iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

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this is super nerdy to say but AI is kind of like 1:1 with the happy boxes from mother 3. it resembles tv but actually isn't, theyre just flashing colors on a screen that act as jingling keys injected by big Pigmask artificially into an unknowing populace

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AmazingAnndroid (check pinned) @amazingandroid.bsky.social · 6m

I’m half tempted to join just to see how bad this goes

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AmazingAnndroid (check pinned) @amazingandroid.bsky.social · 2h

We’ve got this now bsky.app/profile/nint...

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Vee Kitzora (V-KIT) 🦊👾 @vee-kitzora.bsky.social · 5h

Hiii yapping and then Silent Hill Townfall for scary game month!! I hope it isn't too scary x_x link here!! www.twitch.tv/veekitzora

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AmazingAnndroid (check pinned) @amazingandroid.bsky.social · 5h

I put on the fairy that starts with an ability that revives you when you die and Ive been trying to learn the system to get the most use out of that fairy but I just get confused or get frustrated because the game didn’t tell me the necessary information to do what I wanted and I’d learn it too late

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AmazingAnndroid (check pinned) @amazingandroid.bsky.social · 6h

It just doesn’t feel like I’m being given the information I need by the game, I’ve had to look up stuff on wikis to learn a lot of this

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AmazingAnndroid (check pinned) @amazingandroid.bsky.social · 6h

But like, how am I supposed to know what element a food for a fairy is? I can’t find anything that tells me what it is. And not being able to change the elemental abilities I get from eating food after they’ve been set unless I max out the fairy’s level and reset her back to level 1

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AmazingAnndroid (check pinned) @amazingandroid.bsky.social · 6h

The my fairy system in Hyrule Warriors feels too complicated to keep track of, but I also know it probably isn’t actually as complicated as it feels like it is

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DimentioMinion|February 18th, 2027 📺🎭 @dimentiominion.bsky.social · 6h

Tonight at 9 PM EST we will be continuing DELTARUNE!! I hope to see you there!!

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AmazingAnndroid (check pinned) @amazingandroid.bsky.social · 7h

I’m feeling good enough now though to try to do some stuff to make sure I’m ready for an appointment I have in a few hours

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AmazingAnndroid (check pinned) @amazingandroid.bsky.social · 9h

I think a significant part what’s making me feel so bad is jealousy. I see people who’s streams have taken off in less than a year or two and I just wish I had a taste of that success

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AmazingAnndroid (check pinned) @amazingandroid.bsky.social · 9h

I’m feeling a little better than last night, but not by that much

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AmazingAnndroid (check pinned) @amazingandroid.bsky.social · 9h

I need to get that record I have of them out of storage to properly check what songs are on it

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AmazingAnndroid (check pinned) @amazingandroid.bsky.social · 16h

I need to look into it because the title alone has already sold me

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Evil Con Fettie @spacebeer.net · 22h

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shy's video folder @shyvideos.bsky.social · 21h

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AmazingAnndroid (check pinned) @amazingandroid.bsky.social · 17h

I’m also scared of reaching a realization that streaming just isn’t worth it for me anymore, because if I do come to that conclusion then I don’t really have much of anything left to fall back on doing

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AmazingAnndroid (check pinned) @amazingandroid.bsky.social · 17h

I think I might do this. I’ve considered taking a break before but a part of me worries that it’ll just end up with me having nobody to come back to when I start streaming again, even if I logically know there’s still going to be at least a few people who want to watch when they can.

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AmazingAnndroid (check pinned) @amazingandroid.bsky.social · 17h

I just wish I could have a guarantee that whenever I go live I won’t spend that stream alone with nobody there to interact with. Every stream where the only people there are bots just wears on my psyche more and more, even if those streams make up only like a twentieth of the streams I’ve had in the

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AmazingAnndroid (check pinned) @amazingandroid.bsky.social · 17h

I know it’s mostly luck, but having so many people I know start what I’ve already been doing and get so much luckier than me just makes it hard to keep going

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AmazingAnndroid (check pinned) @amazingandroid.bsky.social · 17h

with things like my entire medical journey since I had to go home early from school that fateful day because I felt insanely dizzy become something that’s draining to keep doing and something where I mainly feel inadequacy and jealousy whenever I think about it feels like a support beam is gone

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AmazingAnndroid (check pinned) @amazingandroid.bsky.social · 17h

And also streaming has been something that’s grounded me during times where I felt far less uncertain about my life and future than I am now, and now I’m still at the point where I have no idea what to do outside of the immediate future and that terrifies me. Having the thing that’s helped me cope

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AmazingAnndroid (check pinned) @amazingandroid.bsky.social · 17h

And nowadays when I’m at the point of having streams where less than 5 messages are sent in chat over several hours have become common again, it just gets harder to keep trying. I’ve always done best when there’s someone there to bounce off of, so every time I’m alone on stream it’s a completely

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AmazingAnndroid (check pinned) @amazingandroid.bsky.social · 17h

Another thing though is that those heights that I wish I could get back to aren’t even very high. It’s stuff like having 5 people who are in chat for more than 10-15 minutes at most. The fact that the peak I struggle to reach again is something so modest makes it hurt more

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AmazingAnndroid (check pinned) @amazingandroid.bsky.social · 17h

me, a desire I’ve always had to do ever since I was little, when there was nobody who both understood and cared about what I wanted to show them and talk about with them. When it was always just one or the other, if either of them at all.

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AmazingAnndroid (check pinned) @amazingandroid.bsky.social · 17h

And there’s still that part of me that streams for the reason I started streaming, when I was just doing it in voice channels on discord servers my friends had, before I even had my own server that I streamed in, and that’s just showing people stuff I care about. Showing people things that matter to

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AmazingAnndroid (check pinned) @amazingandroid.bsky.social · 17h

passionate about that can even sort of have the chance to do that, and the more time passes the more that it looks like the possibility of doing something my heart is in as a way to survive is something unattainable.

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AmazingAnndroid (check pinned) @amazingandroid.bsky.social · 17h

And also part of what makes things demoralizing is that despite knowing the chances of it ever happening are ridiculously slim, I’ve always kinda hoped to eventually be able to somewhat support myself by streaming, yknow? It’s the only thing I haven’t fully lost the chance to do that I’m still

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AmazingAnndroid (check pinned) @amazingandroid.bsky.social · 18h

Part of the thing is that even then, almost all of the people who watched me for me have just stopped at one point or another. There’s not a single person who watched my streams pre 2024 who has shown up to any stream I’ve had in the past 18 months

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AmazingAnndroid (check pinned) @amazingandroid.bsky.social · 18h

I feel like a failure when it comes to one of the things I’ve been most passionate about, and considering how most of the other things I’ve been passionate about have ended up with me being indisputably a failure or just having any opportunities taken from me, it hurts and scares me

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AmazingAnndroid (check pinned) @amazingandroid.bsky.social · 18h

My life isn’t going to go back to what it was like then completely, unless the rug just gets pulled out from under me again, but I’m desperately trying to avoid any part of my life returning to what it was like during that time

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