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Cici 🦋 @blackbeaking.bsky.social · 17/12/2025

you said you like my stockings better on the floor boy, I've been a bad girl, I guess I'm gettin' coal~ Thank you to the amazing @voidcrest.bsky.social for this absolutely stunning Christmas aoicred, I love it so much ♥️

Digital art of Aoi and Thancred embracing one another, he is leaning down to kiss her all the while the two are maintaining eye contact

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Cici 🦋 @blackbeaking.bsky.social · 02/11/2025

My windscreen cracked this morning (lmao) but I managed to write 800 words yesterday im proud of so riding that high for while #ciciwrites

But any serenity he might have gleaned is soon destroyed by force of Aoi's playful exhale. She's barely even begun to open her mouth when he feels the muscles in his temple being to throb. "Did you?" She has the gall to sound airy, flirty even, with him as she tilts her head coquettishly. She even leans closer, almost as if she wants to share a secret with him. He curses himself even as he echoes the movement despite his better judgement. "Should I have you check my pulse?" Aoi giggles as if there could be no greater comedy than such a thought and in response Thancred feels his already frayed patience snap.

"This isn't a joke," he growls through his bared teeth. Emerald eyes only grow brighter as they excitedly skitter across his face, eagerly soaking up his misery the same way she did her wine. "I know what I saw."

"I'm sure you do," she agrees easily with her hands raised is a gesture designed to placate and yet it only succeeds in fanning the flames of his steadily rising anger. "But do you comprehend it?" She chides with a click of her poisonous tongue, even throwing in a wag of her finger for good measure, and for a moment he finds himself transported back to the Studium-suddenly a decade younger with his shoulders bowed beneath the weight of baggage he's long since deceived himself into believing he's outgrown as one of his many lecturers dresses him down in front of his peers. A reminder which soon has him kissing his teeth as the glare he has aimed the Au Ra only grows sharper.

Resentment soon courses through his veins but whether it's aimed at her cruelty or his stupidity he can't be sure. Believing that she would answer his plight with anything but a callous disregard for his suffering was nothing more than foolish hope dreamed up by a deluded mind. For somehow he'd allowed himself to forget that the sole reason he even sat across from her this night was because it was her selfish hand that had reached for his neck, greedily clasping it as she pulled him from the grave. Rendering him nothing more than her victim, at the mercy of her ever changing moods, for the rest of the life she had so graciously bestowed upon him.

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Cici 🦋 @blackbeaking.bsky.social · 02/11/2025

won’t you show me how to dance forever?~ Thank you so much to the amazing @mishhekht.bsky.social for this stunningly adorable #aoicred Halloween comm!! Always such a pleasure to work with you ♥️

Digital art of my oc Aoi Tameharu in the arms of Thancred as both look at each other with adoring expressions. He is fully adorned in black and has a large fluffy wolf tail as well as fluffy white ears. Aoi is dressed in a floor length black gown and on her head is a witches hat adorned with gold, star jewellery and on the side is a large purple bow. Behind them is an ornate window through which the full moon is visible

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Cici 🦋 @blackbeaking.bsky.social · 29/10/2025

WIP wed-ursday There’s something very special about ARR aoicred #ciciwrites

"I killed you." The words are barely audible over the clink of his bottle hitting the table and yet Thancred knows they reach Aoi's horns all the same. And yet what sounds painfully loud is the sheer number of sleepless, guilt filled nights encased within his gravelly intoned declaration. It's enough to have him biting back a wince as revulsion at exposing such mortifying weakness roils in his gut.

His body tenses as he waits for mocking laughter to fill the air. Shoulders climbing higher when the silence continues to reign heavy between them, eyes remaining fixated on the wood grain before him even as the urge to look at the Au Ra rises in his chest.
Then, almost as if in defiance of his earlier words, she draws in a great, heaving breath before playfully exhaling it in a long, drawn out sigh. "Did you?"

The sight he's greeted with only fans the flames of his steadily rising fury. Her lazy smirk is half concealed by the bottle at her lips, the only part of her that moves is her eyes. The once striking green now sickening to him as they roam across his face, soaking up his misery in the same way she does her wine. "I know what I saw," he growls out.

"But do you understand it?" Aoi chides with a click of her poisonous tongue and for moment he's back in the Studium being stripped down by his lecturers. It's a feeling that soon has him kissing his teeth as he continues to glare at her. He can't be sure if the resentment coursing through his veins is aimed at her cruelty or his stupidity. For foolishly allowing himself to believe that she'd be sympathetic to his plight. Forgetting that the sole reason he even sat across from her this night was because it was her selfish hand that had reached for his neck, greedily clasping it as she pulled him from the grave.

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Cici 🦋 @blackbeaking.bsky.social · 25/10/2025

Taking immense psychic damage from this

Tumblr post from silvercrane14 that reads:

Shout out to characters who want to be used. Shout out to characters who are so desperate to be worth something that they'll endure anything. Shout out to characters who build their entire self worth around being useful, being a tool. Shout out to characters who don't care how they are treated, as long as someone pays them any attention at all

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Cici 🦋 @blackbeaking.bsky.social · 23/10/2025

I can take the heat, baby, best believe, that's the moment I shine~ Thank you so much to the amazing @voidcrest.bsky.social for this absolutely gorgeous summer comm of #missaoi

Digital art of Aoi by voidcrest showing her lounging at the beach in a red bikini, a red wrap around her arms, and her hand reaching up to hold the rim of her sun hat

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Cici 🦋 @blackbeaking.bsky.social · 23/10/2025

Re-reading berserk and man, what a manga

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Cici 🦋 @blackbeaking.bsky.social · 22/10/2025

Me sighing heavily as I add this note into the outline

A screenshot of ellipsus showing the text: (Knife hilt blowjob)

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Cici 🦋 @blackbeaking.bsky.social · 21/10/2025

At all stages they will convince themselves that the relationship between them is nothing more than animals forced to huddle together for warmth

"What else is there?" Almost as if she knew just how treacherous his thoughts had become Aoi speaks up.
And despite her phrasing the words aren't a question. They are a reminder and warning both, one that someone such as him shouldn't need he thinks bitterly.

Any romantic notions he might have are nothing more than the product of an exhausted mind he scolds himself. Whatever he thinks he sees are nothing more illusions no matter how hard he might selfishly wish otherwise. And so with a smile he hardens his heart once more towards her as he smears the blood he himself carelessly spilt across her stomach. "What more could I possible need from you, dove?" That he still foolishly notes the way her inner eye subtly twitches is a failure he refuses to acknowledge.

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Cici 🦋 @blackbeaking.bsky.social · 20/10/2025

It’s too early for me to be infected by this

Lyrics from the song Let Them In by PVRIS

I wanna feel something

That's not the touch of your breath on my neck

I wanna feel something

That's not the weight of your world in my head

Lyrics from the song Let Them In by PVRIS

Find a new place

Another space to invade

Another brain to decay

With your presence, with your ghost

Lyrics from the song Let Them In by PVRIS

I'm growing sick the head

Trying to push you out, trying to push you out of it

I said it and I'll say it again

I won't let you in

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Cici 🦋 @blackbeaking.bsky.social · 20/10/2025

Thank god, now I can edit and make it balloon out to 3k

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Cici 🦋 @blackbeaking.bsky.social · 20/10/2025

Always ♥️ art by the amazing @/kitcorin.bsky.social

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Cici 🦋 @blackbeaking.bsky.social · 18/10/2025

World’s greatest emotional sounding board

"I killed you." Anyone else would have the decency to look confused, perhaps even concerned by the way these three words hold all his sleepless nights within their depths. Not Aoi Tameharu. She only looks at him wryly, brows raised in mild amusement and for a moment Thancred fears she'll ignore him. Or even worse still, tell him that he shouldn't be so burdened by the crimes Lahabrea bid his hands to commit.

She does none of that. Instead she holds out her hand expectantly, gesturing with her chin towards a stray knife left on the table they've commandeered for the night. Once it's within her grasp she twirls it expertly between her elegant fingers, "pay attention now," she commands playfully before raking it down her arm.

Once he sees the blood begin to spill a swear quickly rises to his lips only to be cut off by the way she holds his cheeks in a bruising grip, pulling him down to her arm. "No one asked you to speak," she chides and he's forced to bite back the irrational urge to apologise.

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Cici 🦋 @blackbeaking.bsky.social · 16/10/2025

The wheels are slowly turning #ciciwrites CW: knife play

"You'd have me turn my back on an entire city just to satiate your greed?" She clicks her tongue in disapproval but her face shows nothing but delight at such a thought.

Thancred snorts as he traces the tip of his blade along her ribs. "Has all your time in this city fooled you into thinking yourself possessed with nobility, dove?" He shakes his head as if he's never heard something more ludicrous.

In warning her nails drags across the small of his back but her tone is still cheerful when she replies, "rest assured, it was suffering your nightly outbursts that convinced me of a such a thing." She laughs but it soon turns into a hiss when he lets the blade bite into her skin. The only shame he feels is at the way Aoi pats his hip. It's the same fondness a master would show their loyal hound and it only makes him want to ruin the all too willing canvas below him even more.

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Cici 🦋 @blackbeaking.bsky.social · 16/10/2025

I can’t lose bangers like this

Instead he does what comes most naturally, he blames Aoi. For it does it truly matter just how easily his hand wraps around the hilt when she's the one who placed it there?

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Cici 🦋 @blackbeaking.bsky.social · 13/10/2025

Sickening CW: knife play, blood play

He presses the tip of his knife into the back of her knee and he doesn't even need to open his mouth before Aoi is eagerly spreading them wider for him. Slowly he drags the blade up her leg, pressing deeper and deeper with every ilm until he's cutting into the meat of her thigh. Against her pale skin and white scales the vivid crimson of her blood looks obscene. At any other time he would have gladly been on his knees to lick it up for her but tonight he's far too focused on how it's only once she's bleeding that Aoi allows herself to go limp in his hold. Excited gasps escaping her throat as he brushes the hilt against the scales lining her cunt.

Good sense would dictate that he go slow, that he coat the leather in the wetness seeping from her slit. That he penetrate her slowly and gently thrust into her as if he's lover suddenly gone shy when faced with finally getting what he's sought for so long. He does none of that.

Lazily he flips the weapon so that the naked blade now sits cleanly in his hand and with the same brutal efficiency he's use to push his dagger cleanly between her ribs he thrusts it into her. Cock twitching at how easily she yelps at the intrusion but also at the fact that she'd risk tearing the skin on her thighs to ribbons if she dared to close her legs. The steel in his hands bite into the leather of his gloves, threatening to cut into his fingers from just how tight his grip has become.

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Cici 🦋 @blackbeaking.bsky.social · 12/10/2025

Live Aoi reaction when Thancred (redacted) her (redacted)

Two photos showing the singer Marina. In the first she looks surprised and in the second he looks interested

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Cici 🦋 @blackbeaking.bsky.social · 12/10/2025

He’ll die before he calls it what it is

The lie he told himself was that he no longer wished to see Minfilia tear herself apart with worry over a woman that wouldn't even spare her the same courtesy. It wasn't guilt for months of lashing out at her moving his feet and despite everyone else's assertions it wasn't fondness either.

For he had learned long ago that the trick to enduring Aoi Tameharu was recognising that, much like poison, she was best tolerated in small doses until an immunity could be built up. That Thancred had eschewed that good sense by having his lips wrapped unceasingly around the unending bottle since their first meeting is indicative of something he refuses to face until the gnawing, aching desperation for her return that seems to radiate from his very marrow forces him to. As always he is far too unwilling to confront just how much power she has over him and so he clings to the far easier lie that it is anger guiding his steps.

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Cici 🦋 @blackbeaking.bsky.social · 11/10/2025

You won’t believe what he did to provoke this #ciciwrites

"Do not presume that the sickening sympathy your companions have towards you has managed to successfully worm its way to me." Her smile doesn't change, it's still the same bright eyed one she used to give him. A sickening juxtaposition to the malice dripping off of her words. "I have no need nor use for a crippled dog far too concerned with chewing its own leg off than it is hunting hares." She plants a hand next to his knee as leans down, her expression a mockery of friendly concern. "I am sure there are plenty of women across this realm who have convinced themselves they adore you, why don't you go bother them for now on."

It's a mandate, not a suggestion. And traitorously he feels himself wanting to obey it even as the flames of his resentment are being fanned higher and higher with every words that escapes her barbed tongue.

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Cici 🦋 @blackbeaking.bsky.social · 11/10/2025

I didn’t make a kinktober card but trust me when I say I’m about to hit bingo Flagged for mild nsfw and mild dead dove if you squint #ciciwrites

Aoi doesn't hear him, too lost in chasing the pleasure that his hands bring. Her hips bucking for the one as she stands on her tip toes to force the other one even deeper into her back, desperate for him to reach as far as her heart. The result of her silence is both of them coming to a stop and where before gasps and whines filled the air there's only an aggravated snarl.

In response Thancred only sweetly props his chin against the curve of her shoulder, trailing kisses along the scales littered there. "Did your masters neglect to teach you the dangers of provocation?" she growls while struggling uselessly under his heavy weight.

"Answer my question," he demands lazily, casually stepping on her tail when he senses it getting ready to strike.

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Cici 🦋 @blackbeaking.bsky.social · 10/10/2025

we’d rather be six feet under than be lonely An 8.4k #wolcred fic By the time the consequences of their actions catch up to them it’s already far to late to change their fate #aoicred #ciciwrites 🔗: archiveofourown.org/works/72209421

"Then stay." The words are just as much a shock to him as they are to her. "We can find another path through this storm."

"Don't you think I would have found it by now if it existed?" And for the first time since he met her he sees just how old she is writ clearly across her face. Centuries of pain, weariness and grief showcasing just how long she has struggled to even reach this point in time. Then he blinks and she's as young as she's ever been. A cruel and unneeded reminder as to why they're even in this situation to begin with.

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Cici 🦋 @blackbeaking.bsky.social · 09/10/2025

Coming to an inbox near you tomorrow

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Cici 🦋 @blackbeaking.bsky.social · 09/10/2025

She has a face that could launch a 1000 ships

Digital art of Aoi by eld-creative.bsky.social

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Cici 🦋 @blackbeaking.bsky.social · 07/10/2025

No wonder my head hurts. Lots of good prog today and I will stop despite my demons telling me to finish editing the whole thing tonight

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Cici 🦋 @blackbeaking.bsky.social · 07/10/2025

In the immortal words of Marina she will flip a switch faster than a blade does

"It was a conversation, dove." He beseeches while holding up his hands in a placating gesture. And yet despite his attempts to diffuse the rapidly rising tension he can't keep the snideness out of his voice,
"one I would have much rather had with you."

She steps closer and despite the difference in height between them he feels impossibly small beneath her gaze even as she's forced to crane her neck to meet his. "Do I strike you as the kind of person to measure the magnitude of the treason's committed against her?"

"What did you expect me to do?" He snaps pushing their foreheads together. "To sit by idly as you lie to my face?"

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Cici 🦋 @blackbeaking.bsky.social · 07/10/2025

It’s all fun and games until I remember Aoi will love his bones for longer than she got to love the man

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Cici 🦋 @blackbeaking.bsky.social · 07/10/2025

A true calm before the storm if you will

"My," she says with all the wonder usually reserved for looking at rare gems. "How your face has changed. I almost don't recognise you as the same man who approached me all those years ago."

In spite of himself he smiles at her sweet croon even as his brows furrow in confusion. "I can assure you, dove, I didn't come all the way down here to have you point out how old I am."

Aoi nods sagely, "that's true. The way your knees groan when you stand tells you that far better than I could." Her laughter is pure delight and even as he scoffs in faux offence he finds himself wishing he could bottle up the sound.

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Cici 🦋 @blackbeaking.bsky.social · 07/10/2025

i’ll take your heart served up two ways~ Thank you so much to the amazing @evabeesmith.bsky.social for this gorgeous #missaoi ♥️

Digital art of Aoi Tameharu, heavily scaled Raen, dressed in a low cut, red satin dress with criss-cross straps over her cleavage. With one hand she’s playing with them while the other is wrapped around her waist, all the while she is smirking just large enough to reveal one of her fangs

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Cici 🦋 @blackbeaking.bsky.social · 05/10/2025

Bringing this back because I wanna talk about her. You can ask anything (even nsfw) I don’t mind 😊

ask me anything about this character???
morals - relationships - preferences - their past - etc

Screenshot of Aoi Tameharu, a heavily scaled Raen with black hair with vibrant red highlights

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Cici 🦋 @blackbeaking.bsky.social · 03/10/2025

Distance makes the heart grow fonder (maybe) #ciciwrites

That night Thancred ghosts his hand over her ribs, too tentative to press against her bones when they already look like they're trying to break through her skin. A part of her wants to snap at him, to see if then he'll finally press down hard enough to bruise her in the way she so desperately wants, another part of her is all too aware that he'll just smile that sad, shallow smile that haunts his face as he shuffles away and she's already tired of seeing it.

"Do you resent me now for all of this?" The words are so quiet that she wonders if he even meant for her to her them or perhaps to even utter them at all.

Again she wants to lash out, wants to tell him just how miserable her days are here. How sometimes even the bottle isn't enough to help her through them. Wants to curse him for forcing her to be around the ghosts of family whose faces she can barely remember anymore.

But following ever so quickly on the heels of that cruel impulse is fear and the worry that if she does he'll never come back, that he'll leave her alone in these woods and their taunting silence.

So she chooses her words carefully, from the heart all the same but its ones she knows that will keep him coming back to her.
"Only when your gone." His breath stutters and hysterical laughter threatens to bubble in her throat when she realises she derives no pleasure from provoking such a reaction.

His hand curves itself around her hip as he presses his lips tighter against the back of her head, his silent plea to stay all the louder. She almost finds herself agreeing, but as the last of her resolve attempts to crumble away its Aisling's face that flashes in her mind. So instead she says nothing, pulls his hand up to her chest and pretends she isn't all to incredibly aware of the way his chest shudders at her back as she pretends to sleep.

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Cici 🦋 @blackbeaking.bsky.social · 02/10/2025

Me after kissing Misha’s head while sitting down: you’re so sweet Him:

A ragdoll laying down on the armrest of a couch but looking back at the camera as if to say “me?”

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Cici 🦋 @blackbeaking.bsky.social · 01/10/2025

The ways these two have changed my psyche should be studied

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Cici 🦋 @blackbeaking.bsky.social · 30/09/2025

catch us in the mirror, and it looks a lot like love~ So much love to @jurimaart.bsky.social for this absolutely stunningly gorgeous #aoicred ♥️ always such a pleasure to work with Julia!

Digital art of Aoi standing in front of Thancred clad in red lingerie, positioned in a way so that only her back and the barest hint of her smile is visible to the viewer and you can see the way she has her tail curled around his thigh. Thancred is sitting shirtless in front of her with a small blush as one of his hands holds both of hers behind her back and the other is creeping up her thigh towards her ass

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