actual romance. its about the thrill of connection the obsession the yearning to be understood

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sucklet irl @bulalongmulto.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

i like my bag guys i really like himmmmmmmmmmmm

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sucklet irl @bulalongmulto.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

now that im more confident in laly's character there's something abt his speaking style that i really enjoy. it's similar to edel/eri's n i have to rationalize their differences in real time to make sure im not slipping into the wrong guy's voice but i am very particular abt certain things w laly

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sucklet irl @bulalongmulto.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

i dont know if its the stress compounding but wow im having a consistently bad time HAHAHHAHAA

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sucklet irl @bulalongmulto.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

it gets a little excessive sometimes 😭...

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kacper stras @scallybag.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

Chapter IV

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sucklet irl @bulalongmulto.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

need to rank all my pcs according to weirdness

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sucklet irl @bulalongmulto.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

my dad saying "the more you stifle your children the more theyll get curious" is so so so so funny bc its too little too late. bro how do you think you ended up raising me

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sucklet irl @bulalongmulto.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

i wanna jumpscare people w laly's new/alt vc bc i really like it n its what i imagine when he speaks now

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sucklet irl @bulalongmulto.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

who edel might romance… edel just really likes all the qol aspects of it n locks in on those as a hashtag gamer n tia would find the artstyle/aesthetic really appealing… she’d love the relationship system too of course.. do u think their bfs could appreciate fom too HAHAHAHAH

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sucklet irl @bulalongmulto.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

HONESTLY I THINK THEYD BOTH BE SUPER INTO THE GAME edel is a 100% completionist kinda person n tia is more focused on the social aspect of it. edel has to give her gameplay tips sometimes bc she isnt really a gamer n she appreciates it. i dont remembor if u know theyre romanceable so i cant say+

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sucklet irl @bulalongmulto.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

the way ive become so violently protective of him tho HAHAHA it amuses me

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sucklet irl @bulalongmulto.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

suddenly started violently missing them 😭

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sucklet irl @bulalongmulto.bsky.social · 12/09/2026

like are we gonna talk about this . or.

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sucklet irl @bulalongmulto.bsky.social · 12/09/2026

sometimes i notice things abt people and i notice them

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