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♡ (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) ♡ (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) ♡ @allthatyouchange.bsky.social · 09/10/2026

i’m noticing that Milkman doesn’t feel aged? like he’s soooo….immature and kinda like really just a dull guy. he doesn’t really seem to have much opinions on anything. i don’t say that to say he’s not well written. i say it to say that compared to everyone else in his life…he seems hollow

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♡ (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) ♡ (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) ♡ @allthatyouchange.bsky.social · 09/10/2026

i’m also the type of reader that likes to sit and marinate on the book im reading after i put it down. like i’ll read a chapter or a few pages and then i’ll sit the book down and process everything.

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♡ (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) ♡ (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) ♡ @allthatyouchange.bsky.social · 09/10/2026

almost halfway through Song of Solomon and i’m really just proud of myself for sticking to it. i really want to finish this book this year. i feel like if i made more time to read it i’d be done by now but this book is really triggering at parts so im taking my time

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♡ (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) ♡ (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) ♡ @allthatyouchange.bsky.social · 09/10/2026

part of me wants to get on the other website (twitter) because i miss my mutuals there but i can’t stand elon musk and that cesspool of a website

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♡ (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) ♡ (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) ♡ @allthatyouchange.bsky.social · 09/10/2026

i have that the black&trans feed is just full of porn like wtf is this website

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♡ (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) ♡ (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) ♡ @allthatyouchange.bsky.social · 09/10/2026

i’m also just sad i lost my best eaterrr like damn i just want some head lmfaoooooooo

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♡ (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) ♡ (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) ♡ @allthatyouchange.bsky.social · 09/10/2026

i am very anxious in love. i fear neglect, i fear abandonment, i fear the *potentiality* of being abused. i build relationships anxiously. if i meet this person’s every single need then they will never abandon me, harm or abuse me right? WRONG! because i need to allow people to show up for me too.

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♡ (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) ♡ (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) ♡ @allthatyouchange.bsky.social · 09/10/2026

i usually discard myself in relationships. i become too consumed in the relationship. i scramble to fix any problems seen and unseen. i scramble to find solutions instead of sitting in discomfort. i get anxious during conflict and end up invalidating my own feelings and apologizing for them.

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♡ (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) ♡ (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) ♡ @allthatyouchange.bsky.social · 09/10/2026

idk i’m more so just experiencing grief because i realize that he isn’t who i thought he was. i imagined a future together with him but i failed to be present and see his flaws. i avoided the pain i was experiencing and invalidated my own feelings to make my relationship with him work

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♡ (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) ♡ (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) ♡ @allthatyouchange.bsky.social · 09/10/2026

sad posting on bluesky once more trying to process this heartbreak

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tamara nopper @tamaranopper.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

Octavia E. Butler described Toni Cade Bambara as "probably incapable of sitting back and saying, 'Someone ought to do something about that!' whatever 'that' might be. She just goes out and does it." Like Bambara said, "The most effective way to do it, is to do it."

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♡ (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) ♡ (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) ♡ @allthatyouchange.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

reading Song of Solomon by Toni Morrison and oh my fucking god what did i just read

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♡ (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) ♡ (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) ♡ @allthatyouchange.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

saturday i get my ps4 back from the hag’s lair. im bout to play so much elden ring

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♡ (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) ♡ (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) ♡ @allthatyouchange.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

i’m just genuinely over it like not *over* it but accepting it. i deserved better. not that you didn’t deserve my love. not that i didn’t deserve yours. i just deserved better. we deserved better. it’s okay if you need to find that in someone else. i hope you do. i hope i do too.

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♡ (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) ♡ (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) ♡ @allthatyouchange.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

love is an action love is a verb love is a reaction love is a reverb

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♡ (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) ♡ (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) ♡ @allthatyouchange.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

i don’t want to live in a world where mistakes can’t be made and im not allowed to be human. im allowed to change my mind. your confusion is not my responsibility. you need to ask questions instead of demanding me to provide you with clarity.

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♡ (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) ♡ (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) ♡ @allthatyouchange.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

darkness is not evil wickedness is not either none of us are perfect none of are pure we are all born in sin doesn’t God love the devil too? God has the power to rid of the devil yet she keeps the devil alive because the devil is also God’s sin and inside us, just like God the devil lives inside

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♡ (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) ♡ (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) ♡ @allthatyouchange.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

i love odd numbers, ugly things, scary things, hated things

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♡ (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) ♡ (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) ♡ @allthatyouchange.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

i just can’t wait to have my own apartment again and have some much needed solitude for another good 3 years

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♡ (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) ♡ (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) ♡ @allthatyouchange.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

i don’t have to pray on anyone’s downfall because i know we are all human. you are human and it’s a guarantee that one day you will die. that’s enough to know for me to be happy.

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♡ (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) ♡ (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) ♡ @allthatyouchange.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

y’know i fantasized for almost 3 decades about what my first romantic relationship would be like…i never thought to fantasize the grief i would feel after we broke haha better luck next time

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♡ (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) ♡ (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) ♡ @allthatyouchange.bsky.social · 11/09/2026

i will “never forget” that this country is responsible for the deaths of MILLIONS of children, women and men. somalia, palestine, the democratic republic of the congo, haiti, cuba, this country itself and so many more lives lost.

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♡ (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) ♡ (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) ♡ @allthatyouchange.bsky.social · 11/09/2026

/srs 9/11 this. 9/11 that. how about yall dress to the 9’s and read the names of more than 11 million lives lost in this country and in others that america is responsible for

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♡ (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) ♡ (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) ♡ @allthatyouchange.bsky.social · 11/09/2026

the trump supporters going on racist tangents on the news during this 9/11 name reading omg 😭 this country has (been) lost it

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♡ (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) ♡ (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) ♡ @allthatyouchange.bsky.social · 09/09/2026

like imma be okay. it’s going to be okay. i know this is just a learning experience. i know that i am worthy of love but wow i am so incredibly heartbroken and sad. i just wanted to be loved :( i just want to be loved. all i ever want is love

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♡ (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) ♡ (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) ♡ @allthatyouchange.bsky.social · 09/09/2026

i need a nigga that is going to protect me. a nigga that is confident in himself. a nigga that knows himself and his worth. a nigga that doesn’t stay in unhealthy relationships. a nigga that fights his own battles. weak, enabling niggas begone. that goes for ME too.

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♡ (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) ♡ (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) ♡ @allthatyouchange.bsky.social · 09/09/2026

i’m just so disgusted that i let this bitch touch me, kiss me, have access to my thoughts, my feelings, my love, ewwwwww

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♡ (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) ♡ (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) ♡ @allthatyouchange.bsky.social · 09/09/2026

i just…idk….im so lost right now like there’s a million thoughts and feelings running through my mind. i simultaneously miss you and still care but at the same time im angry and damn near fucking hate you. i don’t want to hate you. this just feels wrong and i need you to acknowledge that you hurt me

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♡ (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) ♡ (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) ♡ @allthatyouchange.bsky.social · 09/09/2026

i need a hug im so sad like why did i waste so much time with someone like this???? what was the point of going through this??? did all our love mean nothing to you??? i’m sure you feel the same about me

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♡ (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) ♡ (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) ♡ @allthatyouchange.bsky.social · 09/09/2026

like i know behind the anger im feeling is a deep sense of loneliness, grief, desperation and heartbreak but i just want to be angry right now like i’m so upset

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♡ (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) ♡ (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) ♡ @allthatyouchange.bsky.social · 09/09/2026

like i’ve truly never have had this much rage in my spirit, my heart, my body. i am ANGRY.

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♡ (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) ♡ (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) ♡ @allthatyouchange.bsky.social · 09/09/2026

truly very done being kind to people who don’t deserve my kindness. done being curious to mfs who don’t deserve my curiosity. i am dee oh en ee. DONE. finna start wishing death on mfs AAAAHHHHH

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♡ (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) ♡ (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) ♡ @allthatyouchange.bsky.social · 09/09/2026

i can’t wait for friday where i yell at my therapist for an hour because of how incredibly fucking angry i am

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♡ (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) ♡ (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) ♡ @allthatyouchange.bsky.social · 10/03/2026

realizing how much of my 3 and half year long depression bout was just gender dysphoria

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♡ (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) ♡ (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) ♡ @allthatyouchange.bsky.social · 10/03/2026

oh i just updated my bsky app…there’s DRAFTS???? WE UP !!!

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