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It's why I try to do what I can but I'm broken (disabled my back is screwed up Im always in pain, sitting hurts now let alone bending over.. it hurts to draw something I used to love..) it feels like a living nightmare eachday.. I fear folks will mock or yell at me for speaking my mind but I have to

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endangered a friend's well being all cause I couldn't let my cat suffer.. all cause I could help sooner or prevent her being born. I'm a stupid fool for having a soft spot for the unplanned and unwanted cats.. I wasn't planned I wasn't really wanted at least by one parent.. its why I care for my mom

I cant even get her a marker to ensure nothing digs her up.. I just use patio stones til I can get something made up but I cant even afford that. This month just been insane the house taxes and car tabs came to 1k of funds on top of my other normal bills and now the unexpected ER Vet bill I've

At the Vet on Friday and she cost 402 (and that was my normal vet rates).. we had blood drawn to ensure her insides were okay. Pickle came home with meds... yet here I rush Helia and she came home in a box which we will burry her later tonight or tomorrow when my roomie is up to it.. I feel numb..

Couldn't let her suffer as she was.. she was so cold and we have no idea what she honestly had because being at a ER Vet everything is so high. And that's one factor along with the vet stating letting her go was the kindness act I could give. I was breaking inside as I just had Pickle (moms cat)

Okay with help from a loan from a friend and donations I managed to pay for Helia to be lay to rest. I need to pay 420 loan ASAP to keep bad things happening bill wise for my friend. They took a huge risk in helping me when I couldn't help Helia myself. I know life is very hard now but I just

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Can't use care credit I missed two payments and I got cut off til its fully paid.. but we're doing our best.

Okay we are letting her go we need 557 to cover this bill if anyone one can help please..

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It sucks im crushed but we are letting her go.

Im sorry we talked with the vet we are letting her to Valhalla.. may she feast at Odin's table with endless food and 🍺 much love my baby..

The ER vet wants 1400 to 1700 just as a deposit to begin work on Helia.. i dont have that and they said she is critical.. if we are gonna save her we need a miracle NOW.

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ER VET! I am RUSHING Helia to the Er vet she not able to walk, won't eat and is bones.. we fear FIP or Feline leukemia virus. I can only handle paypal right now bigbadmommawolf@gmail.com

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Ooh gotta love em if I can get to a hobby store I'll check about then.

Lynx points really are amazing cats you got a lovely boy!

J.A.W. @blackwolfrost.bsky.social · 09/10/2026

Oooooooh... tone paper always wondered and wanted to try it...

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It will turn out this time dont worry I've rip up so much paper in rage from not being able to get the image right.. honestly it is stress relieving..

J.A.W. @blackwolfrost.bsky.social · 08/10/2026

Soo managed to take a break and watched toy story 5... honestly if I had to pick my fave out of all 5 of them.. it be 5 followed by 4.. and the others dont really rate.. but oddly I love the lightyear movie the toy was based on.. go fig Soxx sold me :p robotic cats and such..

J.A.W. @blackwolfrost.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

her cause this is her favorite child.. so yeah she went into full blown panic attack.. sadly we cant do anything but pray and hopefully all will be okay.. just what a crazy ass year.. 🙄

J.A.W. @blackwolfrost.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

So today been a roller-coaster of a day.. im woken up to find out my brother in the hospital (brother in FL) for having a stroke.. he got a blood clot to the right side of his brain. They got meds on board but who knows how the next few days will go. My mom is now flipping out as we waited to tell

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Grimmorph @grimmorph.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

Anyone in the Bay Area (ideally closer to Solano County) want to temp foster a young CH cat for us (Rocket and Super Furiends) so we can get him out of a situation that may be dangerous for him?

A photo of an older black and white shorthair kitten with many toes laying on his back. He is very very cute.

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J.A.W. @blackwolfrost.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

So im feeling weak most likely lack of eatting.. Roomie is busy running like a loon taking care of mom.. i managed to locate resident evil on the tv followed by Re:afterlife.. so i guess veg mode activated as moving is too draining.. we're okay just bleh..

J.A.W. @blackwolfrost.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

Yeah I figured as much which is okay.. I'm amazed I trained three shiba inu's for it. My next service pup is a white shepherd.

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J.A.W. @blackwolfrost.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

If i knew I could train one for service work I would but I dont have breeders in my area..

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J.A.W. @blackwolfrost.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

Watch your shoes.. she might leave gifts.. poor girl but it will help her in the long run.

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J.A.W. @blackwolfrost.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

Soft Yuki warm Yuki little ball of fur..happy Yki Sleepy Yuki ggrrrrgrrr.. She snores like her mom..

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J.A.W. @blackwolfrost.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

Nova is resting after a Walmart run.. first time in there with him since Yuki been retired.. he did good I feel exhausted he looks exhausted we both just done with the world..

J.A.W. @blackwolfrost.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

I normally don't have the chances to go to fur cons anymore or much else. My friend was at furry migration and showed me GoldenDurid cat pin and I wasn't feeling happy that day.. by the next day I managed to find Golden website and ordered a few goodies. Amazing stuff! @goldendruid.bsky.social

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J.A.W. @blackwolfrost.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

Looking for unique gift ideas for this holiday season? Look no further then at WinterSoul amazing artwork. The alter figures are amazing and can be matched to beloved pets so they are always with us. I should know WinterSoul brought my kids back to me. Info on her page :)

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J.A.W. @blackwolfrost.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

Ooh sometimes you need to.. im hoping I can eat soup tonight.

J.A.W. @blackwolfrost.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

Feeling like a utter pest and failure.. *sighs* folks always seem to come to me to fix things or make them right.. but i feel so hopeless right now..

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J.A.W. @blackwolfrost.bsky.social · 15/09/2026

Nova done with today and so am I... mmmmmsleeep

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J.A.W. @blackwolfrost.bsky.social · 15/09/2026

with a small breed dog weehee medium to large is gonna be a blast.. im still trying to adjust best i can and my tolerance for idoits is zero right now..

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J.A.W. @blackwolfrost.bsky.social · 15/09/2026

All I can say is thank GOD WE CANT HAVE WEREWOVLES AS SERVICE DOGS... cause that been one less Karen in this world from this morning.. stupid damn b*@!#$h.. i removed me and Nova before I exploded in public.. my mom and roomie then proceeded to rip the lady a new one. If I'm getting this much crap

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If your interested please DM me or comment thank you.

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From Fire 8x10 marker Original up for sale if anyone is interested. I'm hoping to at least get 300 for em. There will be no prints of this image. I'm hoping to gather funds needed to pay bills and keep a float.

From Fire 8x10 markers, color pencil and ink upon watercolor paper. Image of a rearing nightmare with fire green mane and tail with purplish flames around em.

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That's a idea I just want the next dog I train to get along with my other dogs and cats. No one ever told me in the past huskies where prey dogs and normally not good with cats. Ive had collies in the past to this is just a huge step again.

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Anything else in ideas and I will state I don't or won't look into labs I'm sorry but that breed of dog and me are no way in hell happening. Think of badly but ive had nothing but trauma with that breed.

Hell everyone said a shiba couldn't do service work.. well suprise Ive trained 3 shibas as service (Yuki, Ryuu and Nova) we also think Earl the old man next door is key to why Yuki dislikes some older people the man harassed her as a puppy til she go into protection mode. Anyone got ideas? Breeds?

service dog so when Yuki went into retirement I'd have her.. well that flopped hard. I'm not sure what to do or think.. a medium size dog or so was being thought of for mobility. Roomie work with white gsd , I'd honestly be okay with one later. Im not even sure if a akita would make a good service

Hurts so damn much. I dislike knowing I will need a mobility service dog not just ptsd service anymore. I have to find a trainer to help with this. I dont know if Nova too old to even try this he'll be 7 next year. Lila and Wren dont have what it takes really. The hope was Wren could be my next