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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 29/05/2025

The answer is, slightly less fucked than we thought. The date has been pushed back 7 days. We have 10 days to find a place to live now

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 29/05/2025

Today we find out just how fucked we are...

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 26/05/2025

DM Dokuro fanart WIP Their music has been helping me a lot lately (especially STILL HERE) so I figurer I'd draw their OC, although I'm not sure they use this design anymore. Probably the most interesting hairstyle I've ever drawn 😊 Will finish it this week probs

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 25/05/2025

6 days remain, almost every lead we had has snapped. Time to start considering living in our cars

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 22/05/2025

10 more days remain. It's more or less over, we have a very small shot of finding a place to live, but it's not likely to work out. I do have a working car, so it's not the end of the world.

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 15/05/2025

A good thing has potentially happened. Let's see if it's pulled away at the last second... If not, I guess I'll be doing a 24 hour stream 🤷‍♀️ I'm not hopeful in the slightest, but I'll gladly do it

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 12/05/2025

Only 19 more days left in the eye of the storm. Hopefully we can all survive what's to come

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 11/05/2025

Criteria is it has to improve our situation and not be immediately overwritten/undone by another catastrophe.

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 11/05/2025

What if something good happened? That would be very cool. If anything good happens within the next 3 weeks, im going to do another 24 hour stream in July.

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 03/05/2025

Also, the rune text on the album cover does in fact say something in the rune set I made. Pay very close attention to my streams if you want to decipher it and other rune text like it :)

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 03/05/2025

I have a vocalist in mind for the vocal tracks, we just need to sit down and record sometime. I don't necessarily want invest in vocal synths because I do still want to try and learn to sing, and I feel like if I buy a bunch of synths I'll never try again. There will be no vocals on *this* album

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 03/05/2025

Demo album coming soon. It's basically an album of all the half-baked songs that I can't finish yet for one reason or another — be it knowledge or lack of singing voice. Hopefully I'll have enough finished songs for a proper album by the end of the year, but I at least wanted to do something

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 03/05/2025

Now if only I could sing... God I hate my voice so much.

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 03/05/2025

Been listening to "STILL HERE" by DM Dokuro a lot lately. It resonates a lot with me, and it's one of the reasons I'm still here in my current capacity (it's complicated). Thank you Dokuro —💜 It's important enough that we would like to cover it some day. Already learned the melody on piano.

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 29/04/2025

Staying positive is hard when things keep getting worse every day, and I've definitely slipped up a few times. I'm mostly trying to keep my negativity to myself these days, and I do think it's made me happier.

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 18/04/2025

The future is so uncertain. It could be really good, it could be really bad. The next month will determine if we're in heaven or hell. And the worst part is there's nothing that I can do about it but hope. And somehow, I still haven't lost hope. I don't think I ever will.

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 17/04/2025

Not asking for support here, although I am taking commissions. I'm gonna see about prepping a bunch of meals with cheap ingredients and see how that goes. There's no reason I should be going to bed hungry when we still have food in our pantry. This is 100% my responsibility, and I need to do better.

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 17/04/2025

Food insecurity is not fun :c Don't worry too much, we have food for now; we just can't afford easy meals anymore, and I've had trouble cooking due to fatigue & pain. I lost around 15 lbs over the last month (very bad for me), and that was kind of a wake up call that I need to try harder.

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 16/04/2025

The reference only goes to the knees, so I was kinda lost from there 😔

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 16/04/2025

Working on drawing the iconic Azula scene as practice 💖 I kinda know what I'm doing with the top half, but the bottom half is kind of a mess 😞

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 15/04/2025

Basically, our current landlords have to sell their house, so we need to leave (no exceptions), and then my partner got laid off (the sole income source) The timing is incredible Gotta stay strong, it's not time to give up yet. It's never time to give up

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 15/04/2025

Trump's stupid tarrifs may have just ruined any chance of us getting a house... We've got 1.5 months to find a new income source and a new place to live, the odds aren't looking great Thankfully, I have a lot of family that would likely take us in, so we do have safety nets at least.

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 09/04/2025

I am very high, and will surely regret posting this in the morning

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 05/04/2025

Me: I'm gonna try to be more positive The World: You sure about that? *throws a million gut punches all at once, and a stab wound for good measure* Despite everything, I'm not going back on that promise. Things are hard, but we'll get through it. Even the worst case scenario has good in it

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 05/04/2025

Here's a Pepsiman arrangement I just sorta made for fun in the lead up to my birthday stream 💖 I learned a lot making it, and it was a ton of fun, although it's just a demo. I'll polish it up and put it on my stream OST album as a bonus track in the near future. #music #pepsiman

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 03/04/2025

I've cleared this account of posts I don't think are helpful 💚 I'm starting over here 💖

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 03/04/2025

I'm purging this account of vent/negative posts; this is not how I want to present myself to the world. I'm still going to talk about my mental health struggles, but only in ways that benefit me and others. Endless self hate will get me nowhere. I'm starting over again 💖 Love y'all 💚

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 01/04/2025

The thought of streaming today is filling me with dread... It's been so long since I've been live and I think I've developed a small fear of streaming Still gonna try to do it anyway since it almost always helps in the end

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 04/03/2025

I have a serious problem with overworking myself, and my projects ballooning to overwhelming monstrosities. I don't know how to set realistic expectations for myself... I guess this is what happens when you get called lazy your whole life 😔

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 01/02/2025

I love doing things for other people and making them happy 💚 I wish I had the health/money to do volunteer work sometimes

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 01/02/2025

I hate almost every post I've made on this account 😣 I've been so stupid and pessimistic (not without good reason, but still) — 💚

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 01/02/2025

Any world in which the two people I care about most are happy is one where I could be happy 💚

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 01/02/2025

Ah, fuck it. Things are looking up, and I can't fight my surging optimism anymore. If it hurts me more in the end, then so be it. The dream of last summer is looking far less distant... And even if it doesn't look quite the same, I'll be happy with any version of that dream.

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 30/01/2025

Just to clarify, everyone involved is safe.

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 30/01/2025

There's no worse feeling than being so paralyzed by fear that you fail to help someone... I'll remember that moment forever. I forgot what true fear felt like. Even if I was doing my best, my best wasn't anywhere near enough...

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 04/01/2025

One unfortunate thing about being poly is I still might actually have to confess first one day 😨 More likely though, I'll just hide and suppress my feelings to the point that the other person will think we have no romantic interest and move on. It's happened many times. Breaking patterns is hard 😔

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 01/01/2025

Something good family-related just happened to end of the year! Absolutely wild

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 24/12/2024

I just realized that I've gotten used to being in pain all the time and I've forgotten what it's like to not be in pain... If I didn't have that constant debuff, I might actually be able to make stuff

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 21/12/2024

I'm excited to see my mom and dog, but the trip to NJ is gonna be nonstop stressful family conversions. I'll probably be dead for a month when I get back 😣

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 20/12/2024

I feel bad for talking about it, and I'm not mad at anyone, but it does kinda make me uncomfortable when people get around reply-locking by quote-posting. The few times it's happened its been well intentioned, it just... doesn't feel great. I do love getting replies 💚 just not when they're unwanted

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 08/12/2024

My brain is screaming at me that I need to lose weight before I even consider cosplaying... Guess I really haven't gotten over my eating disorder after all huh 😔

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 08/12/2024

I just want to feel good enough to work on my projects every day... I don't have time to be bedridden every few weeks I have far too much to do

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 02/12/2024

I don't think we can release it now actually; since it's a vocal driven song, there won't be much to mask the flaws in the synthesized voice. I'll still try, but it's not likely. I should be able to use vocal synths in songs with enough other instruments though

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 01/12/2024

The song is called "Time Still Remembers"; I believe we've shared it around a little bit

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 01/12/2024

Tomorrow I'm going to work on publishing a song that's very personal to me. I've had it done for 3 years, but I could never sing it. I'll probably be using a legitimate vocal synthesizer, although I'll give singing one more try.

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 30/11/2024

I am *so* insanely bad at making new friends it's unreal. Anyway, time to work on art and stuff

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 20/11/2024

I am so incredibly uslessly gay 😣 I get so flustered I can't even type correctly sometimes😭 I'm asexual, but very much NOT aromantic .///. This is a Certified Alternate Account Post™ lol

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Aru Alter 🏳️‍⚧️ @arualter.bsky.social · 09/11/2024

I'm drawing every #Terraria #Calamity boss as I beat them, here's a WIP of the Desert Scourge! For the finished pic, follow my main account: @arukanavt.bsky.social #art

A desert worm bursting fourth from the sand. There's a sunset in the background, as clouds of dust blow across the sky.

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