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BearlyMan @bearlyman.bsky.social · 27/05/2026

Congratulations and speedy recovery! 💜

BearlyMan @bearlyman.bsky.social · 05/05/2026

I have a devil of a time finding plus-size feminine underwear thats at least a little sexy while being gender affirming. But, this set is a favorite. Even the frilly, lacy panties sold for men as “fetish wear” have a pouch I no longer want or need 😛

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BearlyMan @bearlyman.bsky.social · 05/05/2026

I’ve been on estrogen for 1.5 weeks now! So where is my breast growth?? 😜😛😑 Patience was never a virtue of mine 😈 Though, placebo effect or not, I do feel more like this was the best choice I could have made for myself. My anxiety and body dysphoria have plummeted! 💜

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But every once in a while But every so often But every day But every fucking day the ache Please go away The ache To be A woman I am a trans woman.

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Though, shaving my beard and body hair would be nice. Smooth. Soft. Nonbinary fem? Perhaps a wig, just for a change. A change. A chance. This late? The last stop was meant to be home. But home feels far away still. Still? But…

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I’m trans nonbinary and I think estrogen might be right for me. I’l go on estrogen but otherwise stay the same. Except for breasts, I want my breasts to grow. I wouldn’t mind a few more curves. I’m sure then I’ll be done. Happy even.

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BearlyMan @bearlyman.bsky.social · 15/08/2025

A thread on my feelings these days…. I’m not trans. I’m nonbinary and male presenting. I got vaginoplasty to honor those feelings. But I’m on testosterone to stay male presenting.

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Thanks for being out and a trend setter! 🩷 I remember seeing your profile on Twitter and thinking “THAT’S what I want!” 😀

BearlyMan @bearlyman.bsky.social · 19/06/2025

Wow, you are looking great! 🤩

BearlyMan @bearlyman.bsky.social · 13/06/2025

Thank you 😊 It’s been a long time coming for me but definitely worth the wait 🩷

BearlyMan @bearlyman.bsky.social · 11/06/2025

Oh that’s wonderful to hear! ☀️ 🌈

BearlyMan @bearlyman.bsky.social · 11/06/2025

That makes sense to me as all your emotional and physical energy is directed at healing and recovery. It was around 12-14 weeks post-op that I felt I could metaphorically breathe and settle into my new body. Then a sense of peace, calm and joy arrived 😀 Wishing you continued healing and wellbeing! 🩷

BearlyMan @bearlyman.bsky.social · 03/06/2025

That’s fucking beautiful 🤩 😻

BearlyMan @bearlyman.bsky.social · 31/05/2025

Glad you’re feeling like yourself again 💜

BearlyMan @bearlyman.bsky.social · 28/05/2025

“Is that a carrot 🥕 in your pussy or are you happy to see me?” 😜🤣 Second day with the largest dilator. Not painful but definitely…um…stretchy.

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BearlyMan @bearlyman.bsky.social · 23/05/2025

Clam!😆🤣 Hadn’t heard it called that in a long time! LOL

BearlyMan @bearlyman.bsky.social · 21/05/2025

I never regretted getting vaginoplasty, but the recovery is harsh and there would be days when I wondered if it was worth the pain and discomfort. Now I can honestly say YES! Totally worth it and it’s only getting better. ☀️

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BearlyMan @bearlyman.bsky.social · 21/05/2025

Realizing that I will be at 16 weeks postop this Friday. I turned a corner and gradually went from “oh no, what have I done” to, this week, “thank god I did this!” ❤️

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BearlyMan @bearlyman.bsky.social · 21/05/2025

It’s different for everyone but I started dilating the same day the packing was removed. Go slow with a bit more lube than you think will be necessary. The start was uncomfortable but not painful. I would use the word “pressure”. It does become easier pretty quick. Good luck and sending good vibes!

BearlyMan @bearlyman.bsky.social · 20/02/2025

That’s great! I did hydromorphone for a couple of days but it was making me too loopy and disrupting my sleep so stuck with just the tylenol since. Its been 2.5 weeks for me since the surgery. My biggest complaint is just the tightness of the surgical site but that will ease over time.

BearlyMan @bearlyman.bsky.social · 20/02/2025

Congratulations! Recovery will be tough at first but you got this! 💜

BearlyMan @bearlyman.bsky.social · 29/01/2025

Hmmmm…..I’m not sure if watching vaginoplasty surgery videos right now is keeping me calm by desensitizing me or actually promoting a dissociative episode that shuts off the “WTF are you doing?!?!” thoughts. 😜😅 Anyway, 48 hours until surgery and I’m oddly serene. 😌

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BearlyMan @bearlyman.bsky.social · 13/01/2025

As a bigger person, I was anxious that I would be denied surgery because of my weight. I’m otherwise healthy but you never know. Well today I had my anesthesiology assessment and was approved for my surgery in just under 3 weeks. <SIGH. OF. RELIEF.> 😜😀

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BearlyMan @bearlyman.bsky.social · 11/01/2025

Boo! Fuck em! They clearly don’t know what hot looks like 😃

BearlyMan @bearlyman.bsky.social · 06/01/2025

Glad things are back on track ❤️‍🩹

BearlyMan @bearlyman.bsky.social · 03/01/2025

Thanks for your support ❤️😀

They are a relatively new program (2019) but have a great reputation locally. Its also a small program with 2 surgeons that work together on vaginoplasty. I did see examples of their work and liked what I saw, especially for my body type.

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Dr Kavanaugh out of VGH/UBC (seems good but not like I have a ton of choice either).

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Been waiting a couple of years after all the screenings etc. But now seems sooooo close I don’t want to jinx it! 😉

Full depth vaginoplasty here in Vancouver, BC on January 31st 🤞 Can’t wait but also it’s coming really fast 😳

I didn’t know why I felt this way and I knew damn well not to tell anyone else about these feelings. I already knew I was gay and assumed my dislike of my penis was part of that and all these feelings would “go away”. They did not 🙃

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I remember wishing it would just go back in and stay in. I knew I was growing up and I think I realized that my dick would get bigger. But I was kind of devastated. The thought of this “thing” growing between my legs felt so wrong.

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It wasn’t an erection. I knew what those were and I hated getting them. My little dick was still soft but the head poked out…and stayed that way.

I’ve always had a very small penis, but when I was 10 or 11, I must have been going through a bit of a growth spurt. We were on a family camping trip and alone in the tent one night I noticed that my innie was suddenly an outtie.

I’m not sure when I was first struck by gender/body dysphoria but I do have a vivid memory stuck in my mind that has been resurfacing a lot lately as I get closer to my surgery.

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BearlyMan @bearlyman.bsky.social · 04/11/2024

I suppose I should actually post things here if I want to engage with folks 😜🙃😀 Well it has been a long wait and I probably won’t believe it’s true until I wake up after the fact, but my vaginoplasty surgery is January 31st! I am relieved, excited, scared, and hopeful. 🩷❤️🧡🩵🤍💚

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Your place looks awesome! 😻