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avaned.bsky.social @avaned.bsky.social · 19/08/2026

It will all be over soon. Goodbye, cruel world.

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avaned.bsky.social @avaned.bsky.social · 17/08/2026

And I will finally have my last wish.

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avaned.bsky.social @avaned.bsky.social · 17/08/2026

They'll make a photo of me that shares my insignificant accomplishments. Ill be shared around until I am forgotten again. Just to be found over and over again. Like a sad tombstone, long forgotten in the forest. Im tired of fighting the war. I yearn to go missing. My crusade to living will end.

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avaned.bsky.social @avaned.bsky.social · 17/08/2026

My suicide letters will automatically be sent, this Friday. At 11:59pm. I will take the drugs. I will die shortly after. After that, you'll carry my story to the press. Ill be made into a martyr.

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avaned.bsky.social @avaned.bsky.social · 15/08/2026

By the way, I am stupid, I mean. We as in Me. Im just.. dummy.

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avaned.bsky.social @avaned.bsky.social · 15/08/2026

If you can make an exception to your policy, we would really appreciate if you could share it. For more information, please contact me at avanedevereux20@gmail.com this email is used for professional purposes only and I will receive the information there. You can also DM us here. - Avane

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avaned.bsky.social @avaned.bsky.social · 15/08/2026

After going to your form and looking it over, you only allow certain platforms that will allow the fundraising. We chose the platform that we have because it allows immediate, and prompt access to the funding that we receive to immediate get put towards our efforts.

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avaned.bsky.social @avaned.bsky.social · 15/08/2026

If all else fails, we will give up entirely. Currently I am working on getting OBS up and running so I can stream my games during the day, because when I am not applying for jobs all night or on the toilet, I am keeping myself busy with that. When this is done, I will let you all know. Thanks!

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avaned.bsky.social @avaned.bsky.social · 15/08/2026

Further action is needed, we need your help to keep me in house and home and with a car so as soon as a job starts, I can get back to work. We need your help, or else the eviction process will begin. We are now doing this as a "Do or Die" fundraiser. gogetfunding.com/urgent-need-...

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avaned.bsky.social @avaned.bsky.social · 01/08/2026

Whether you skip by, and leave your darkest shade. Or you add a hue of color peering through my most quiet door. Help me, help myself. It's all that I ask. While there is a listed goal, it will accept donations past the amount. Everything, anything. Helps. gogetfunding.com/urgent-need-...

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Urgent Need For Basic Necessities

A friend of mine is having trouble paying for their rent and car payments after being put on leave by their workplace. They are at risk of being evicted if they can’t make their rent payments soon. Th...

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avaned.bsky.social @avaned.bsky.social · 01/08/2026

The choice is up to you, all of you, are an extraneous variable. An outlier to a box and whisker plot. When many people get together to do something small, it can make such a large impact. Pointillism, is the art of many small dots, to create a bigger picture. You can be a dot in this picture.

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avaned.bsky.social @avaned.bsky.social · 01/08/2026

Or I sit in the jar in the closet, in the most brooding of dark. If you made it this far, I thank you. Because people like you might be the last that cares. Or maybe you stumbled on this post the same way a child finds a frog in the creek.

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avaned.bsky.social @avaned.bsky.social · 01/08/2026

Is actually my great grandmother. My grandfather died, not knowing who is real father was. And I cannot hypothesize my future, because I am an experiment that I simply don't have the prior knowledge to run. There are only two outcomes, I come out of this, and I finally scramble to my feet.

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avaned.bsky.social @avaned.bsky.social · 01/08/2026

Applying for jobs and trying to picture the part of the painting where I win and I am able to give back as much as I was given, but in the dark I see the cascade of my ashes in a jar, tucked away in my mother's closet. In the same way, that my great aunt on my father's side.

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avaned.bsky.social @avaned.bsky.social · 01/08/2026

As much as I want to die, I want to live. I want to do great things but I am not even being given a chance. I wake up and I am in agony, I go to sleep and it is the closest thing to dying that I can get to. Somedays, some weeks, I don't sleep. I've been running on about an hour of sleep.

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avaned.bsky.social @avaned.bsky.social · 01/08/2026

Every time I was offered a job so far, it was swooped, denied, a ghost posting, or a straight up fucking bait and switch. My complaint with the PAHRB has not gone anywhere, it is still out and they are still investigating my claims against my former employer's.

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avaned.bsky.social @avaned.bsky.social · 01/08/2026

People keep telling me that things will get better, but I am convinced otherwise. As a trans woman, my insurance was canceled by the state, so I have been regressing into hideousness, to the point where I don't want people to look at me.

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avaned.bsky.social @avaned.bsky.social · 01/08/2026

The same man who told me I was hired, went through all the paperwork. Had me sign a copy of their employee handbook. Told me, that they never hired me. I have another interview tuesday, at a nursing home as a housekeeper.

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avaned.bsky.social @avaned.bsky.social · 01/08/2026

I had an interview at burger king, filled out hiring paperwork. Was told that my next day was Monday, and when I walked in Monday ready to work. They looked at me, said "We didn't hire you." and from there, I punched out the small tray of cookies from the store front all the way to the dishes.

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avaned.bsky.social @avaned.bsky.social · 01/08/2026

I apply for local positions in the town that I live in that I can walk to and I see "Application denied." or the posting was old and that they weren't hiring anymore. I reached out to child care agencies in Erie County, PA. One of them has outright denied me always. The other one, also denied me.

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avaned.bsky.social @avaned.bsky.social · 01/08/2026

I applied for state work, in Warren County as an Social Services Administration Assistant. On the way I got pulled over by the state police, my car being very illegal, I got to my interview, what I thought was a good interview. Two days later. I see, application denied.

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avaned.bsky.social @avaned.bsky.social · 01/08/2026

The man said I had a job. After multiple attempts of calling back, after walking into the office and confronting the man. I was told that, they were still working on it and they would call me back eventually. I went back to applying. I also never got a call back from him.

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avaned.bsky.social @avaned.bsky.social · 01/08/2026

He said that they had filled the position. I had to think about this because my car was already illegal, and I would be risking a lot to get to and from work. In June, I applied for a local health care agency that worked with people with disabilities. I signed over my W4 and everything.

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avaned.bsky.social @avaned.bsky.social · 01/08/2026

Followed up with the leads that they have gave me. I applied for jobs in the PAcareerlink website, I have applied on indeed, glassdoor, and linkedin. In may, I thought I might have a job cleaning up after peoples pets, going to house to house. Called him back, after asking for the weekend to think.

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avaned.bsky.social @avaned.bsky.social · 01/08/2026

I first have to thank people that have donated, that have contributed to keeping me afloat. This shit is hard and it bother's me that I have to ask others to carry the burden for me. I have applied to a few thousand jobs. Reached out to my alma mater's career success center.

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avaned.bsky.social @avaned.bsky.social · 01/08/2026

Good Morning. I figured, I would speak now because I have been relying on others to speak for me. And I apologize if this is hard to follow. But when I am emotional. I write the same way a doomsayer chants in the street, holding the bell and wearing the sign.

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avaned.bsky.social @avaned.bsky.social · 01/04/2026

I don't wanna live anymore. That's it, that's the post. No April Fools here.

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avaned.bsky.social @avaned.bsky.social · 20/03/2026

Moxie and few others have been my only support system. I thank them for doing what they could. But. I hear the trains. Screeching to a silencing halt. I can't do it anymore.

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avaned.bsky.social @avaned.bsky.social · 20/03/2026

regret it. Whereas, my source of regret is the fact that I couldn't do more to 'help myself.' to help others. I can no longer beg, and plead with the forces of this world to keep living. I can no longer ask the ground to stay still. I'm tired of begging. So I surrender.

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avaned.bsky.social @avaned.bsky.social · 20/03/2026

Ethel Cain in the album, I'll Always Love You, Willoughby Tucker. She has a song called Tempest, where the storm approaching on the horizon is becoming all consuming, the sirens, the train whistles approaching rapidly. Warning all that the end is neigh. The only difference is, she will come to

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avaned.bsky.social @avaned.bsky.social · 20/03/2026

More often than not, I wish for the string to be cut, so the sword may strike me where I sit. I have lost the vigor to keep pressing on. I will delete this account, and I will vanish off the face of the internet because I think I must vanish in its entirety.

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avaned.bsky.social @avaned.bsky.social · 20/03/2026

My senior quote was "Bedtime stories have never been about tragedy, they've always have been about leading breadcrumb trails back from catastrophe." With no bread, with no crumbs. I am lost in a hellscape that seeks to consume all within the grasp of late stage capitalism and political agonism.

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avaned.bsky.social @avaned.bsky.social · 20/03/2026

Over and over again, for the tranquility that is a little bit of stability, and I have been charlie browned too often, and too much, that it is at this point. Sickening. I can no longer tolerate waking up. Because it's like a never ending cycle of nightmares. When I graduated high school.

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avaned.bsky.social @avaned.bsky.social · 20/03/2026

Many a time, I have lended a hand to raise a flag, atop a ship of fools. As everyone has, all I ever wanted to do was to make a difference, and I can see that my contributions are unwelcome. But I tried. I tried so hard to make people proud of me. I have begged, the mysterious forces of the universe

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avaned.bsky.social @avaned.bsky.social · 20/03/2026

single offer. I did what I could, and it wasn't enough. It seems, anytime that I do try it isn't good enough. Whomever made and had the video relayed to me. I am so very glad that your constitution has willed you out this long. But I have grown bitter, and I cannot share your laughter no more.

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avaned.bsky.social @avaned.bsky.social · 20/03/2026

This is the friend that so many of you generously assisted. After much, self deliberation. I have decided that I give up. I don't want to fight anymore. I have lost faith, considering out of the 20 job interviews I had, none of them even called me back. Out of 300 or so job applications, not a

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avaned.bsky.social @avaned.bsky.social · 24/02/2026

I can also now, be reached here. On this profile. For bluesky.

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