iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

kal-el @autisticjoshler.bsky.social · 19/08/2025

hearing drum show for the first time yesterday was the first time i’d felt happiness since my papa died on july 28th

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kal-el @autisticjoshler.bsky.social · 18/07/2025

just seeing this 😭💔 my bad y’all

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kal-el @autisticjoshler.bsky.social · 15/07/2025

my boy’s been loving the weather and his outside time #ferret

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kal-el @autisticjoshler.bsky.social · 13/07/2025

me too me too (from ur list) my favs are blue, little bear, spongebob, spiderman and magic school bus !!!

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kal-el @autisticjoshler.bsky.social · 13/07/2025

i messaged one on july 5th and never heard back so i shall try again this upcoming week

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kal-el @autisticjoshler.bsky.social · 13/07/2025

thank you i really appreciate you

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kal-el @autisticjoshler.bsky.social · 13/07/2025

deep down i do know that i’m not the only one struggling ive always been able to push it back and have fun but its just gotten too heavy lately to do so and its made being on social media very frustrating so in the moment when i see everyone having fun but im too deep in my head i just get angry

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kal-el @autisticjoshler.bsky.social · 13/07/2025

i do have insurance so i’m searching for someone who takes my insurance and ive been looking moreso for someone who can do video chats or calls vs in person its easier for me to do it that way at least at the start they’re personal but idk how to not overshare my life lmaoo

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kal-el @autisticjoshler.bsky.social · 13/07/2025

meant to say dad ghost not ghost dad💀💀

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kal-el @autisticjoshler.bsky.social · 13/07/2025

for anyone who doesn’t have twitter anymore may 27th i lost my sweet boy akio </3

akio laying next to me under a blanket with his head on my shoulder

akio laying on me with his head pressed against my cheek

akio sleeping in my lap with his belly up

akio laying on my lap belly up at the vet the day i had to put him down

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kal-el @autisticjoshler.bsky.social · 13/07/2025

ive always been to scared to attempt to draw ghost or even soap but i have a whole week off of work so im going to have loads of free time maybe i’ll get good at it

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kal-el @autisticjoshler.bsky.social · 13/07/2025

no i’m just tryjng to keep normal irl really i just moved out on my own a few months ago so im trying not to let things get out of control to where i screw myself over with my house n stuff

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kal-el @autisticjoshler.bsky.social · 13/07/2025

thank you sin appreciate u always

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kal-el @autisticjoshler.bsky.social · 12/07/2025

im being triggered over a trauma that started over 18 years ago. its so. built up at this point

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kal-el @autisticjoshler.bsky.social · 12/07/2025

im sorry for coming back to just immediately dump on whoever ends up seeing this but i couldnt just come back here and act like nothing is happening its all weighing so so heavily on me its hard for me to ignore anymore

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kal-el @autisticjoshler.bsky.social · 12/07/2025

ive tried reaching out to therapists and havent gotten a response ive talked to 988 ive explained my situation to a friend nothing helps i want nothing more than all of it to go away ive been spending every day the last two+ weeks consistently getting triggered over and over and over

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kal-el @autisticjoshler.bsky.social · 12/07/2025

while social media isnt my main issue ive become really angry and upset with other people solely for having fun and enjoying their tome with their friends so i didnt want to actually take that out on others just bc i cant enjoy my life doesnt mean no one else can

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kal-el @autisticjoshler.bsky.social · 12/07/2025

hey ive kind of been going through like a lot of shit and it got to the point i ended up in contact w 988 but it keeps continuing to get worse ive deactivated my main and priv twt accounts and abandoned the other priv and ig my friends along the way

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kal-el @autisticjoshler.bsky.social · 12/07/2025

is anybody still over here can i come back

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kal-el @autisticjoshler.bsky.social · 12/04/2025

a lot of ppl keep saying “maybe they can’t talk ab it” but that doesnt mean we all shouldnt continue talking ab it and it doesn’t mean people can’t be upset !!!! we all have a right to be upset for what is going on let people talk

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kal-el @autisticjoshler.bsky.social · 12/04/2025

just weird to me bc they aren’t secretive of how much they’re online despite not interacting with us anymore yet they don’t communicate or change anything that’s a big issue like this isn’t some tiny thing it’s ableism and microaggression this is serious shit that needs handled

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kal-el @autisticjoshler.bsky.social · 12/04/2025

seeing how quickly tyler did the whole my death thing was the first time we saw that they do see everything we talk about and mark talking ab how he accidentally blocked someone is another they do see the issues with ableism and the treatment of latam why won’t they do anything

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kal-el @autisticjoshler.bsky.social · 25/01/2025

i end up going back just by habit because i’ve been consistently using that app everyday since 2015

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kal-el @autisticjoshler.bsky.social · 25/01/2025

should i move the stim thread over here

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kal-el @autisticjoshler.bsky.social · 25/01/2025

i could probably upload it here some time

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kal-el @autisticjoshler.bsky.social · 24/01/2025

you look like you know what ur doing

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kal-el @autisticjoshler.bsky.social · 24/01/2025

idk how to handle anything anymore everything is so difficult

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kal-el @autisticjoshler.bsky.social · 24/01/2025

feels weird posting like this bv im literally some guy but i have been private messaged, tagged in posts, and posted ab for some reason lol

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kal-el @autisticjoshler.bsky.social · 24/01/2025

ik some of u have been asking me to post here more bc yall aren’t on twitter anymore and i apologize for that ive had shit been constantly happening irl for a bit and it’s hard to get used to the new app for me

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kal-el @autisticjoshler.bsky.social · 08/01/2025

been thinking of all of you guys all day sending love

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kal-el @autisticjoshler.bsky.social · 05/01/2025

haha its all good gave me a good laugh

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kal-el @autisticjoshler.bsky.social · 05/01/2025

no their record label fueled by ramen😭

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kal-el @autisticjoshler.bsky.social · 11/12/2024

all the time !! i love his music

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kal-el @autisticjoshler.bsky.social · 11/12/2024

so excited for new music next year and continuing my listening streak

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kal-el @autisticjoshler.bsky.social · 11/12/2024

might brag about this the rest of my life actually 🙂‍↕️ @rhettmc.mythical.com my coolest acomplishment ever the fact that i can say i’ve been the top listener that many times is soooo crazy

my james and the shame record history
“record status
records can have two different statuses. “active” or “lost”. you can lose a record jf you are no longer the top listener for the artist, and you can gain it back again if you become top listener. “

i have 11,321 minutes or 3,042 streams for james and the shame meaning i’m ranked number two for his listeners

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