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Stream Cancel Reason #27 - Fell into a depression spiral so bad I couldn't stop crying and I am too anxious about sounding sad to stream cute games.

FR - the dressmaker is genderless, too, so this game can be played by everyone. I noted while playing on stream the other day that the gloved hand that represents you doesn't really have a masculine or feminine form - it's just a really gorgeous glove. (tldr, agreement bc this game is so good)

Going to start being real honest when my physical health prevents me from streaming "not feeling well"? Nah. "I took my meds and they hit so hard I was violently throwing up and now my throat is sore and swollen" yes. "Had a headache?" Mmm, how about "Migraine so bad I can't speak".

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I have full intentions of doing art and playing more Dressmaker on stream tonight after errands - fingers crossed I can physically do it! Wheeeeee

Azrai @theazrai.com · 22/09/2026

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It’s just a 5 minute art tutorial, but life kept me from posting creative videos like this on YouTube for YEARS. The only reason I can do this at all is because kind strangers offered us a rent-free space in their home while we recover. Starving artists just starve. Supported artists create. 💚

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Cheating at art is fine actually.

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It's Really Aevan @aevan.bsky.social · 11/09/2026

The exhaustion is bone deep, fam.

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It's Really Aevan @aevan.bsky.social · 10/09/2026

Recording little alarms for people is so much fun fr

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It's Really Aevan @aevan.bsky.social · 09/09/2026

ko-fi.com/aevan/commis... I did add a few things to my commissions page... Need a meds alarm? wake up message? sleepy time audio? (keep it PG Please, I don't do 18+ Content >_> )

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It's Really Aevan @aevan.bsky.social · 09/09/2026

if someone tells you about a thing they really enjoy and have been spending a lot of time lately Doing That Thing (IE, a video game) don't tell them they're addicted and should stop playing???? All you've done is ensure they'll never share their interests with you ever again~

It's Really Aevan @aevan.bsky.social · 09/09/2026

beep boop - heard from the mechanic - grand total: Car Rental - 449.43 Car Repairs - 659.09 We can comfortably cover about 300 of that-Mutual Aid Request total is 808.52 ko-fi.com/aevan help is never required/always appreciated & ILU even if all you can send is a funny gif to keep my spirits up <3

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home with rental car - will not know more until tomorrow. i sleep now.

Ahaha disregard. The deposit is 300, with 50/day for the rental. And 220 to tow. But at least I'll be able to go home soon *stressed robot noises* Www.Ko-fi.com/aevan

Getting car towed to mechanic. Mechanic appt tomorrow morning. Getting rental car. Current expenses: 220 - tow 50 - down-payment on rental Will know tomorrow how much the repairs are.

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Awake and calling around for places that can help, tenative plan in effect but I have to wait an hour and a half to find out what my next steps are. I want to be back home so bad fr.

Steams Remote play has been a sanity saver. Being able to play the sorting bureau from my friends couch is keeping things manageable in the way of anxiety and panic.

It's Really Aevan @aevan.bsky.social · 07/09/2026

Link me your favorite YT videos to watch while I try not to spiral into an emotional panic today

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It's Really Aevan @aevan.bsky.social · 07/09/2026

Ahahahhaa it never ends. Mutual Aid Request - Emergency. Our one and only vehicle has fully died in a fast food parking lot, we have no other means of transport and i am crashing on a couch tonight. I won't know true cost until tomorrow bc every mechanic is closed today. ko-fi.com/aevan

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It's Really Aevan @aevan.bsky.social · 05/09/2026

You know it was a good time if you wake up thinking about the people you spent 4 hours playing doodle hide and seek with last night. When can do more games? Does compute. Added to long term memory stores.

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It's Really Aevan @aevan.bsky.social · 04/09/2026

FRIENDSHIP FRIDAY! @noxleigh.bsky.social @theastralbard.bsky.social @eliasar.bsky.social sky.social and @ribbetrabbit.bsky.social and the hidden gator @cutmarrow.bsky.social TUNE IN twitch.tv/aevanplays also go sub to my YT so i can be free from twitch www.youtube.com/@Aevan_Plays

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It's Really Aevan @aevan.bsky.social · 04/09/2026

Yes I do have DaD issues. My issue is that I'm not playing Dead As Disco right now.

It's Really Aevan @aevan.bsky.social · 04/09/2026

Playing Dead As Disco gives me serotonin.

It's Really Aevan @aevan.bsky.social · 03/09/2026

youtube.com/@aevan_plays... Release me from twitch - 500 subs on YT and I can live stream there instead.

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It's Really Aevan @aevan.bsky.social · 03/09/2026

I would fr love it if everyone just went and subbed on YT, its free and it would release me from Twitch hell bc I can stream there instead. The latest opt out bullshit ideas twitch has is one of the main reasons I have not been streaming as much. Wtf are these gifs now???

It's Really Aevan @aevan.bsky.social · 03/09/2026

In Finding Nemo ...the sharks do not eat fish, bc fish are friends not food....does that imply they are man-eating sharks?

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It's Really Aevan @aevan.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

Remember when movies were intense but didn't kill off any good/main characters? Like Twister - kept you worried about the lovable cast but the only people that died were the "bad guys".

It's Really Aevan @aevan.bsky.social · 21/08/2026

insomnia is apparently good for my creative process???

screen cap of an android vtuber in with the aevan plays purple hair and pink eyes

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𝓷ℴ𝔁.⋆𐕣 @noxleigh.bsky.social · 20/08/2026

Creature Kitchen playthrough is now LIVE for you all 🦝 Go check it out and say hello 🥀 >> youtu.be/jax1xhE1Soo?... [ #creaturekitchen | #gaming ]

A scrapbook entry from creature kitchen for Nox. Thumbnail for new YouTube video.

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It's Really Aevan @aevan.bsky.social · 21/08/2026

can't sleep - working on something new >_>

It's Really Aevan @aevan.bsky.social · 17/08/2026

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It's Really Aevan @aevan.bsky.social · 12/08/2026

There is something in the darkness. It is the unknowable unnamed thing in the shadows and we have been afraid of it since before we knew how to name our fears.

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It's Really Aevan @aevan.bsky.social · 08/08/2026

Star Trek's claim that space is the final frontier indicates that all subterranean and ocean dwelling avenues of exploration on earth had already been traversed. ...what did they find?

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It's Really Aevan @aevan.bsky.social · 07/08/2026

I really appreciate everyone who has reached out - more than you could ever really know. I realized that I never gave an amount or a goal - idk this kind of thing is hard to do ._. Utilities Backlog and Overdue - 500.00 Medical Bills - 950.00 The rest I am managing with income. <3 ko-fi.com/aevan

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It's Really Aevan @aevan.bsky.social · 07/08/2026

The inevitability of humanity is not death as the planet warms; it will be a return to the subterranean. We will yearn for the cool respite of the caves.

It's Really Aevan @aevan.bsky.social · 06/08/2026

Ask me what I think about when I trail my fingers over your skin and I will tell you that if you were carved from polished stone the dip above your clavicle would pool the rain and endless birds and butterflies would take respite in the cooling waters.

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It's Really Aevan @aevan.bsky.social · 05/08/2026

Talking about grief is ROUGH. You dont think youre gonna ugly cry but then ya do.

It's Really Aevan @aevan.bsky.social · 04/08/2026

I've lost my dang marbles and forgot about streamelements being Not Great --- so ko-fi.com/aevan

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It's Really Aevan @aevan.bsky.social · 04/08/2026

# Let's have a chat tonight, friends! Come hang out and we can chatter about why July and August are the worst months for my mental health - we can talk grief, coping, and the never ending battle against feelings of loss. Playing: Conan Exiles Twitch.tv/aevanplays

It's Really Aevan @aevan.bsky.social · 04/08/2026

You should never be afraid to ask for help. So here it goes... over the last month or two between medical bills and vet bills I have found myself slipping into a sand pit. Finances are dire and I could really use a rope to pull myself back onto solid ground.

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Agui!🌻 @aguichart.bsky.social · 01/07/2026

If buying isn’t ownership, piracy isn’t theft

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It's Really Aevan @aevan.bsky.social · 22/06/2026

Stream Update ~ SO CLOSE to 700 it's absolutely WILD. I am going to drop some completely new Merch if we can hit that goal before my birthday, I think. What do you say, friends? Who wants wearable merch if we can hit 700 followers before mid-July?

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It's Really Aevan @aevan.bsky.social · 20/06/2026

New YT Video Up - Two Trap Trapper, I still don't understand quite what happened this match but I don't think I lost my mind as much as when Mikaela went left into the trap instead of right into... youtu.be/kE6djXlSixw

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Two Trap Trapper

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It's Really Aevan @aevan.bsky.social · 13/06/2026

this is how i know I'm on my way, y'all.

Effie 🐊 villain kisser @simplyeffie.bsky.social · 12/06/2026

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a giant order of butter chicken and naan would fix me

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It's Really Aevan @aevan.bsky.social · 10/06/2026

Aevan, Why Do You Stream? Because when my dad died I realized I had nothing of him left, no voicemails, no videos, nothing. I can't remember the sound of his laughter and it kills me. This is for those who come after - the ones who might miss me and my squeaky toy ass laughter.

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It's Really Aevan @aevan.bsky.social · 10/06/2026

I've been asleep for 11 hours and it's been blissful and necessary. Woke up with a list of new ideas but zero energy to deploy any of them right now. Soon.