Natalie♠️ @atermater.bsky.social · 19/09/2025Okay, I do have a plan where if I fail, I will definitley throws my keys in the trash, when I leave. This means that I will be homeless and I won't be able to go back inside even if I wanted to do so 026
Natalie♠️ @atermater.bsky.social · 19/09/2025Yea I can just continue to live my life as a man and accept that and not think about it. Me living my life as a man doesn't matter at all. I can just accept it and not think about it. 000
Natalie♠️ @atermater.bsky.social · 19/09/2025I'm an irrelavnt human being. My pain and suffering doesn't matter because the world doesn't revolve around me. Whether I stay as a man for the rest of my life doesn't matter because the world doesn't revolve around me. Whether I have friends doesn't matter because the world doesn't revolve around m 020
Natalie♠️ @atermater.bsky.social · 19/09/2025from this fate. Simply because God is not real, there is no plan for me, I was born as a complete coincidence, and everything that has happened in my life has happened completely by coincidence, by chance. With probability I simply got very unlucky, and I will have to deal with the fate of that bad 100
Natalie♠️ @atermater.bsky.social · 19/09/2025Oh I'm aware the world doesn't revolve around me. That's entirely my point. The world is indifferent towards me, and my needs and want. Which is why I expect I'm going to miserable for the rest of my life. My brain is damaged, I'm severely mentally ill, I'm dependent, and nothing is going to save me 100
Natalie♠️ @atermater.bsky.social · 19/09/2025consciousness ever again ever. For eternity. That's a beautiful thing, I know it will take a VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY LONG time before I finally get to die. But the only thing I can do is wait, so yes I understand how long it is, but what else can I do? The only thing I can do is sit 110
Natalie♠️ @atermater.bsky.social · 19/09/2025I just wish I was dead. I know God is gifting me with a long life out of his love. All I do is fantasize about death, but I will have to wait until I am an elder before it happens. Death is the only way I will find peace. Once I am dead, I will have peace forever. I will never experience 100
Natalie♠️ @atermater.bsky.social · 19/09/2025My life will be screaming into a void. The only help I will receive is removing any tools to prevent me from killing myself that's it. I am different from other trans people. Trans people who are good and do the right thing, who have moral superiority 100
Natalie♠️ @atermater.bsky.social · 19/09/2025Not me. I am an inferior person. I am a bad person, a bad trans woman. A bad example of trans woman. I would say my relationship to the trans community is non-existent or as a scapegoat. Maybe the point of my existence is so that even members of the trans community will say that I am not trans 210
Natalie♠️ @atermater.bsky.social · 29/08/2025You said you're not sure I'm transgender and a woman. You definitley said those things 000
Natalie♠️ @atermater.bsky.social · 29/08/2025Yes I get it, you're trans person, but you're better than me. Also, I'm pretending to be a woman, and you're actually a woman right. 100
Natalie♠️ @atermater.bsky.social · 29/08/2025Oh I understand, you're not sure I'm a woman. You're not sure I'm trans. However, you are sure that you're a woman. You are sure that you are trans. If I said, I don't know if you're trans, I don't know if you're a woman, I think we would all agree however that I would be a transphobe 200
Natalie♠️ @atermater.bsky.social · 29/08/2025You don't think I'm a man, but you also don't think I'm a trans woman got it. 200
Natalie♠️ @atermater.bsky.social · 29/08/2025So trans people can erase their own identity? Interesting, can gay people erase their own identity also? In that case, if we just force people where they are unable to transition, then transgender people no longer exist and everyone is cis. 100
Natalie♠️ @atermater.bsky.social · 29/08/2025misgendering. You are transphobic. You believe in scapegoating certain individuals, and erasing them from their communities, because you think they play in a role enabling cisgender oppression and marginalization. You feel it is necessary so the cisgender people are happy 200
Natalie♠️ @atermater.bsky.social · 29/08/2025I understand, you believe I'm a man. You see do not see me as trans. You do not see me as a member of the trans community. You see me as cisgender. When you say you're uncertain, you're intentionally playing with ambiguity because you want to avoid outright accusations of being transphobic and 300
Natalie♠️ @atermater.bsky.social · 29/08/2025See, you feel the need to erase my transgender identity and membership to the trans community because you fundamentally believe trans people must have a one of the good ones relationship to cisgender people. 100
Natalie♠️ @atermater.bsky.social · 29/08/2025communities reputation and therefore must erase them from being a member of the trans community in the first place 100
Natalie♠️ @atermater.bsky.social · 29/08/2025Claim that they are not actually transgender is throwing a fellow transgender person under the bus because you want to appease cisgender people and believe that the actions of marginalized individuals are responsible for their community. You believe certain trans people are a threat to the trans 300
Natalie♠️ @atermater.bsky.social · 29/08/2025setting up a free Robin Westman concert. But then you realize, oh wait, what trans person, what artists should hold such concert. Exactly. 120
Natalie♠️ @atermater.bsky.social · 29/08/2025Look at how black people despite their status, are extremely influential in fashion, music, hollywood, and culture. You know being trans does actually socioeconomic and class lines as well. Trans culture is what, porn? That's their cultural impact? I want to say trans people should right now be 240
Natalie♠️ @atermater.bsky.social · 29/08/2025are a good trans and not conforming to a given stereotype. No minority community should be expected to base their behavior on trying fit the mold and expectations on the majority community. You will never be able to appease them. 000
Natalie♠️ @atermater.bsky.social · 29/08/2025How many black people have went out of their way to support their brothers in prison. You see black people creating entire movements to free people, and bring justice. We got people trying free YNW melly, Youngboy, Thug, Hoover, Diddy. Trans people instead need to try and prove to everyone that they 110
Natalie♠️ @atermater.bsky.social · 29/08/2025I find it shameful that the trans community is not supporting Robin Westman 200
Natalie♠️ @atermater.bsky.social · 29/08/2025Anybody condemning the trans shooter is trying to be one of the good ones. 100
Natalie♠️ @atermater.bsky.social · 29/08/2025It's also a lot more controversial to support an individual who attacks aggressively versus an individual who attacks retaliatorily. Nobody really cares if you say you support the Iraq war. But if I say you know what, maybe Christians should be nicer to transgender people, everyone loses their minds 000
Natalie♠️ @atermater.bsky.social · 29/08/2025With the exception of white supremacist hate crimes, I really have a very hard time seeing these individuals who get shot and killed as a victim. The only thing I can think is that, there is a pretty easy way to prevent shootings from happening. 000
Natalie♠️ @atermater.bsky.social · 29/08/2025If I was a cisgender man, I probably would've ensured that I would have hit a record for most victims in a mass casualty event. Being transgender strips of us this privilege. 000
Natalie♠️ @atermater.bsky.social · 29/08/2025If you think about fact that like half of transgender people attempt suicide, yet we're still underrepresented in mass shootings, shows us that we are a disempowered people. Outlets to take out our pain are stripped from us. 000
Natalie♠️ @atermater.bsky.social · 29/08/2025The fact that transgender people are underrepresented in mass shootings is transphobic. They should be overrepressnted given their position in society. 100
Natalie♠️ @atermater.bsky.social · 29/08/2025one day, always waiting for the magical day that never comes. Today never exists, it is never now, it is always tomorrow. 000
Natalie♠️ @atermater.bsky.social · 29/08/2025I would love to be taken care of, it's another thing. Having caretakers gives me a sense of safety. Although I don't know who going to take care of me. I should probably be watched over somewhat like a child or something. 120
