iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

✨⭐️ sloth ⭐️✨ @baka-alpaca.bsky.social · 08/09/2026

I have however been making pet accessories for dappervolk

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✨⭐️ sloth ⭐️✨ @baka-alpaca.bsky.social · 08/09/2026

I forgot this place existed because social media is not my strong suit anymore it ends up making me feel very lonely and/or ignored despite any efforts I’d like to be able to post things like art

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✨⭐️ sloth ⭐️✨ @baka-alpaca.bsky.social · 03/10/2025

I would wear this proudly if literally any other pt had nominated me 😭 it’s funny but not funny bc of what happened and like I’m not even the ”main” person on his note I‘M LITERALLY LISTED 3RD ON THE -BACK- HOW DO I TAKE THIS??????? SIR??????

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✨⭐️ sloth ⭐️✨ @baka-alpaca.bsky.social · 23/09/2025

sloths are her favourite, just like mama

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✨⭐️ sloth ⭐️✨ @baka-alpaca.bsky.social · 19/09/2025

me: what if I don’t actually have ADHD but I convinced them I did, and it’s all fake and- me, after taking my addy, a stimulant that would make people without ADHD overly energetic: man I could nap right now, I’m so tired

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✨⭐️ sloth ⭐️✨ @baka-alpaca.bsky.social · 16/09/2025

like I’m done, I’m just fucking done I’m tired! I’m sick of it!! This is never going to fucking end!!!!

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✨⭐️ sloth ⭐️✨ @baka-alpaca.bsky.social · 16/09/2025

when your monthly house payment will go up almost $200

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✨⭐️ sloth ⭐️✨ @baka-alpaca.bsky.social · 12/09/2025

it’s taken hours but maybe my meds are finally calming me down and lulling me to sleep because otherwise I gotta take something else I can’t get the voices to stop

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✨⭐️ sloth ⭐️✨ @baka-alpaca.bsky.social · 12/09/2025

I just don’t know what to do anymore because if all these medications aren’t going to fix me, why am I bothering

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✨⭐️ sloth ⭐️✨ @baka-alpaca.bsky.social · 12/09/2025

I don’t know how much of a purpose I serve if I don’t go to work it’s not like I’m a shining beacon of friendliness or I contribute anything to society besides showing up to my job and maybe I’m to the point where I’m ready to give up on changing that

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✨⭐️ sloth ⭐️✨ @baka-alpaca.bsky.social · 12/09/2025

honestly I’m feeling the same way as too many of my pts lately and maybe to a degree that scares me oh you’re lonely, feel useless to people, like you have no purpose or you just feel so broken that’s maybe you’re just unfixable like porcelain? pour me a glass too, we’re all sad here

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✨⭐️ sloth ⭐️✨ @baka-alpaca.bsky.social · 04/09/2025

bonding with your pt in non-kosher ways because you can relate to having no friends or joy and feeling so ungodly alone that it’s suffocating and you both sit there, mutually understanding because a lot of the staff can’t relate to you but I can and he believed that

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✨⭐️ sloth ⭐️✨ @baka-alpaca.bsky.social · 03/09/2025

I’m just never going to stop hurting I guess

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✨⭐️ sloth ⭐️✨ @baka-alpaca.bsky.social · 03/09/2025

I just wish people realized where my mental state is right now because I’m at such a low point that I’m barely able to fake it anymore

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✨⭐️ sloth ⭐️✨ @baka-alpaca.bsky.social · 03/09/2025

ahh, is it truly a shift in psych if you're not getting hit... tonight's weapon of choice was a plastic mug love that for me and my face

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✨⭐️ sloth ⭐️✨ @baka-alpaca.bsky.social · 29/08/2025

like I don’t know why I’m still going, I feel completely worthless and disposable

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✨⭐️ sloth ⭐️✨ @baka-alpaca.bsky.social · 29/08/2025

eventually I have to feel something, right?

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✨⭐️ sloth ⭐️✨ @baka-alpaca.bsky.social · 17/08/2025

people: when are your cats most active? me: yes

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✨⭐️ sloth ⭐️✨ @baka-alpaca.bsky.social · 17/08/2025

omg get out of there IT'S FROM 2008 HOW ARE YOU FINDING MY OLD FANFICS??? DON'T FOLLOW IT IT'S NOT GONNA UPDATE

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✨⭐️ sloth ⭐️✨ @baka-alpaca.bsky.social · 15/08/2025

I assure you that whatever age you think this man is, you’re wrong

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✨⭐️ sloth ⭐️✨ @baka-alpaca.bsky.social · 13/08/2025

I see my psychiatrist today and I desperately need to adjust my mood rather than just the addy I don’t care if I’m struggling to keep focused a bit still I’m fucking miserable I can’t keep going like this

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✨⭐️ sloth ⭐️✨ @baka-alpaca.bsky.social · 13/08/2025

it’s easily obvious that I’ve been this depressed for like 6+ months at this point, probably more to a point I don’t understand why because it’s great being on my own but I’m so tired I wish everything would be disappear Or at least just me

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✨⭐️ sloth ⭐️✨ @baka-alpaca.bsky.social · 12/08/2025

aide: so [pt] says I got her addicted to fentanyl me: wh- aide: and now she's a dealer me: this is so out of pocket

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✨⭐️ sloth ⭐️✨ @baka-alpaca.bsky.social · 12/08/2025

giving report to the next shift, about ready to leave at 7:20am, and suddenly the fire alarm goes off— "facility alert, code red" weird time to do this but okay, whatever- "fifth floor stairwell" — WAIT THAT'S US????

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✨⭐️ sloth ⭐️✨ @baka-alpaca.bsky.social · 08/08/2025

gotta love feeling hungry so you warm up food and only can eat like a few bites 🫠 I’m so tired of this appetite thing… I think my literal stomach is getting so small and shrinking constantly

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✨⭐️ sloth ⭐️✨ @baka-alpaca.bsky.social · 08/08/2025

Willow scared tf out of Momo the other week by chasing her (playfully, and Momo didn’t agree) and as pissed as I was at them both for that chaos, this is a hilarious picture 😭 poor thing is SO FLUFFED UP in fear

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✨⭐️ sloth ⭐️✨ @baka-alpaca.bsky.social · 30/07/2025

super low energy suddenly and back to the "I feel very aimless and don't know what to do" phase of my depression but gf says she has a half a day so we can rp today I hope...

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✨⭐️ sloth ⭐️✨ @baka-alpaca.bsky.social · 28/07/2025

NEW PUBBY ALERT 🚨 ‼️ Mom is getting her new addition Friday 🥹

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✨⭐️ sloth ⭐️✨ @baka-alpaca.bsky.social · 28/07/2025

also is it possible to be still miserable/without energy yet feel so bouncy/energetic because I'm on hour 24+ of not sleeping but I don't feel manic bc I still hate everything

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✨⭐️ sloth ⭐️✨ @baka-alpaca.bsky.social · 28/07/2025

me: ah the broadway is longer stuff and just as good so far as what I was used to, nice squip: enters me: goddAMMIT NEVER MIND

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✨⭐️ sloth ⭐️✨ @baka-alpaca.bsky.social · 24/07/2025

ok locked down my IG and did a massive purge on followed and followers main twtr is also private, 2 being deleted entirely there’s probably more I’ll get to as I remember what they are

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✨⭐️ sloth ⭐️✨ @baka-alpaca.bsky.social · 23/07/2025

if I unfollow you on anything please don’t take it personally I just can’t handle anything anymore

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✨⭐️ sloth ⭐️✨ @baka-alpaca.bsky.social · 23/07/2025

I need to clean up socials and get rid of DMs and shit since I’m never gonna talk to most of these people again anyway— just probably because let’s be real, I’m too much to handle so I don’t blame them

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✨⭐️ sloth ⭐️✨ @baka-alpaca.bsky.social · 23/07/2025

tractor is acting up again so y’know man I’m done I’m just over it all, I’m so tired, it’s too much I can’t handle all of this anymore

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✨⭐️ sloth ⭐️✨ @baka-alpaca.bsky.social · 22/07/2025

why am I crying why am I crying why!!!!!

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✨⭐️ sloth ⭐️✨ @baka-alpaca.bsky.social · 22/07/2025

I don't want to draw and I don't want to play a game but it's only 6pm like I can't go to bed right now

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✨⭐️ sloth ⭐️✨ @baka-alpaca.bsky.social · 22/07/2025

idk what to do anymore I don't want to talk to people but I'm also lonely that it feels suffocating, but I'm tired of reaching out I'm just tired

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✨⭐️ sloth ⭐️✨ @baka-alpaca.bsky.social · 21/07/2025

traumatic experience and I have no clue if I did anything right because nobody said I did okay so now I’m paranoid and on edge and jpset

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✨⭐️ sloth ⭐️✨ @baka-alpaca.bsky.social · 20/07/2025

no one would notice if I just stopped posting nobody would check on me

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✨⭐️ sloth ⭐️✨ @baka-alpaca.bsky.social · 20/07/2025

I just wish. I wish I wasn’t always such a fuck up. That I wouldn’t continually lose friends. It can’t be their faults all the time, I have to be the common denominator, you can’t convince me otherwise at this point

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✨⭐️ sloth ⭐️✨ @baka-alpaca.bsky.social · 20/07/2025

you know I’m lonely and tired of this entire fucking life I don’t care I need to eat I don’t want to I’m tired of existing

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