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skyla 🕰️ || 𝄞edsky𝄞 @bruisingfawn.bsky.social · 30/12/2024

I hate getting triggered over pictures of myself as a CHILD and telling myself I need to be that small ‘again’ like get yourself together 🥲 makes me feel absolutely awful

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skyla 🕰️ || 𝄞edsky𝄞 @bruisingfawn.bsky.social · 28/12/2024

soo disgusted with myself🥲 my body looks so awful I feel so huge its literally killing meee

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skyla 🕰️ || 𝄞edsky𝄞 @bruisingfawn.bsky.social · 25/12/2024

I hope you all have a good Christmas 🦌🤍 if you celebrate ofc, my day is starting off rough my belly piercing ripped completely out 🫠

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skyla 🕰️ || 𝄞edsky𝄞 @bruisingfawn.bsky.social · 16/12/2024

How does Pinterest see you? Search the categories!! ꨄ︎ ꨄ︎ fashion ꨄ︎ color ꨄ︎ mood ꨄ︎ food okay I love, the cookies are too cute to eat

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skyla 🕰️ || 𝄞edsky𝄞 @bruisingfawn.bsky.social · 16/12/2024

Debating whether I should get a 3rd tongue piercing or not.. really its only so my tongue will swell up so I cant eat during the healing process. Thats pretty much why I got the second one cant lie.. but Ik it doesn’t last so maybe theres no point in it.. cute though so there’s that as well

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skyla 🕰️ || 𝄞edsky𝄞 @bruisingfawn.bsky.social · 14/12/2024

me looking at the scale surprisingly go down after a night of binging like crazy

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skyla 🕰️ || 𝄞edsky𝄞 @bruisingfawn.bsky.social · 13/12/2024

this ones cutee, staying in/going out 🦌 had to add the extra cig in hands because I cant help but constantly chainsmoke😭

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skyla 🕰️ || 𝄞edsky𝄞 @bruisingfawn.bsky.social · 12/12/2024

me after putting in so much effort to lose a significant amount of weight, only for someone to tell me I look the exact same

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skyla 🕰️ || 𝄞edsky𝄞 @bruisingfawn.bsky.social · 10/12/2024

Can tumblr stop giving me dulcolax ads EVERY scroll, it feels like its haunting me atp 😞

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skyla 🕰️ || 𝄞edsky𝄞 @bruisingfawn.bsky.social · 10/12/2024

I wish I could eat normally without overthinking/horribly regretting it immediately after & causing a dramatic meltdown.. over here hitting myself in the head just because I ate half a sandwich 🫠

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skyla 🕰️ || 𝄞edsky𝄞 @bruisingfawn.bsky.social · 08/12/2024

Im so happy that I have absolutely zero appetite right now 😭 nothing sounds good and everything has been tasting so disgusting. Hopefully this stays for a bit, gonna jinx myself into binging😞

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skyla 🕰️ || 𝄞edsky𝄞 @bruisingfawn.bsky.social · 06/12/2024

I wish there was a way we could turn our ears off because why is everything SO loud. I can hear all of the background noise, breathing from the other room, the clock ticking all at the same time & It feels like its loud gibberish in my ear. Its seriously driving me crazy🥲

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skyla 🕰️ || 𝄞edsky𝄞 @bruisingfawn.bsky.social · 05/12/2024

thinking about when I got lectured forEVER by my mom bc I clogged the toilet from prging so much and no matter how many times I tried to unclog it, it wouldnt.. but I paid for it. I started doing it outside & my neighbor saw once, came to our door & told my parents I was making myself puke🫠

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skyla 🕰️ || 𝄞edsky𝄞 @bruisingfawn.bsky.social · 05/12/2024

this ones so cute picrew.me/en/image_maker/4607

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skyla 🕰️ || 𝄞edsky𝄞 @bruisingfawn.bsky.social · 04/12/2024

I miss hearing “I can feel all of your bones” 🥲

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skyla 🕰️ || 𝄞edsky𝄞 @bruisingfawn.bsky.social · 03/12/2024

I keep seeing these so I made one too 🙂‍↕️

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skyla 🕰️ || 𝄞edsky𝄞 @bruisingfawn.bsky.social · 02/12/2024

& then it just continues over/over again like why am I shocked 😭

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skyla 🕰️ || 𝄞edsky𝄞 @bruisingfawn.bsky.social · 01/12/2024

what it feels like when Im extremely bloated after binging

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skyla 🕰️ || 𝄞edsky𝄞 @bruisingfawn.bsky.social · 30/11/2024

I want to try & stop prging so bad but its like I cant it feels like I HAVE to do it, but I literally keep experiencing signs of a heart attack just waiting to happen and its sorta scaring me a bit 🥲

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skyla 🕰️ || 𝄞edsky𝄞 @bruisingfawn.bsky.social · 29/11/2024

WHY do I always feel larger when I lose weight like omg ?? Maybe I just think about it way too much

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skyla 🕰️ || 𝄞edsky𝄞 @bruisingfawn.bsky.social · 29/11/2024

no matter what I eat it automatically feels as if I just gained 30 pounds the second I take the bite.. I literally feel disgusting for eating a bowl of fruit & its freaking me out🥲

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skyla 🕰️ || 𝄞edsky𝄞 @bruisingfawn.bsky.social · 28/11/2024

terrified to even step on the scale right now but last time I checked it was 120 & I dont see a diff 🥲 so just basically maintaining atm..

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skyla 🕰️ || 𝄞edsky𝄞 @bruisingfawn.bsky.social · 27/11/2024

was feeling disgusting & a coworker said that I barely eat anything to keep me alive and said how I looked frail, made me feel better cant even lie.. Little does she know that I devour any food in sight the second I get home.. 😞

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skyla 🕰️ || 𝄞edsky𝄞 @bruisingfawn.bsky.social · 27/11/2024

At this point Im not weighing myself till Christmas.. Ive literally had zero self control I feel like hansel & gretel fr 😭😭

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skyla 🕰️ || 𝄞edsky𝄞 @bruisingfawn.bsky.social · 26/11/2024

If you see this qrt w your Pinterest page kinda all over the place but cute☕️

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skyla 🕰️ || 𝄞edsky𝄞 @bruisingfawn.bsky.social · 26/11/2024

mom said if I planned on “emptying my stomach” on thanksgiving then I shouldn’t bother even showing my face at all, “especially in front of family”.. well at least shes “saving” me from binging so I see that as a win 🙂‍↕️

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skyla 🕰️ || 𝄞edsky𝄞 @bruisingfawn.bsky.social · 25/11/2024

this is what I feel like when I look down and see that practically my whole head of hair is just sitting on my leggings 😞

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skyla 🕰️ || 𝄞edsky𝄞 @bruisingfawn.bsky.social · 25/11/2024

what I look like making sure no ones been watching me feel at my collarbones for the 100th time in the past 5 minutes

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skyla 🕰️ || 𝄞edsky𝄞 @bruisingfawn.bsky.social · 24/11/2024

getting back in the habit of covering up my mirrors & I hate that but it feels so necessary 🥲

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skyla 🕰️ || 𝄞edsky𝄞 @bruisingfawn.bsky.social · 24/11/2024

me after checking my body in the mirror and suddenly my collarbones don’t look as prominent as they did yesterday

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skyla 🕰️ || 𝄞edsky𝄞 @bruisingfawn.bsky.social · 22/11/2024

find it crazy how there are people who actually BELIEVE that your ED is just something you can turn off whenever you feel like it.. like please use your brain for ONE second ??

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skyla 🕰️ || 𝄞edsky𝄞 @bruisingfawn.bsky.social · 21/11/2024

Im experiencing the worst abdominal pain right now I cant even get up and stand without my whole body wanting to collapse because how bad the pain is so Im just stuck in bed but even that doesn’t help at all

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skyla 🕰️ || 𝄞edsky𝄞 @bruisingfawn.bsky.social · 21/11/2024

going to be getting my roots rebleached and hair toned in a few days after leaving it alone forever and Im just wondering if Ill regret it considering the rate my hair is at right now 😅 afraid Ill leave that salon bald

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skyla 🕰️ || 𝄞edsky𝄞 @bruisingfawn.bsky.social · 20/11/2024

saying that is actually speaking a binge into existence

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skyla 🕰️ || 𝄞edsky𝄞 @bruisingfawn.bsky.social · 19/11/2024

ED paranoia is no joke I need my brain to shut up nowwww!

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skyla 🕰️ || 𝄞edsky𝄞 @bruisingfawn.bsky.social · 19/11/2024

I hate that I cant sit down in a chair normally without sitting on the very edge because Im terrified of looking down and seeing my thighs practically spilling on the chair

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