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Ayla (creature) @ahm-araeng.bsky.social · 2h

bank account hit negative because of subscription stuff I forgot to cancel and I’m going to have to spend about $130 for medication soon

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Reisen Overdrive Dance

ALT: Reisen Overdrive Dance

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Ayla (creature) @ahm-araeng.bsky.social · 3h

looked back at posts here and it’s weird seeing stuff that feels like it was a few days ago be from two weeks ago my mind has been Messed Up lately

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Ayla (creature) @ahm-araeng.bsky.social · 4h

uh oh my crippling fear of asking for help is making me feel shut down again

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Ayla (creature) @ahm-araeng.bsky.social · 4h

looked at family Facebook and ough

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Ayla (creature) @ahm-araeng.bsky.social · 4h

Considering asking my dad for money so I can get my medicine and stuff so that I can use my own money for other beneficial things but, he still doesn’t know I quit my job I brought up how I was feeling about my job when I was already in my last two weeks and he urged me not to quit, but

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Mentha Nolana @mentha.fun · 03/10/2026

Commission

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Ayla (creature) @ahm-araeng.bsky.social · 6h

I’ve always felt like I’m constantly fighting with my subconscious on doing things Like I’m constantly thinking about stuff I want to do but something in the back of my mind is always coming up with some excuse not to and I get stuck all the time

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Basil 🌱 @basil-mage.bsky.social · 30/08/2026

Puppy and flower

Drawing of a puppy and a flower with the caption; "You deserve a life you aren't constantly recovering from"

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Ayla (creature) @ahm-araeng.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

Maybe weird request but, can anyone maybe start checking in with me daily? I think I’d maybe feel more motivated to do stuff if it meant I didn’t have to personally tell someone that I did absolutely nothing for days in a row

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Ayla (creature) @ahm-araeng.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

What do I do to motivate myself to get up!!!!! The majority of the time I’m ever motivated for anything is when anyone else is involved but I feel like I can’t do anything without any push from someone and that’s baddddd

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Ayla (creature) @ahm-araeng.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

I hate how hard it is for me to pull myself away from things sometimes I shouldn’t be wasting time on

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Ayla (creature) @ahm-araeng.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

Probably gotta punish myself somehow when I don’t do the things I want to do but things already suck so idk what I can do lol

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Ayla (creature) @ahm-araeng.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

woke up early then fell back asleep twice and now that I’m out of bed I’m uuuuuu

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Ayla (creature) @ahm-araeng.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

dilemma of wanting to start a new game soon but I don’t want to put that off until I get some of the stuff I need to do done first but I’ve kinda already done my Thing for the day and it’s late so idk what to do now lol

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Ayla (creature) @ahm-araeng.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

had fun hanging out in a call today yayyyyy

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Ayla (creature) @ahm-araeng.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

saw this and,,, wow being loved like this is literally exactly how I’ve fantasized ever since I was a kid but my parents never really actually cared :(

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Ayla (creature) @ahm-araeng.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

Had like multiple dreams about being in school/college again but I just kept falling behind and failing everything again because I kept struggling to keep up and focus

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Ayla (creature) @ahm-araeng.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

Part of my desk broke so really hope I can actually get the new one built really soon

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Ayla (creature) @ahm-araeng.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

I really want something like this, it’s hard for me to sit in regular chairs comfortably

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Ayla (creature) @ahm-araeng.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

maybe I shouldn’t have expected to feel well on my first day back on adderall but I’m still upset about it

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Ayla (creature) @ahm-araeng.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

I really need better ways to motivate myself It’s too easy for me to just sit unfocused unless I have anything to push me

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Ayla (creature) @ahm-araeng.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

idk which task I want to focus on today

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Ayla (creature) @ahm-araeng.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

Had a dream last night that a fire forced me to move yet again

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Ayla (creature) @ahm-araeng.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

Finally got a message back from doctor to just keep taking the adderall until they can get me another appointment sooner Hope I can manage it better this time, need to try to watch myself better since it’s actually hard for me to remember how I was feeling on days where nothing happened

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Ayla (creature) @ahm-araeng.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

I keep craving snacks too much I need to get like one of those huge bulk boxes of chips

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Ayla (creature) @ahm-araeng.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

I get too distracted by livestreams sometimes Hard for me to focus on anything else when wanna be engaged with stream, especially friends I chat more

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Ayla (creature) @ahm-araeng.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

Finally cleaning again It shouldn’t have taken me this long to get started

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Ayla (creature) @ahm-araeng.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

Awake early, hope I can maybe actually do stuff with that instead of how recently I’ve been getting out of bed past noon then feeling upset when the end of the day quickly approaches

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Ayla (creature) @ahm-araeng.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

weird feelings seeing the way people act about people who have been called out for doing awful stuff Just with like, the way I’ve been treated like that before, except that I’ve never actually tried to hurt anyone But I got treated like I was evil anyway

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Ayla (creature) @ahm-araeng.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

Remember how I wanted to just have a week off of everything when I quit my job and now it’s almost a whole month later

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Ayla (creature) @ahm-araeng.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

Finally checked my bank account again and, yeah I’m out of money :( I can still get some stuff from my old credit card but

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Ayla (creature) @ahm-araeng.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

had to call the police people are fighting outside with one person screaming for someone to call them

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topaz 💎 @topaz.sex · 29/09/2026

conversing with yourself

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Ayla (creature) @ahm-araeng.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

What if I just hurt myself more by finally getting myself to talk to K again If she would even let me

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Ayla (creature) @ahm-araeng.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

Desperately need someone that cares here with me physically I can’t keep being alone here

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Ayla (creature) @ahm-araeng.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

feel like I should cry about things but my head is doing it’s usual thing of trying hard to suppress emotions so I’m just stuck feeling weird and anxious

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Ayla (creature) @ahm-araeng.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

A thought that very frequently crosses my mind when I think about old friends “I’ll talk to them again when I feel like I’m a good enough person to talk to again” And it’s been so long now since I’ve felt good enough for anything besides horny stuff, I’ve just grown more distant over time……………….

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Ayla (creature) @ahm-araeng.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

literally the only picture in my camera roll that was in between that photo and screenshot I just shared on main was one of the drawings K did for me and oughhhhhhhhh

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Ayla (creature) @ahm-araeng.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

was watching BNA last night and thought about pulling it up again until I remembered the last episode I watched ended with a whole thing of, long-term close friend revealing reasons they’ve always hated them and thinking of that more and how I can relate to it and 🙁

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Ayla (creature) @ahm-araeng.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

Really want snacks but idk if I feel comfortable going out right now

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Ayla (creature) @ahm-araeng.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

My head is actually feeling abysmally terrible now and I wish I knew how to feel better right now

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Ayla (creature) @ahm-araeng.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

I called doctor office this morning about medication and they told me they would have someone call me back and :(

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Ayla (creature) @ahm-araeng.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

Head hurty :( Medicine probably a factor but the huge storm due to be here tonight probably isn’t helping either

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