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Ambrosia Dawn @ambrosiandawn.bsky.social · 21h

I haven't written anything but I'm overflowing with ideas. Hopefully soon I'll have the mental space to let some of it out. I need to. I need it 🖤

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Ambrosia Dawn @ambrosiandawn.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

I've been trying to remember if I've made any progress or at least been stable so looking back to my vent posts is helpful. I have done so much. I want more

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Ambrosia Dawn @ambrosiandawn.bsky.social · 13/04/2026

Sometimes I feel like the amnesia has worn off so I'm looking down at my open ribs & my beating heart but it's fine. People tell me it's brave to endure this but I know no other way. It may concern people who aren't used to the air against one's internal organs but it's my life

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Ambrosia Dawn @ambrosiandawn.bsky.social · 30/03/2026

I don't hate you, no, I just hate that I ever cared what you thought at all

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Ambrosia Dawn @ambrosiandawn.bsky.social · 11/03/2026

Whichever Gods I pissed off: fuck you, actually, I don't deserve this

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Ambrosia Dawn @ambrosiandawn.bsky.social · 02/02/2026

If I scream melodically enough then perhaps my wounds will remain unmolested

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Ambrosia Dawn @ambrosiandawn.bsky.social · 01/02/2026

Sapphic elves are screaming heartbreak in my head. I think I have to write lest I begin screaming too

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Ambrosia Dawn @ambrosiandawn.bsky.social · 01/02/2026

I walk to the threshold and my steps crackle I look down at the shards Ah, yes, how could I forget My broken heart

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Ambrosia Dawn @ambrosiandawn.bsky.social · 30/01/2026

If you can't care for all people then what makes me think you'll always care for me as I grow and change?

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Ambrosia Dawn @ambrosiandawn.bsky.social · 23/01/2026

I'm slowly transforming the shattered pieces of my heart into art. It will be messy but hopefully the mosaic will please at least me ❤️‍🔥

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Ambrosia Dawn @ambrosiandawn.bsky.social · 23/01/2026

Sometimes I miss the people I imagined over the reality of who they were. A loving mother. A caring husband. Supportive siblings. But all of those qualities I projected into them are from inside of me. I have all that love. I can cross the veil back to reality from my other world

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Ambrosia Dawn @ambrosiandawn.bsky.social · 16/01/2026

There has to be bedrock, somewhere underneath all this sludge, it has to be down there. Shovelling buckets of pus, blood of orphans, broken bodies of babies, & the tears of every grieving soul. Even if all that remains of humanity is a marble in the centre of the Earth? I'll dig

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Ambrosia Dawn @ambrosiandawn.bsky.social · 15/01/2026

That shadow is not my dark thoughts of you. My thoughts of you are only light, belovéd, but you turn your back on luminance to contemplate your own shadow. Look to me again when you are ready to release that illusion of judgement for I have only loving patience to give ❤️‍🩹

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Ambrosia Dawn @ambrosiandawn.bsky.social · 09/01/2026

My heart twirls and saturates in the sunlight of my days. When the sun begins to set then the heartache lights like the fiery skies. Mercifully, this pain was given in the summer months where the light lingers much longer. What I will do when winter comes I have not a clue 🖤

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Ambrosia Dawn @ambrosiandawn.bsky.social · 07/01/2026

Some of those shadows I mistook for yours...were actually cast by me. I couldn't see that until I stepped back and they followed along with me

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Ambrosia Dawn @ambrosiandawn.bsky.social · 06/01/2026

At times, I truly understand why people implode their lives

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Ambrosia Dawn @ambrosiandawn.bsky.social · 23/12/2025

I'm tired of being haunted by the living

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Ambrosia Dawn @ambrosiandawn.bsky.social · 06/12/2025

I don't need you, no of course not, I'd never do something so foolish as that. But, I think, I might enjoy you. It would be nice

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Ambrosia Dawn @ambrosiandawn.bsky.social · 28/11/2025

I lend a hand, why not? I care and it's just a hand. Then it slowly becomes an arm below the elbow, then a foot, next a leg. I throw myself down that hollow tree trunk in the slow decent to wonderland then pick all the emotional shrapnel from their soul. No more shrinking myself

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Ambrosia Dawn @ambrosiandawn.bsky.social · 13/11/2025

Make the pain pretty to distract them from risking a moment's empathy 🖤

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MageVivika (NZ) ☥ Life Mage @magevivika.bsky.social · 22/09/2025

I don't think journalists should doxx people

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Ambrosia Dawn @ambrosiandawn.bsky.social · 08/09/2025

Breaking the fourth wall is the ultimate level of dissociating. It's an out of body experience that abandons immersion in the world of the story for character & audience. It's an abandoning of oneself to explain & justify our own existence. It's a begging for relief. Tragicomedy

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Ambrosia Dawn @ambrosiandawn.bsky.social · 01/09/2025

Someone said we must turn off our empathy for our abusers. I don't think so. I think we need to refocus our empathy on ourselves and their other targets. We need to dream bigger while being willing to build that world together. It's much more fulfilling than just wishing them ill

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Ambrosia Dawn @ambrosiandawn.bsky.social · 16/08/2025

I only come in freak flavour so congratulations to those with a taste for me

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Ambrosia Dawn @ambrosiandawn.bsky.social · 11/08/2025

Actually, Mister Joel, bad people can also die young

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Ambrosia Dawn @ambrosiandawn.bsky.social · 11/08/2025

Turns out being emotionally stretched is just resisting growth. Damn. I meant physically!

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Ambrosia Dawn @ambrosiandawn.bsky.social · 11/08/2025

Breaking the cycle of generational bad taste in men

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Ambrosia Dawn @ambrosiandawn.bsky.social · 10/08/2025

You seem to think my heart bleeds involuntarily I don't resist the tears that well at the suffering of others I choose this because I choose love I choose to be who I needed When I had no one if that makes me weak Then consider me the weakest lifeform ever to grace the earth ❤️‍🔥

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Ambrosia Dawn @ambrosiandawn.bsky.social · 09/08/2025

I left someone like my character named Chance. He's the hero but he's terrified. He falls in love with a girl in his magic sword. He refuses to fight. He hides & drags his heels. He's irrationally afraid of hats. I trapped myself in a sword for him & then welded myself for us 💔

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Ambrosia Dawn @ambrosiandawn.bsky.social · 07/08/2025

Do you think Prometheus eventually got used to the pain? If the Greeks believed the liver was the seat of all emotions then wouldn't he be numbed? He wouldn't feel anxious because his emotions were removed. It's effectively like total dissociation. He might not even remember it

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Ambrosia Dawn @ambrosiandawn.bsky.social · 07/08/2025

Dissociating in the liminal office space in my mind, if anyone needs me

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Ambrosia Dawn @ambrosiandawn.bsky.social · 25/07/2025

It was always more of a performative and unhinged fan fiction about the psychology of right wing figures, wasn't it? She poured milk over a cardboard cutout of grifter who just agreed to debate 20 Atheists as 1 Christian & refused to confirm if he was Christian or not. Theatric!

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Ambrosia Dawn @ambrosiandawn.bsky.social · 22/07/2025

I have invented a new turn of phrase to succinctly describe my relationship with my mother: emotional curb stomp

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Ambrosia Dawn @ambrosiandawn.bsky.social · 13/07/2025

I think about you, my friend, more than I will ever be able to express. The spell, whatever the cause, that keeps me silent is no one's fault but I do not blame you for disbelief. You cannot check my heart out of the library for casual perusing and I seldom read from it aloud ❤️‍🩹

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Ambrosia Dawn @ambrosiandawn.bsky.social · 07/07/2025

You wanted me to play a role but to improvise the script. Each correction should be eagerly embraced, oh & there were so many, without ever expressing any hint of fatigue or resisting restriction. But your direction was uninspired, grotesque, & I wish I'd rejected the role sooner

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Ambrosia Dawn @ambrosiandawn.bsky.social · 06/07/2025

I was too quiet. Too clever. Too obedient. Too strange. Too capable. Too tempting. Too insightful. Too much yet never enough. But I never believed them. I wasn't to their taste but that didn't mean I wasn't exquisite. But I believed that they were incapable of appreciating me ❤️‍🩹

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Ambrosia Dawn @ambrosiandawn.bsky.social · 28/06/2025

Something has been broken. It clatters around inside. It still works, I can wind it up, but the tune is somehow unfamiliar now. There's no way to open it to discover the broken piece and reconnect it again. If I hold still perhaps I won't notice...the something that broke

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Ambrosia Dawn @ambrosiandawn.bsky.social · 21/06/2025

If you're still suppressing that feeling in your chest, tightening your throat to resist screaming, then why? What are you saving your voice for? I suggest you speak up before they cut off our tongues

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Ambrosia Dawn @ambrosiandawn.bsky.social · 15/06/2025

They're not a snack as in a small meal that temporarily satisfies hunger between more substantial meals. No. Snack as in their present in my life sustains me on a deep level like nourishment that strengthens my bones, feeds my rushing blood, and makes my skin glow with life ❤️‍🔥

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Ambrosia Dawn @ambrosiandawn.bsky.social · 14/06/2025

It was hard for me to pay attention to the sitcom scenes because I was much more invested in the drama series style scenes. Now it feels like my memory of living in the USA is fading all the traumatic parts which means erasing an entire person - my own "Kevin". I walked away ❤️‍🩹

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It's Gnat🪰[COMMISSIONS CLOSED] @malusvermis.bsky.social · 11/06/2025

ko-fi.com/gnat friendly reminder that my job has cut my hours and I wasn't even making enough to pay my rent before the cut so if you'd like to help make my life a wee bit easier by throwing change my way I'd appreciate it. (I also posted some previously unseen art there)

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Ambrosia Dawn @ambrosiandawn.bsky.social · 05/06/2025

The pixie dust of life dances around my upturned hands. There's no grasping it, I don't try, as I marvel in delight. I cannot feel fearful of losing these sparkles because they never belonged to me. I am only borrowing this flesh from the gracious universe herself. I cannot stay

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