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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

Gods I hate him so much Why is he like this Fucking asshole I know he's just playing around and having fun but fuck I wish I could I know I'm just convenient at ungodly hours but I wish it was true I hate being such a needy bitch I hate being so hopelessly romantic I hate being a yearner

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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

Gotta stop thinking I'm special when I'm just in my position as a matter of convenience and lack of other options, especially to people who don't have any investment in me I'll lose it the moment either something else becomes more convenient or something they actually care about shows up

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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

Staying away from my last partner for a bit so she can spend time with her other partners The more I'm around, the less she has with them and the more guilty she gets about me I know she'll leave too eventually so I'll make sure she's solid with her own people Growlie will make sure I'm not lonely

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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

How is it that I always stop just short of being seen on anyone's radar Smart enough to be able to help but too stupid to be taken seriously Enough looks to be cute to some but never enough to be attractive Social and old enough to be friends but too reclusive and young to be an interest for anyone

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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

Why can I always notice the finest details, even if I haven't observed for long Why does it keep happening Why does it all look the same Why does it never change Why does the cycle keep repeating Why do I never learn Why do I believe in these broken promises Why do I try Why won't this nightmare e

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wolfie 🏳️‍⚧️🦴 @wolfiebarkz.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

how the fuck do some people who have jobs and hobbies also work out on a regular basis for potentially multiple hours a week without wanting to die from burnout after like a week of trying I don't get it

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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

Did you know that lone wolves don't stay that way? Wolves tend to disperse from their packs from sexual maturity, but rarely from harassment. They usually end up pairing up with another lone wolf and create their own pack, or rarely adopted if young enough They are social with nuclear family units

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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

So far gone that love and affection feel low-key repulsive Hate feeling jealous and spiteful over others' happiness, even my own partner's When can this nightmare end Don't even care about a bittersweet ending anymore Don't even care about being remembered Just want it all to burn into nothing

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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 09/10/2026

Thought it was a neat thing to do lockedtony.github.io/kink-jars/

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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

GODS I want to just straddle and kiss my mate so bad I don't even want to breed I just want love and attention from my mate and I just Gods I want an alpha who is okay with an omega like me already..

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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

Pining for an unrealistically perfect alpha again, same song and dance Just.. now with the addition of not being forgotten by them It sounds so fucking stupid to not want to be forgotten by a mate, but it's happened so much and it hurts ..it's not too selfish to want to be remembered, is it..?

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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

Oh So those are nervous breakdowns, not "depressive episodes" Had a particularly bad one after I got out of the shower and just curled up on the couch downstairs Came to the realisation that everything I was scared of happening has and is happening Took some ashwagandha like my sister recommended

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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

Took a little personality quiz and I went through two tests because a few questions had multiple options I felt were right Funnily enough, the latter were my sentiments while I played through World and the former.. ..I've had an itch for Rise for few months now.. burasut.com/en/monsterhu...

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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

I just realised that IBO is a curse It was one of my favourite Gundam series about belonging and doing what you can, but I've lost so many people during times while I've sat down to watch it with them I don't think it's one of my favourite series anymore nor will I show it to anyone else again

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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

My hair is everywhere and my nose is so stuffed and it all still hurts so bad make it stop Getting mor plushies for the nest didnt help it just makes me feel more alone Growlie jas si much hair f rom nuzzling i need tonclean him Calling for alpha hurts so much becaude nobodybisbthere Nobdoubwill co

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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

Gods I've almost spent an entire hour in one of the worst bouts of loneliness in a while Been looking at ABO texts and just kept unravelling at alphas being gentle and loving with deeply hurt and lonely omegas and just It hurts It hurts so bad I want to rip it out if my chest Ge tit out ir hurtsso

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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

Dammit why do my own kinks make me wanna cry and my chest hurt so bad that I want to tear it out Why can't I just be turned on instead of being fucking sad I hate being a yearner so much, can I just kill that part of myself

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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

Oh gods PMS is hitting again Insatiable hunger with depression is so fun The hopeless romantic yearning is back and I'm so tired of the internal torment it causes I know I'm invisible as an outsider to everyone else's worlds and this isn't going to change, so why does it still hurt

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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

I just realised how animal I go the more I'm hurting I isolate myself and curl up into whatever nest I proceed to make myself, and I just go outright nonverbal with simply noises if I have to respond and I can't write words down And I didn't realise I nuzzle into my pillow and stress groom my hair

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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

Holy shit this depressive episode has a death grip on me and I can't shake it off It's been five hours and it won't go away and it's all shit I thought I already processed and figured out

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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

I have learned that not one but BOTH of my girlfriends are aware of this account Dude just take me out back and execute me with .500 S&W Magnum at this point

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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 22/09/2026

I got to dom my girlfriend for her first time doing anal :) She was very adamant about trying it tonight so that she could eventually take her master in the future when they come visit, so I had fun breaking her brain with my Edge 2

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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 22/09/2026

I'M SO FUCKING UPSET I CAN'T EVEN GET A REFUND FOR IT BECAUSE ALL PURCHASES ARE FINAL I LOVE HAVING A FAT ASS BUT WHY DOES IT HAVE TO BE THIS FAT ONE FUCKING DAY

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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

So apparently this is still showing up for people and I'm glad it's helping people Turns out I'm way more qualified on these tips than I thought given, despite how tight I am, it's a very smooth and clean experience for my girlfriend In the end, I'm now an expert at getting fucked in one more way

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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

Holy shit I just showered and I already feel like I need another with how dirty and hot I feel now I'm both too gay and too straight right now for too many things and I just

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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

I swear I only have three modes: - Painfully gay - Insatiably heat - Autism ..being painfully gay may have become inaccurate because HRT has definitely given me more interest in guys Like why the fuck did Rex's intro from Xenoblade 3 turn me on so fucking much

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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

I don't play Genshin anymore and I know it'd be a struggle because one is so terrified of the other that she has nightmares and tries to (or actually did) forget her while the other wants to make amends for what she did BUT I WANT TO SEE THEM TOGETHER THEY'D BE SO CUTE TOGETHER AAAAAA

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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

I may be in a healthier headspace now but I will still unhealthily yearn for Arlefuri IT'S NOT EVEN PMS AT THIS POINT WHY AM I SUCH A CHRONIC HOPELESS ROMANTIC YEARNER

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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 11/09/2026

Chapter 3 of E&A is out and I forgot to post an update here I know nobody here actually cares, I've got ideas for two other fics that I do want to write. I'm curious to see how many people would like me to also do those and jump between all of those archiveofourown.org/works/855491...

archiveofourown.org

Expectations and Anhedonia - Chapter 3 - NightglowADX - Original Work [Archive of Our Own]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 11/09/2026

My parasocial ass getting noticed by my favourite artist after an amazing comm I've got a fucking dopamine high and I'm gonna pass out SO FUCKING HARD once this goes

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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 11/09/2026

HOLY SHIT IT'S DONE AND IT LOOKS SO GOOD LITERALLT KICING MY FEET UPNIN THE AIR LIKE A LITTLE GIRL AAAAAAAAAA

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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 11/09/2026

How in the actual fuck did I get two opposite thoughts at once One was thinking about how I've somehow helped so many people before their downward spirals and panic attacks hit from simply wanting to check in on them and chat The other was how many nudes were in my gallery while looking for memes–

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wolfie 🏳️‍⚧️🦴 @wolfiebarkz.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

girl who is a shell of the person she was before the breakup and move and wants to openly be herself again but is too exhausted all the time

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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 11/09/2026

THE SKETCH LOOKS SO GOOD HOLY SHIT It's not exactly the ref pose I gave IT'S EVEN BETTER THAN WHAT I HAD IN MIND THAT RIGHT THERE IS WHY THEY'RE THE BEST, BOSS THE ONE AND ONLY

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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 10/09/2026

A FRIEND GAVE ME MONEY TO COMM MY FAVOURITE ARTIST AND I EMBARASSED MYSELF AAAAA I FUCKED UP THE REF, MISREAD THEIR COMMS, AND THE TRANSFER APP THEY USED GLITCHED AND DOUBLE CHARGED ME SO THEY HAD TO WALK ME THROUGH GETTING IT BACK TO MY BANK WITH SOME LOSS LIKE I WAS A CHILD Kill me

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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

My depravity is fat but apparently my ass is fatter It has come to my attention that I have a SECOND set of stretch marks on my hips and ass now

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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 03/09/2026

My body doesn't sweat much or produce any smell, which is awesome for personal hygiene But awful because I WISH I HAD A SCENT FOR A PARTNER TO ENJOY ..I hope this perfume oil I'm getting smells as good as I hope it will because it's every floral and fruity scent I love~

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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 03/09/2026

Holy fuck I'm so delusional Somehow thirsting over Arlefuri has led to crying over wanting Alpha's to stay ..I don't have a dom, let alone an alpha Why am I like this

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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 02/09/2026

..but I can't embrace it. I can't throw away the heart I do have left in this sea of darkness. It was entrusted to me by someone who never had the chance to live and nutured by those who want to see me live. If I break the one last bit of humanity left, then I can't be a part of everyone's journey.

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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 02/09/2026

It feels so awful to have to hide away from it all Yet nobody wants to grab my hand when I reach out from the shadows If I'm to live with this empty darkness for as long as I live, but everyone is scared of it like the plague, then If I stab out my heart with this void, will the hurt finally stop?

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moonlit milly 🌕 GWF prep @mischiefmilly.bsky.social · 06/08/2026

this sentiment is definitely applicable here

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i think ppl would be a lot happier and better-adjusted on here if they realized that being online on a website is like being in any other casual public space full of people. if u walk into walmart u dont immediately think to yourself “i have to be friends with everyone in this walmart and if not everyone likes me i’m a failure” and u really shouldn’t feel that way online either. likewise if there’s a guy in the walmart parking lot shouting obscenities u probably wouldn’t answer him and that’s literally an exact equivalent to some of the weird stuff that people on here seem to feel they’re obligated to respond to.

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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 17/08/2026

I dont want to wake up There is no dream but being awake hurrs

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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 16/08/2026

Is it okay to ask forbsoneont to save me

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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 16/08/2026

Maybe asking this will make it easier to go back to sleep Is it really so bad to want to be loved to the same degree I'm willing to give Am i a villain for just wanting someone to think of me and choose me fornonce Is it okay tobcry

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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 16/08/2026

Turns out it wasn't very long The ability to predict probably outcomes from processing so many details is a curse Everybody likes to say things will get better and that what you're seeing is wrong You should've learned your lesson after last time Stop believing in words that have no proof to them

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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 09/08/2026

Look at how happy they all are together Look at how excited they are whenever they interact Look at how much they listen to each other Your time is up Your turn is over Time to disappear Time to fade Until you are needed once more

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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 09/08/2026

I wonder how long it'll be until I'm forgotten again How long until everything I have is spent and replaced with others When is it my time to disappear from everyone's minds To fade into shadows after all is said and done To retreat into the void once more Heart left empty and soul remaining lost

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One Brings Shadow @brokennightglow.bsky.social · 06/08/2026

Why does hate feel like love Why does love feel like hate Why does it feel so good to be ruined and punished for being bad Why does it hurt so bad to be doted on and loved for being good Why does being good and loved feel so bad and fake Why does being hated and abused feel so good and real

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