Allerae (Jessica) @allerae.bsky.social · 13/08/2026The bleach OC stuff has been good for my writing in some ways. I think it’s making me a bit better at being aware of tone, pacing, balancing description vs. action/dialogue, etc. and things like how a thing is introduced to quickly show what a person or thing is like. 110
Allerae (Jessica) @allerae.bsky.social · 10/08/2026Two other people have now read the Sparkle smut I’m still editing (lol) and got turned on by it. Pretty nice feeling to have someone react how you want to something you make 110
Allerae (Jessica) @allerae.bsky.social · 07/08/2026I’ve been distracted with many other things including making a video game just for my girlfriend, making a discord server and doing solo ttrpg stuff with Bleach OCs. I’ve been considering whether I should post the ttrpg journal anywhere but I’m conflicted about it. 120
Allerae (Jessica) @allerae.bsky.social · 06/07/2026So I ended up second guessing the Soi Fon sketches I planned to do after the last one, partially because I missed pride month (one was for pride), but I came up with a new concept I want to do with her. May end up being a fully rendered piece though since I like the concept a lot 110
Allerae (Jessica) @allerae.bsky.social · 29/06/2026Haven’t had a lot of time for creative stuff because I’m trying to prioritize a social life lately but I have been getting back to things a bit. 110
Allerae (Jessica) @allerae.bsky.social · 27/06/2026I’ve been adjusting some of my original stories. They were almost entirely based on what I would think is cute/cool/hot. Im pushing more of my life experience into things and its at least making things feel more me and interesting to me when its not about girls being gay in that moment 110
Allerae (Jessica) @allerae.bsky.social · 19/06/2026I think reflecting on certain idealized archetypes for characters has led me to realize that these idealizations often don’t leave much room for these characters to act with a full range of what a person should be allowed to act like 120
Allerae (Jessica) @allerae.bsky.social · 15/06/2026I feel so bad at everything thing creative sometimes so intensely. I wish I had the time to do it all day every day until I felt I was good at things 020
Allerae (Jessica) @allerae.bsky.social · 15/06/2026finished the first soi fon sketch i planned to do- spent longer than i planned on it (3 hours instead of 1) but still much faster than my previous things (both >10 hours). going to upload in a couple of hours if i don't hate it after not looking at it for a while 110
Allerae (Jessica) @allerae.bsky.social · 13/06/2026Practicing line confidence, particularly for sketches. My 10 min sketches after some line confidence exercises look better than my 1 hour or so sketch for kafka. Going to aim to start my first soi fon sketch tomorrow if I can find a few hours to practice more 120
Allerae (Jessica) @allerae.bsky.social · 10/06/2026Have a good amount of things I want to practice after working on that, so I plan for my next 3 drawings to be quick (maybe roughly colored) sketches with practice in between before doing another more detailed rendered thing 120
Allerae (Jessica) @allerae.bsky.social · 09/06/2026I didn’t flip the canvas earlier and had a bunch of things to fix- this sucks. I fixed a couple; I see more but I’m going to ignore them because this is becoming endless 010
Allerae (Jessica) @allerae.bsky.social · 08/06/2026None of my planned stories have a loser, docile, pathetic masc lesbian lead. This is terrible. Best I have is a loser pathetic fem lesbian lead I’ll try to come up with something 010
Allerae (Jessica) @allerae.bsky.social · 08/06/2026I may finally be done with this thing. I'm going to wait a couple of hours at least - but if i still think it looks fine i'll post it later then 110
Allerae (Jessica) @allerae.bsky.social · 08/06/2026Rendering different parts on different layers is so convenient. I often won’t notice until I’m done with a part that the hue, saturation, or luminosity is off against the rest of the image- but I can just put that in a folder with a correction layer and it’s good now 110
Allerae (Jessica) @allerae.bsky.social · 07/06/2026This painting taking so long when I ended up having this mood change is annoying. I’d rather work on fast easy things when I don’t have so much motivation- but I want to finish this thing. Frustratingly rendering the hair and Stelle’s arm will probably take another few hours going by my current pace 110
Allerae (Jessica) @allerae.bsky.social · 07/06/2026I’ve been so depressed the past few days that I’ve made little progress on anything. I forced myself to spend a total of 1 hour on art in the last two days- so that’s too bad 110
Allerae (Jessica) @allerae.bsky.social · 05/06/2026Think I’ll start making art about negative feelings in addition to gay stuff- desire to express the bad parts of my life in some way - past and present. A lot of my stories and art are based on fantasies and desires- which do relate to trauma and mental health things indirectly but don’t center it 110
Allerae (Jessica) @allerae.bsky.social · 01/06/2026I don’t understand why when I’m drawing I sometimes think it’s awful but later think it isn’t that bad and then other times i think it’s okay but later think it’s terrible 010
Allerae (Jessica) @allerae.bsky.social · 01/06/2026I feel like such a bad artist who can’t do anything, ask why am I doing this, etc. etc. when I try making something original and struggle with getting something to look right. It’s easy when practicing and it has issues since I don’t care about the results very much 110
Allerae (Jessica) @allerae.bsky.social · 31/05/2026I’m happy how the art is coming out actually- despite it being taking 2x longer than I’d like it to take. I really want to get back to writing though. Maybe once I finish this I’ll try to focus on that- I’ve been so fixated on drawing this past week 010
Allerae (Jessica) @allerae.bsky.social · 30/05/2026Spent a total of 13 hours on my current drawing rough sketch: 1.5 hours (had no idea what to do with the hands) Initial line art: 6.5 hours (trouble getting shoulders and hands to look right even with multiple references and the rough sketch) Clean line art: 5 hours :( 120
Allerae (Jessica) @allerae.bsky.social · 29/05/2026I’ve been fixated on drawing so much that my writing has barely moved- to be fair I’m plotting my next story still. it’s become so long… it’s 9 planned chapters and the main barrier to the romance hasn’t even been worked past 110
Allerae (Jessica) @allerae.bsky.social · 28/05/2026Disatisfaction with my art has pushed me to push faster toward making a new thing- so I can put up something I like more on here- to feel like I’m less bad. I have the sketch done. Hopefully the steps after go faster than last time. I don’t want these to take 12 hours each 110
Allerae (Jessica) @allerae.bsky.social · 26/05/2026Only started doing art again in the last few weeks after a decade or so (so I'm not too good), but I made this over the weekend (img contains girl bulge) 110
Allerae (Jessica) @allerae.bsky.social · 26/05/2026Going to start posting my art here since I'm trying to make a finished piece a week, and may as well post them even if they somewhat suck. A decent portion of it will be NSFW probably, like my writing 010
Allerae (Jessica) @allerae.bsky.social · 17/05/2026Went from my 2nd to 5th draft today- although my 3rd was the last long one and I didn’t have much left to go when I started last night. I’m glad to see that each pass has gotten faster since i was worried each could be as long as my 2 week 1st-> 2nd draft editing pass 110
Allerae (Jessica) @allerae.bsky.social · 12/05/2026Finished my second draft of the story. Hooray. Unsure if I should expand the epilogue or not- it’s fairly shallow but its purpose is not really to be a full scene so I’m hesitant to add to it when it feels beside the point and like it’d get repetitive since the actions are similar to the main scene 110
Allerae (Jessica) @allerae.bsky.social · 11/05/2026Also it’s >5000 words now which feels a bit exciting to me. That’s the length of smut I feel like I prefer to read in terms of on the shorter end so I’m glad it ended up being about that length. I expect it’ll get a bit longer still as I edit the epilogue and go back over the rest a bit more 110
Allerae (Jessica) @allerae.bsky.social · 11/05/2026I’m surprised such a basic story has taken me so long. it’s mostly 1 long sex scene and somehow it ended up taking this long. I imagine my average scene will be a lot shorter than this, since I won’t care to describe as much 110
Allerae (Jessica) @allerae.bsky.social · 05/05/2026I feel a lot better about my story atm after editing >50% of it. Added a bunch of stuff that I think makes it a lot more appealing to me at least. I guess it makes sense that sex may feel flat until I come back to do detailed descriptions 110
Allerae (Jessica) @allerae.bsky.social · 27/04/2026I’m still editing my story- bleh. It’s going very slowly. It’s fun to do but I feel less confident in the story being what I wanted originally as I go. I haven’t actually read all I wrote in one go yet though because I can’t read long before I want to fix something 110
Allerae (Jessica) @allerae.bsky.social · 16/04/2026I don’t know if I’ll write fanfic for my favorite ships- at least besides as background pairings- since I think my favorites are mostly very popular. At least so far. If I can find things I want to read that are adjacent to what I want I don’t feel a need to write it 110
Allerae (Jessica) @allerae.bsky.social · 16/04/2026I appreciate when sapphics online are somewhat open about their sexuality- in terms of expressing how something turns them on or expressing fantasies or whatever else. I have a lot of residual shame over my sexuality- much much better than when I was younger- but very much present 110
Allerae (Jessica) @allerae.bsky.social · 15/04/2026I’m close to done with the first story I’ll be putting online. It’s the first complete story I’ve written in many years so I’ve learned a lot in the process. I’m currently doing the first editing pass- after a few passes of that and having my gf read it for feedback I’ll be putting it on ao3 110
Allerae (Jessica) @allerae.bsky.social · 26/02/2026Writing is fun and getting easier. It’s too bad it took so many years for me to figure out how to enjoy it 110
Allerae (Jessica) @allerae.bsky.social · 24/02/2026#eulamber in the bedroom ❤️ comm drawn by @zuuzurumon.bsky.social 150
Allerae (Jessica) @allerae.bsky.social · 07/10/2025The more I write my story the less I feel like the erotic elements that started as the point matters as much to me. I think it’s good to see that I can care about writing something for other reasons considering that was the starting motivation 130
Reposted by Allerae (Jessica)Ryuichi @ryuichikung.bsky.social · 28/05/2025The pink fox gives a big trophy to her charming pitcher🏆💖 #eimiko 012329
Reposted by Allerae (Jessica)Jouhou @01jouhou.bsky.social · 17/04/2025🦊🐺with lubricant & gauze #feikong 311627