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Jessi @abandonedjessi.bsky.social · 12/04/2026

hello! it's taken a couple of months since my assessment with RGK Wheelchairs to feel ready to set this up but i'm fundraising for a wheelchair tailored to my body and its needs anything you can spare is appreciated, or even just resharing this post 🖤 gofund.me/4d30ffd36

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Jessi @abandonedjessi.bsky.social · 27/01/2026

have to pay the admin fee for the ESTA twice because my autistic ass took the "do you have a physical or mental disorder" question at face value and accidentally flagged myself as a threat

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Jessi @abandonedjessi.bsky.social · 24/01/2026

Modern Hysteria, a poem by me (spoken word video in the replies) #TraumaNotPD #PDintheBin #BPD

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Jessi @abandonedjessi.bsky.social · 20/11/2025

i have a silly little hat and i love it

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Jessi @abandonedjessi.bsky.social · 31/10/2025

went on a spooky photo taking walk and there was a strange cryptid lurking in the shadows

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Jessi @abandonedjessi.bsky.social · 23/10/2025

it's so shit having to be stuck on antipsychotics that make you feel shit because you're not allowed to lower it and stopping taking it isn't an option.

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Jessi @abandonedjessi.bsky.social · 23/10/2025

i really need my antipsychotic lower, how it makes me feel physically (like shit) is already making me avoid taking it at the time of night that i should, not allowing me to lower it doesn't bode well

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Jessi @abandonedjessi.bsky.social · 23/10/2025

at the end of my appointment today i asked for everyone (2 staff plus my dad) to let me take my time reading this out my voice shook but i said every word, and every word from 4 months ago is STILL just as true

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Jessi @abandonedjessi.bsky.social · 23/10/2025

that was, in a word, Bullshit they team point blank won't allow me to reduce my antipsychotic even though i've requested to because it makes my palpitations a lot worse still no therapy after i plead my case again, with my dad in the room too they want to discharge me

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Jessi @abandonedjessi.bsky.social · 23/10/2025

cmht this afternoon there aren't enough words to convey how much i don't wanna face it

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Jessi @abandonedjessi.bsky.social · 11/10/2025

day 12 out of ? (i forgot to post it here yesterday)

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Jessi @abandonedjessi.bsky.social · 06/10/2025

first ever wheelchair accessible gig LFG

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Jessi @abandonedjessi.bsky.social · 27/09/2025

he looks so twinkly i'm gonna cry he's so cute

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Jessi @abandonedjessi.bsky.social · 26/09/2025

i wrote this at the start of june and every word is just as true now they're still denying therapy after making me write page after page explaining all of my trauma "To deny help by telling someone they are doing well is manipulation into convincing them that your denial is just and fair"

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Jessi @abandonedjessi.bsky.social · 25/09/2025

it genuinely should be studied why CMHT think it's okay to genuinely try to gaslight patients into thinking it's okay to be refused therapy "you're resilient" "you could still find things difficult even after doing therapy" "you've come this far by yourself so it shows you can do it"

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Jessi @abandonedjessi.bsky.social · 19/09/2025

i am incapable of being serious

screenshot of a message i sent that just says "just had a seizure on the train, who's this diva"

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Jessi @abandonedjessi.bsky.social · 19/09/2025

wheelchair perks: the fear of the first time wearing new white trainers doesn't exist

photo of my legs stretched out with the footplates of my wheelchair in the background, i have grey camouflage pattern skinny jeans on with bright red socks and all white lace up trainers

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Jessi @abandonedjessi.bsky.social · 18/09/2025

reverse #JournoRequest if any journalist happens to see this and would want to chat, please reach out i posted a vlog on instagram sharing my story of why getting for tested for MCAS is so important to me & finally speaking publicly about my old housing association and living with a biohazard 1/

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Jessi @abandonedjessi.bsky.social · 17/09/2025

boo said disability rights (i think????????)

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Jessi @abandonedjessi.bsky.social · 03/09/2025

today has gone terribly and it's only 2pm. four hits in one day. i feel so defeated by the system. story of my life.

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✦ 𝐿𝑜𝑟-𝑜-𝑤𝑒𝑒𝑛 ✦ @gothdess.bsky.social · 03/09/2025

Also facing homelessness, insecure employment, and unliveable wages that put them in poverty, as well as struggling to access mental health or health care. All these things help with suicide prevention!

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✦ 𝐿𝑜𝑟-𝑜-𝑤𝑒𝑒𝑛 ✦ @gothdess.bsky.social · 03/09/2025

Remember that suicide prevention is also making sure that everyone has access to housing, food and everything that is important to have a good quality of life 🫶🏻 as someone who worked in suicide prevention for over a year, I encountered so many people who not only have significant trauma but also are

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Jessi @abandonedjessi.bsky.social · 03/09/2025

i've just seen my GP who for over a year has mistaken BPD for meaning Bipolar, and has repeatedly asked me how i'm doing with my Bipolar, and now that i've gone in to talk about Bipolar he's told me he doesn't think i have it yet he spent ages thinking i was already diagnosed??????????????????????

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Jessi @abandonedjessi.bsky.social · 03/09/2025

to absolutely no-one's surprise it seems that having a BPD diagnosis is going to get in the way of me seeking to get it changed to Bipolar because of course questioning the validity of BPD is seen as a symptom of BPD #PDinTheBIN #BPD

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Jessi @abandonedjessi.bsky.social · 01/09/2025

1 year since i last got drunk nearly 3 years addiction recovery i am doing the things!!!!!

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Jessi @abandonedjessi.bsky.social · 01/09/2025

alcohol was only ever a secondary issue to my addiction but when i'd drink i'd binge drink to the extreme anyway you can tell how much i don't even think about it anymore because the 29th of august marked a year since i last drank and i didn't even realise!!!!! #RecoveryPosse

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Jessi @abandonedjessi.bsky.social · 27/08/2025

posted a two part vlog on IG sharing my story of why getting for tested for MCAS is so important to me and finally speaking publicly about what the housing association for my old flat put me through living with a biohazard please watch/repost if you see this🙏🏻 www.instagram.com/reel/DNoQR4z...

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Jessi @abandonedjessi.bsky.social · 26/08/2025

some vents from priv twt really going through a journey of discovery atm🥲 imagine the fact you developed a seizure disorder being the thing that finally enlightens you to realise you have bipolar, please no one tell the "everything happens for a reason" crowd

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Jessi @abandonedjessi.bsky.social · 26/08/2025

fobbed off with a BPD diagnosis because you're afab and BPD is the modern day "women's hysteria" meanwhile you can never cope in the long term because you've been palmed off with a BPD diagnosis and left to go at it alone when all this time you've been suffering from bipolar???

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