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@ayareina.bsky.social
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creep on creepin on

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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 20/09/2026
Dealing with the trauma of literally almost dying three days ago by going back to work woooooo
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 17/09/2026
sorry to my haters but I survived surgery part 2 fast 2 furious with only three IV attempts, a badly bruised abdomen and one violent assault by a blood pressure cuff lol
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 26/07/2026
Portrait commission of Christina Koch. Super happy with how this one turned out 🩷✨
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 15/07/2026
the Argentinian football association are objectively awful and Argentinian fans are racist asf so like, on that level it’s awful. but I am also laughing, I can’t lie.
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 15/07/2026
I feel it’s important to gaze upon my plum and dark chocolate friand tysm
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 15/07/2026
thoughts and prayers for @nigella.bsky.social and the crisp cauldron this eve
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 05/06/2026
A quick painting while I take a break from working on a commission 🚀
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 18/04/2026
post-chemo hair update that nobody asked for: furry head achieved 🕺 rip egg mode i will not miss you x
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 02/04/2026
watching live views from Artemis II/Orion and rendering fabric is my happy place 🥰
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 29/03/2026
talkback radio whenever there’s a daylight savings change
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 20/02/2026
Not to emo post on here but also to absolutely emo post because it’s my account lmaoo one of the things I’ve found the worst about having cancer is how quickly and easily it shows you how many people just do not give a shit about you. Not really, anyway.
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 13/02/2026
🌇💖
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 29/01/2026
realising the thing that’s become basically my job for the last year (not dying) is over now and kind of not having much idea of what to do now lol
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 28/01/2026
we did it chat 🥹
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 27/01/2026
and my animal crossing continues to pop off thanks to my anxiety tysm
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 27/01/2026
today is, somewhat terrifyingly, that day again 🥹 I’d say pls manifest good things but actually the results are already set in stone, I just don’t know them yet lol. But pls join me in hoping for good news today thank you
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 26/01/2026
on the bright side my animal crossing island is popping off thanks to my hyperfixation to keep the anxiety at bay 🥹
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 26/01/2026
crying from anxiety bc I have my follow up oncology apportionment on wednesday and I just keep thinking about last time and expecting the worst but also DREADING the worst because I do not have the mental resilience to do this all again 🥹👍
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 12/01/2026
what a year this week has been
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 12/01/2026
god I’m so sick
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 08/01/2026
last inpatient day of this course can i get some hype in chat!!
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 08/01/2026
i rly cannot describe how much i need this to actually be my last inpatient day ever but if the last six months has taught me anything it’s that we don’t expect ANYTHING good to happen lmaoo so we vibe
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 28/12/2025
how’s the serenity
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 24/12/2025
Christmas egg reporting
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 24/12/2025
other adventures in entertaining a six year old at Christmas include taking free commissions, I guess. Thank god for procreate and five frame animations lmao
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 24/12/2025
my last day of trying to entertain a six year old with the antics of a plastic elf… do you think the hotel cleaning staff will be ok with my attempt at diy ice? 🥴 (Holly the elf got into the Christmas snacks to refuel for her long trip to the North Pole)
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 11/12/2025
having anxiety and panic attacks my doctor prescribed me Valium today but I baked these rly pretty croissants filled with Nutella so it all balances out in the end
A white baking dish on a green fabric background containing four freshly baked croissants
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 08/12/2025
accidentally got the flu (not that anyone intentionally gets the flu… I hope) right after the chemo and my GOD the tiredness I feel in my body sgsghdjfkh it creeps up on me and hits me like a fucking truck
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 26/11/2025
WHY DOES EVERYTHING HURT HELLO
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 23/11/2025
anyway. ANYWAY.
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 23/11/2025
Tomorrow is my first day of a new cycle of ICE chemo, and I’ve been feeling a weird anticipatory grief about it that’s only been getting worse. In the past few hours I’ve broken out in what I can only describe as nervous hives?? lmao I love it here
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 09/11/2025
Feeling an immovable blanket of sadness over me lately and I’m not entirely sure why. I think… perhaps… the idea of starting chemo again is subconsciously unsettling me, even though consciously I’ve made peace with it, especially since a lot of my symptoms have come back the past couple of weeks.
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 04/11/2025
I think a lot about the lengths men will go to be able to brag about being better than each other
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 04/11/2025
Still feeling weirdly vomity from the contrast for my CT scan this morning (I super don’t like the taste lol) and the reason this is VERY SAD to me is I have pistachio cheesecake calling to meeee
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 02/11/2025
Ok I think I’ve decided even though I honestly don’t like the decision I’ve made LMAO
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 01/11/2025
hello I made salad with roast pumpkin, feta, and avocado 🥰 and a blood orange saffron dressing which I made FAR too much of but we vibe
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 31/10/2025
The way that I urgently need someone to vent to as a way of processing and thinking about my treatment but I also HATE trauma dumping, especially because no one really knows what to say. Depressing.
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 28/10/2025
the radiation oncologist yesterday was like how are you finding it mentally and I just laughed lmao
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 28/10/2025
who was I, honestly
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 28/10/2025
radiation oncologist said she thinks there’s a good chance radiation would treat what’s left of the cancer, as the scan doesn’t show large amounts of it or uncontrollable spread, but I have to have my appt with the medical oncologist to discuss chemo options as well. then the weekend to decide
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 27/10/2025
well shit, it’s Tuesday 🥹
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 24/10/2025
My appointment discussing next steps/further treatment was rescheduled to next week and split into two appointments, so now I have a treatment with a radiation specialist on Tuesday and one with the chemo specialist on Friday. Yaaayyy 🥴
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 12/10/2025
actually felt semi human today can I get some hype in chat
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 11/10/2025
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 10/10/2025
the horrors persist but god I wish I didn’t have to
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 09/10/2025
1600 days tho! (free from self harm yeyeye)
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 08/10/2025
I really am struggling to break myself out of the funk after finding out about more chemo lol
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 04/10/2025
I think the problem is I read the notes sent to my doctor and it’s actually worse than what they said at the hospital appointment and I’m just…
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 03/10/2025
the depression is bad today I fear
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Aya @ayareina.bsky.social · 02/10/2025
The way I am still coughing my guts up from that flu I got like a month ago. Maybe I actually am dying
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