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Basti Gets Out (Of Their Mind) @baconbasti.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

Wait I promised myself I’f use this account less for gay talk. I should say something less gay. Um.

Basti Gets Out (Of Their Mind) @baconbasti.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

For closeted people Do you ever get paranoid that it’s obvious you’re not straight and everyone knows and it won’t be a shock to anyone if you do come out but you still refuse to come out publicly due to personal reasons but you still feel like people know?

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Basti Gets Out (Of Their Mind) @baconbasti.bsky.social · 09/10/2026

Sometimes I wonder if I am a dumbass And then I look back at my life, my decisions, and I say yeah

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Basti Gets Out (Of Their Mind) @baconbasti.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

I keep misreading cook as cock It’s a problem

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LittleKuriboh @littlekuriboh.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

Going back and looking at my admittedly terrible webcomic from 1999 (!) and seeing the part where the male presenting character reveals they're actually a girl, and all the rational characters react like "oh that makes sense" and one even says "You only just found out???" to the one in disbelief.

Lisa Simpsons staring at an empty dinner plate in disbelief

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Basti Gets Out (Of Their Mind) @baconbasti.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

My first thought was I forgot this was a thing. My second thought was Gillian vs the Xenomorphs

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Basti Gets Out (Of Their Mind) @baconbasti.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

And sometimes I wonder if I’m really trying to do good for others or if I’m only doing it because it makes me feel good. Out of selfishness rather than being genuine. My mind is in a weird place right now

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Basti Gets Out (Of Their Mind) @baconbasti.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

Like my mind tells me that good enough isn’t good enough. If I am not amazing I’m terrible. If I fall and fail, just stay on the ground because what’s the point of trying again I try to think of others but sometimes I act selfishly out of impulse or emotions.

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Basti Gets Out (Of Their Mind) @baconbasti.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

Sometimes I ask myself if I’m a good person and I don’t always know what to respond with I like to think I’m a good person and yet I hate myself and wouldn’t mind if I stopped existing And I’m constantly very hard on myself.

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Basti Gets Out (Of Their Mind) @baconbasti.bsky.social · 15/09/2026

When I die, I want a comedian to give a eulogy. Make jokes. Roast me. I don’t want people to cry that my dumbass is dead. I don’t want to leave people crying. I want them to leave smiling. Say goodbye with a smile. Not with tears

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Basti Gets Out (Of Their Mind) @baconbasti.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

I was about to horny post but stopped myself thank god

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Basti Gets Out (Of Their Mind) @baconbasti.bsky.social · 07/09/2026

worms and fish worms and fish im a little lad who likes worms and fish

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Basti Gets Out (Of Their Mind) @baconbasti.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

But even without that, I tend to be a bit jumpy.

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Basti Gets Out (Of Their Mind) @baconbasti.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

And before anyone asks, no. Im 100% positive they don’t mean anything malicious. Drive by back pats are just a thing people do. It’s just I don’t like it. Especially if they touch a particular spot back there. Which I always get nervous about.

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Basti Gets Out (Of Their Mind) @baconbasti.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

I like the folks at work but for the love of god have people not learned the basic rule of keeping your hands to yourself? And it’s always in a scenario where there are lots of people around and I don’t want to make a scene You’d think me doing slight recoils would be a good hint but no. No.

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Basti Gets Out (Of Their Mind) @baconbasti.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

How hard is it not to touch someone? I don’t like getting pats on back for personal reasons. When did this become a societal thing? Say hello and just pat the back as you walk by? Or pat and squeeze the shoulders? Or…touch my hips? That one was a little weird. Maybe he was aiming for the back

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Basti Gets Out (Of Their Mind) @baconbasti.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

My shoulders and my back hurt. I can technically partly massage myself just by myself but it’s hard to get a good comfortable angle

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Basti Gets Out (Of Their Mind) @baconbasti.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

I wish I could clone myself so I could get behind myself, push myself onto my bed, get on top of myself, and then give myself a massage

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Basti Gets Out (Of Their Mind) @baconbasti.bsky.social · 05/09/2026

Anyone else have a mild fear or distrust of open cans of soup because of that one Arthur episode?

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Basti Gets Out (Of Their Mind) @baconbasti.bsky.social · 03/09/2026

I was watching it and it shut down when I switched off a video. Bummed but I’ll get back to it eventually hopefully when/if it comes back Been really enjoying the videos and commentary and can’t wait to see more.

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Basti Gets Out (Of Their Mind) @baconbasti.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

Thinking about wigs. Maybe curly hair. Shoulder length. Thinking. Not buying. Just thinking

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Basti Gets Out (Of Their Mind) @baconbasti.bsky.social · 28/08/2026

Haven’t watched it but I’ve seen clips and I recognized the audio immediately. Didn’t realize my childhood could sound so haunting

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Basti Gets Out (Of Their Mind) @baconbasti.bsky.social · 28/08/2026

I have not watched Skinamarink. Mostly because it looks sort of boring to me. I do find it interesting that I 100% recognize two of the cartoons being played in the background. Having had them on VHS back in the day and having watched them, mostly around Christmas

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Basti Gets Out (Of Their Mind) @baconbasti.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

Still within my visual range, but not fully clouding my mind 24/7. I’ll still post in this thread as more feelings come up. Consider this my gender self discovery…thread.

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Basti Gets Out (Of Their Mind) @baconbasti.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

Also quick update? While that fem side of me is still around, it’s calmed down quite a bit. I mean she’s still around. But instead of her arm being around my shoulder telling me to be gay and do crimes, she is now currently in the corner just…resting?

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Basti Gets Out (Of Their Mind) @baconbasti.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

And I’m wondering if that’s contributing to the weird ways I’ve been feeling lately. Like, I don’t know if this feeling is all recent or if it would have popped up sooner if I haven’t been repressing certain sides of myself for so long

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Basti Gets Out (Of Their Mind) @baconbasti.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

Had a revelation just now how growing up I kept being told “Act like a man” “Walk like a man” “Talk like a man” “You’re not a girl. Stop acting like one”

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Basti Gets Out (Of Their Mind) @baconbasti.bsky.social · 19/08/2026

“Maybe my head is playing tricks on me.” wakes up dreaming I have long flowing hair and bows and ribbons in my hair “Oh okay this is what we’re doing now

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Basti Gets Out (Of Their Mind) @baconbasti.bsky.social · 19/08/2026

More updates. I’m being flooded on TikTok and YouTube Shorts with trans Petra Parker stuff and I’m like damn jelly And it’s freaking me out too. But it makes sense I’ve been…looking things up

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Basti Gets Out (Of Their Mind) @baconbasti.bsky.social · 17/08/2026

I mean I’m cool about all of them. I just never been referred to online as she/her so I don’t know if that feels right or not. Hypothetically it makes me smile a bit. Theoretically

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Basti Gets Out (Of Their Mind) @baconbasti.bsky.social · 17/08/2026

Part of me wonders if I should experiment online and go by she/her. To see how it feels Then again I’m a coward. Maybe I should stick with they/them. Maybe she/her I’m cool with he/him.

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Basti Gets Out (Of Their Mind) @baconbasti.bsky.social · 17/08/2026

Also not just about makeup but about…everything?

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Basti Gets Out (Of Their Mind) @baconbasti.bsky.social · 17/08/2026

Hey don’t you have trans friends who could help you figure this out? Why don’t you just ask them? Because what if I’m just cis and by asking or implying I’m not is an insult to them and their own journey and I’m just a pathetic man who’s curious and a FAKER? That’s where my mind is at

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Basti Gets Out (Of Their Mind) @baconbasti.bsky.social · 17/08/2026

Hit the part of my gay journey where I’m looking up make up Mostly to cover up my light stubble But make up is expensive and I don’t know…how? So many colors and tones and I don’t know what I am or where to start or if I can subtlety wear it

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Basti Gets Out (Of Their Mind) @baconbasti.bsky.social · 17/08/2026

My inner fem side is once again attempting to crack an egg wide open and I’m like that sounds nice but I’d rather have an existential crisis I guess

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Basti Gets Out (Of Their Mind) @baconbasti.bsky.social · 15/08/2026

I mean, besides the stress, anxiety, depression, I’m also feeling paranoid and I need to take care of that.

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Basti Gets Out (Of Their Mind) @baconbasti.bsky.social · 15/08/2026

I don’t think I’m mentally well lately.

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Basti Gets Out (Of Their Mind) @baconbasti.bsky.social · 14/08/2026

Might add more to this thread later. I don’t know what I’m feeling right now but I’m looking up gender/trans quizzes, feeling a weight in my chest and thoughts telling me “you’re not trans, you’re just a confused idiot. You’re fully a guy. Shut up.”

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Basti Gets Out (Of Their Mind) @baconbasti.bsky.social · 14/08/2026

Whenever I see trans people, I feel happy for them. I also feel…jealous. Envious they they can be who they want to be so openly. Granted, this is for anyone in the LGBTQ+ community. I’m still in the closet. I’m like…an egg in a closet.

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Basti Gets Out (Of Their Mind) @baconbasti.bsky.social · 14/08/2026

I don’t know what made all of these feelings come stronger. Was it the female filter on Snapchat? Was it writing more female muses? I have had thoughts before all that but I ignored them or just regarded them as curiosity everyone has Now I’m just not sure

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Basti Gets Out (Of Their Mind) @baconbasti.bsky.social · 14/08/2026

Like…I’m afraid of fully embracing her. Because while I like her conceptually, what if she isn’t actually me and I’m just losing my mind? And I don’t hate or dislike male me. Not remotely. I like both of them. Well, actually I generally hate myself but that’s a different topic, lol

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Basti Gets Out (Of Their Mind) @baconbasti.bsky.social · 14/08/2026

Like…right now? I feel like she’s behind the wheel a bit. If that makes sense. She won’t be behind the wheel the whole time. She could fuck off for a bit and come back later. But whenever she’s behind the wheel I feel…afraid. But not in a bad way?

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Basti Gets Out (Of Their Mind) @baconbasti.bsky.social · 14/08/2026

You’re not upset at being male you just…wouldn’t terribly mind being female. Even for a moment. But you ignored those thoughts for years. But now those thoughts come stronger and louder and sometimes it feels like they take over a little. Before leaving.

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Basti Gets Out (Of Their Mind) @baconbasti.bsky.social · 14/08/2026

Fuck me. Fem Basti is knocking hard at the door. I don’t know how to explain it. It’s like…imagine you’re a male. And you’ve been male you’re whole life And then suddenly the thought of being female shows up and you’re scared and unsure.

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